I didn't answer Lan Chen's words, I chose to take a step back, pretended to be joking, raised a smile, and said to Lan Chen: "When your wife gives birth, you don't need a confinement wife, I will serve for free for a month." I knew that my words were a little hurtful, and I could feel Lan Chen's hand pause, turn around with his eyes unconcealed from his injury, turn his back to me, and let out a long "um" for a long time, and stopped talking.

I looked at his back and silently said in my heart, I'm sorry.

I don't believe he loves me, and of course, I don't love him. But I don't take it for granted that he is kind to me, but I keep telling myself that what I want to pay back will be repaid. However, it seems to ...... I owe him more.

I stopped thinking about it and turned around and went into the house to take care of Coco. In order not to let my parents know, I still regularly show only half of my body to video with my parents, but recently I have chosen to call most of them.

Before I could figure out how to introduce Cocoa.

At dinner, I didn't choose to eat in the room, but chose to eat with Blue Dust in the living room.

Because of the afternoon, we both didn't know how to speak. I struggled several times in my heart, took a bite of rice, and then asked him pretending to be relaxed: "You take care of me so much every day, you don't have to go to work?" ”

"In the Internet era, when and where can mobile phones and computers not be able to work?"

I let out an "oh", a little embarrassed.

It was Lan Chen who comforted and said, "I'm good to you, don't feel pressure." After all, I volunteered. ”

"You...... Give me an Alipay account number, and my mobile phone will transfer money to you? You can't spend your money all the time! ”

When Lan Chen heard this, he put down the dishes and chopsticks. I know he's angry.

"The Iren. What are you when I am? ”

I wanted to answer, but I didn't know what to answer, and I always felt that whatever I said seemed wrong and hurtful.

At that moment, the doorbell rang.

Since according to domestic customs, it is not allowed to blow wind during confinement, so Lan Chen got up and went to open the door. It's a little one who carries a big bag and a small bag.

As soon as she saw that it was Lan Chen, she smiled and said, "Is Yiren awake?" I asked someone to kill a hen. I heard that Chinese people should drink more chicken soup during confinement. ”

Without waiting for Lan Chen to answer, I said, "Xiaoxiao, you are almost sinicized!" ”

Seeing that I was sitting in the living room, Xiaoxiao quickly dragged it a little, stuffed the big bag in his hand to Lan Chen, and then ran in happily, "Wow, the chef cooks so many delicious things!" He didn't ask, he went directly to the kitchen and got a pair of chopsticks to eat.

I looked at Lan Chen, who entered the kitchen without saying a word, and said to the novel: "You haven't had dinner yet?" Shall I serve you some rice? ”

"Have you forgotten that I don't like rice?" I looked up and saw that my eyes were not looking at her. I knew I was absent-minded. He bumped me with his elbow, "What's wrong with you two?" The atmosphere is weird. ”

I came back to my senses and smiled at her, "No." I...... I am, I'm looking at what chicken you take. Well. ”

The words I wanted to cover up obviously didn't make Xiaoxiao believe it. Xiaoxiao directly debunked it in front of him and said: "There must be something wrong with the two of you!" Yiren, I think Blue Dust is quite suitable for you. ”

"Don't talk nonsense. Eat. I was afraid that Lan Chen would hear this, and I smiled and watched Lan Chen walk out of the kitchen.

Lan Chen didn't continue to sit down, but walked into the room to look at Coco for a while, and then said that there was something to do, and he wanted to go out.

I let out a sigh and didn't say anything more.

After Lanchen left, Xiaoxiao said again: "I can't figure it out, such a good man, why don't you want it?" He doesn't dislike you for having a child who doesn't know who the biological father is, what are you awkward? ”

"You don't understand. He was sorry for me. But why don't I do to him? It's just that he knows I know he's sorry for something. But I don't know what my apologies are. Nothing is good for no reason, only for a variety of reasons. But I can't just accept it as a matter of course because he doesn't know, and even take it for granted. This is ...... for him It's not fair. And I, on the other hand, will only appear mean. ”

Obviously, Xiaoxiao didn't understand what I meant, and I couldn't explain it for a while. But there is one thing I want to understand, and that is that I can't accept Blue Dust yet.

Coco's cry brought our conversation to an end. I hurriedly ran in to check the deafening crying Coco, so full of anger, I naturally opened the urine bag, and sure enough,. So, Xiao Xiao handed over wet wipes and trash cans.

I divided five by two, quickly put on a new diaper for Cocoa, and then took out the ** for her to drink.

Sometimes I have to thank Coco, since I was pregnant with her, I didn't weigh 40 pounds until I gave birth to her. It's just pigs. In just half a month with her, I lost more than 30 pounds at once, and I haven't weighed it yet.

By the time I was out of confinement, I was only 91 pounds tall at 165. Xiaoxiao said that since I became a mother, I have become more and more motivated. I don't know if it's a compliment on me, but one thing I've noticed is that my skin has become much smoother and fairer than before. Maybe it's because I haven't seen the light of day this month!

In order to celebrate Cocoa's full moon, Blue Dust held a large banquet for Cocoa, which I wanted to refuse, but he said that this was his goddaughter after all, and she must do it in a big way. So he had a banquet for our colleagues from the hospital and his business partners.

At the banquet, I could hear people say that "if she says she is a goddaughter, maybe she is an illegitimate daughter" and so on, but I can hear that there is no malicious intent.

I didn't explain, and I happily accepted everyone's blessings for Cocoa.

In particular, my colleagues at the hospital, except for those on duty, who did not come, all of them witnessed the process of my pregnancy, and even saw the regular check-ups of the child every month. I'm grateful to them.

Holding Coco, who didn't recognize her life, I walked to Lan Chen's side and said to him gently, "Thank you." ”

"I should thank you."

I looked at his sincere gaze and I smiled softly. I think we all understood each other's "thank you". Even if we may not be able to be together.

Who would believe that it wasn't until the banquet that Lan Chen told me that he wanted to recognize Ke as his goddaughter. At that moment, I knew that Blue Dust wanted to open it!

I don't know, I don't want to guess, time will tell! I laughed similarly to Blue Dust. I only heard Lan Chen say: "My plane tomorrow, go back to China." You don't use it to send. ”

I was silent.