That day, I came to that barbecue restaurant.

The store is located on the famous pedestrian street of Fengcheng. This street was newly built as a tourist attraction when I was in high school, and I would pass by the entrance of this street every day on my way to and from home and school, and it was also the place I would inevitably pass by when I walked with Lin Ximeng.

Because it has not been opened for a long time, there are no people on the entire pedestrian street, and there are not many shops. The barbecue restaurant mentioned by Lin Ximeng had a bright golden pennant hanging under the eaves, which was very eye-catching, and I found it at once.

The interior of the restaurant is much cleaner than the average barbecue restaurant, with white walls, bright windowsills, and simple tables. Lin Ximeng and her best friend were already sitting in a window position, facing the door in a daze.

I sat down across from Lin Ximeng, and didn't ask for the name of the girl sitting next to Lin Ximeng, I had never seen that girl, and I didn't have any interest in that stranger, I only had Lin Ximeng in my eyes.

Today's Lin Ximeng is wearing a brand-new black short-sleeved T-shirt, her black and shiny short and medium hair is not well combed as usual, her fair and tender face is calm like a pool of clear water, and her dignified and elegant temperament is like a lady who has traveled through ancient times, which is the most familiar and fascinating appearance for me.

It's been a long time since I've observed Lin Ximeng so closely, and the last time I remember sitting face-to-face was when I was reciting texts to each other in junior high school. Compared to that time, she has grown a lot taller, matured, and prettier.

Although I wasn't attracted by her appearance at the beginning, I just liked her because of her kind heart, but when I saw her today, I felt that her beauty also touched me, and that was really the face of an angel.

Lin Ximeng didn't take the initiative to introduce his best friend, who sat on the side obediently, like a maid who accompanied her master in ancient times.

After I chatted briefly with Lin Ximeng and looked at the menu for a while, Song Hongyi finally came.

Song Hongyi hurriedly sat down next to me and greeted everyone: "I'm sorry, I'm late." Finished ordering? ”

"I've ordered some dishes, I'm waiting for you. You see what else to add. "I moved the menu to Song Hongyi.

"It's too late, I'll have to punish myself with three glasses later." Lin Ximeng looked at Song Hongyi and said with a smile.

Song Hongyi buried his head in the menu, and hesitantly agreed, but he didn't agree, and he didn't shirk.

When I heard this, I was stunned.

Eating barbecue is naturally indispensable for beer. In the eyes of boys, the purpose of eating barbecue is usually not the food itself, but only the wine. However, Lin Ximeng, a girl as detached as a fairy, will also fall into the turbid waters of the world?

Sure enough, when the wine bottles were placed on the table, I still felt a little awkward when I saw Lin Ximeng holding the wine glass and drinking it one by one.

The first time I saw Lin Ximeng drinking, although it wasn't all at once, I was really shocked by the unshirkable refreshment, which can be called unceremonious drinking.

In my impression, Lin Ximeng has always been a good girl next door who is cared for by her parents, a little girl who only stays at home all day long with books and plush dolls, and a soft girl who is ignorant of the world, ignorant and cute. It didn't fit in with the glass she was holding now.

"You're less than a month away from college, where are you going?" Lin Ximeng asked.

"I went to Guangdong, Jimen University, majoring in medicine." Song Hongyi said.

"It's so far, so are you going to go all the way to a doctorate?" Lin Ximeng continued to ask.

"I guess so." Song Hongyi reluctantly replied, "Mao Xiaoer, what about you?" ”

I'm embarrassed to speak, but there's nothing to hide when it's true, what should be known to Lin Ximeng will always let Lin Ximeng return. So I said helplessly: "Hey, I'm going to Zuo Yuan University, in Hunan." ”

"Huh? It's so far, how did you end up there? Lin Ximeng's eyes widened.

"Hey, I didn't do well in the college entrance examination, I got an embarrassing score, and I had to go to a good school outside the province. Although the name of that school is not very familiar, it is also one of the top 20 universities in the country when you look up it online. ”

"Oh? What kind of major? Song Hongyi asked.

"I don't know what kind of major it is."

"Huh?"

"When I filled in the application, I chose communication, but when I was admitted, I found that the notice was written as 'electrical information', and then I looked at the enrollment information again, only to find that 'communication engineering' was enclosed in brackets, and the 'electrical information' written outside the brackets, I didn't know what it meant, but I also saw that things like 'automation' and 'computer' were the same, and they were enclosed in brackets by 'electrical information'."

"Anyway, your computer is so good, why didn't you choose a computer?"

"Communication has been hot in recent years." I replied with a smile. However, I knew very well in my heart that I didn't like computers, and even resisted them.

At the beginning, I came into contact with computer programming with the idea of wanting to write my own games and play by myself, and from elementary school to high school, from the first prize to the second prize and then to the third prize that was not even shortlisted in the finals, in the face of more and more difficult programming problems, as those algorithms became more and more cumbersome, I always felt that there was a wall in front of me blocking this road, and I repeatedly tried to break through but repeatedly hit my head and bleed, I don't want to experience such pain again.

On the other hand, in the eyes of my classmates, after all, I have been exposed to computers for so long, and everyone naturally looks up to me in this field, and everyone takes it for granted that I should learn computer science, and I can understand it.

"Also, the communication is good." Song Hongyi turned to Lin Ximeng again, "Then, Lin Ximeng, what about you?" ”

"I, I'm staying in Jiangsu, Ning Provincial College."

