I was silent and began to meditate, and after a while, I said: "Is it because the cat is lively and vigorous and not easily injured, saying that it has nine lives is actually saying that it has a big life, not that it really has nine lives." Am I right? ”

I asked cautiously, and he vetoed: "No!"

"Why not? So why do you say cats have nine lives? "I'm not convinced.

Qin Luoxue squatted down, scratched the back of her head with her white fat little hand, and then reached out and touched my big white cat, raised her eyes to look at me and said embarrassedly: "Actually, I don't know why, but I just think what you said is wrong."

"Boring."

My face froze, I got up and hugged Dabai and left, Qin Luoxue ran over in a hurry to block in front of me, scratched her ears and cheeks, and stammered: "Don't be angry, it's me who is not good...... Yes, it's me, I'll count you as a winner. ”

I sneered and said, "What are you panicking about?"

The pear vortex on his cheek was shallow, and he blushed and said, "I'm afraid you will ignore me." If you win, you shouldn't be angry, right? ”

He was smaller than me, but he was much taller than me, and I was standing across from him, and I had to raise my head to meet him. I saw that his face was full of cowardice, like a student who was lectured by his master.

I moved closer to him and asked, "Is it really that scary to look angry at me?" How do you always worry that I'm going to be angry. ”

Qin Luoxue's face turned crimson, and she hurriedly waved her hand to explain: "No, no, you are not afraid of being angry at all, you are very good-looking, even if you are angry, you are very good-looking." It's me, it's me who doesn't want you to be angry, and I especially like to see you laugh. ”

The smile on my face faded, a little ashamed, I didn't expect him to learn those sweet words to please girls at a young age, so he reprimanded in a low voice: "What nonsense do you say, if you say these things again, then I will really ignore you."

"Am I wrong again?"

Qin Luoxue knew that his words were inappropriate just now, and now he was even more flustered when he saw that I was angry, and he habitually pulled his ears when he was in a hurry. His big and round eyes were bulging, like two black grapes, and his moist mouth moved slightly, and he was very discouraged: "I know you don't want to see me, but I just want to say a few more words to you, and you are so angry." I just made a bet with you and asked you why cats have nine lives, but I don't know why cats have so many lives, because I pulled it up at random, so I can't answer, it's not to tease you. However, you should be angry, blame me for speaking too abruptly. But me, but I ...... But I'm also here to get you to talk to me more. You have so few words, you only reply to me when I say a few words, or even don't reply to a word. I can't, so I used the cat as a rhetoric to lead you to say a few more words. He was so anxious that he stumbled when he spoke, but his eyes were clear and his attitude was sincere.

My heart softened and I smiled at him again.

Da Bai squinted at us who were speechless, and meowed a few times.

I wasn't angry, I just wanted to find an excuse to leave, but seeing Qin Luoxue's sad face, I was embarrassed to pretend anymore, so I said softly: "Little grandfather, you just said that if anyone guesses the reason correctly, they will fulfill the other party's wish." Since I didn't say the right answer, then even if you win, you say, what do you want? ”

He was stunned for a moment when he heard this, and then his eyes smiled and his eyebrows relaxed, and he still didn't believe it: "Do you really count me as a winner?" No, let's count you as a winner. ”

I laughed and said, "If you don't want this opportunity, you won't be able to win me again."

Qin Luoxue laughed and said, "Then let's count me as winning." Yun Xiaowu, don't worry, this time you count me as the winner, no matter what I play in the future, I will let you win. ”

I nodded, and Lang smiled and replied, "Okay, I'll win in the future." Tell me, what do you want me to fulfill this time? But as I said in advance, my ability is limited, and you can't make wishes beyond my ability, I can't do it. ”

He pondered for a moment, stroked his palm, and said, "Can you call me Ah Xue, and call me like this in the future, don't call me my little grandfather again." I want you to call me by my name like everyone else, so that we seem to be good. ”

"Call your name?" I asked, confused.

He bowed his head and said, "Yes, call me by name."

This is not a difficult task, but I am in order with him, and if my mother and father hear this, they will reprimand me for not knowing the rules.

I hesitated for a while, but when I saw his expectant face, I had to whisper: "Ah...... Ayuki. ”

He was stunned, and instantly opened his eyebrows and smiled.

He has a small tiger tooth that shows when he grins, pointy, white, and very cute.

He said, "Yun Xiaowu, you have a good voice."

When I saw him laughing, I was inexplicably a little happy. He praised me for my good voice, not for my good looks, but when I listened to it, I felt embarrassed, and my heart was sweet and warm, as if I had eaten sugar lotus seeds.

He wanted me to talk more, and I wanted him to smile more. As soon as he smiled, I couldn't take my eyes off it, I just wanted to keep staring into his smiling eyes. Those eyes, filled with March peach blossoms, a clear spring, and a sky full of stars, were the only hope I had when I was young.

At such a good age, I was so lucky to have met such a good person.

I think, actually, at that time, I just liked him.

He always said that I avoided him, alienated him, and complained that I didn't know his heart. But how could I not understand his mind, how could I not feel his kindness to me. It's just that I have too many things to worry about, how to be able to indulge.

Yanchen once said that I was thin, clumsy, hypocritical, and had two faces before and after, and at first I was reluctant to admit it, but then I figured it out. I'm actually more selfish than anyone else, and she's right, that's me. The real Yunkang is selfish.

