Chapter 60: The Painful Choice of Love
Wang Ruodan happened to take advantage of a sunny day at this time to come out to find Zhao Ziyang to go out to play together, and when she came to the small garden of the campus, she saw Zhao Ziyang and Guoguo being together very affectionately. She felt that at that moment, she was about to collapse, but she didn't expect Zhao Ziyang to come to Guoguo as soon as she recovered her memory, she also naively thought that Zhao Ziyang was now in such a good relationship with herself, even if he had recalled Guoguo, he couldn't go to Guoguo, he was stepping on two boats by doing so. She really didn't expect Zhao Ziyang to be this kind of person. She had the idea of rushing up and giving them a few slaps. What a proud and self-respecting girl she usually was, and now she felt that her face and self-esteem were all lost.
"Zhao Ziyang, how can you do this? You are obviously in love with me now, but now you are here to rekindle your old relationship with her, what do you think of me, how can you be worthy of me, and waste my hard work for you, Zhao Ziyang, I hate you. And you Guoguo, you know that Zhao Ziyang has fallen in love with me, but you still have to pestering Zhao Ziyang with a dead face......" Wang Ruodan changed her previous image of a lady, shouted insults to Zhao Ziyang and Guoguo, and then ran away crying.
At this time, many boys and girls in the school came to watch, and some girls even pointed at Zhao Ziyang, saying that Zhao Ziyang was distracted and stepped on two boats, which made Zhao Ziyang and Guoguo look embarrassed. Zhao Ziyang looked at Wang Ruodan who was away at this time, with a look of guilt and worry, in fact, he still loved Wang Ruodan very much.
"Ziyang, go find Wang Ruodan quickly, she may not be able to think about it at this time, let's see each other less in the future." Guoguo saw Zhao Ziyang's thoughts, so she persuaded Zhao Ziyang to go to Wang Ruodan quickly. She felt that emotional matters were the most unforced things. She can't let Zhao Ziyang embarrass between her and Wang Ruodan, and Zhao Ziyang must make a firm choice between her and Wang Ruodan, otherwise the person who will be hurt is not just one person, but all three of them will be emotionally tortured.
Zhao Ziyang's heart was also in a mess, he felt that he loved both Guoguo and Wang Ruodan. No wonder Wang Ruodan scolded him on the spot.
Zhao Ziyang really went to chase Wang Ruodan. Guoguo knew that Zhao Ziyang still couldn't let go of Wang Ruodan in his heart, which showed that he still cared about Wang Ruodan, although Guoguo felt uncomfortable, she still persuaded herself to let go, maybe everyone would hurt each other less. Guoguo felt that this was really providential.
Zhao Ziyang finally found Wang Ruodan, who was hiding in a corner of the campus, crying sadly alone. Zhao Ziyang looked at Wang Ruodan, a girl who was usually so proud of her self-esteem, and she cried like this for him, his heart was completely softened, he gently pulled up Wang Ruodan, who was crying sadly, and said sorry to her very solemnly, and then he said to her again: "In the future, I will definitely be good to you wholeheartedly." ”
When Wang Ruodan heard Zhao Ziyang say this, she couldn't believe her ears, could it be that what Zhao Ziyang said was true? Will he really be good to her wholeheartedly in the future?
"Then can you promise to love me only one person in the future? And no longer look for fruit? Wang Ruodan asked Zhao Ziyang.
"I promise to love you only one person in the future, okay?" When Zhao Ziyang said this to Wang Ruodan, he himself felt that he was very fake, he obviously still loved Guoguo in his heart, if he hadn't lost his memory because of a car accident, he might have been very happy with Guoguo, but because of the car accident amnesia, it seemed to change everything. He has already hurt Guoguo, is he going to hurt Wang Ruodan again for Guoguo's sake now? He felt that it was so difficult for him to choose now, and that whoever he chose would be deeply hurt to the other.
Zhao Ziyang's heart is very complicated, he feels that he still can't forget Guoguo, as long as he thinks of the good times with Guoguo in the past, he feels how much he used to love Guoguo. But Wang Ruodan is so good to him and loves him so much, how can he be sorry for her? He was often tormented in his heart, all because of his emotional indecision, and if he could be rational and firm, he would not be so painful.
If one of the three had to quit, who was that person? Guoguo had long understood in her heart that she was the only one who withdrew. Because Guoguo understood that Zhao Ziyang couldn't let go of Wang Ruodan, Guoguo chose to quit, and she felt that only by quitting could she avoid all three of them being harmed. Guoguo later chose to avoid Zhao Ziyang as soon as he saw him. No matter how difficult it is, how reluctant it is, how much it takes a souvenir, you must learn to withdraw from it.
Zhao Ziyang couldn't stand Guoguo deliberately avoiding him, he didn't know if Guoguo's purpose in doing this was to fulfill him and Wang Ruodan, or did he break Guoguo's heart and make Guoguo already disheartened with him? The more Guoguo avoided him, the more he wanted to see Guoguo, and he suddenly felt that not being able to see Guoguo was a painful ordeal.
But can he go after Guoguo? After all, his current girlfriend is Wang Ruodan, not Guoguo.
