I thought about He Xiaoyu's words repeatedly, and every time I met Lin Ximeng, I tried to find an effective breakthrough.

However, when it comes to a specific matter, Lin Ximeng always can't stop like a machine gun, and he can pull a lot of things up suddenly. It's a good thing for me, and it's so easy for me who has been struggling to find a topic; But now, for a person who desperately wants to introduce the topic to a deeper level, it is really impenetrable, and there is no room for me to play at all.

I watched her talk so devotedly, watched her smile so happily, how could I bear to interrupt her speech, how could I bear to suddenly talk about a serious matter?

One day at noon, there was a sudden shower at the end of school. The rain is big, it's not big, it's small, it's still quite unpleasant to hit the face, many students don't wear raincoats, they are hard-headed, facing the strong wind, and they are full of strength to hold on, and their faces are very painful.

I'm always on guard, and I always have a raincoat in the trunk of my electric car. I felt I couldn't take it anymore, so I put on my raincoat.

Driving to the traffic light intersection, I was pleasantly surprised to find Lin Ximeng. She didn't wear a raincoat, and like the other classmates who didn't, she must have had a hard time.

This is a good opportunity to get closer, as long as I take off my raincoat and hand it to Lin Ximeng.

I'm planning more detailed steps in my head. I'll go up and say hello later, and then I will mention the rain to Lin Ximeng, and then we both stop the car, and then I take off my raincoat and help Lin Ximeng put it on, or at least give it to Lin Ximeng, watch her put it on, and finally we will continue to talk on the bike.

OK, that's it! It was just perfect!

When the red light turned into a green light, the army of students who stopped at the intersection finally moved, and I found a breakthrough in the back row of the line, and I accelerated to Lin Ximeng's side.

"Lin Ximeng, good afternoon!"

"Huh! Cat Little Er! ”

"You didn't have a raincoat with you?"

"yes, I forgot to bring it."

I was about to talk about taking off my raincoat and giving it to her, but suddenly I realized that once I really got started, I couldn't even take half a step. There is an urgent desire in my heart, but I don't know how to organize the language in my mouth. It's too uncomfortable, so it's better to use the usual opening remarks to adjust the atmosphere, and delay the time by the way.

"How's it going?" I said.

Lin Ximeng then gushed endlessly.

But I'm afraid that only sixty percent of my energy is listening to her, and the rest of my mind is nervously thinking about how to give her the raincoat properly.

We were surrounded by crowds on the way to and from school, propelling us forward like a rushing tide, with little room to pull over. Maybe even if I said I wanted to lend her the raincoat, I wouldn't be able to stop and give it to her. I hesitated.

If you think about it, this drizzle is not powerful, and it is the same whether you wear a raincoat or not. The streets were full of people walking with their heads stuffed without raincoats. Among them, I was dressed in a raincoat and looked different and funny.

Maybe I really don't have to wear a raincoat, maybe I should take it off and put it back in the trunk, maybe I shouldn't have this damn embarrassing raincoat with me. The most appropriate thing to do now should be to continue to chat with Lin Ximeng while riding.

As the saying goes, "again and again, again and again, three times and exhaustion", thinking, thinking, I finally decided to give up.

Until we parted at the fork in the road again, I didn't say a word about the rainy day, didn't make a gesture of warmth, didn't make a little thoughtful. Everything was as usual, as on any uneventful day.

The difference was the mood after the separation, and I didn't feel happy at all. What I wanted to do, what I should do, I didn't do it after all. I thought it would be over, but when it really passed, all kinds of regrets surged and I was sad.

I was wearing a raincoat, she wasn't wearing a raincoat, and no matter how I talked to her all the way, it felt like I was bullying her, as if I was taunting her, as if I was deliberately wearing a raincoat to show off in front of her.

In this way, instead of showing that I care, I show that I am mean. Isn't that a great impression?

No, something has to be done to make up for it.

I consulted He Xiaoyu.

"In any case, it would be nice to show that I should show that I care about her," he said. ”

"How do you express it?"

"If you don't have the courage to say it to your face, write it down on paper."

I felt right, so I tore a piece of paper from my homework book and wrote, "I'm sorry, I should have lent you a raincoat when it rained at noon, I regret it." I don't know if you're soaking wet when you get home, you won't catch a cold, I'm so worried about you. ”

After I finished writing, I read it silently, and it felt like it was quite numb. I've never said anything so numb, so numb that I can't stand it.

I showed it to He Xiaoyu, he agreed, smiled a little, and felt that it was no problem to send it out.

