(a)

"Hey, you're awake? You slept so deeply last night! The woman in the carriage said to Jia Xiaodao, who was opening her eyes.

"Hehe, I don't remember when I slept last night." Jia Xiaodao rubbed his eyes.

"After we finished playing poker, you said you were dozing, and you fell asleep after a while." The woman said.

"Really? It seems that I am too tired, and I haven't slept well in this time! ”

"Sleep comfortably, last night was like a dead pig!"

"Well, that's good, finally got a good night's sleep."

"By the way, you haven't told me about your university yet, tell me, what's going on?" The woman seemed to be in interest again.

"Hey, you're born to be a paparazzi. Well, I'll tell you after dinner. After finishing speaking, Jia Xiaodao ordered two bowls of porridge, two eggs, and a pickle. Give, eat some porridge, I'm in for a treat! Jia Xiaodao said to the woman.

"I'm so embarrassed, I'll pay for it myself!"

"What's polite, look down on me?" Jia Xiaodao showed a slightly angry look.

"It seems that it is difficult to be gracious, so it is better to be respectful than to obey your fate!" The woman took the porridge and ate it.

Some of the other passengers in the carriage are still asleep, some are eating with relish, and some are gnawing on chicken legs and pig tails, and it seems that life is extraordinary. The conductor was replaced with a new batch.

Jia Xiaodao looked at his phone, and it was already 8 o'clock in the morning. Jia Xiaodao remembered the embarrassment of his escape from Hunan, and he couldn't help but have some palpitations in his heart.

Yes, this train, it's been more than 9 hours. Hometown, he thought, was coming soon. This time I said goodbye, and I almost couldn't go back.

"Tell me, don't be cranky. You've been thinking about it for a while, and you don't know how much is going to happen. The woman said, "If your life is a novel, then this writer may have written the storylines of Lin Feng, Wang Hong, and Xiong Yang in your bedroom!" ”

"Hehe, do you want to be a writer?"

"This is a secret!" The woman said with a smile.

"Hehe, it's nothing! Is it better for writers to be poor, or not to be poor! Jia Xiaodao said to the woman.

"Hehe, don't you eat oranges?" The woman peeled an orange and handed it to Jia Xiaodao.

"Thank you!"

At this time, the passengers in the carriage opened the curtains, and the sunlight shone in and fell on Jia Xiaodao's body. Jia Xiaodao's body began to glow. "If only I could hold the sun!"

"Yes, there is sunshine everywhere in life, as long as you believe in it!"

"Really?"

"Yes, as long as you believe in yourself, there is nothing you can't do!"

"By the way, what are you doing in Hunan?" Jia Xiaodao asked.

"Go home! What about you going to Hunan? The woman asked.

"Looking for a job, I didn't expect to be deceived."

"It's so exciting, tell me how you were deceived?"

"What are you doing, investigate."

"Hey, I'm a writer. I want to write your story into a novel and make it into a TV series! ”

"Haha, as I expected. You keep asking me, and I know you're either a journalist or a writer. ”

"Hehe, you're welcome. Continue with your story. ”

Jia Xiaodao has actually been guessing in his heart that this woman should be an investigator. He didn't want to say so much to her, but Jia Xiaodao had stayed in MLM for too long at that time, and he had been isolated from the world for too long. It would be better to have someone to listen to him tell a story.

So, I talked to the woman about her story.

The train beeped and made a loud sound. Yes, it doesn't stop driving to the next stop, tirelessly.

(b)

Although Jia Xiaodao and Lin Feng are in the same dormitory, because Lin Feng is too overflowing in love. Jia Xiaodao didn't know that in Lin Feng's world of women, there was such a simple and kind girl. It's a pity that it wasn't until I met Xu Anqi in the hotel that Jia Xiaodao met Xu Anqi for the first time.

In the dormitory, Dr. He still bragged about ** knowledge to everyone, and told us about ** eighteen kinds of martial arts in the tone of a pioneer. Wang Hong is still a pedantic student who reads to death, writing articles, reading books, and writing letters every day. No one has read the letter he wrote. Jia Xiaodao thought, maybe in his letter, he recorded the story of their dormitory and their youth.

In college, Wang Hong failed to talk about love. Because, the criteria for college girls to choose men have been changed from excellent grades to rich and handsome. It is difficult to find love for a dull type like Wang Hong.

Among Jia Xiaodao's girlfriends, there is a girl who is one year older than Jia Xiaodao, to be exact, Jia Xiaodao should call her senior sister. Jia Xiaodao met her in an Internet café, when Jia Xiaodao was surfing the Internet, and she was sitting next to Jia Xiaodao. It was a very sunny day, and the sun was shining through the windows, shining on the floor of the Internet café.

"Hello, do you have a cigarette?" The girl asked Jia Xiaodao.

"Oh, smoke? Yes. As he spoke, Jia Xiaodao took out a Marlboro cigarette from his pocket and gave it to the girl.

