Since my sophomore year, the school has finally changed dormitories in order to facilitate management, and since then, I have finally lived with my classmates in the sublimation class.

In my new environment, I met new roommates.

Geng Qiming, a tall guy from Shandong, has not studied very hard like me in the past year, at least not seriously before the exam. I am used to listening carefully in class, trying to memorize it in my head, and I am too lazy to review before the exam; Geng Qiming always doubts whether it is really meaningful to study these courses, not only doubts the content he has studied since college, but also doubts the courses he has learned in middle school, not only all the courses he has ever studied, but also the entire education system.

"Hey——, do you think the calculus, physics, or anything we learn is useful? I originally wanted to choose the computer, but the professors who gave us computer classes said that these things were useless, so why did they arrange for us to waste time? ”

"Hey——, you guys didn't do well in the college entrance examination to come here! If you want me to say, the reform of the college entrance examination every year is only to treat the symptoms but not the root cause, and it is absolutely useless if the system itself is not changed! ”

"Hey——, have you seen it, there has been a scandal in the news recently that exposed such and such a place. In fact, there are big social problems behind this, and the state is inactive in many things. ”

Geng Qiming complained about these things, I just echoed and smiled, although I also felt the same way, but what's the use of thinking about these all day long, the most important thing is to take your own path.

The other roommate is a young man from Anhui, who is slightly chubby, a typical academic bully, and his overall score ranks in the top three in the sublimation class; Lively and outgoing, sociable, always with a smile on his face, he usually spends little time in the dormitory at night, always in the study room, or drinks and eats meat with his buddies who had a good time in his original class, or goes to the hometown party.

"How many of you fellows will there be?" I asked.

"A hundred."

"Why is there no Jiangsu Hometown Association?" I sighed again.

"Why is there no Shandong Hometown Association?" Geng Qiming also sighed.

I looked at Geng Qiming with tears in my eyes, as if I had found an organization.

After classes every day, Geng Qiming always looked preoccupied, frowning anxiously, as if he was not interested in everything around him, and there were only lingering doubts in his mind: Why do you want to take these classes? What exactly do I want to do in the future? When will the gap between rich and poor in society be narrowed? When will people's qualities improve? When will the party and the state really improve the lives of the masses of the people?

He always mentioned this to me, saying that the more he thought about it, the more confused he became, and the more he thought about it, the more painful he became.

"Hey, I couldn't sleep again last night." When he got up early in the morning, Geng Qiming looked at me who was full of energy and said with a sad face.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Think about the problem. I can't figure it out a lot. ”

"What's the problem?"

"You won't understand."

"Thinking about something resentful again? It's good not to think about it. ”

"I always think about it unconsciously." Geng Qiming looked at me listlessly, "Hey, I also wish I could be as carefree as you." ”

Maybe because I'm a cat, I really don't understand it, and I don't bother to understand the human world, but from the perspective of comforting him, I still said, "I've thought about these things too, and I agree with some of your opinions, but I don't think as deeply as you think." ”

"You're so naïve that you won't understand how sinister this society is."

"Maybe." Looking at his innocence, I think his vision must be very mature.

Geng Qiming has always kept thinking about these issues, and has always shared the things in his heart with his classmates.

When he said to me, I agreed, but I really never thought about these questions, and I didn't know how to evaluate them from a human point of view, so I could only laugh and reluctantly agree, and there was nothing to discuss with him; When he said it to most of his classmates, they would just smile and nod their heads, never taking it to heart, and usually changing the topic before he could finish speaking. However, in the crowd, there was only one small girl from Hubei who was different, named Fang Cuilan.

This girl is not only shorter, but even the facial features on her face appear to be one size smaller than ordinary people, but the overall look is quite exquisite. I have never seen such a delicate face, as if it had been carefully carved by a craftsman. She exudes a rustic atmosphere from the countryside and gives a strong sense of earthiness. She is accustomed to studying steadfastly, thinking seriously, and has always been among the best in the sublimation class.

Perhaps because of her love of thinking, when Geng Qiming confided in her about her thoughts on society and life, she was also able to put forward her own opinions. Although these opinions are often refuting him, the ability to discuss this in depth makes Geng Qiming's eyes shine. finally met someone who could discuss the world's plans together, Geng Qiming was very happy.

So, after school, Geng Qiming and Fang Cuilan can always be seen walking side by side. My roommate and I listened silently, not understanding what they were saying, but still looking amazing. Later, the four of us gradually became good friends.

There are many opportunities to join the party in the university, and there are several places in the class every semester. However, we have never applied for the dormitory, probably because we have been influenced by Geng Qiming's angry youth for a long time, but I think it is more because I am too lazy to copy those tedious applications and ideological reports.