But I had to do it, I had to be like that. Because only then can I live. Because I'm afraid, I'm afraid that if I take a wrong step, I will take a wrong step. I don't have a noble birth, I don't have extraordinary talent, I don't have family protection and the love of my parents, I don't even have a mother, only a cat as a companion, how can I not be afraid.

My concession was not all due to cowardice, but just to better protect myself. Don't say much, it's not that you don't like to talk, just to avoid trouble coming out of your mouth, don't move much, it's not that you are not lively, because you want to live in peace. If you don't get close to him, it's not that you don't want to, it's that you can't. Ankang likes him, and Princess Yanchen also likes her, they are far more than a hundred times more suitable for him than me, whether it is his birth or status, or his appearance and talent, none of them are comparable to me.

The four words of self-knowledge are the words I hate the most but have to obey.

My mother's path was so difficult and hard that I was afraid to repeat it. So even if the little grandfather is very good to me, I won't give the slightest response. His kindness to me only makes me feel ashamed, makes me avoid him, and forces myself to ignore him and alienate him. He treated me affectionately and affectionately, but I was humble and wronged, leaving him alone again and again. All the avoidance is because I have known since I was a child that no matter whether he marries his second sister or a banquet minister in the future, that person is not me after all.

The days are as long as the years are idle, and I don't know when he slowly walked into my heart, and even took root. I always can't help but think of him, want to see him, and begin to accept his good with peace of mind. I thought that one day I would become his wife, and I would be able to give him back the right word, and I would be very good to him, doubly good to him, sincerely, and without falsehood.

It's a pity that I couldn't say these words to him in person at the time, until he married An Kang, and I married Wu Pingqi, and it was too late to say it. It's a pity that I also regarded him as a good man, but I am not his good match in the end, I am not worthy of him, I have never been worthy of him.

I also had the luxury of hoping that he would go against my parents' wishes for me, and that when he came to the door to ask for marriage, the person he hired would be me. I had been looking forward to it for a long time, day and night, wondering when he would come to the door, counting my fingers and waiting for that day to come. He brought his own hand-hunted hired geese, and brought his own Geng spy, and when he came to join the eight characters, I almost cried with joy, and I really thought that we could become dependents. I did the most rude and daring thing in my life, and I asked Zhan Lu to go to the front hall for me to see if my father would immediately accept the marriage, and I waited at the entrance of the courtyard, eagerly waiting for Zhan Lu to return.

In the end, I didn't wait for news from Lu, but I waited for my father. He made me stop thinking that I shouldn't want something that didn't belong to me.

I said okay, I don't look forward to it anymore.

Born lowly, how can you be delusional.

There are some beautiful things that you can see and touch, but they are not destined to belong to you, and the more you want to get them, the more you can't get them. The same is true for those who want it, if you don't have the capital to match it, don't expect it. Just like the prosperity in Jiankang City, even if I stand in the middle of the street, the prosperity is not mine, I am in the bustle, and I can't be a person who creates bustle.

I have a natural ability to dilute sadness, and no matter how sad things are, I will do my best to degrade them. Until I can't see that I have been sad and lost, I can smile indifferently. On the eve of my wedding, at night, I lay in bed and kept telling myself jokes, and I still couldn't make myself laugh until I was out of words. I suddenly remembered that when I was a child, he told me a very childish joke: "Yun Xiaowu, once upon a time, there was a man, his surname was a fool, he liked a girl next door to his house, the two were childhood sweethearts, and the two had no guesses." They made an appointment that when they grew up, they would get married and be together for the rest of their lives. But when she grew up, the girl regretted not marrying him. The man was very sad and asked the girl why she didn't marry him. The girl was very sad and said that if I marry you, I will be a fool to have children in the future. The boy thought about it and said, "Then you wait, when I become a king in the future, I will marry you again, and then our child will be called a prince." Later, the fool really became a king, but ah, a mountain king. ”

It's not a joke at all, it's just a make-up he made up in order to make me happy, and the bull's head is not on the horse's mouth, and there is no laugh at all.

But at the time, I was smiling so happily.

At the end of the joke, I asked him if the girl had married a fool in the end. Qin Luoxue said yes, and she lived happily. He swore by it, and he was so sure.

After thinking about the joke, I really laughed. This joke is so funny, I laughed so much that I couldn't hold it back.

I remember he asked me why I couldn't like him, I panicked, I was afraid that he would misunderstand, I was afraid that he would die for me, and I wanted to indulge myself for the only time, to tell him that I liked him, I liked him very much, and I liked him to the core. But in the end, I still didn't say it.

If you miss the opportunity and don't say it, you will never be able to speak again, and if you miss it, you will miss it, and you will miss it for the rest of your life. He has his own good fate, I also have a home, he is married, I am married, each is well, and the future is not delayed.

In my life, I have never had the slightest freedom at all. When I was young, I was worried about survival, and when I grew up, I bowed my head for the sake of the world, and when I went out of the cabinet, I gave in for the sake of the overall situation. There is not a moment when I live like myself, or I can't define what I am. I am used to camouflage, even if the ability to disguise is not clever, full of loopholes, and I deceive myself and say that others can't see through it, because I can't see through it, how can others see through it? It's only when I don't want to think about it that I can't help but laugh at myself, in fact, I live a very sad life.

I still remember the affection, and I used to be a boat returnee. Biye Zhuqiao was a day of events, people were gone, and the water was empty.

Shaohua is not reserved for teenagers.

The wall in Ouyang's Mansion is obviously not that high, but I feel that it is unattainable, cutting off the world and trapping my whole life.