"Thank you!" The girl took one out of Jia Xiaodao's cigarette case and said, "Is there a fire?" ”

"Okay." Jia Xiaodao lit it to the girl.

The girl took a puff, her eyes flashed, and asked, "How big?" Didn't see you much. ”

"Oh, I'm a freshman, just here." Jia Xiaodao began to look at the girl seriously, she was painting and talking about makeup, her skin was as white as milk, her lips were ruddy, and her teeth were white. It's a beautiful woman.

"Oh, yes, there's another bunch of deceived kids!" The girl said with a smile.

"Classmate, I'm not a little kid, I'm a young man!"

"Haha, you're so funny!"

"Where, I'm just confirming!"

"What's it called?" The girl asked, spitting out a smoke ring.

"Jia Xiaodao, Jia Xiaodao's Jia, Jia Xiaodao's Yu."

"What, did you introduce the name like that?" The girl was surprised.

"How do you introduce that?"

"That's not how it was introduced, anyway. By the way, just call me Sister Ying in the future! ”

"Why do you call you Sister Ying, I'm older than you!"

"Let you call it, why are you hesitating?" The girl was slightly angry.

"Hehe, it's a pleasure to meet you."

"I hope so!"

Jia Xiaodao and Sister Ying met like this.

One afternoon, because he didn't have a class, Jia Xiaodao slept in the bedroom. Jia Xiaodao's mobile phone rang, he picked it up and saw that it was a text message from Sister Ying: "What are you doing, didn't you go to class?" ”

"No, I'm sleeping!"

"Promised!"

"Oh, it's falling."

"Hehe, do you want to not fall?"

"Yes."

"Then are you interested in listening to your Ying sister's class?"

"Yes, yes, but I'm afraid I won't understand."

"Do you want to listen carefully after you understand? If you want to come, go to classroom 309. ”

"Well, I'll be here in a minute!"

"Hurry up, I won't accept it when I change my mind!"

"Yes! I will definitely run ten times faster than Liu Xiang's speed, and I will never let you down, Lord Leader! ”

So Jia Xiaodao got dressed and arranged his hair, and then ran to classroom 309.

Jia Xiaodao came to the side of classroom 309, calmed down, and gently pushed the door open a little. Damn, so many people. Jia Xiaodao was a little timid. Jia Xiaodao stood at the door and didn't dare to go in.

"I'm sorry, my lord, since it was my first time on the front line, I didn't dare to brave the rain of bullets to kill the enemy, so I hesitated at the door. Please come out and take me. Jia Xiaodao sent a text message to Sister Ying.

"Hehe, it seems that you kid is tall and timid, and you are still 178 cm tall!"

"Yes, everyone has their first time, you should also be considerate and considerate of your subordinates."

"Don't be afraid, I'll be in the last row with me following you, you open the door and walk straight towards me, the teacher won't say. Hey, to put it bluntly, the university teacher doesn't care about you, maybe he thinks you're the late student in my class. Come in, and God will bless you. ”

After Jia Xiaodao received the text message, he came to the door of the classroom again, he took a deep breath, pushed the door gently, and saw the university teacher walking towards the door. Jia Xiaodao was so frightened that his soul fell, he quickly tightened the door, ran to the side, and patted his chest.

"Leader, I really don't dare to go in, let's come out, I'll wait for you at the door!"

"Hey, why are you so timid?"

"Come out, didn't you say the teacher doesn't care?"

"Okay, I'm convinced!"

After a while, Sister Ying walked out of the classroom. She looked at Jia Xiaodao and said with a smile: "Hey, I didn't expect you to be so timid." No way. ”

"Are you still going to class?"

"Don't go, it's warped, let's go out for a walk!"

"Well, that's what I mean!"

(c)

Jia Xiaodao and Ah Ying walked towards the railroad behind the school. The afternoon sun was slightly hot, with the occasional hint of wind. Sister Ying walked on Jia Xiaodao's right and asked, "How is it, do you feel cheated when you come to this university?" ”

"I feel that way, but I have to keep going." Jia Xiaodao said lightly.

"When you come to college, do you feel the urge to find a girlfriend?"

"Do you think I'm one of those people who are physically abnormal? People say that college is not in love and regrets it for a hundred years. ”

"If you fall in love in college, you will be miserable for a hundred years, believe it or not?"

"yes, it won't be that scary!"

"Hehe, you'll understand slowly."

"I saw a poem about college life on the Internet, do you want me to recite it to you?"

"Tell me."

College couples sincerely know that everyone has this hatred, and poor couples mourn everything.

The first-year girl Yang family has a girl who has just grown up, and she is raised in the deep boudoir.

There are 3,000 sophomore girls in the harem, and 3,000 are pampered.

The flowers of the junior girls can be folded and straightened, don't wait for no flowers and empty branches!

There are not many senior girls in autumn, and they have long been defeated.

