"Jian Muyan, hehe...... Simple...... Admire...... Yan, why is it called Jian Muyan? Isn't it because you Jian Hua admires Li Shuyan? Why don't you love now? Going to be divided? So what's the point of my Jian Muyan's existence? ”

"Mu Yan, don't be like this, Dad is sorry for you......"

"Hehe, right...... No...... ......, it's really funny, when you spend a lot of money in the casino, why didn't you think of being sorry, why didn't you think of being sorry when you were having fun with your son in Jinse Garden? ”

"Mu Yan......, how do you know? About you, Aunt Zhang......"

"Shut up! What kind of aunt is I! How do I know...... Hehe...... How dare you ask! ”

Jian Muyan squatted helplessly behind the door of her room, she held a pencil sharpener knife in her hand, holding it fiercely, her trembling hand almost broke the pencil knife, in fact, it was her own hand that was bleeding. But why doesn't it hurt at all? It would be nice if I left like this, no more sneaking to Jinse Garden with my brother and mother on my back after school, no more hiding in the corner and watching their "family" have fun, and no more going to the casinos on the street to find the so-called "father" when my grandmother was seriously ill......

"Mu Yan, listen to Dad, open the door, okay?"

The cold feeling of the knife in my hand is so good, and the temperature of the metal seems to heal all this, and it seems to make you forget all your troubles......

"Mu Yan! Open the door, open it! Don't do stupid things! ”

If you close your eyes, you won't see the squalor of the world......

It's good, let's go to sleep like this, I'm so tired......

"Hua Yan, you came back just in time, look at your sister, she locked herself in the house and didn't come out, you can persuade her!"

"Dad, why are you here, did you say something to Mu Yan? No matter how ruthless you are, how can you not even care about your daughter's feelings! ”

"Mu Yan, open the door quickly, my brother is back, and my mother is also coming back, come out quickly, open the door quickly."

"Brother...... Right...... No...... Up, brother, I'm in pain...... Sorry ......"

"Mu Yan, what's wrong with you? Mu Yan "Hua Yan climbed over the balcony, climbed into her sister's room from the window, and ran to Mu Yan who fell behind the door......

Mu Yan opened his eyes, and what caught his eyes was the energy-saving lamp in the hospital ward that he was all too familiar with, and every time he came to the hospital to accompany his grandmother after school, he would smell the smell of disinfectant water in the hospital and do his homework under this energy-saving lamp...... The light was a little harsh, her eyelashes fluttered, and her eyes opened a little harder, a little dull......

"Mu ...... Mu Yan woke up, Mom, Mu Yan woke up", Hua Yan excitedly held one of Mu Yan's hands, his eyes were bloodshot, and he suddenly regained his spirit the moment Mu Yan woke up.

"Mu Yan, stupid boy, how can you be ruthless and don't want your mother and brother?" Li Shuyan got up from the chair next to her and ran to Mu Yan's bedside, she caressed Mu Yan's haggard face in distress, tears could no longer be restrained, dripping on Mu Yan's face...... Heart......

"Mom, brother, I'm sorry, Mu Yan will never leave you again......"

Mu Yan wanted to raise her other hand to wipe her mother's tears, her wrist tingled and she couldn't move, she looked at her wrist wrapped in white gauze, and remembered the man who made him angry to the point of despair - her father.

"Mu Yan, don't think about that person anymore, the three of us will live a good life in the future, I will take care of you and my mother, without him, we will live better, right?"

"Yes, Mu Yan, we don't miss him anymore, my mother is better off without him, don't mention him"

……

Fourteen days later, Mu Yan's wrist wound finally healed, she sat in front of her small bedroom window, looking at the sunflowers swaying in the wind outside the window, which was given to her by her brother a few days ago, saying that he hoped that she would "grow up in the sun" in the future, and life was still very good.

Yes, when she was about to lose consciousness, she heard her brother's voice and suddenly felt that she was so reluctant to leave this world, so she wanted to be with her brother and mother...... Even if she would never forgive that man; Even if she will never forget the time when her grandmother left...... And the Jinse Garden engraved in the bones!

"Mu Yan, come and eat", my brother didn't knock on the door and broke in, Mu Yan said it many times, but my brother always felt that as an elder, he had a certain right to speak, every time she always couldn't compete with her brother, she couldn't understand that Jian Huayan, who was already 20 years old and a sophomore, was really "naïve".

"Who told you not to knock on the door, brother, can you respect my personal privacy."

"Okay, my good sister, I was wrong, my brother promises, I will not knock on the door in the future!"

"Brother!"

"No, you must knock on the door, you must knock on the door......"

On the dinner table are all the favorite dishes of the brother and sister, Jian Muyan's favorite thousand-page tofu and Jian Huayan's favorite chicken legs are placed in front of their seats, Hua Yan dislikes Mu Yan and drops the dishes on the table, Mu Yan dislikes Hua Yan for eating and talking and spitting around, and the two brothers and sisters always "dislike each other" under normal circumstances. Li Shuyan looked at the two children with a doting face, but she knew that since Mu Yan's "suicide" incident last time, the family of three tacitly agreed not to mention that person, but the scars have been deeply imprinted in the hearts of the two children, and no one can erase the imprint, everyone is just avoiding painful memories.

