Chapter 32 The Mind of Clarity
After Li Xinyi squatted down, Xiao Min hugged Li Xinyi's neck, and Li Xinyi could feel Xiao Min's tears falling on her neck; In an instant, Li Xinyi was teary-eyed, Xiao Min missed her so much, so she cried? It's all my fault, even if I've been busy lately, I should have come over to see them as usual.
At this time, more than a dozen other children also ran over, asking Li Xinyi to hug them...... When Jian Muyan saw such a scene, her eyes were moist, she took out the candy and stationery clothes she had prepared with Li Xinyi, and distributed them to each child, after the children saw the candy, they couldn't put it down, and one of the little boys ran over and kissed Jian Muyan's cheek gently.
Jian Muyan touched his cheek with relief, this kind of happiness has never been seen before, yes! In the eyes of these children, she became an angelic redeemer, saving their lonely hearts; It turns out that in this world, being a needed and valuable person can really make you forget your past misfortunes, live, become a valuable person, and do meaningful things, which is the meaning of existence!
"What's your name?" Jian Muyan asked the little boy in front of him, but there was no reaction in the little boy's eyes, he still ate the candy in his hand and hugged her arm.
"His name is Xi Yi, it is the name that Chen Yi gave him, when he was sent in, he was only as big as Xiaoxiao, he was born deaf, and he didn't have a voice in his world, Chen Yi gave him this name because he wanted his world to be full of hope, and he wanted to hear it...... Best wishes, even if you can't hear it, but you still feel it with your heart and listen to it, don't feel inferior because you can't hear it, and your heart is not deaf is the most perfect and healthy child......"
Li Xinyi opened the easel for Xiaoxiao, adjusted the paint, and then said:
"Xiaoxiao can't speak, she was abandoned by her biological parents at the door of the orphanage, she was only six months old at the time, and there was nothing in the small cardboard box that abandoned her, only a little life that was about to freeze in the cold winter...... Li Xinyi hugged Xiaoxiao while teaching her painting, Xiaoxiao was full of joy and learned to smear it one by one......
"What a cruel parent who won't even prepare a small quilt for his child...... Abandoned ...... like this," Jian Muyan said with emotion.
"Yes, you can not love them, but don't hurt them......"
Jian Muyan and the sign language teacher carefully learned a few simple sign language movements, and used clumsy sign language to communicate and play with Xi Yan, which was not very familiar at first, but Xi Yan was very smart, he sat down and took the initiative to correct Jian Muyan's mistakes, he used sign language to tell her that he wanted to grow up quickly, and his wish was to be a writer......
The time of the day flies so fast, the time with the child is always happy, but also very deeply touched, here, she saw that the child who is more miserable than her life seems to be how to laugh at life, she also realized that there is such a group in society that needs more people to pay attention to and help, they have even just come to this world, they have to suffer from the malice and cruelty from this world.
When she handed a box of biscuits to an older child, she didn't eat them happily like other children, she sat silently in the corner with biscuits and cried secretly, yes! No matter how delicious things are, in the eyes of these children who have seen the ugliness and malice of the world since childhood, how much they hope that they can live like normal children: snacks are bought by parents for their children because they love her, not from the world's sympathy for them and charity, for children who are already sensible, that kind of self-esteem and inferiority complex is something that many people can't understand, so if they don't communicate and counsel psychologically in time, Many children end up completely derailed from the world because of autism......
After returning home, Li Xinyi and Jian Muyan discussed that as long as they were still in the city, they would go to the orphanage once a month to accompany those "little angels with broken wings", they hoped to save some lonely lives through their meager strength, and at the same time, they also hoped to heal themselves who were also lonely through these; If the world doesn't love us, then it's enough for us to warm each other and love ourselves.
On Monday's weather, the sun was surprisingly warm, Jian Muyan and Li Xinyi came to the library together, and as soon as they entered the door, they saw Li Yu and Sophie Yang waving to them, the library has been full recently, and at the end of each semester, everyone will start to review their homework desperately like chicken blood, for fear that they will not have a good year in the end.
"Hey, it's like listening to a book in class, and at the end of the semester, I have no teacher to learn by myself, and I find that I am so powerful! Are we paying our tuition fees in vain? It's better to go to a 'squatting at home' university! Feng Yi whispered while nibbling on the candy in his mouth.
"Come on! Hurry up and revise, the exam will start next week, and it's useless! Li Yu nibbled on the lollipop in his hand while looking at the four major chemicals "attentively".
Jian Muyan sat in her place while searching around with her eyes, wanting to see that person still didn't see it, and it was inevitable that she felt a little lost in her heart, Sister Xinyi said that if she was sure that she liked him, then be brave and tell him...... And what Jian Muyan thinks about is to work hard to improve himself, make himself worthy of him, and one day stand beside him, he will not be humble!