The freshman boy strengthened the brim of his hat and once scratched his head to the end of the world.

The sophomore boy has a Song Yu feeling, and he is very thin.

The junior boys were all the flower admirers at the time, and now there is no half of the inspection.

The senior boy advised Jun not to be a sober person, and there should be a number of drunk flowers.

"How talented you are, this kid must be a good learner of ancient literature. Whoever wrote it, you won't say you wrote it, right? Sister Ying asked.

"I wish I had written it myself, but unfortunately I didn't learn it well."

"Hehe, slowly you will be able to surpass, everything needs to be persisted and believe in yourself."

"Thank you for the encouragement!"

"By the way, where's your boyfriend?"

"Nope."

"No, you're so pretty!"

"No, no, don't you want to recommend yourself?"

"yes, that's what it means."

"Okay, promise to be your girlfriend for two days."

"It can't be a dream, is it?"

"Whatever you think you are."

"It's incredible, I didn't meet the god of luck last night."

"Maybe."

"Huh. It's unbelievable. ”

"Don't believe me? Okay, to give you some representation. After finishing speaking, Sister Ying grabbed Jia Xiaodao's hand with her hand. Is that enough? ”

"Ah, ah, enough, enough." Jia Xiaodao's heart was beating hard, she didn't expect that falling in love would be so fast. It's hard to accept for a while.

Jia Xiaodao and Sister Ying walked on the old railway, next to the porters and the peasants passing by. Occasionally, couples pass by the railway. Jia Xiaodao took Sister Ying's hand and wandered around the railway for several hours until the moonlight sprinkled the entire city. Jia Xiaodao remembered what Lin Feng said in the bedroom, don't be shy in front of women, don't be afraid to be embarrassed to do the small actions you want to do. In fact, some women are more lonely than boys. Jia Xiaodao felt that what Lin Feng said was very reasonable, otherwise he would have fallen in love so soon today.

At a station next to the railway, there were many wagons, and some drivers were squatting in the moonlight, eating with relish with a large bowl of rice. Beside him lay a shovel, a work hat, and clothes covered in soot. This is where some of the coal bosses are shipped.

Sister Ying took Jia Xiaodao's hand and turned to look at Jia Xiaodao's eyes, as if she was going to swallow Jia Xiaodao's person. "Do you think I'm pretty?" Sister Ying asked.

"It's beautiful, it's more beautiful at night than during the day." Jia Xiaodao felt that Sister Ying at night was more attractive than during the day, or more seductive.

"Oh, your lips are a little chapped, do you need some lipstick?"

"We boys don't usually wear lipstick."

"I've got it here, do you want to wipe some."

"I don't want it!"

"Come on."

"Well, only this once."

"Hehe, okay." After speaking, Sister Ying's lips were attached to Jia Xiaodao's lips.

Jia Xiaodao finally understood that the lipstick that Sister Ying said was referring to kissing. Jia Xiaodao was hooked by Sister Ying's sweet tongue, he felt as if he had lost all his intuition, his tongue was carried into a fairy realm, and it seemed that he was holding the most fragrant and sweet candy.

"Well, the lipstick is good!"

"That's good." Jia Xiaodao said.

"Do you want to do it again?"

"Yes."

So Jia Xiaodao took the initiative to hug Sister Ying's waist this time and sucked it in her mouth.

(iv)

When he returned to the dormitory late that night, Jia Xiaodao lay on the bed for a long time and couldn't regain his calm. He told Lin Feng about this situation, and no one believed it except Li Bo. Lin Feng said that Jia Xiaodao must have been blown by God.

Li Bo just smiled coldly, reminded him, and said to Jia Xiaodao: "There is something strange, Jia Xiaodao." ”

Jia Xiaodao didn't understand what Li Bo was referring to, he was still immersed in the wonderful.

Suddenly, Jia Xiaodao's mobile phone rang, and Jia Xiaodao took it to see that it was a text message from Sister Ying: "Do you know what I'm doing?" You are given 5 choices: a, miss you; b. I miss you very much; c. I miss you very much; d. I don't want you to do it; e. All of the above. ”

"Hehe, I'm thinking about you too." Jia Xiaodao replied to the text message.

"If there is an afterlife, let's be a pair of little mice. Fall in love with each other stupidly, live stupidly, snuggle clumsily, and stupidly together. Even if the snow covers the mountain, you can still nest in the grass and hug your ears tightly......"

"Are your ears particularly sweet?"

"That's it. I'm sending you a joke. A three-year-old boy took the hand of a three-year-old girl and said, "I love you." "The little girl said: Can you take responsibility for my future?" The little boy said, "Of course!" None of us are a year or two old! ”

"Hehe, we're not one or two year olds either."

"yes, I don't think you're full moon yet."

"It's weird."

"By the way, I haven't slept yet, what are you doing?"

"I miss you."