Suspicious, I still came to the door of Class 7 with a hint of uneasiness and shyness. I didn't dare to call Lin Ximeng directly, after all, this was not an ordinary letter, and I didn't have the courage to hand it over to her in person.

I called out Song Hongyi, asked him to hand it over to Lin Ximeng, and then hurried back.

When I returned to my seat, I didn't feel calm, on the contrary, I was more panicked. The original remorse became more unbridled with the help of fear, spreading and devouring in my heart.

If I hadn't done anything as it was, maybe nothing would have happened. And now, in order to express my concern for Lin Ximeng, I deliberately wrote down those words that made my scalp tingle, even I couldn't accept it, what would Lin Ximeng think?

He Xiaoyu thinks it is feasible, that is his Taoism is high, he has rich experience, this level of meat and hemp may be just a piece of cake for him. And Lin Ximeng and I are both newcomers, I understand her temperament, if I can't accept it, how can she accept it?

A bad premonition filled his mind, as if the sky was about to fall, as if the earth was about to crack, as if a tsunami was already brewing in the distance.

This note will be devastating to me, and all the good things will come to naught!

What I should really regret is not that I didn't lend Lin Ximeng the raincoat, but that I should have sent this terrible note without any trouble!

How could I be confused?

The rest of the day, I spent the whole day in anxiety, the whole afternoon, dinner time, and then evening self-study. However, the atmosphere of this evening self-study seems to be a bit strange.

The temperature between Tian Xiao and Yang Mo seemed to have dropped to the extreme.

Tian Xiao didn't turn around once, she was able to write her homework quietly, which was really rare. Even if she didn't want to talk to Yang Mo, she would at least talk to Qiao Qiao when she was tired of writing.

Yang Mo kept his head buried, his face was solemn, silent, and he looked even lower than me.

What has happened between them in recent times, and why is there such a contrast?

During the evening self-study class, I took a walk in the corridor with He Xiaoyu as usual, but my mood was not as relaxed as usual.

"The note was sent out?"

"Sent out."

"How's it going?"

I was silent and sighed. I don't know how it will turn out now, but I know it's not going to work out well.

"What's wrong? You seem to have something on your mind, I'll hear if you say it. "He Xiaoyu finally noticed my abnormality.

"Hey, it's a long story, I still don't want to talk about it."

He Xiaoyu didn't ask any more.

When we passed by the floor where Class 7 was located, I noticed Lin Ximeng lying on the railing with my table mates from afar. It's strange, she never appears in the corridor during recess, how did she come out today?

I slowed down and looked at her closely. Through the side face, I saw that it didn't look like the usual Lin Xi dream.

Today, she doesn't have a smile on her face; Today, her eyes are empty and confused; Today, she doesn't have any youthful vitality in her body. Looking at her line of sight, it was the round moon in the sky. And the bright moonlight reflected on her face, and it was as white as frost.

We cautiously walked behind her without saying hello. As we reached the other end of the level, I looked back at her.

She was still lying motionless on the railing with her table mates, looking into the distance, at the full moon in the sky. It seems that he is not saying anything, as if he has been pondering something.

Usually Lin Ximeng, always smiling, whether it is when she is satisfied, or when she is in adversity, just like she wrote in my classmates: "Smile is self-confidence, persistence is will, please cherish them, they will create a better future for you!" ”

I think that "smile" must be the excellent quality that Lin Ximeng has always maintained, and it is also the belief that is integrated into the depths of her soul, and it is also the most touching place for me.

But today, the smile disappeared from her face!

What took away Lin Ximeng's smile?

I was even more upset, and it was probably me who was to blame!

It was a deliberate move by me that killed Lin Ximeng's smile!

I felt deep self-reproach and felt that I had deeply hurt Lin Ximeng. I shouldn't have listened to He Xiaoyu's bad idea and sent that note, all of this could have been avoided.

However, I really want to give Lin Ximeng deep care and protection, I really want to tell Lin Ximeng that I really care about her, I really want to tell Lin Ximeng that I love her very much, and I don't want to be friends with her.

However, I don't know how to express this love, I don't know what Lin Ximeng thinks of me, I don't know how to deepen our relationship.

It's really hard to love someone!

Sometimes the roses that are sent out have no petals and no fragrance, and some are just thorns.

The next morning, I received a reply from Lin Ximeng. I didn't expect Lin Ximeng to write me a reply, I hoped that she would forget about it and act as if nothing had happened.

However, when Song Hongyi handed Lin Ximeng's note into my hands, I finally understood that something was destined to have happened.

And I didn't dare to open the note at school.