"You're beautiful today! Go to bed early and good night! ”

The first text message that Jian Muyan saw when she got up in the morning was sent to her by Liang Chenyi last night, maybe Jian Muyan didn't feel that her eyes were full of joy when she read this news, this is the warmest sentence Liang Chenyi has ever said to her.

"Mu Yan! What are you laughing at? Come over for breakfast, I made breakfast. Li Xinyi came to Jian Muyan's side.

"Sister Xinyi, thank you for what you said to me last night, I feel much better now, just like you said, what determines a person's value is not her environment and position, but the light she emits! In the past, I was only obsessed with the family environment and external factors that I couldn't change, but I didn't look down and examine my own value! Jian Muyan said as she walked to the dining table with Li Xinyi and sat down to eat breakfast.

"Sister Xinyi, you may not know, I used to be more exaggerated that when I was in junior high school, the class held a theatrical performance, which was an inspiration, and many students in the class volunteered to participate, in fact, I also wanted to participate in my heart, but when I thought of the opinions of the people in the class on my parents, I didn't have the courage to sign up, and then the head teacher named me to participate, guess what I said? Hahaha......"

"I guess you probably haven't taken that step yet......"

"Yes, when I saw that the teacher was about to fill in my name on the registration form, I was in a hurry, so I lied, I said that I had a headache in my fingers and couldn't beat the drum...... Then the teacher looked at my intact hand and wondered for a long time......"

"Hahaha, I didn't expect you to lie! Are you hiding the past? ”

"As soon as I lie, my dodging eyes will betray me, no one can hide it, my brother said that I have been very clumsy in lying since I was a child, do you think my teacher is stupid? Later...... My teacher called me to the office alone and told me to be confident, many things only after you are brave enough to do it, you will find that you are really great! Later, I took part in the encouragement, and at first I always dragged my feet, so I went home every day and practiced until late, and finally, sure enough, ...... Became the leader of the whole inspiration team......"

"Since then, I have slowly regained my self-confidence, and when I met Liang Chenyi in high school, I met Chen Siwan, and I found that I used to live so small in the world, so small that I thought that I was the best girl who danced well, plus family reasons, so, again, I walked back to the old way......"

"In fact, each of us has a line of defense in our hearts that others can't cross, and we try our best to retreat and hide, just because we care too much about other people's eyes, even if we uncover the scars, what can we do? Who doesn't live with scars? The world is not perfect for anyone, we must continue to accept ourselves and recognize ourselves; Whether it is the denial of self or the denial of the surrounding environment, it is just a way of self-hypnosis, and the real salvation may be to be kind to yourself and make yourself stronger, no demons and monsters can break your strong heart! ”

"Yes! At that time, you will have your own light, blinding the eyes of those who try to spy on your scars, and even if they see your pain clearly, they will no longer be careless and fearless! ”

"Come on! Cheers! Respect for our future and self-confidence! ”

The two girls toasted with milk and smiled tacitly.

For Li Xinyi, an only daughter, in the cold winter, there was no warmth in this big empty house, only the warmth that Jian Muyan brought her. It's been a year, and I haven't seen my parents for almost a year...... The father was abusive, the mother was estranged, and both of them said that they were busy with their careers outside, so only the number of money in the bank card in their hands changed every month, and the others did not change.

For example, the door of her parents' bedroom, she goes in every day and turns around at the same temperature; The book on the table in my father's study was still turned to page one hundred and thirty-five, and it was never refreshed; The pot of flowers on the balcony that has been watered many times still does not produce new leaves; Including today's unprecedented breakfast, which I would never have made before...... In the lonely house, it was as if she was an orphan abandoned by the world, and this house was her whole world, and she was living with such inferiority complexes at that time, and she didn't even dare to see the scene of other people's families traveling together.

After she saw the collapsed Jian Muyan, it was like seeing when she used to hide alone in the bed and cry, she told Jian Muyan:

"Mu Yan, maybe you are sad now, but will it change after you are sad? You see me giggling all day long, as if I was really a princess without the slightest trouble, hehe...... Many of my classmates around me say this about me, saying that I look like a princess with a superior family and happy parents...... But, as you can see, there is nothing but me in this big room, not the slightest warmth...... Every time I get home, I don't want to turn on the light, even if I walk in the dark, I don't want to see the emptiness and silence of this room clearly! Compared to me, you still have a brother who loves you, and a mother who loves you...... If it hadn't been for Chenyi to rescue me, I think I might have made the same choice as you did to commit suicide by cutting my wrists......"