"Mu Yan, you are going to start school in a week, you will be in your third year of high school at the beginning of school, and you will take the college entrance examination soon, you have to study hard, the family is ...... You don't have to worry about it, what's going on with your mother."

"That's it, Jian Muyan, you want to inherit your brother's title of my scholar, my wisdom can't be ruined by you, everyone in the first middle school knows that I was the top science student last year, and the sister of the science champion will take the college entrance examination next year, and everyone is looking forward to it!"

"Mom, I'...... No...... I don't want to go to school anymore......"

"What? Absolutely not! ”

The rice in Hua Yan's mouth sprayed Mu Yan's face.

"I ...... I don't want you to be so tired, and I can't study well ......."

"Mu Yan, you are making a big joke, if it is because of the difficulties at home, then you are too worried, brother, I have earned enough tuition fees with tutors in the summer vacation, and yours is almost enough."

"Mom's salary is also about to be paid, although Mom can't earn much money from cleaning in the hotel, but your tuition is still enough."

Mu Yan pulled the rice in the bowl and pondered, not wanting to go to school was not a whim, but "premeditated for a long time".

One night some time ago, when she woke up from a dream and went to the living room to pour water to drink, she found her mother sitting alone on the sofa and crying on the phone: "Even if I have been blind for more than ten years, I accept my fate, but how can you ...... How can you even care about Mu Yan, I said that I will never have anything to do with you again, but why don't you call Mu Yan for child support so close...... It doesn't matter to me what you go through, I just want my daughter to grow up healthy......"

Mu Yan knew in her heart who her mother was talking to, but at that time, she didn't want her mother and brother to know that she already knew everything, everything about that person who had broken the family.

She knew that it was already very difficult for her mother's salary to bear the family's expenses and the tuition fees of her brother and sister, and she didn't want her mother to take the initiative to apply for the day and night shift every day in order to earn more money. And my brother studies well, and he may not be able to go to Jiaotong University if he is admitted to the Jiaotong University that others dream of, and he is not good at studying, if he doesn't go to school, he can help his mother make money and provide for his brother to study in college......

"Jian Muyan, if you don't go to school, then I won't go to school as a brother, I said, as an elder, I have enough right to speak, I won't let my sister earn money for me to go to school! And every year the school has scholarships and grants, your brother and I are so good, we will definitely be able to get it, so these are not problems, and mother, you don't have to worry too much, your dignified nine-foot son is carrying it here, and the sky can't fall...... Haha"

"It's only one meter eight...... Mu Yan muttered as he glared at his brother.

"Okay, okay, mom and brother, I admit that my mind is too simple, then I will go to school and be admitted to a good university in the future."

"It's pretty much the same, come, eat, eat, the dishes are cold."

At ten o'clock in the evening, Mu Yan sorted out the books in her bookcase, waiting for her brother who went out to bring her tutor and her mother who went to middle school to come back, and took out a wooden box on the top of the bookcase, which was a box left by her grandmother, with the word "Fang" engraved on it, representing her grandmother's name, and she still remembered the scene when her grandmother gave her this wooden box.

One day on the third day of the Lunar New Year, the scorching summer season was really difficult for Mu Yan, she was naturally afraid of heat, gnawing on popsicles, waiting for the boss's ham at the roast ham stall at the school gate, the boss was sweating profusely, and the wind blowing from the fan around her was suffocating heat.

"Boss, put less chili peppers and more cumin", Mu Yan told as he sucked the popsicle in his mouth.

"Okay! Classmate, did you only buy it for your grandma this time? Don't you usually have more than four chili peppers? ”

"It's hot today, everyone else is free, I eat popsicles, my grandma likes this, so I only buy it for grandma."

"What a filial child."

Mu Yan cautiously rushed into the house with the ham......

"Bang dang", she froze in place in an instant, she kicked the flowers carefully raised by her grandmother, to slip or not? By the time the thought flashed through her, Grandma had already come out of the bedroom......

"Mu Yan! How can you destroy my flowers? That's a rare flower seed that I worked so hard to move from Grandma Liu's house......"

"Grandma, I'm sorry, I'm not in a hurry to give you hot roast ham! You taste it, it's really delicious, this flower is not completely spoiled, you can continue to grow it, water it a little and it will heal, if this roast ham is cold, you may not like to eat it......"

Grandma reluctantly took the grilled sausage and began to eat, although eating too much of this is not good for the body, but grandma is older, she likes to eat this, so every weekend she will bring grandma the grilled ham at the school gate.

Grandma pulled Mu into her bedroom and handed Mu Yan a wooden box on her desk.

"This is the box that your grandfather gave me when I was young, with my words engraved on it, I have been guarding it, it has been a long time, it is a little old, and now it is given to you, don't dislike it."

"Grandma, no, I'll keep it forever, I love it."

Later, she used it to put her diary, and she felt that treasured the diary in it was like her grandmother had witnessed all her growth.

Carefully opened the copper lock, lifted the lid of the box, and there were four diaries inside, which were the diaries of her junior high school and senior high school years, she picked up another diary on the desk and put it in the box, but just put it in and stopped, this diary may not want to open it in the future, but ...... I still couldn't help but open it......