It didn't take long for me to go back to the study, I didn't dare to stay with Shuang'er for too long, I was afraid that Shuang'er would read something from my eyes, and I was afraid that I couldn't help but say it, and I was even more afraid that I couldn't help but spit out a mouthful of blood.

I don't think I can fall down yet, I really can't fall yet, I still have a pair of children.

God, give me a little more time, give me a little more time, and when I can rest assured, you can take me again, and now, I beg you to let me go.

Please.

I went back to the study, and Uncle Sun came again not long after, bringing me some porridge to nourish my body.

It was ginseng and chicken porridge, and I smiled and asked, "Uncle Sun, why is it always chicken porridge?" ”

Uncle Sun said, "Master, others don't know about you, don't I know?" If I bring duck porridge, you will definitely turn around and pour it out, you love to drink chicken when you are young, drink it, add some ginseng is good for your body, get better as soon as possible, the second lady still needs you. ”

"Uncle Sun still understands me." I looked at the porridge that had actually been sitting for a while, and it was still a little warm when I reached out and picked up the bowl.

Uncle Sun looked at me and said, "Master, eat, I'll take the bowl out after eating, it's all been left for a while, it's not so hot." ”

I tasted it, and although it was chicken porridge, it was not greasy, but it was a little light.

Uncle Sun, Uncle Sun is also old, how can I leave before Uncle Sun?

I don't want to, I really don't want to, I have too many memories in this world, I don't want to leave now.

Uncle Sun watched me drink up the porridge, smiled with relief, took the bowl and said, "Master is so resting, no matter how many things you do, I will bear it for you." ”

Uncle Sun patted me on the shoulder with relief before leaving.

I feel like I'm a bastard, I feel like I'm hiding these things and I'm sorry for anyone.

I'm sorry for the dead Lian'er, I'm sorry for Shuang'er who can know the truth, and I'm sorry for Uncle Sun who was scared for me.

How old is Uncle Sun, he is already a person who holds his grandson, just because he is worried about me, I said that I don't want to send him home, I want to stay with my elders, why am I so worried about him?

Am I doing something wrong? This is the first time I thought so.

I just want Shuang'er to stay by my side as before, I just want to hide from her and make her as happy as before, in fact, I never want to hurt anyone around me, especially the people I love deeply, such as Lian'er, Shuang'er and Uncle Sun.

I remember that I once lamented that this life is too long, and now I feel that there is not enough time.

I haven't been filial to Uncle Sun yet, I haven't given Shuang'er's hand to another person, and I haven't seen the unborn child in Qing'er's belly yet.

It seemed like my life was coming to an end.

In this life, in the face of the person you love deeply, you will always feel that time flies, and in the end, you will always feel that time is not enough at all.

Seven days, the rest of the time passed quickly, and it passed all at once.

I remember Shuang'er smiling beside me that day and saying, "Dad, I'll have something to eat when my mother comes back tomorrow, right?" ”

I smiled and said, "Yes, so Shuang'er should rest early, Ming'er may see Lian'er when she opens her eyes." ”

Shuang'er pulled the quilt and said softly, "Dad, don't lie to me." ”

"Daddy doesn't lie to you."

When Shuang'er got my answer, he closed his eyes and fell asleep.

I was by Shuang'er's side, and I watched Shuang'er close her eyes, and listened to Shuang'er's breathing gradually stabilize before finally letting out a sigh.

I'm a selfish person, I'm not a good father, Shuang'er, Daddy lied to you.

I'm sorry.

I walked out, and Uncle Sun was still standing outside waiting for me.

I hurriedly went and asked, "Why doesn't Uncle Sun sleep yet?" ”

Uncle Sun shook his head and said, "Master, let's go, let's go see Madame together." ”

I nodded, I thought Uncle Sun was saying that he would lose the ancestral hall, but I didn't expect Uncle Sun to open the door and finally walk out with me.

It wasn't a long journey, but I felt as if I had walked for a few hours and was relieved, but only for a while.

I didn't take anything, and neither did Uncle Sun. We walked like this, and we came to Lian'er's cemetery.

The place of the Lian'er cemetery is relatively quiet, and I can even hear the sound of cicadas and frogs next to it.

"Lian'er, Uncle Sun and I have come to see you."

In fact, every time I have to lose all my memories again, I will come to see Lian'er, and the ancestral hall will burn some before the past, in fact, I will not feel so obvious, I feel that Lian'er has passed away.

But it's different here, Lian'er is here, only here, I can really relax, I can really realize that Lian'er is no longer there.

Uncle Sun was standing next to me, and I sat down on the ground, and Uncle Sun sat down with me.

"Madam, the second miss has been the same as before in the past seven days, she has started to be so cheerful, you don't have to blame the master, the master is unwilling to tell the second miss the truth, and I don't want to." Uncle Sun sighed, "When I think of a girl like Miss Er, I can't help but become so helpless." ”

The wind blew, and the branches made a "rustle" and "rustle" sound.

"Madam, you must bless the second lady and the master in the spirit of heaven." Uncle Sun wiped a handful of tears: "I grew up watching the old man and the second miss." ”

Uncle Sun said that a trace of sourness welled up in my heart.

I whispered, "Lian'er, I really want to come and see you, but not now." Now Shuang'er still needs someone to take care of him, how can I be willing to leave Shuang'er behind? If I left Shuang'er alone to find you, you will definitely not forgive me. ”

I forgot what I said and how I got back.

Later, I heard Uncle Sun say that at that time, I vomited blood, vomited a lot, and finally fainted.

My time is really coming.

I woke up fine, it was still early, Shuang'er thought I was just asleep, and when I woke up in the morning, I was still arguing with me, "Dad, mother?" I'm going to marry my brother tomorrow, you can't bear me, right? ”

I can't look directly into Shuang'er's eyes, and there is my favorite joy in Shuang'er's eyes, and it is also the thing that makes me the most sad now.

Shuang'er seemed to be a little puzzled and asked, "Dad?" What's wrong? The hand shook in front of my eyes, "I'm getting married, aren't you happy?" ”

I looked at the blankness in Shuang'er's eyes, smiled and said, "How come, Dad is happy." It's just some time ago, Ying Quan's father and mother said that you will become a villain tomorrow, so it will be changed to next month, and your mother will go back to her parents' house to tell them, it may take eight days to come back. ”

Shuang'er said with some disappointment, "Huh? Eight days, so long. ”

I touched Shuang'er's head and said, "It's okay, don't worry about your mother." ”

These words are all lies.

Shuang'er muttered, "Dad, I always feel that I haven't seen my mother for a long time." ”

I couldn't speak, watching Shuang'er muttering away, not even having the courage to speak.

Uncle Sun watched Shuang'er leave, and finally asked, "Master, do you really think it's right for you to do this?" ”

I couldn't speak, I could feel it, Shuang'er might be about to wake up, she might want to know the truth of the matter.

When she wakes up, she will find that everything has changed, her favorite mother is no longer in the world, the man who will become her husband has left her forever, and her future will be bleak.

I want to tell Shuang'er the truth, I can't hide it from Shuang'er, and I don't want to go on like this.

But every time I looked at Shuang'er's smile, the words that I finally mustered up the courage to say were forced back by me, and finally there was only a sigh left.