"You will be poor. Go to bed early and good night. ”

"Good night." Jia Xiaodao turned off his mobile phone and lay on the bed, he still couldn't sleep. He thought that what happened that day was so sudden that it made Jia Xiaodao flustered. In the bedroom, Li Bo went out to accompany his wife, Lin Feng was still texting the attacker, and Xiong Yang was sitting at the computer playing games. Wang Hong writes a letter in the study room. Jia Xiaodao originally wanted to find someone to talk to, but seeing that everyone had their own business, he dispelled this idea.

Jia Xiaodao felt that maybe God really played a little joke on him, which made him unexpectedly gain a feeling. But Jia Xiaodao always felt that Sister Ying's eyes were a little problematic, and Jia Xiaodao couldn't guess no matter how he guessed. Later, Jia Xiaodao didn't want to think about it, he felt that since it was coming so soon, he would accept it. Yes, people are sometimes suspicious of unexpected events, such as one day you really won the lottery, and your neighbor told you this, but you couldn't believe it. You always feel that this is too sudden and incomprehensible, so many times you give up the luck that fell from the sky.

Tomorrow, what will Jia Xiaodao do. Jia Xiaodao lay on the bed and thought about this question. Just as David the Contemplative frowned, thinking about what to wear tomorrow.

Xiong Yang was playing games in the dormitory, making a special scream, maybe he was fascinated, as if he really killed people, he was extremely excited, and he was completely selfless. Jia Xiaodao thought of this, playing games was a bit like taking drugs, knowing that it was a pit but jumping into it, and willing to give up everything else for the sake of their beliefs. Lin Feng lay on the bed and laughed when he received the text message, as if he was going to celebrate the New Year tomorrow. Wang Hong walked back from the study room, holding a copy of the Tao Te Ching. Jia Xiaodao would like to ask what kind of inspiration the Tao Te Ching gives people and what it brings to people. Wang Hong put the book on the table, took off his clothes and was about to go to bed.

"Wang Hong, went to bed so early?"

"It's not early, it's almost 12 o'clock, you guys should rest early."

"Okay, thank you."

Jia Xiaodao saw that no one spoke, so he fell on the bed and fell asleep after a while. (5)

"Actually, it's normal for you and Sister Ying to fall in love, young people nowadays can like someone in 3 seconds, let alone you?" In the carriage, the woman opposite Jia Xiaodao said lightly.

"No, I don't think it takes a long, long time to like someone. I don't believe in love at first sight. Jia Xiaodao said to the woman.

"By the way, how did you end up with that Ying sister later?"

"That was later, hey, maybe I was too traditional at the beginning."

After Jia Xiaodao and Sister Ying fell in love, they ate together, walked together, and studied together in the morning and evening. In fact, every couple in love has to do nothing more than this. Take a walk, chat, surf the Internet, and more. Jia Xiaodao originally thought that such days would go on forever, but what happened suddenly made Jia Xiaodao give up and continue walking.

One night, there was no moon over the city, and a few stars could be faintly seen in the sky.

Sister Ying and Jia Xiaodao walked on the gravel road in the woods of the college, and Jia Xiaodao could see some couples sitting on the stone benches in the woods snuggling and hugging each other, kissing as if no one was around. Sister Ying walked on Jia Xiaodao's right side and held his hand, Jia Xiaodao felt that Sister Ying's stride was heavy, as if she had something on her mind.

"What's wrong, isn't it uncomfortable?" Jia Xiaodao asked.

"Nothing, don't worry."

"Don't lie to me, there must be something wrong with you, you've been listless these days." Jia Xiaodao continued to ask.

"It's really nothing, don't think too much about it."

"Tell me, I can actually share it with you!"

"Really, nothing." Sister Ying said casually.

"Hey, why bother, it's very uncomfortable to hold it in my heart like this."

"Jia Xiaodao, ask for something."

"Just ask."

"If a boy is in a relationship with a girl, and the girl is pregnant with another boy's child, what do you think the boy who is in a relationship with her will think?"

"Who do you mean?"

"I mean what if."

"Oh, if that's the case, the boy will break down."

"Oh, got it."

After finishing speaking, Sister Ying didn't speak. They talked quite little that night. In the end, the two stayed quietly in the woods for a long time, and Jia Xiaodao felt bored, so he sent Sister Ying back to the bedroom.

A few days later, Jia Xiaodao and Sister Ying went online in the Internet café after eating. Sister Ying was playing a QQ game, and the headphones were on her ears so that she didn't hear the phone ringing, Jia Xiaodao picked up Sister Ying's mobile phone.

"Hey, who are you looking for?"

"Who are you?"

"I'm his boyfriend, who are you?" Jia Xiaodao asked.

"What...... Haha, fuck the **! There was silence on the other end of the phone for a few seconds, and then he hung up the phone with a curse.