"Ah, in this way, it will be really difficult for us to get together in the future. Everyone is scattered in three different places, I am in Guangzhou, Mao Xiaoer is in Changsha, and you are in Nanjing, which really looks like a big triangle from the map. ”

"Hahaha, yes." Lin Ximeng smiled.

I didn't laugh, Lin Ximeng stayed in the province as I expected and went to Nanjing. I guessed this, but I couldn't bear to stay in Nanjing. As everyone knows, "Ningshen College" is the third choice I filled, the one I used to guarantee the bottom. My fate with Lin Ximeng can be so close, and I actually killed this opportunity with my own hands. It's just because I'm not willing to sacrifice myself that I miss her.

After three rounds of drinking, the three of us continued to chat, on the surface it was hot, but my heart was full of cold silence.

Lin Ximeng's best friend didn't know me and Song Hongyi, and she seemed to be transparent on the side, busy with her own affairs. However, I felt as if I was more transparent than she was.

I looked at Lin Ximeng and Song Hongyi, and they seemed to have more endless topics to talk about than me. The smile on Lin Ximeng's face seemed to only appear when she was chatting with Song Hongyi, and when Song Hongyi spoke, she would look at him intently and listen to his topic with interest; And when I finally said a few words, she never looked at me so intently.

Is Lin Ximeng shy, or does he hate me?

In any case, I am still inevitably jealous of Song Hongyi. I understand Song Hongyi's personality very well, he has the girl he loves, and it is absolutely impossible for him to rob Lin Ximeng with me. But ever since that "childlike heart" incident, another suspicion of mine has been coming to me, and it has become even stronger at this moment.

Compared to me, will Lin Ximeng like Song Hongyi?

The sentence "I hope you can also treat it with a childlike heart, just like Song Hongyi" has always haunted my heart, just like Lin Ximeng herself said to me that she likes Song Hongyi more.

Now I look at her closely, and it looks like it's real.

Today she is so beautiful, the flush on her face from alcohol is like the vermilion light emitted on jade, she is so lovely, so charming.

I wasn't drunk, but with the strength of my drink, I decided to do something quite important.

I took out my mobile phone and said to Lin Ximeng: "I don't know when we will meet again in the future, I'll take a photo of you as a souvenir." ”

Faced with my sudden move, Lin Ximeng was taken aback, and hurriedly stretched out his hands to cover his face: "Ah, don't shoot, don't shoot." ”

"Just take a picture." I opened the photo interface, aimed at Lin Ximeng, persuaded with a dead face, pretended to be drunk, and staggered.

"No, I can't. Don't shoot it! ”

"Why are you so resistant!"

"I'm not on camera again, don't shoot it!"

After a stalemate for a while, maybe Lin Ximeng felt tired, she finally didn't say anything, put down her arm, picked up the wine glass and put it to her mouth, took a sip with an expressionless face, didn't look at my camera, just turned her face slightly sideways, looking at the direction of Song Hongyi.

I captured the moment. Lin Ximeng in the photo is completely in line with my impression of the 'Fair Lady' in my heart, with a dignified and elegant sitting posture, a pure and lovely face, a soft and rigid gaze, and there seems to be a faint sadness between the eyebrows, but there is a bit of unwavering majesty.

It's just that the corners of the mouth blocked by the wine glass, although I can't see it, I can still feel the dissatisfaction and helplessness contained in it. This is clearly a rejection, and perhaps just as I have never treated her as an ordinary friend, she has never treated me as a special friend for three years.

Looking at Lin Ximeng in the photo, I smiled. I finally got the clearest face I've ever dreamed of. However, this smile was more bitter, and I never got her heart after all.

So, I'm actually just a normal friend of hers, hahahaha, how ridiculous.

I turned to the side, and while they were chatting, I pulled out the small gift box from the bag I had brought, and secretly stuffed the homework paper with the poem written on it into my pocket, as well as a signature pen in the bag.

"You guys are chatting, I'll go to the bathroom." I said hello to them.

I used the excuse of going to the toilet to add four words to the blank space under the homework paper and the poem - "Friendship endures".

Maybe I shouldn't have liked her, maybe I should have become an ordinary friend with her, a good friend, just like Song Hongyi.

On this parting occasion, maybe it's time to let go of that senseless attachment, in the years to come, maybe only friendship will always exist, only friendship can Lin Ximeng accept me, and only retreating into friendship will make me feel better.

After dinner, we walked around the old street for a while and slowly walked towards the entrance. They were still chatting hotly, and my heart was restless, when would I meet the right time to give the gift box to Lin Ximeng?

Seeing that I was about to get to the road, and seeing that it was about to be time to say goodbye, I resolutely took out the gift box and handed it to Lin Ximeng nervously: "It's for you." ”

With the afterglow of the sunset on the horizon, this scene is very similar to that of three years ago.

Just like then, Lin Ximeng smiled and refused in surprise and embarrassment: "No need, thank you." ”

I also laughed and explained, "This is not a physical gift, this is a poem I gave you, keep it as a souvenir." If you can't read it, you can ask me. Of course, if you read it, you can also tell me. ”

Lin Ximeng thought for a while, and finally took the gift box with peace of mind, and said softly, "Okay, thank you." ”

Finally, my heart that had been hanging was finally released.

So, when will we meet next time? What kind of scene will it be? What would each other look like in each other's eyes? What kind of mood will it be?