"Toot-toot——, hey?" Before the phone rang a few times, Lin Ximeng's high-pitched and crisp voice came from there, and it sounded like he was in a good mood.

"Hey, Lin Ximeng." My mood instantly improved by half.

"Eh, Mao Xiaoer, what's the matter?"

"It's your birthday, I wish you a happy birthday!"

"yes, haha. I didn't expect you to call me. ”

"I didn't expect you to answer the phone so quickly."

"Haha."

"Well, huh...... How are you going to celebrate today? ”

"We're planning to have dinner in the whole dormitory, and we're on our way to the restaurant."

"Yes, you need to have a good meal and celebrate. I'm on my way out to eat right now. ”

"Do you have dinner in your dorm room too?"

"No, I'm going to eat outside the school alone."

"Oh. Why didn't you spend time with your roommates? ”

I really don't know how to explain this, I'm afraid it's not easy to understand the difference between the sublimation class and the ordinary class, and I don't want to tell her about my insurance research so early.

"They don't bother to go out. Unlike me, I want to have a good meal and celebrate today. ”

"What are you celebrating?"

"Celebrate your birthday."

"Okay. I have your heart. Well, we're almost at the hotel, so let's not talk about it. ”

"Well, I won't say much about it, I wish you a good day!"

"Thank you and have a nice day!"

"Okay, bye-bye."

"Bye~"

After hanging up the phone, I was excited. Knowing that Lin Ximeng was safe and sound, and that he was so happy, I was relieved.

The stall downstairs in the dormitory was jokingly called the "Nine Canteens" by my classmates, and I silently walked into a newly opened stall and ordered a pork rib rice that I had never eaten before. There were only all kinds of fried rice, spicy hot, snacks or something here, and it was rare to see a fresh one, so let's eat this, even if it was a good meal, it could be regarded as a remote celebration of Lin Ximeng's birthday.

I was holding the hot pork rib soup and feeling extremely happy. Happiness always doesn't know when it will come, but fortunately, it still comes, and after countless losses, it is so precious.

Soon, the first winter vacation after entering the university came on a light snowflake. I couldn't hold back the heart that desperately wanted to go home, and stepped on the sleeper car from Changsha back to Fengcheng. This bus, as when it came, departed after lunch and arrived early the next morning.

The winter morning was wet and cold, and I opened my eyes in a daze, lifted my backpack at my feet, and slowly got out of the car with the crowd. My body, which had just woken up, was blown by the cold wind outside the car, and I quickly rushed to my parents, who were already waiting at the exit of the station, and hurriedly got into the car.

On the way home, the family was excited, and the words accumulated in half a year poured out like the river that burst the embankment, until I opened the door and put down the luggage, I touched my pocket and found that the phone was gone! I've only been using my phone for half a year! It's gone! Could it be that someone stole it when he got out of the car? Or was it left in the car? The size of a mobile phone, it slipped out of my pants pocket several times when I was lying down.

The family quickly dialed the driver, who said he had checked the car before leaving the car and had not found any mobile phones.

I was anxiously hoping for even a little hope, but I was completely stunned when I heard the news. For me, it was not just a mobile phone, but the embodiment of Lin Xi's dream in my heart. The lost money is a trivial matter, and the lost phone number can also be asked again, but the picture used as the mobile phone screen, the Lin Ximeng that I finally took with full courage, broke my face, and took great risks, and the pure, lovely and beautiful face like a fairy only existed in that mobile phone, and I was nowhere to find it again.

Accompanied by my family, I bought a new one, which is a more advanced smartphone than before, with more powerful functions and superior performance, but I still can't let go of the previous mobile phone, and I can't let go of the lost photos of Lin Ximeng. That pain was like losing everything about Lin Ximeng.

I tried to contact Lin Ximeng through QQ, taking advantage of the opportunity to be in Fengcheng during the winter vacation, it is best to make an appointment to have a meal, and maybe I can find another opportunity to take another photo.

"Are you there?" Seeing Lin Ximeng, who was not online on his mobile phone, I thought about it for a while and sent a message.

"Yes." A moment later, Lin Ximeng replied.

I was overjoyed and quickly cut to the topic: "I lost my phone, can you give me your mobile phone number again?" ”

"Ah, how did you lose it?"

"I guess it was stolen from the car that came back."

"Oh, that's right. Hey, there are a lot of thieves during the Chinese New Year. Be careful. ”

"yes." I don't know if I lost it myself, if it was stolen, or if it slipped into bed and was picked up by someone with a sharp eye. In any case, the guy who picked up my phone and didn't return it was too hateful. Did he know that what he picked up might be the hope that would sustain a person's life?

"My number is XXXXXXXXXXX." Lin Ximeng happily gave me my phone number again.

"Also, when you have time this winter vacation, I want to treat you to dinner." I cut to the second topic.

"Well, there are a lot of things to do during the Chinese New Year, so I don't have time to talk about it."

"Just take a day off."