Jia Xiaodao looked at the caller number editing the name of "husband", Jia Xiaodao flipped through the text messages he had read again, almost except for the text messages sent by Jia Xiaodao to Sister Ying, they were all text messages from "husband". Jia Xiaodao opened a few text messages and found the text below.

"Wife, have you slept, I miss you." "Wife, I'll be back after a while, you must wait for me." "Wife, pay attention to your body, I have sent the money to your card, go and get rid of the child, you also know that we can't have children now, I'm sorry, I can't be by your side to accompany you......"

When Jia Xiaodao saw this, his face suddenly turned white. He threw his phone on the Internet café table and walked out alone. When he came to the outside of the Internet café, he was completely dazed. He felt a blank in front of him, unable to see anything. He felt that he had been deceived by the people of the whole world, and the whole person had lost his spiritual support. Jia Xiaodao stayed outside for a long time, and the pedestrians still walked through this time.

(f)

I don't know how long it took, Jia Xiaodao calmed down. He came to Sister Ying's side and sat next to her to enter the game community, and he frantically blasted the enemy's head, hoping to dissipate his irritability.

After spending a few hours in the Internet café, Jia Xiaodao and Sister Ying walked to school. Jia Xiaodao didn't speak all the way until he sent Sister Ying to the girls' dormitory.

In the evening, Sister Ying called.

"Jia Xiaodao, I have something to tell you when I come out."

"What's the matter, I don't want to come out."

"You have to come out, some things have to be made clear."

"Well, see you at the old place."

So Jia Xiaodao came to the statue next to the rockery in the garden, and Sister Ying was already there.

Jia Xiaodao and Sister Ying walked in the academy at night, and the feeling tonight was different from before, and there was a depressing atmosphere in the air.

"Now that you know the situation, I'm sorry, I lied to you!" Sister Ying spoke.

"It's nothing, it's not your fault!"

"I really didn't mean to, and you know that I and him are no longer realistic."

"Reality? Then why did you choose him in the first place? ”

"There are some things that you can't decide by yourself, and there are many accidents and inevitable factors here."

"Really? You're pregnant with a baby, why didn't you tell me sooner and let me be a turtle? ”

"I really didn't want to hide it from you, I would love to find a chance to tell you."

"Hehe, I'm sorry, I'm a more traditional person, I can't stand this!"

"If you're going to leave me, I'm not going to say anything."

"Do you think we can still be together?"

"I didn't expect you to continue, it's all my fault."

"It's not that you're wrong, it's that you shouldn't hide it from me. You haven't broken ties with him yet? ”

"How can you break it, it's not in one place, do you still need to say that it is broken and continued? Besides, can he afford to support me? I would leave my family in a completely unfamiliar place for him. Elopement is no longer in vogue. Love is not about who you like, you can be with. None of us have the ability to fulfill our promises, and we used to be too stupid and stupid to think that if we like someone, we should follow him even if we ask for food. But can we do it in reality? No, we're all very selfish. ”

Sister Ying said this, Jia Xiaodao's pain was worse than before. He thought of his first love, Wang Xiaomei, and remembered the wilderness. They all occupy important places in their lives, but he is not capable of doing anything for them.

Yes, we are all too naïve to love someone forever, but is this okay? Rabindranath Tagore said that the farthest distance to love someone is when I am by your side, but you don't know that I love you. In fact, his words are not necessarily correct, the farthest distance to love someone is that although I love you, I can't be with you.

"I know, and I understand. But you shouldn't hide it from me. In fact, there are some things that can be said in person. Jia Xiaodao said gently.

"Well, it's already happened, and there's no room for recovery. Nice to meet you! Sister Ying stretched out her hand.

"Actually, if you want, we can still be together!"

"Forget it, what you like is the old me, not the current me, just like a cup of coffee with sugar, it is no longer the original flavor of the past, after a piece of glass is broken, it can't be glued to the way it used to be."

"Do whatever you want!" Jia Xiaodao stretched out his hand and held Sister Ying tightly. It was a cold wind that night, and frogs could be faintly heard.

(g)

A few days later, Sister Ying called.

"Jia Xiaodao, I went to the hospital today for an abortion, can you accompany me?"

"Have you really thought about it? Don't plan to keep the kids? ”

"No, what are you going to do with it?"

"Okay, I'll be right here, you wait for me under your dorm."

After saying that, Jia Xiaodao got dressed and walked downstairs to Sister Ying's dormitory. Jia Xiaodao and Sister Ying went to the central hospital, and they heard that the obstetrics and gynecology department of this hospital has a good reputation. Jia Xiaodao helped Sister Ying register, and then accompanied her to the obstetrics and gynecology department on the fourth floor. The hospital was overcrowded and overcrowded. Jia Xiaodao took Sister Ying's hand and entered the elevator, and the elevator was crowded with people in an instant.

"Let's go, let's go!" At this time, several nurses pushed a seriously ill patient into the elevator, and a nurse held a bottle of saline that was infusion for the patient. The elevator was suddenly overloaded and an alarm sounded.