After a while, when Jian Muyan looked up to drink water, she saw someone coming in at the door of the study room, wearing a long black down jacket, a white shirt and jeans, it was really ...... A male god who will fascinate people at first glance! She saw Liang Chenyi walking towards this side, and following Liang Chenyi was Liu Mansi, who was also wearing a long black down jacket and a white base dress, she had a confident and happy smile, like a girl in love, and her eyes seemed to announce the world: "This boy is mine!" ”……
Jian Muyan could feel that the originally quiet study room was instantly agitated, and many girls began to whisper, of course, many boys inside also began to get anxious, and the goddess they were thinking of seemed to be a famous flower......
Jian Muyan still lowered her head, silently "looking" at the book in her hand, and she didn't seem to turn the page for a long time; Out of her eye, she saw two dark figures sitting in the corner not far in front of them; The declining eyes were gloomy, but he was still "concentrating" at the book in his hand.
"Hey! I heard that they are together, since the end of the New Year's Day performance, the two of them have been very close, I have met several times in the cafeteria, he is both eating together, and it is said that Liu Mansi himself told others a few days ago that Liang Chenyi will definitely become his boyfriend, she is very confident, and just recently ......"
"Could it be...... Are they really together? ”
"I saw Liang Chenyi looking at clothes in a girls' clothing store a few days ago...... If you look at their down jackets, they all seem to be couples, and it seems that nine times out of ten they have become ......."
"Hey! Oh my god! Is it really an eye problem? Can't he see that Liu is a goblin who seduces the opposite sex when he walks? ”
"Boys like this nowadays, I don't know what they think......"
The voices of the four girls at the left-hand table made Jian Muyan upset and irritable, and she couldn't read a word at all.
"Classmates! Whether we can speak in a smaller voice has seriously affected our learning! Li Xinyi turned her head and said unceremoniously to the four girls at the table next to her, and she could see that she was really angry.
"Excuse me!" The four girls blushed and lowered their heads to study, and in an instant Jian Muyan felt a lot quieter around her, but the book in front of her that was about to be turned over by her was like a completely unfamiliar book to her, and she couldn't read a word, and that feeling was really inexplicable. Perhaps, I secretly competed with myself in my heart.
Why did they end up together without warning? Now that Liang Chenyi and Liu Mansi are together, it proves that they have had the opportunity to cultivate their relationship very early, and with her understanding of Liang Chenyi's character, Liang Chenyi is definitely not the kind of boy who casually gets with a girl who doesn't know much depth...... Could it be that she still doesn't know Liang Chenyi? Moreover, Liang Chenyi obviously sent her text messages and made phone calls, doesn't this prove that she still has a certain special meaning for him?
Jian Muyan felt that she had a headache, so she packed her books and prepared to go back to the dormitory to study, for the two backs sitting in front of her, she couldn't calmly look at Liu Mansi from time to time and lean her head over to ask Liang Chenyi questions, that kind of intimacy was a little dazzling in her eyes, she thought that she needed to give herself time to accept these facts she saw.
"Mu Yan, you've just arrived, are you leaving?" Li Yu raised his head and asked Jian Muyan suspiciously, Feng Yi winked at Li Yu hard, but his eyes were too small, Li Yu didn't understand what he meant at all, thinking that he was just an ordinary blink, Feng Yi had no choice but to stretch out his foot and step on Li Yu, Li Yu instantly woke up in pain, revealing an embarrassed and overwhelmed expression.
"Mu Yan, if you don't feel well, you can go back and rest, don't worry, you must be the best one!" Jian Huayan is the person who knows Jian Muyan best, when he saw the scene of Liang Chenyi and Liu Mansi walking in together, he was also shocked, originally thought that Liang Chenyi also had thoughts about Mu Yan, but this big reversal was too bloody! What does the truth look like or what Liang Chenyi says later, what if the facts are not like this? It's just that if Mu Yan sees it, he will definitely feel uncomfortable......
"Mu Yan! Believe in yourself! You are the most beautiful! Li Xinyi winked at Jian Muyan.
Jian Muyan suddenly felt much better in her heart, at least, there were still so many friends around her who cared about her, but this heart was ...... Everyone understands it, doesn't he understand it? Or does he simply not care? Or is he understanding, but just pretending not to know anything?
Jian Muyan picked up his Doraemon schoolbag without looking back, and walked through the rows of tables in front of him towards the door without stopping for a moment......
"Mu Yan! Are you going back to your dorm? When Jian Muyan heard the voice calling her, her heart was filled with thousands of feelings, but she didn't know what kind of erosion had entered her heart......