"Guoguo, why do you seem to be deliberately avoiding Zhao Ziyang during this time," Jingya asked strangely. Seeing Guoguo at the gate of the school, as soon as he saw Zhao Ziyang coming from the boys' dormitory, he quickly fled. Zhao Ziyang had no choice but to look at Guoguo in disappointment and fled like lightning.
"No! It's just that I don't want to ......" Guoguo lowered her head, thoughtful, and she didn't know how to tell Jingya. As Jingya, she definitely hopes that she and Zhao Ziyang will get back together, but she can't do it now, it's not that she doesn't love him, but she doesn't want to bother Zhao Ziyang anymore, she thinks that as long as Zhao Ziyang and Wang Ruodan can be happy together, it is enough, why should she get involved again and make all three of them hurt. Because she clearly knew that Zhao Ziyang couldn't let go of Wang Ruodan, he already cared about Wang Ruodan very much, even if he still loved her, then he couldn't love her wholeheartedly. So Guoguo felt that she had to stay away from Zhao Ziyang, lest she fall into their love again and couldn't extricate herself, she believed that the pain might only be temporary, and time would dilute everything.
She believes she has a strong enough heart to fight all the pain.
"Guoguo, I really can't figure you out, I've always felt that you are a pistachio who dares to pursue true love, but now I think you have changed, you obviously still love Zhao Ziyang, and I can also see that Zhao Ziyang after recovering his memory also loves you, but you have escaped again and again, are you still afraid of Wang Ruodan?" Jingya felt that this was too much like Guoguo's style, but a bit like her own style.
"Jingya, you won't understand." Guoguo said to Jingya.
"Actually, I still kind of understand, you don't want to get involved in a love triangle, you don't want to hurt all three of you, right, so you chose to quit, and would rather let yourself alone bear all the pain, Guoguo, you are really great, the dedication of love. I don't know if Wang Ruodan will be grateful to you if he knows? Jingya said to Guoguo with a smile.
Can Zhao Ziyang understand Guoguo's painstaking efforts? Zhao Ziyang seemed to understand a little, but he didn't understand. Guoguo and Wang Ruodan, he can only choose one, but now he is in love with two girls, and these two children are good girls, both love themselves deeply, for him, who to choose, who to give up, is painful. Originally, love was such a sweet and happy thing, but if the love is not single-minded, it is also painful.
He knew that Guoguo ran away from him in order to choose to leave him, which made him very uncomfortable. But what can he do now? Could it be that if he abandoned Wang Ruodan and pursued Guoguo again, wouldn't he Zhao Ziyang become a bastard. Gradually, he calmed himself down and did not allow himself to lose himself in the fog of love again. He clearly understands that he also loves Wang Ruodan very much, Wang Ruodan is so beautiful, so good, and gentle and infatuated with him, he can't live up to her feelings anymore, so he tries to collect his love for Guoguo and come to Wang Ruodan wholeheartedly, he has already failed to hurt Guoguo, and he can't hurt Wang Ruodan anymore.
In order to forget her feelings for Zhao Ziyang, Guoguo drew up a detailed study plan for herself every day, and she often participated in various activities held by some schools. During the holidays, she made travel plans and food search plans for herself. She also plans to publish a travel book and a food book in the future.
She wants to make her study life full, so that she will not be immersed in the pain of loss in love.
As Guoguo avoided him again and again, he thought that Guoguo might no longer love him, although he felt very uncomfortable, but could this be blamed on Guoguo? It was he who was sorry for Guoguo first, it was he who completely hurt Guoguo's heart, maybe Guoguo was already dead to him. He has hurt Guoguo and completely lost Guoguo. Does he want to hurt Wang Ruodan again?
Zhao Ziyang finally chose Wang Ruodan and gradually tried to forget the fruit. He and Wang Ruodan are in the same class, studying the same major, they fortunately have the same hobbies and ideals, Zhao Ziyang's ideal is to be an excellent diplomat in the future, and Wang Ruodan wants to be an excellent translator, they often go to the library to read books together, they are ready to apply for the graduate school of foreign Chinese together, they will also play the flute and play Xiao together, and also go shopping together. They live their sweet, happy and romantic love, and seem to have forgotten the existence of Guoguo, maybe this is fate.
Maybe time can heal the pain that was once unforgettable, maybe time can make people forget a love, a love and a hate, but the scar is difficult to heal for a while, and it still hurts so much when I think about it occasionally. If you want to heal more completely, forget faster, or make yourself full, the best way to think of yourself both full and happy, is not to forget the original intention, and work hard to chase your dreams!
After a period of self-recuperation, Guoguo has come out of the pain of love, and everything is simple, calm and fulfilling! Now her mind is full of her dreams and pursuits, her dream is not just to be a teacher, she has many dreams, such as a show host, a gourmet, and a photographer, among which she wants to be a show host the most. So she used the summer vacation to sign up for the host training class, her host teacher not only speaks fluent Mandarin, but also looks beautiful, temperamental, although she is 36 years old, but she looks like a little girl in her twenties, and she can play the piano and sing. Guoguo likes her teacher very much, after she finishes the host class, if she has time, she also plays the piano and sings with her host teacher, and has a fulfilling and happy life! Guoguo seems to have found herself again, but it is much more mature, stronger, and more grown than before. Fate gives people happiness, but also gives people pain, happiness makes people happy, and pain makes people grow.