I didn't see Li Xuan for the next ten days, not because he didn't want to see me, but because when he lived with me in Sufu, he strictly ordered his subordinates not to go to disturb him.

After returning to the palace, except for the time when he peeked at me and bathed, he stayed in the study almost every day, either reading through the mountains of approvals, or discussing matters with the civil and military attachés who came to him, in short, he was so busy that he couldn't even see a shadow.

I am happy to be idle, honestly stay in the ink garden to learn embroidery from Chulan, on weekdays to see the maids around me often entertain themselves, thinking that it is difficult to fall somewhere, and when it is my turn, just according to the pattern of laying the bottom of the needle and thread, it makes me feel awkward.

I can't help but feel that my eyes are low and my foundation is too poor. Could it be that I really don't have the talent for piano, chess, calligraphy and painting?

I remembered that Li Xuan said that the words I wrote were like worms crawling over, I sighed several times, simply gave up, propped up my chin and wondered what else could make me bored, I was able to go out of the house to wander around, but when I came back, I encountered the death of Mrs. Su, and I lost my previous excitement.

Xiao Ye saw my listless appearance, her eyes lit up, she didn't know who she learned from someone that Mrs. Xiang must go to the study to visit Li Xuan every day, and explicitly hinted that I would go with me, as if I could fight for Mrs. Xiang if I compared Mrs. Xiang.

"The princess is the wife, everyone can see that the princess is only the princess in his eyes, if the princess goes, look at what those warblers and swallows are fighting for!"

The more this girl talked, the more she was arrogant, her expression was extraordinarily domineering when she said this, my face was full of black lines, and she smiled at the corners of her mouth, Mrs. Xiang is Yingying Yanyan? She figured it out.

I said a few words to her, not only did it hit her fanatical self-confidence, but aroused her infinite fighting spirit, this girl is not ordinary courtesy, she doesn't land for a day to invite Aunt Yun to stew soup, saying that if I change my mind one day, I have an excuse, so that I don't seem sincere to go empty-handed.

What's even more exaggerated is that she ran to inquire about Li Xuan's whereabouts every day, and also used my name to impersonate it, but her methods were extremely inferior, making everyone in the house known.

Within a few days, the news of my jealousy with Mrs. Xiang spread throughout the palace, and even the housekeeper sent someone to send food, clothing, and clothing to Moyuan would report Li Xuan's itinerary to me.

I'm really dumb and eat Coptis chinensis, and I can't tell if I have bitterness.

Xiao Ye was even more afraid of death, patted his chest and said: "Since she is famous, why don't you make a mistake and simply frustrate Mrs. Xiang's spirit?" ”

I pushed her out the door and closed the door in front of her.

Stay up until the evening, the stars are shining, I opened the small window alone to look at the night sky like a silver plate, the book says that after death, people will become the stars in the sky to protect the dearest people, I am blurry in front of my eyes, I can't see which one is the gentle and gentle Mrs. Su, will she look at me in the sky at this time?

Aunt Yun combed my long hair like a waterfall behind me, her black hair was soft on her old hands, very obedient, Aunt Yun said kindly: "The princess doesn't blame Xiaoye, that girl is sincere, she really wants to match the princess and the princess, although the method is inappropriate, it is not a bad thing." ”

I said sullenly, "I'm no different from a jealous woman, isn't that a bad thing?" ”

Aunt Yun smiled and whispered softly: "If the princess doesn't have a prince in her heart, how can she care what outsiders say?" ”

I hurriedly said, "Aunt Yun, that's because—" I wanted to refute, but I couldn't find an excuse to convince myself. Do I really have Li Xuan in my heart?

"The love of husband and wife is the most anticipated and happiest thing for women. The princess asked herself, did the prince treat the princess badly? ”

"He treats me very well, but he treats Mrs. Xiang and them badly." I muttered in a low voice, it turns out that I care so much about Li Xuan being with other women, not because I don't have him in my heart, but if he can't be consistent, I don't want to pay my sincerity. What I want is a love that is complete and unmisplaced.

Aunt Yun stroked my black hair, her eyes mixed with distress: "The princess already has an answer, so the old slave doesn't need to say more." If you want to get a complete and dedicated heart, instead of passively waiting, why not take the initiative to fight for it? I guess Mrs. Su also said something similar to the princess. ”

I was silent, Mrs. Su's dying words echoed in my ears, she said that Li Xuan was sincere to me and hoped that I could live well in the palace. How can a woman be considered good in her husband's house? It is to raise eyebrows with her husband, love each other, and grow old together.

It has always been Li Xuan who took the initiative to show favor to me, but I stopped and watched, refusing to take a clear step, afraid of being hurt, afraid of remorse, afraid that what I had in my hand was a mirror and a vain.

I climbed into bed, the bed was very comfortable, the futon was also very warm, this night I had a good dream, the dream was no longer the poignant picture of Li Xuan holding a sword piercing my chest, but the sadness and steadfastness of my hugging him and crying.

Vaguely, there was a soft touch on my lips, and I didn't think much of it and continued to sleep peacefully. Li Xuan took off his shoes and socks and lay beside me, we didn't take a photo, but we had the warmth of each other.