"You really don't have to invite me to dinner."

I was speechless for a while, I didn't know what to say, and after hesitating, I still knocked on my face: "Let's just have a meal together, why are you so unwilling?" ”

"Thank you for your kindness, forget it this time."

I didn't expect Lin Ximeng to refuse so resolutely, it was like a downpour that instantly extinguished the fire in my heart. It was the flame of hope, the thirst accumulated in half a year in a different place, and I hope that during this winter vacation, everyone can finally meet again in the same city. And now, when hope is frozen, I can only weakly type two words to end everything:

"Okay."

A "good" is "bad"; A "okay" cut off the entire winter vacation; A "okay" shattered all illusions about Lin Ximeng.

Lin Ximeng, Lin Ximeng, haven't you ever liked me? Every step of the way I walked with you, every word I said when I chatted with you, so warm, so sweet, just like the prince and princess in a fairy tale, the prince loves the princess, has the princess never liked the prince?

Lin Ximeng, Lin Ximeng, do you know that I miss you and worry about you all the time. Worry that you are not happy, worry that you are not used to eating, worry that you are in trouble, worry that you will not sleep well. And what I want to do is just to guard your side, make your life colorful, accompany you to eat all over the streets, eliminate your worries and sorrows, and watch you sleep peacefully like a child forever, with a sweet smile.

Perhaps, all of this will remain a fantasy in the end, and it has been predestined from the beginning. The distance from Changsha to Nanjing separates the entire universe. In that case, I'm afraid I'm destined to be just a cloud floating through your life. And I'm willing to be such a cloud.

"May you be a cloud in your life,

Snuggle up to your windowsill.

Looking at you cutely,

Happy as an innocent child.

Picking up a beam of sunshine on the horizon,

Warm your charming face,

Banish the sorrow of your heart.

Open my strong arms,

Shelter you from the wind and rain,

Pamper you for a romantic time.

May you be a cloud in your life,

Always on your windowsill.

Write with you,

A fairytale future.

But now,

I have to leave.

Howling winds,

Urging me to embark on a journey far away.

Maybe I'll float to another windowsill,

Maybe I'll float back to you.

But no matter what,

You don't have to wait.

You can go and look for another cloud,

In my place,

Eternity in,

Your windowsill. ”

That night, I looked at the dark night sky and wrote down the infinite emotion in my heart. If I am destined to not be able to accompany you to the end, I hope that there will be an angel who will love you for me, make your life colorful, accompany you to eat all over the streets, eliminate your troubles and sorrows, and watch you sleep peacefully like a child forever, with a sweet smile.

When the New Year's bell rang, I seemed to be a different person, when I returned to the campus again, looking at the pairs of couples on the road, I no longer felt envious, never felt lonely again, and never took the initiative to contact Lin Ximeng again.

It is often said that when the four years of college expire, it is also the time when many couples are destined to break up. Today's couples walking hand in hand on the road, who will be whose clouds, who can guard their windowsills? If you are destined to part one day, why bother so much to pursue it?

I laughed, looking at the couples, laughing more and more happily. I seem to understand a truth in the world, that seemingly beautiful love on campus is actually a hidden trap, which has harmed so many people. And this time, I won't be fooled again.

"Take my ambition and laugh at the flowers." I laughed.

I was determined to make good use of the time I spent in college to improve myself, and when the four years passed, I could be fulfilled, and those couples would only be in vain.

The time of the day - February 14.

More than a month later, I unexpectedly received a text message: "Happy birthday Chen Sifan!" ”

It turned out to be sent by Lin Ximeng! Oh my God, she remembered my birthday! She even took the initiative to send me a blessing on my birthday!

However, I wasn't very excited, and I silently replied, "Thank you!" ”

"I understand the poem you gave me. Do you want to say: Lin Ximeng, Chen Sifan, friendship lasts forever! ”

"Amazing, you can see it!"

"Hahaha."

I didn't reply to anything, my eyes were blurred by warm tears, and I was already at a loss. Obviously he was determined to live without her, but he received news from her at this moment. Should I be happy, but why do I feel a faint trace of sadness? I thought I had let go of my hands, but why did I see her in the palm of my hand?

Perhaps, Lin Ximeng has always had me in her heart, and the lack of time in her mouth is really no time. Or perhaps, Lin Ximeng never had me in her heart, and the friendship in her mouth is really just friendship.

Failure after failure has made me dare not make more illusions, and if I don't fantasize, I won't be disappointed, and if I don't be disappointed, I won't be sad. This time, I'd rather choose to believe the latter. Lin Ximeng's blessings on my birthday were just ordinary greetings between friends, and they were in return for the blessings I sent on her birthday last time, just like when Song Hongyi and I agreed to treat each other on each other's birthdays in junior high school.

So, after my birthday, I still didn't take the initiative to contact Lin Ximeng, so I spent the whole semester like this, and I didn't ask Lin Ximeng to eat during the summer vacation.