I went back to my room and lit the oil lamp, and nothing moved in the room, except that Lian'er, who used to sit on the bed and wait for me to come, was gone.

I don't know why, but I saw Lian'er sitting on the edge of the bed, and laughed softly, "Are you back?" I rubbed my eyes and never saw again.

It's because I miss Lian'er so much, I think so.

I took off my clothes and lay down on the bed again.

Those relaxed and gentle days will never go back.

In five days, Shuang'er will forget everything again, Shuang'er, Dad will always be by your side, don't worry.

I fell into a groggy sleep.

In the dream, I dreamed that I was back to that day, and I saw Shuang'er's sedan chair being stopped by a group of horse thieves, and Ying Quan rushed to Shuang'er's face, and the red wedding dress was dyed blood red.

I saw Lian'er quickly pounce in front of Shuang'er, and finally was stabbed in the abdomen, until the last second she was saying, "Shuang'er, run away." ”

I watched Shuang'er scream, I looked at the cover and panic in Shuang'er's eyes, and Shuang'er's panicked appearance.

I woke up covered in cold sweat.

It was still early and it was still dark, but I couldn't sleep anymore, so I simply went out for a walk.

As I walked in the yard, I suddenly felt a little cool, and the petals of the lotus flowers in the yard fell off a little, and the petals fell down on the pond, revealing the lotus canopy inside. Autumn is coming.

Autumn is coming, the weather should gradually get cooler, Shuang'er's time is forever stuck in summer, how can I explain it to Shuang'er? I do not know.

I sat in the pavilion in the courtyard, watching some dragonflies come and click on the lotus canopy, or from the pond.

Suddenly I felt very tired and tired.

"My lord got up so early today?"

I heard Uncle Sun's voice, turned my head and said, "Yes, I'm up early today." ”

Uncle Sun sat down next to me and said, "Are you thinking about Madame again?" ”

I nodded, didn't speak, and looked back at the pond.

On weekdays, Lian'er likes to eat lotus pods the most, I once laughed at her, I am a lotus, and I have to eat lotus pods, so don't you eat yourself?

I don't like to eat lotus pods, and neither do Shuang'er, and after Lian'er left, it seems that no one eats lotus pods.

Uncle Sun seemed to understand what I was thinking, and walked up to the edge of the pond, and I watched him go down and shouted, "Uncle Sun, come up?" What to do? ”

Uncle Sun is old, his ears are a little back, and he doesn't seem to hear my shouts. I walked down just in time to see Uncle Sun plucking the lotus canopy.

When Uncle Sun saw me coming, he handed me the lotus pod in his hand and said, "Madame likes to eat this most on weekdays, and Madame is gone, so the master will taste it for her." ”

I tore open the lotus canopy, took out the lotus seeds inside, and stuffed them into my mouth.

I can't get used to eating lotus pods, this is the time to feel that lotus pods don't seem to be so unpalatable, the fragrance of lotus seeds and the bitterness of the heart of lotus seeds are mixed together, there is a unique taste.

I thought of Lian'er again, she knew that I didn't like lotus seeds, but she still put a lotus seed in my mouth every time.

Eating and eating, somehow, tears fell.

I miss Lian'er so much, I really miss her, I want to see her.

Lian'er left in a hurry, I didn't even say goodbye to Lian'er, why did she leave.

I just sat by the pond, and Uncle Sun sat next to me.

Uncle Sun patted me on the shoulder, "Master, I know you are bitter in your heart, you want to be Mrs., but you can't go to see Mrs. so soon, the family still needs you, and the second lady still needs you." ”

I still couldn't hold back, and the tears just fell.

Uncle Sun sighed and said, "I think the master has done a good job, you are a good husband, and Madame will be sad to see you like this in the sky." You are also a good father, you look at the second lady and the eldest lady, they love you very much. ”

Uncle Sun said, "Master, don't just think about worrying about others, I'm also worried about you, I grew up watching you, I know you." I'm willing to share your worries for you. ”

I looked through the lotus pond as the sun began to rise slowly, and finally cried bitterly.

Uncle Sun sighed and didn't persuade anything. So I left alone, leaving me to sit there alone.

I miss Lian'er very much, Lian'er has been gone for a while, but the more time passes, the more I miss her.

I love Lian'er very much, I thought about it, when Shuang'er gets married, Lian'er and I will dismiss all the unnecessary maids, and we will live our lives, and I will spend more time with her.

But before everything was realized, Lian'er had already left.

I also want Shuang'er to go with me to worship Lian'er, and I also want Shuang'er to go and see, to see the place where my mother is buried, and to burn some paper money for my mother's tablet.

But I can't help it, I don't dare, I don't dare.

If I take Shuang'er with me, Shuang'er may remember what kind of devastation she has experienced, what kind of pain she has experienced.

If Shuang'er remembered everything, the injuries she had suffered would have pierced her heart again.

Lian'er, I'm sorry for you.

At your funeral, Shuang'er didn't attend, and even the funeral was hastily prepared, it's my fault, it's all my fault.

I'm sorry for you.

It was starting to dawn, I got up and walked back to the pavilion to sit, I was tired.

I couldn't help but feel a sweet throat again, I covered it with a handkerchief, and the blood I spit out was on the white handkerchief, which made me a little dazzled.

Am I going to die?

Actually, I should die too, my Lian'er is no longer there.

The only thought is that there are only Shuang'er, Shuang'er is like this for a day, I can't let go of my heart for a day, I want to watch Shuang'er get married, watch Shuang'er have children.

Lian'er, forgive me, I can't come down to accompany you for the time being, and for Shuang'er, I can't come down to accompany you so soon.

"Daddy? Why is it so early? ”

I heard Shuang'er's voice coming from behind me, and I stood far away and I watched as her clothes seemed to be the same color as the sky. I rubbed my eyes again and saw Shuang'er coming over with a copy of the Book of Songs in his hand.

I smiled and said, "It's not early, Daddy has been up for a while, sit here for a while." Why are Shuang'er so early? ”

Shuang'er sat down next to me and shook his body, "Well, yesterday my father read me some stories, so I slept well yesterday and got up early today." ”

I looked at Shuang'er with a smile and said, "Shuang'er shouldn't go to bed too late in the future, Shuang'er hasn't married yet, but don't drag your body to ruin." ”

"Hmm." Shuang'er nodded, and opened the book in his hand beside me.

I looked at Shuang'er, Shuang'er's side face was very similar to Lian'er, and for a moment I seemed to see Lian'er, as if I had returned to the way Lian'er was still with me before.

Lian'er also likes to read the Book of Songs, and Shuang'er's side face looks like Lian'er.

Shuang'er seemed to sense my gaze, turned around and asked, "Dad?" What's wrong? ”

I shook my head, and then reached out and touched Shuang'er's head, "I just suddenly felt that Dad's Shuang'er had grown up, and Dad thought that Shuang'er was going to get married, and Dad was happy." ”

Happy? Am I really happy?

I know that the person I want to marry has left forever, but I still have to say these things. When Shuang'er remembered everything, I didn't know how desperate she would be.

Shuang'er exclaimed coquettishly, "Dad! What to say! A crimson flush drifted across his face.

I laughed, "Daddy won't say it, Daddy won't say it." ”

Shuang'er was thin-skinned, and he couldn't joke the most, and glared at me for a while.

It seems that everything is still the way it was, if only nothing had happened.