"Your 'Fangfang' has already applied to join the party, don't you think about it?" The roommate teased Geng Qiming.

"What's my 'Fangfang', I only treat her as an ordinary classmate, don't think about it."

"Look at how excited you are chatting with Fang Cuilan every time, and you still say no."

"Fatty, if you talk about me and Fang Cuilan, I'm in a hurry with you!"

"Okay, let's stop talking." The roommate stopped with a smile, just joking, Geng Qiming became serious.

On the one hand, in my experience, the chat between Geng Qiming and Fang Cuilan was really just a normal discussion, as serious as an academic exchange, so that I couldn't understand anything; On the other hand, I have become disgusted by this kind of random suspicion of other people's emotional status and random hat buttoning.

"It's fatty, you always go out early and return late these days, is there something wrong?" Geng Qiming asked rhetorically.

"Our fellow villagers will be very lively."

"Look at you smiling so much, there must be a ghost!"

"No, no, you're thinking too much."

"Eh, Mao Xiaoer, what about you? Do you have any situation. ”

"What can happen, you know, I stay in my dorm every day like you."

"Do you want to find a girlfriend?"

"Hey, it depends."

Ever since I decided to just consider Lin Ximeng as a friend, I have always felt empty in my heart.

Since the second grade of primary school, I have never known what it feels like to be empty, and there will always be a girl living in my heart, from Yan Jinfeng to Lin Ximeng, no matter who it is, it has always served as an important spiritual pillar for me, pushing me to continue to study hard and climb to higher peaks.

For more than ten years, I have never tasted the feeling of not having someone I like, and now, I feel empty inside, as if I have lost interest in everything around me, as if I am listless in everything, and I seem to feel that the future cat life is full of confusion.

The only belief that exists in my heart may be my uniqueness as a cat person.

Also since elementary school, although I have not revealed my identity, I have never stopped making cats synonymous with me, painting cat faces, learning cat barking, practicing cat paws, and letting my various accounts have the word "cat" in their nicknames. Every time I go to a new group, when I introduce myself, I always tell everyone to use "cat" as their nickname.

To this day, all the students in the class know my dedication to cats, especially my simulated cat meows. They complimented me on how good I could be, and I was so shocked every time I performed that sometimes even the cats on the side of the road would look back when they heard it.

I listened to it and felt extremely proud of the secret.

However, cat people are also human beings after all, and in every lonely night, no matter how much they put their soul on the cat's body, they can't make up for the emptiness of losing a person in their hearts.

Since I don't think about Lin Ximeng anymore, I might be able to find a girlfriend I like in college.

I have also observed the female classmates in the class, and there are only a few, none of which make me feel the kind of feeling that Lin Ximeng brought me; Walking on campus, I have also seen some beautiful women that have dazzled my eyes, but there is always a sense of distance that makes me feel out of reach. They have walked past me countless times, but what does it have to do with me? On the contrary, it is the shadow of Lin Ximeng, which appears in my heart again and again.

I'm afraid that I will never meet a girl in the world who makes me as excited as Lin Ximeng, and I don't know how she is now, whether she has already talked about a boyfriend. I think about it a lot.

In a blink of an eye, it was Lin Ximeng's birthday again, and I decided to send a congratulatory text message again, at noon: "Lin Ximeng, happy birthday!" How have you been doing? ”

In the evening, I received a reply from Lin Ximeng: "It's been good lately, thank you!" ”

It's really rare to reply in a more timely manner. I stared at the screen of my phone and thought about whether or not to reply again. After all, we haven't been in touch for more than half a year, are we still friends? Or should it be considered a familiar stranger?

As an ordinary friend, a simple greeting is considered to have been delivered, and that is enough. However, I would love to ask her if she has a boyfriend, but what's the point of me asking her that question? What if you don't talk about it? I don't have the conditions to be her boyfriend. What about talking? I still can't be her boyfriend.

On the contrary, if we talk about it, I will feel more at ease. I can die with this heart, live my life in peace, and conform to the blessing of her in my poem. However, thinking about the college where there are more boys and fewer girls, I am really afraid that she has been targeted by some boys.

By the way, what about Lu Feng? Isn't he also in Nanjing? Will he still keep in touch with Lin Ximeng? Could it have already been done? This guy who always bullies Lin Ximeng, this ruffian bad boy, I can't accept him to defile the purest Lin Ximeng in my heart no matter what! I'd rather Lin Ximeng be abducted by someone I don't know, and I definitely can't accept this guy!