"Mu Yan, maybe we were born to pay off our debts and repay some of the debts we owe in our previous lives, but at least we are still alive and healthy, and sometimes life is more important than anything else...... I'll take you to-morrow to a place, where perhaps you'll find the answer; I was able to live as I am now, and it was only after Chen Yi took me there that I found myself again. ”

"Chunya Orphanage", when Jian Muyan saw these words after getting out of the car, Li Xinyi had already walked to the door and waved to one of the teachers in the courtyard.

"Teacher Zhang! Is Grandma Tan here? ”

"It's Xinyi! Come on, Director Tan was talking to us a few days ago about why you haven't come to see us in the past month, are you too busy studying after your junior year! ”

"Fortunately, there was a theatrical performance a few days ago, so I was a little busy, do you see that I will come over as soon as I am busy? Let me introduce you, this is my good friend Jian Muyan, and I will take her around. ”

"Welcome, welcome...... The little girl is as beautiful as Xinyi, and she is a good boy......"

Jian Muyan followed Li Xinyi to a building at the back of the park.

"Although this orphanage is not big, but there are more than 50 abandoned children, all their childhood is spent here, my uncle used to work in the fourth middle school here, Chen Yi was in the school where his uncle worked for a while, my uncle is a very good person, he has been doing charity work, and he will take Chen Yi to go together, and this orphanage is a school funded by my uncle, when I was so young, my parents had a very bad relationship, my father often beat my mother and me, So I often went to my uncle's house for a long time and didn't come back, and then my parents got more and more troublesome, and they both turned around and left the house......"

"Later, Chen Yi came to play with me every day, he brought me to this orphanage, where Grandma Tan treated me as her own child, I met a lot of children here, with them, I gradually got out of the haze, even if the situation is better now, my parents still often do not come back, every month they call me for living expenses, care about me through the phone, but I have grown up, and I have seen it, I don't hate it so much, I also have my own life......"

Walking to a separate office, Li Xinyi knocked on the door and heard the sound of "please come in" from inside.

When Jian Muyan entered, she saw an old man writing at the desk, the years didn't seem to have left many traces on her face, how much tenderness and kindness were hidden in a pair of eyes full of wisdom, from the kind smile from her heart when she saw the person who came in, she could deeply understand that when she was about to stand up, Li Xinyi walked quickly to her side to help her up, and Jian Muyan saw that one of her legs was not very good, and she needed to walk normally with crutches......

"Xinyi, I'm going to be angry if you don't come to see me again! Lately, the kids have been thinking about you all day. ”

"Grandma Tan, this is my good friend Jian Muyan, we will come often in the future, I was a little busy with school affairs some time ago, and I have time recently."

"Ao, welcome, welcome, is it called Mu Yan? Our friends of Xinyi must be as good and kind girls as Xinyi, and they will come to Xinyi often in the future, but these children here still need more people to accompany them......

"Well, yes, in the future, Sister Xinyi and I will often come to accompany you and the children......" Jian Muyan held Grandma Tan's other arm, and the two young girls supported the old man on the left and right, in this orphanage is the "mother" in the minds of many children, Grandma Tan is an orphan with no relatives, she once grew up in this orphanage, and later went to college, and after graduation, she came here to report to the orphanage, a job is a lifetime, this is her home, and the children are her dearest flesh and blood.

Jian Muyan looked at the "lonely" old man beside her, the light on her body could not be blocked by the years, what a great person she was...... Reminds her of her grandmother......

Aunt Tan took them to the nursery room, where the nursery staff was interacting with more than a dozen children, and a few children were resting in the cradle in the middle, and when Jian Muyan saw them, they were abandoned at a young age.

"This is Xiaoxiao, when he was sent, the whole person was very small, with a small nose and a small mouth, so we gave him a small ......."

Jian Muyan touched the little finger that was lying down drinking milk, he actually grabbed Jian Muyan's hand, and then stopped drinking milk, babbling in a language that no one could understand, and his calves were also happily kicked, showing a healing pure smile; Everyone laughed.

"It seems that Xiaoxiao likes you very much......" Li Xinyi winked at Jian Muyan, who was smiling.

Immediately after Jian Muyan, they came to the "Special Activities Room", and as soon as they entered the door, a little girl ran over and hugged Li Xinyi's legs, burying her head in Li Xinyi's hands and refusing to let go.

"Xiaomin, what's wrong with you? My sister brought you a new paintbrush again, do you like it? Li Xinyi said and used her other hand to find the paintbrush in her bag...... But Xiao Min refused to raise his head and let go, and kept silently lowering his head and hugging Li Xinyi......