Jian Muyan closed the diary, her whole body was trembling, looking at the scar on her wrist, biting her lip fiercely. Perhaps she should have understood, since she learned that her father turned out to be such a deranged gambler and an ungrateful and ungrateful man, she should have understood that her mother was right to choose to secretly divorce her grandmother's funeral, at least for her mother. She will never forget how those creditors repeatedly came to the house to threaten her mother, and how her mother struggled to take out the money she earned from staying up late to help her father clean up the mess.

All this turned out to be very clear, after his mother helped her pay off 200,000 yuan, his father didn't look for a job at all, he continued to gamble with confidence, and finally won a sum of money, and then took the money to find Zhang Xiaofeng, who had been with him for more than two years, the woman she had "seen"......

The woman once called her mother, she and her brother and mother were all watching TV, and when she saw her mother coming out of the bedroom, her face was pale, she had never seen her so helpless and sad, and her brother knew all this at that time, only she didn't understand what was going on, and then she saw from the signs of her father and mother, it turned out that her father was having an affair, and the woman asked her father for a divorce, and her father "refused" at that time, and swore and promised in front of her mother that she would never have contact with that woman again.

It seems that since two years ago, his father has never said a word of trust to the family.

When he appeared in front of her again that day, the hatred in his heart immediately poured out, maybe he still had a trace of expectation for that father at that time, when he really saw it, and confirmed that everything was true, the last bit of hope was completely killed, it was really stupid at the time, it was really not worth it to choose to commit suicide and leave his mother and brother for such a father!

I see! My heart is dead!

Fortunately, in the future, this terrible "father" will not come back after all, as if there has never been a father, there is only Jian Hua with the same surname in this world. People from two worlds have nothing to do with family affection or blood! Only hate!

Place the journal in a wooden box, lock the brass lock, and place it back in the top corner of the bookcase......

In the blink of an eye, a week is about to pass, Jian Muyan because of the recuperation some time ago, so the remaining week is evil to make up for the summer vacation homework, Jian Huayan has been chattering around Mu Yan for the past few days, "lesson" Mu Yan usually does not work hard, and stays up late to make up for homework as soon as school starts.

Hua Yan came in with a cup of coffee and didn't knock on the door: "I said that if you can usually learn to such a point where you don't want to eat, you won't count down the exam in the second year of high school, and you will always come back and complain that your tablemate is a psychopath, and you can take the first exam if you don't study!" Hahaha, I think you're jealous of people's cleverness!"

As soon as Liang Chenyi's "great god" was mentioned, Jian Muyan had a headache.

"Brother, you say, is there really such a genius in the world? They feel that no matter what they are, they will listen to it at a glance, for example, I am at the same table, he doesn't pay much attention to the lectures every day, no, it should be a few things, listening to songs, reading other books and listening to lectures by the way, and in the end, his score in the exam is close to full score."

Hua Yan smiled and knocked Mu Yan's head, "You are so stupid!" There are only a few people like that, and most people are still in the middle stage like you, but what about it, your brother and I used to be a generation of great gods, hey, my time in the first middle school has passed, and there will still be a second great god and a third great god ....... ”

"Okay, don't be intoxicated in your own world and can't extricate yourself, admire and admire, Jane! Little sister, I admire the five-body throwing ...... Awesome Jane God! ”

"However, the soul from the great god Jane questioned! At that time, you were divided into arts and sciences, why did you choose science? ”

"Hmm...... Maybe I'm good at science. ”

"Why do you choose science, you are obviously better at liberal arts, your essays have been praised by teachers every time, and your science is ...... IMHO, if you can't read a simple circuit diagram, are you sure you choose science because you're good at it? ”

"I heard from everyone that science will have a wider range of employment in the future, and I want to choose a good employment direction, as you know, the situation in our family is ......."

"Actually, I know that you like art more, you like painting, but the conditions at home limit your development and cannot provide you with art ......."

"Brother, I know, painting is just my hobby, I don't regret it at all, it's good to study science, although I'm a little stupid, but as long as I work hard, there will definitely be good results, you are waiting for me at Jiaotong University!"

"Okay, my little sister is ambitious! Be sure to keep it up! The next Jane God is you! ”

The next day, Jian Huayan went to Jiaotong University to report, and Jian Muyan took her summer vacation homework that she had just made up to report to No. 1 Middle School.

"Two years have passed in a blink of an eye, and today you have officially entered the countdown to the college entrance examination!"

"Huh? Teacher, it's just the first day of school! The whole class was expressing "protest" in a lazy "vacation" tone.

The old class "Duo'er" smirked and smiled, and his expression was instantly retracted, and the surface was "light and light".