"It's annoying." The people in the elevator began to complain.

"Can anyone please give me a look, this patient is in urgent need of rescue."

"Let's go take the stairs." Jia Xiaodao said to Sister Ying.

"It's fine." After finishing speaking, Jia Xiaodao and Sister Ying got out of the elevator and walked towards the stairs. At this time, several middle-aged people also came out of the elevator, muttering and complaining.

Jia Xiaodao accompanied Sister Ying up the stairs to the fourth floor and came to the gynecology department. Sister Ying was received by a woman about 40 years old, who was very fat. The middle-aged woman said seriously: "You have to think carefully about killing the child, although the country now advocates family planning, but after all, this is a small life." ”

"I've got it figured out, doctor."

"Young man, it's all a good thing you did!" The middle-aged woman stared at Jia Xiaodao, and there was a reproach in her eyes.

Jia Xiaodao lowered his head and did not speak, silently accepting it.

"Go downstairs, pay the fee, get a number, and wait for your place, which is on the chair next door." The doctor said to Jia Xiaodao.

Jia Xiaodao helped Sister Ying to the wooden chair next door, ran down the stairs alone, came to the payment office on the ground floor to pay the fee, took a place list, and went to Sister Ying's side.

Sister Ying held Jia Xiaodao's hand, and there was a kind of fear and horror in her eyes.

"Don't be nervous, relax, it's nothing, it'll be fine in a while." Jia Xiaodao comforted Sister Ying.

Sister Ying's palms were sweaty, wetting Jia Xiaodao's hands. Jia Xiaodao combed Sister Liying's messy hair with his other hand and said to her. "Don't be afraid, it's nothing, it's as normal as going for a cup of coffee."

Sister Ying looked at Jia Xiaodao and didn't say a word. Jia Xiaodao could feel her heart trembling. Jia Xiaodao began to think of Sister Ying's boyfriend who was far away, and she didn't know what she was doing now. Yes, if a man loves a woman, but can't be by his side, is this also love? A philosopher once said that what is love, love is when you need him the most, he will appear by your side, give you warmth and comfort. But the love we often mention in our mouths is so thin, like a thin piece of ice, it can't withstand the scorching sun, and it turns into water.

Jia Xiaodao held Sister Ying's hand and began to think of his first love. Yes, how naïve it was before, so unhesitating to persist for six years, these six years carefully managing the love between them, like caring for a flower that is about to open, watering its roots, removing grass from the soil, but in the end these efforts were blown away by a sudden gust of wind. Jia Xiaodao thinks that a man should be like a tree, shielding his beloved girl from the sun, but we children pursue their love when they are a piece of grass. Therefore, the love obtained is so fragile that it cannot withstand the wind and rain, snow, rain and frost.

"No. 27, come in!" A nurse is shouting.

"It's you, Sister Ying. Go for it. Jia Xiaodao pushed Sister Ying and said.

"I, I, I'm afraid." Sister Ying showed hesitation.

"Don't be afraid, I'll wait for you outside, and it'll be over soon."

Jia Xiaodao helped Sister Ying to the operating room, and Sister Ying looked back at Jia Xiaodao. Jia Xiaodao nodded at her and made a triumphant gesture.

Sister Ying went in, and Jia Xiaodao sat outside for a long wait.

(viii)

When Sister Ying came out, her face was as pale as a piece of paper. Beads of sweat fell down her cheeks, and it could be seen from her pale face that she had just experienced great pain.

"It's okay, it's all over." Jia Xiaodao helped Sister Ying.

Sister Ying took Jia Xiaodao's hand and said, "Go back, it's okay." ”

Jia Xiaodao and Sister Ying walked out of the hospital with a bag of medicine prescribed by the doctor and stopped a taxi at the corner of the street. Jia Xiaodao took off his coat and draped it on Sister Ying's body, looking at her face covered with beads of sweat, there was an indescribable pain in her heart.

Jia Xiaodao thought, it is really difficult to be a woman, she has to experience pain once a month, and in the end, she has to cut off a piece of meat from herself. No wonder the Bible says that it was the serpent who tricked Eve into eating the fruit of the tree of wisdom so that God could punish women and make them suffer and suffer. Jia Xiaodao thought, God is selfish, why should he let his people be ignorant. Yes, this is just like the rulers of the feudal dynasty, who used the three outlines and five constants to restrain their subjects, so that they would always be stupid and submit to their own rule. Therefore, there is no difference between God and the emperor.

Jia Xiaodao said to Ying: "The doctor said that during this time, you should pay attention to your body, eat more nutritious meals, and you go to ask for a leave of absence and can't go to class." Stay in your rented house outside, and tomorrow I'll buy you a chicken, chicken soup for you to drink, and buy some other protein-rich nutrients for you to eat. Be sure to take good care of yourself. ”

"Thank you, why are you so nice to me." Sister Ying's eyes glistened with tears.

