As I held the math paper for the college entrance examination, I realized that I had been deceived.

Are so many mock exams really mock college entrance exams? Is it really the college entrance examination that did so many exam papers in various provinces in the past? Why is this math paper in my hand more difficult than the Olympiad questions I have done? I've never missed the last question on my math paper, but why can't I even answer the penultimate question at this moment? There is also the additional question, didn't the teachers say that we, as the first candidates under the new college entrance examination program, will not embarrass us, and these 40 points are almost given to us for free?

Why is it completely wrong?

In my entire exam career, I have never been in such a helpless situation. Is this really the college entrance examination?

I looked around, the tension seemed to be pressing on everyone's nerves, and time rushed in with the sunlight coming in through one window and leaving through another.

It's really a college entrance exam! It's just that I never realized that I was in Jiangsu before!

Physics and chemistry are more prominent, and the symbols that fall on the paper and are just two A+ are set aside. The suppressed mathematics, which was already mediocre Chinese, relied on stable English scores to pull up, so that my final result was not so ugly.

Once again, history is playing out. Xiaosheng was abnormal, pressing the score line to enter the best junior high school; The high school entrance examination is abnormal, and he enters the best high school with the score line; This time, I still haven't been able to get rid of the abnormality of the college entrance examination, is this fate? Is it true that I can't escape fate? If so, whose score will I press this time?

In the face of this final score, I can't go to the most ideal university in my heart, and even those famous universities in the province that I once didn't care about. As for those unknown schools in the province, how can I accept them? How can I accept being with my classmates who are usually below the middle of the class, and mixing with my classmates in the regular class?

I can seem to see them on campus when they ask me curiously why I got here, and I'm speechless.

What a humiliation is this?

In such a situation, if you want to go to an excellent university, you can only go outside the province.

So, what about Lin Ximeng? How did she do on the exam? Will she also go outside the province? Or in the province? Or is it in Nanjing? Will I happen to be in the same school as her? Will I happen to be in the same city as her?

According to my understanding of Lin Ximeng's ability, if I was in the same school as her, wouldn't it be an ordinary university I couldn't bear to go to? How can I be worthy of the hard work of teachers and parents over the years? How can I be worthy of my glorious image in the hearts of my friends? How can I live up to my ardent desire for self-competence?

And if I don't go to those ordinary universities, I'm doomed to leave Jiangsu. Leaving Jiangsu means leaving Linxi Dream. After so many years of unremitting efforts, seeing that Lin Ximeng has been able to take the initiative to greet me, and has gradually moved closer to my heart, our relationship is about to blossom, but is it going to be torn apart at this moment? But at this moment, are we destined to be separated? But at this moment, let everything go up in smoke?

My only hope may be that Lin Ximeng can perform extraordinarily. Will she be able to reach my score and then be faced with the same choices as me and end up in the same place, a place that I can accept, a place that she admires? But I know how slim that hope is.

This is the first time I feel the impermanence of fate, the first time I feel like a child abandoned by fate, I want to hold everything firmly in my hands, but I find that it is just a pool of flowing water, I want to get a harvest in Lin Ximeng and my own life at the same time, but I find that there is really a time in this world when fish and bear's paws cannot have both.

However, I was not reconciled, just for that glimmer of hope, I still filled in two Nanjing schools on the second and third choices, but unfortunately it was only filled, like a moth, before throwing itself into the flames, remembering the flower that it wanted to pick tomorrow, and it was destined to never pick that flower again.

By the time the acceptance letter came in, I was destined to go far away.

I have never been able to let go of Lin Ximeng, she has always been my favorite girl. I've never seen her as a normal friend, it's just that maybe she only sees me as an ordinary friend. And I, forced by the prejudice against early love in the eyes of adults as a student, has been holding back my heart's urgent desire, and can only get along with her as a friend in daily life.

Now, when the college entrance examination has ended, when the dust has settled, is it possible to break the shackles of the world and release the desire of the heart?

In any case, now is also the last chance, it is time for me to show my attitude towards Lin Ximeng, when she and I are still in the same city, when everything is still in time.

I figured out that even after this confession, we were destined to be separated, but before that we had at least a little more than a month to fall in love.

I had been brewing for most of the summer, and finally mustered up the courage to say to Lin Ximeng on QQ: "Hey, the college entrance examination is intact and I haven't seen you for a long time." Is there time this Saturday? Please have a meal. ”

The avatar on the screen is gray, and I know she rarely goes on QQ, but I still hope she can see it soon. At that time, the students did not have mobile phones, and this was the only way I could contact Lin Ximeng. As long as she has turned on the computer and logged in to QQ, she can see it.