"I tell you, give you a day, go back and adjust your state, tomorrow if anyone is still living in the holidays, then you can go back to the second year of high school again, we will not keep people in the sixth class of the third year of high school! There is also class leader Liang Chenyi, you make some college entrance examination countdown cards today, find a student who is better at painting to help, you must have a certain vigilance significance, when the time comes, hang it in the upper right corner of the blackboard, and each student takes turns to update the ......countdown once a day. ”

"Okay, teacher!" Liang Chenyi, who was sitting next to me, glanced at the empty seat in the row in front of Chen Siwan, who was participating in the piano competition today, so she didn't come to class.

Jian Muyan knew that this classmate who was good at painting must be Chen Siwan, every time the blackboard newspaper in the class was Chen Siwan and Liang Chenyi, one was good at painting and the other was good at writing, which made people think of the words "talented and beautiful...... Jian Muyan turned the pen in her hand, as if none of this had anything to do with her, after all, Liang Chenyi saw all the embarrassments she was in the Jinse community last time, but he could pretend not to see it, so Jian Muyan could treat it as if it didn't happen. There will always be so few words between them......

"Jian Muyan, can you go home later this afternoon and help me get a countdown card?"

"Bang dang" The pen in Jian Muyan's hand fell on the stationery box and made a sound, she picked up the pen again and continued to spin it, hiding the confusion in her heart......

"That...... Why me? I'm not good at painting, Chen Siwan is more professional, if you don't wait for her to come tomorrow, you'll be working with her."

"You can do it."

"Why? But I'm really bad at drawing. ”

"I said yes."

……

Jian Muyan was depressed and panicked, but she didn't know why she couldn't say anything to refuse, so she agreed.

After school in the afternoon, when Jian Muyan was sorting out her schoolbag, Liang Chenyi came to the seat with the cards that had been formed, and handed the two cards that had been written to Jian Muyan first.

"You think about how to design these first, I write the countdown number on each card, and I think then every day I will write a famous aphorism under the number to encourage everyone, you design how to beautify with a paintbrush." Liang Chenyi lowered his head and wrote sentences seriously, and said to Jian Muyan.

"This is quite creative, I think it's a more serious thing like the countdown to the college entrance examination, let's not design too bells and whistles, since Duoer lets everyone take turns to update the countdown, we write everyone's name on this calendar in turn, and each day corresponds to a person's name, and then that person goes to update the calendar, I'm responsible for designing everyone's name into an artistic painting, what do you think?"

"Well, that sounds okay, so be it."

"Oh!"

Two hours passed, and it was finally done, Jian Muyan handed the written one to Liang Chenyi, Liang Chenyi looked at the first card and was stunned for a moment, Liang Chenyi's three words were designed on the first page, and ...... The design is pretty good-looking, the word Chen Yi and the stars are integrated, but there is a tendency to escape the stars, which means that the stars are unusual.

"Looks like you know my name pretty well! Not bad! ”

"Oh!"

"Hmm!"

The atmosphere was inexplicably embarrassing, Liang Chenyi continued to look at the countdown calendar, the more he looked at it, the more he felt that Jian Muyan should study liberal arts, and his sensitivity and thorough understanding of words were really admirable, turning to the last page, Liang Chenyi paused and frowned.

"Why is it that everyone in the class has a unique design and idea for their own name, when it comes to your own name, which is simple and rude? Simple...... Admire...... Yan, Jane Aimu words, it should be that your parents have a good relationship! ”

"I didn't ...... Nor is it ...... Maybe there are other meanings that I didn't understand myself, but it's okay to be simpler, which means to make my life simpler...... Ha ha. ”

Somewhere in Jian Muyan's heart seemed to have been touched at some moment, sad? Or is it an unspeakable shame? Disgrace? Yes, it should be, she doesn't want others to know what kind of person her father is, and she doesn't want to mention that person herself......

"Where's your home?"

"Well, in the Lemin community."

"That's just on the way, I didn't ride a bicycle today, so I took the bus with you, and it was dark, so it wasn't safe......"

"Where is your home?" Jian Muyan felt that he was an idiot when he asked this sentence, he was embarrassed by all the embarrassment he saw in Jinse Garden last time, and now he still wants to ask this question Is there no three hundred taels of silver here?

"Hmm...... Jinse Garden. ”

"Oku......"

There was another silence, the sky was talked about like this, and Liang Chenyi seemed to think of something, but he quickly returned to his normal expression.

"Then you and I will take bus 709 together?"

"Yes, you can."

On the bus, Jian Muyan sat in front of Liang Chenyi, Liang Chenyi stood beside her, she was listening to music with headphones, the white Nike sneakers were painted very white, Jian Muyan stared down at the canvas shoes that her mother bought in the cheap shoe store on her feet, and looked up at the car window, familiar bus routes, familiar street scenes, but she didn't know why, she felt that everything was so strange......

Later, Jian Muyan recalled this moment and thought, and thought that this feeling should be the feeling of confusion and helplessness from one world to another.