"I can't be a deserter at this time, besides, you need someone to take care of you the most now, and if it were someone else, you would do the same."

Jia Xiaodao accompanied Sister Ying back to the house she rented, and Sister Ying lay on the bed to rest. Jia Xiaodao poured a glass of water for Sister Ying.

"Drink, your mouth must be thirsty."

"Thank you." Sister Ying took the cup and took a sip.

"Sit down, there's an apple on the table, you peel one and eat it yourself."

"Thank you, I will. You have a good rest, I will make you some porridge now. After finishing speaking, Jia Xiaodao walked to the kitchen to cook for Sister Ying. Sister Ying turned on the TV and watched some messy TV programs.

During that time, Jia Xiaodao has been accompanying Sister Ying. His boyfriend hasn't called back since he sent the money to Sister Ying's card. Jia Xiaodao knew that Sister Ying was now sad and numb, and she no longer had extravagant hopes for anything. Every day, Jia Xiaodao cooks for Sister Ying and brings it to Sister Ying to eat with her. Jia Xiaodao will also peel fruit for Sister Ying.

Sister Ying looked at Jia Xiaodao's busy appearance, and there was indescribable gratitude in her eyes. Whenever Jia Xiaodao cooks for Sister Ying, he thinks of a man named Scar in his village. has been working outside for many years, because his family is poor and has no parents, so no one has been willing to marry him. By chance, a beautiful woman met him, but this woman was pregnant with another man's child. This woman was out working as a mistress for a boss, and this time she became pregnant. Scar took care of her and helped the woman give birth to the child. Later, the woman spent some time with Scar, but she still left. Scar is sad, but there is nothing he can do.

Yes, Scar is just a poor man, who will look up to him. His efforts were merely wishful thinking. Jia Xiaodao thought of this, and looked at himself again, Jia Xiaodao swore that he must not make this scar, yes, his care for Sister Ying is just because of a moral responsibility, he can't ask for too much.

Thinking of this, Jia Xiaodao's mood relaxed a lot.

(ix)

"Jia Xiaodao, I think your life is legendary, you have experienced so much that you can almost write a book." The woman in the carriage said with emotion.

"Hehe, everyone's life is a wonderful book, just look at how we see it." Jia Xiaodao said.

"It makes sense, Jia Xiaodao, what happened to you and Sister Ying later, did you get together, or?"

"Later, I became a stranger. Then she graduated, and now she seems to be working as a clerk in a telecommunications bureau in her hometown. ”

Subsequently, Jia Xiaodao continued to tell her story.

Jia Xiaodao took care of Sister Ying for about a month, and finally Sister Ying fully recovered. That night, Sister Ying made a meal for Jia Xiaodao to eat. They found the meal extra sweet.

After eating, Jia Xiaodao sat on a chair and watched TV, and after watching for a while, he found that the time was more than 10 o'clock. Jia Xiaodao said to Sister Ying: "I think, I should go back, you go to bed early." ”

"Don't be busy, I have something for you." After finishing speaking, Sister Ying walked to Jia Xiaodao's side, leaned down and kissed Jia Xiaodao's lips. Sister Ying's tongue was like a hook hooking Jia Xiaodao's tongue, and they were entwined. Jia Xiaodao's breathing tightened, and he seemed to have entered a state that could not be described in any words.

"Will you stay tonight?" Sister Ying said to Jia Xiaodao.

"No, the doctor said you can't do that for a month. Besides, I'm not your boyfriend anymore. ”

"Does it matter, I do." Sister Ying hugged Jia Xiaodao's shoulders tightly. He pressed Jia Xiaodao against the chair.

"No, I can't do that." Jia Xiaodao insisted.

"Why?" Sister Ying let go of her lips and sat next to Jia Xiaodao and asked.

"Because I don't want you to thank me in this way, and if that's the case, everything I've done this month, doesn't make any sense because it makes me feel guilty."

"Why, I'm willing. Besides, I'm not a good woman. Sister Ying insisted.

"In fact, there is a sentence I have always wanted to say, when our generation loves others, can we have a responsibility, more responsibility for our lover, let us love her or him well."

"Do you know what age it is, promises are as unreliable as lies, and besides, in this era, which man has made a promise to a woman, and have they fulfilled this promise?"

"Anyway, I want to be a responsible man."

"Do you really think so?"

"Yes. Okay, I'm going back. You go to bed early, I'm sure you're one of my best friends. ”

"Okay, you really have to go, I'm not reluctant, I have nothing to repay you for your care of me."

"If you want to help someone, you don't need to get anything in return."

"Well, you're a good guy. I'll send you downstairs! ”

"It's better not to do it, I'll go down by myself."

"No, I have to send it, you can't refuse me."

"Hehe, thank you, let's go."