A day passed and nothing happened. Staring at the still gray avatar on the screen, I had mixed feelings. What if she couldn't see it all the time? What if it was already past Saturday when she saw it? What if she sees it and ignores me?

I turned on the computer every day, staring at Lin Ximeng's avatar on the screen, expecting it to light up one day.

It wasn't until the evening of the third day that Lin Ximeng's avatar finally danced in the lower right corner of the computer, like a ray of light, illuminating my world.

I immediately came to my senses, and excitedly clicked on the chat box, which read Lin Ximeng's reply: "I'm not sure now, anyway, there are still a few days, I'll tell you when the time comes." ”

Seeing her so-called "uncertainty", my burning heart couldn't help but cool down again.

I quickly typed a few lines: "Has your family equipped you with a mobile phone?" My number is ......, you can text me when the time comes. ”

I'm afraid that she will disappear again, I'm afraid that I'll have to face endless waiting after I go offline today, and I'm afraid that the avatar will never light up again after it turns gray. Only by knowing her phone number can we keep talking to her in a more timely manner.

At that time, parents would not equip their children with mobile phones before graduating from high school, but they would definitely prepare this communication tool for their children who were about to embark on the journey to college. If she's like me and has her phone ready, we'll be able to get in touch more easily.

Lin Ximeng quickly replied to me: "Well, I also got my phone ready not long ago." My number is ......"

I was ecstatic, and in this way, the line was established. I hurriedly replied, "Okay, that's it, wait for your news!" ”

Although I wasn't sure if we could successfully invite Lin Ximeng, at least we exchanged mobile phone numbers with each other, which brought some comfort. Then just wait quietly and get ready to prepare.

I bought a beautiful and small gift box with the verses I had written by hand. Since high school, I have written countless poems for her, and I picked and chose the most suitable one.

It was a Tibetan poem, written a year earlier. In order to remember the affection between us, I hid the homonym of our names in the first word of each poem. If she could see it, she would understand my mind, and if she couldn't, at least the beautiful verses would move her deeply and make her fall in love with me even more.

This is the best way to confess, just like a pot of tea, elegant in view, subtle in drinking, profound in taste, and endlessly memorable.

On Friday, I was taking a lunch break at home when a crisp bell broke the silence in my room. I looked at my phone, and it was Lin Ximeng calling. She didn't miss the appointment, she should have said tomorrow, she should have come to tell me that she agreed to my invitation.

I quickly pressed the answer button: "Hey-"

"Hey, Chen Sifan. I thought about it, the college entrance examination is over, and I am about to enter the university, so it may not be easy for everyone to meet in the future, so it is time to get together. Well, I'll have this meal tomorrow. ”

"This ...... Why are you embarrassed to invite? "How can there be a reason to let a girl have a treat on a first solo date? She's kind to say, I should stand my ground.

"The main thing is that I want to bring a girlfriend, so why am I embarrassed to have you treated? In addition, in this case, you can also call Song Hongyi, and there will be more people. ”

"Uh......" I was momentarily speechless.

I thought about the situation where she rejected me, so that nothing happened, and then tried to make another appointment; I thought about what she promised me, that we could happily immerse ourselves in the world of the two of us and talk freely, and that I could confide in her all the words that were buried in my heart.

However, I never expected that there would be a situation where she was in charge of the party, and I was only one of several of her friends at the party.

Maybe I'm too anxious, maybe she's too embarrassed to face me directly, maybe I should give her a buffer time and take her time at a pace she can get used to.

"How?" After a short silence, Lin Ximeng asked.

I had no choice but to say "okay".

"Well, then come to Lao Cai at 4 p.m. tomorrow, I know a barbecue restaurant there, it's pretty good."

"yes, okay." I said with a slight disappointment.

"That's it, bye-bye!"

"Bye-bye."

I hung up the phone listlessly, slowly putting the phone on the table, unable to calm down for a long time.

I quickly dialed Song Hongyi's phone and told him about Lin Ximeng's invitation.

"That's it, it's okay, Lin Ximeng also promised to eat together, which means that he still has a good impression of you, I'm afraid that you will be embarrassed alone, so I suggested calling me." Song Hongyi said, "Or, when the time comes, I'll take that girlfriend away and create a chance for you and Lin Ximeng to be alone." ”

After listening to Song Hongyi's comfort, I felt better: "Hey, I'm really sorry, I have you, Brother Lao." ”

"It's okay, it's my honor to help you chase Lin Xi's dream, haha."

"Thank you in advance, see you then."

"Well, I'll see you then."

Putting down the phone, I still sighed. originally wanted to invite Lin Ximeng to dinner alone, but was invited by Lin Ximeng instead. I wanted to sit in a Western restaurant and enjoy the warm world of two people, but it became four people making skewers together in the market. Hey——, it's better to meet for a meal than nothing.