Before I was twenty-three, my life was dull and boring.

There is almost no childhood.

Abandoned since I was a child, when I was abandoned in a foreign country, I thought if I could survive.

I have to be strong, both in my ability and in my heart.

I'm going to be the most indestructible person.

After returning to China, all my thoughts and efforts were focused on my studies and career.

I only have a few friends, I don't like to go to parties, I don't go to events, I don't like to communicate with people.

It seems that Lu Qinghan and I are both such people.

I've been cold since I was a child.,I don't have any special hobbies.。

Grandpa always said that no girl like me would want to marry me.

Although I have people chasing them, those girls are only superficial.

Of course, I know it too.

I don't care.

Because, in the past twenty-three years, I have never thought about getting married and having children.

It's good to be alone, save trouble.

Or rather, I've long been used to living alone.

Work takes up all my time.

The only way to have fun is probably to meet with Su Jingcheng and them every month.

But every time, I felt like an outsider.

Either way, there are no special emotions, maybe that's what I am.

Born.

Psychologists call it autism.

It was only later that she appeared in my world.

Her appearance made me know that there is finally such a person in this world who can make me change.

She's actually quite stupid.

From the very beginning, I was always cold to her, and I turned a blind eye to whatever she did.

However, I didn't even notice it myself, and I slowly began to care about her.

She pulled me out of the mire of darkness, and she was the first light in my life.

In normal life, she is actually quite stupid.

Always confused.

For example, I often don't remember where one of my cosmetics is.

Always lost.

Sometimes, it's a bit of a road idiot.

But stupid, I don't dare to say it in front of her.

Because she's become fierce now.

Honestly, I didn't dare mess with her.

Others call it "cowardice".

Yes, indeed.

I know that she quit the entertainment industry in order to quit, and she has changed a lot for me.

After she returned to China, her grandfather looked for her.

After she found out about my condition, she never pushed me away.

She's a simple girl.

Likes to do stupid things.

Of course, I also like to be jealous.

I especially like to see her jealous, and even though the consequences of her jealousy will make me suffer a little bit, I am still happy.

She used to look at my diary.

When I think about it, I ask, "How did I spend the four years I left?" ”

In the past four years since she left, I don't know how I've lived.

I just know that after she left, it was like I was back in that dark place.

worked harder, relying on her photos or her dynamics every day to kill the days.

Know what she eats and what places she has been every day.

I'll try it again.

She also has an irregular schedule and likes to eat junk food.

I tried to accept it.

Perhaps, it is she who supports me to live.

Grandpa scolded me and told me to go to her.

How dare I go?

I didn't even dare to see her.

I was afraid, afraid that she would be even more angry when she saw me, that she would leave, that she would flee to a place I would never find again.

I'm careful.

Four years, a long time.

But I don't regret it, my condition is slightly better.

I planned to trick her back.

I thought that this time, when she came back, we would be able to be together easily.

But everything that separates us has become a thorn.

They are cruel and sharp, and again and again, they dissect reality.

I've gambled, and I've fought with my life.

Fortunately, she ended up on my side.

When my grandfather died, I suddenly realized that I was the only one left in this world.

For my grandfather, I actually feel guilty.

I didn't dare tell her any of this.

Because I'm afraid she'll worry about me.

It's that I didn't take good care of my grandfather, and before, I didn't care enough about him.

But he seems to have never blamed our brothers.

Because he also blamed himself, he thought that because he couldn't understand people, he shouldn't have asked my father to marry that woman.

Speaking of that woman......

She has passed away.

In this life, leaving the Lu family and us is the stupidest thing she has ever done.

She's not doing well outside.

But these are no longer important.

I now finally have a complete home.

But my identity has changed.

I am a father.

The child's mother is very good, she loves our child very much, she loves this family very much, and she is completely different from that woman.

As for our children......

Lu Linheng.

Only this one. Because I don't want to see her work too hard.

One is enough.

That kid is quite obedient and works hard.

I want him to grow up in a healthy environment and don't want him to be like me.

And they all did.

Now, our lives are ordinary.

On weekends, I would accompany her to the movies, go shopping, and go wherever she wanted.

Or, cook at home.

Although her cooking skills have improved, she is really lazy.

Usually I'm cooking.

Lu Linheng will come to help.

It can be seen that he likes the Su family's cutie very much.

He said that he had to learn to cook, because Su Keai was a snacker.

During the Mid-Autumn Festival this year, we put Kong Ming lanterns together, and I didn't like to do these things originally.

But she loved it.

She always makes the most ordinary things extraordinary.

She's obviously an ordinary girl.

But there's something magical about her.

It's always tempting to get closer, to see her laugh, to talk to her......

I didn't believe in fate or love before.

But after meeting her, I believed everything.

I know she sometimes thinks of people who have died.

Li Jinhuai.

And grandpa.

She was always afraid to tell me and would always sneak in to see them.

I'm not as stingy as I used to be.

Sometimes he would secretly follow her, or just let Lu Linheng follow.

She is sometimes like a child, crying, making trouble, and very likable.

Once, Han Zhiyun also asked me, what do you like about her?

I can't give an answer.

You really don't need a reason to like someone.

But if you have to give a reason, it is probably ......

Because that person is her.

Sometimes, I pray, and time is too slow.

Because I am a very greedy person.

I coveted every second I spent with her, I knew there was always an end to life, and I didn't want to be separated from her.

Next?

We don't know what fate will do.

But I prayed to Heaven that I would meet her.

Song Xingran, in the next life,

I fell in love with you at first sight.

Like you to the point of madness. Degree of literature