Jia Xiaodao and Sister Ying walked downstairs, the moonlight outside was surprisingly bright, shining on the city, as if the earth was covered with a layer of mercury clothes. The stars blinked, as if they were secretly sending autumn waves to someone. The wind blows on the body, and it is cool and comfortable.

Sister Ying sent Jia Xiaodao to the bottom of the boy's bedroom, and then disappeared into the moonlight alone.

(x)

Since then, Jia Xiaodao has never gone to Sister Ying again, and they have become the most familiar strangers. Jia Xiaodao and his brothers in the dormitory were obsessed with the game for a while, and he gradually forgot the stories between him and Sister Ying.

Later, Jia Xiaodao felt that there was nothing to do and began his creative career. Jia Xiaodao went to the reading room to check many magazines, and then wrote down the magazine's submission mailbox, perhaps because of good luck, Jia Xiaodao's first article was published by a women's magazine. Jia Xiaodao got more than 400 yuan in manuscript fees, and he felt that this was a way to make money. Jia Xiaodao read a lot of books during that time, and also contacted article masters on the Internet. Jia Xiaodao met Zhou Yuan, a young man who had been wandering for 5 years after graduating from university. Zhou Yuan graduated from Yunnan University, which is also the same university that Ma Jia Jue studied. Zhou Yuan didn't know Magajue, but he had heard about Magajue. Zhou Yuan said that in fact, if the poor are driven crazy, they will also do ruthless things. Maccabius is an example of this. In prison, Maccabius once said that his classmates in the dormitory when he was in college had peed on his quilt. I don't know if the person who did this thought that because of his bad behavior, he killed several people.

Zhou Yuan left home at the age of 13, thousands of miles away from home at the age of 18, and walked most of China at the age of 21. Zhou Yuan is wandering, for the sake of his ideals and dreams, he has no hesitation.

Jia Xiaodao sometimes thinks that if one day he also carries his luggage to wander, how good it would be, away from the world and away from strife. But Jia Xiaodao couldn't do that. Jia Xiaodao can only say to himself, my dear, you don't do anything, you can only stay in your own world, compromise with fate, you can only bury your dreams for the sake of life.

Jia Xiaodao is very envious of Wang Hong, a person who likes literature but does not demand anything. He is in his own world, and his vision is limited to those at the bottom. But Jia Xiaodao can't, he can only twist his soul and do something he doesn't want to do.

Yes, many times, we live in other people's worlds, because of public opinion, because of pressure, because of some worldly ideas, you have to change your original intention. You are like a horse seeking freedom, running on the prairie, you breathe the fresh air, you eat the delicious weeds, but while you are intoxicated, you are caught by a fierce hunter, you are saddled, you are tied to the reins. You look at the endless grassland, you shed tears, and you say to yourself: "Happiness is always so short-lived, happiness is to take a frightening dream." ”

Jia Xiaodao became more and more depressed and decadent.

Wang Hong said, Jia Xiaodao, maybe you can do something else, read some books, practice calligraphy, or go out to find a part-time job. Wang Hong is right, Jia Xiaodao should find a part-time job and find something to do for himself.

Jia Xiaodao really went, he came to the stone slab next to the bookstore, and spread a blank piece of paper like the other students, and the white paper read: "Jia Xiaodao, major in Chinese language and literature, undergraduate, tutoring middle school Chinese, mathematics, and physics." If you are interested, please contact 1338872XXXX. Next to the white paper are the honorary certificates and published articles obtained by Jia Xiaodao.

Jia Xiaodao stayed opposite the bookstore for two days, and he felt like a beggar, waiting for someone else's handout. Some people passed in front of them and looked at the students who were applying for tutors, and the look was like buying slaves in the serf market in the past. These bosses saw which slave was fat and strong, and decided to buy it. And many of these tutors are looking at the faces of the candidates and talking. A female classmate sitting next to Jia Xiaodao was from the Department of Foreign Languages, and she was good-looking. Jia Xiaodao saw a middle-aged man staring at the girl for a long time, and then asked, "Excuse me, do you want to tutor English?" ”

"yes, I'm a foreign language major." The girl looked at the customer and said excitedly. This expression is like a beggar who hasn't eaten for a few days, and suddenly a passerby stuffs her with a steamed bun.

"I've been learning a foreign language recently, and I'm looking for a teacher who is good at foreign language to tutor me."

"What level did you take?"

"What, how many levels? How many levels do you usually pass? ”

"We've passed the fourth, sixth, and eighth levels of the major."

"Oh, I haven't reported it yet, let's see how well I learn before making a decision. How do you charge? The middle-aged man asked. Jia Xiaodao could see his eyes, which were weird and lewd.

"20 yuan an hour."

"Money is not an issue. Leave me a call. "The middle-aged man behaved urgently.

“*********”

"Okay, I'll call." After saying that, he began to leave, and as he left, he glanced at the girl again.

Jia Xiaodao faintly felt that there was an indescribable weirdness in his eyes.