Xia Lu's face in my heart will always remain at that moment, I don't know what Xia Lu has become now, but I can guess that Xia Lu must be more beautiful than before.

Staring at the photo in a daze for a long time, I don't know when, I was already in tears, I put the photo on my chest, and secretly thought in my heart, Xia Lu, where are you? I miss you so much!

I thought that my future days would go on like this, but after only more than half a month, I found that I couldn't hold on a little anymore, because Jiang Chenghu went from one pack of cigarettes a day at the beginning to two packs of cigarettes a day, and they went out to play, just forget it if they didn't take me, and let me help them with a little money, my living expenses are fixed, and not much, because I am an orphan, and I rely on state funding to go to school and eat, I can't afford Jiang Chenghu to squander so much, if I continue to support Jiang Chenghu, I would starve to death in the school myself, and I didn't dare ask the dean for money.

That day, I had just finished cleaning Jiang Chenghu's dormitory, and Jiang Chenghu threw a pack of Furong King cigarette boxes on the ground, and said to me very habitually: "Qin Shou, there are no cigarettes, go buy me a pack." ”

In the first half of the month, if he said this, I would definitely go to the store without hesitation to buy him a pack of cigarettes and come back, but this time, I didn't understand, but stood in place, burying my head.

Seeing that I didn't move, Jiang Chenghu urged again: "Go quickly, deaf?" ”

I said pitifully: "Brother Tiger, I have no money." ”

When Jiang Chenghu heard this, he raised his eyebrows and said unhappily: "If you don't have money, you won't ask your parents for it?" ”

Tears slipped from the corners of my eyes, and I choked up: "I don't have parents, I'm an orphan, I grew up in an orphanage since I was a child, and my money is fixed every month, and when I don't spend it, it's gone." "I'm an orphan, no one in the school knows about it except Qiangzi, and Qiangzi was originally an orphan, he was just adopted, and he won't publicize this kind of thing.

After listening to my words, Jiang Chenghu was stunned for a moment, then sighed, jumped up from the top bunk, put his hand on my shoulder, and said seriously: "Qin Shou, I didn't expect you to be a poor person, I was not good some time ago, and I kept asking you to run errands and buy cigarettes for me, from today on, you don't have to buy me cigarettes anymore, and you don't need you to clean up the dormitory, you will be my Jiang Chenghu's real brother in the future." ”

With a sigh, my heart trembled, I looked at Jiang Chenghu excitedly, and thought that I had heard it wrong, Jiang Chenghu actually regarded me as a brother, this feeling of being looked at seriously, I have never experienced it, it feels good to have a brother.

I wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes, and said warmly in my heart: "Brother Tiger, thank you, you are really a good big brother." ”

Jiang Chenghu put aside the broom in my hand and said softly, "Okay, let's go back." ”

I nodded, turned and walked out of the dorm.

When I returned to the door of the dormitory, I was just about to push open the door and go in, when suddenly, a voice came from the dormitory: "Brother Hong, why are you covering Qin Shou's ugly pussy?" The person who spoke was a roommate in the dormitory, and this sentence was obviously said to Yang Hong.

Yang Hong said casually: "Brother Tiger said that he wanted to play with him, didn't you see that he was like a pug, at our disposal?" For half a month, we used his money to ask him to buy us cigarettes, and now you know why we covered him. ”

The roommate admired: "Gao, Brother Tiger is really tall, that ugly guy still thinks you really help him, but I don't know, you play him around, hahaha......" The laughter resounded in the dormitory, and the roommates in the dormitory burst into laughter, all of which were malicious ridicule of me.

I wanted to push open the door of the dormitory, but suddenly froze, and then, my body slowly trembled, and my heart was half cold, it turned out that they really thought so, in fact, when Jiang Chenghu used me as an ATM and a nanny, I guessed it, but I didn't want to face it, I kept comforting myself, this is not true.

But when I heard Yang Hong's words with my own ears, I couldn't deceive myself anymore, Jiang Chenghu didn't really want to help me at all, he just wanted to play with me.

I still stupidly believe what he said, I am naïve enough, naïve enough, I was originally an abandoned son abandoned by God, from childhood to adulthood, fate doomed me to injustice, when Jiang Chenghu took the initiative to cover me, I thought that God had opened his eyes and sent me a savior.

I'm really a joke, a big joke, thinking that Jiang Chenghu just said that he wanted me to be a real brother, it's really ironic, I'm afraid that what he said is also false, in order to continue to play me and pit me.

I put down my hand, and after all, I didn't push the door open and entered the dormitory, but turned around and walked down the dormitory building, walking in the empty campus.

Thousands of emotions swept through my body, maybe I was really cold, while walking, I showed a smirk, I was wearing a mask, others couldn't see my smile, if others saw it, they would definitely treat me as a psychopath.

Before I knew it, I walked to the mouth of the sewer again, and there was laughter and shouts from the sewer, Brother Long, they were drinking down again, they were very presumptuous, and they were not worried about disturbing them at all.

I really want to go down and mingle with them, but I know that I don't deserve it, they said they don't need waste, and I'm just a waste.

I stood there for a long, long time before I reluctantly left here, I couldn't help it, I could only pretend that I didn't hear what Yang Hong said, I could only pretend that I didn't know anything, and continue to pretend to be stupid in front of Jiang Chenghu, so that I was beside him, like a pug calling around, and being despised by others.

Regardless of the outcome, maybe it's a good thing, you won't be bullied, but you'll be pointed at behind your back.

When I returned to the dormitory, Yang Hong and other roommates were laughing and chatting, and when they saw me coming back, they immediately spoke: "Qin Shou, go, buy me a pack of cigarettes." ”

I said weakly, "I don't have any money!" With that, I went back to my bed and lay down.

The dormitory was very quiet, quiet for a long time, as if my words shocked them, for a long time, Yang Hong said with a little anger: "What do you mean? If you don't buy a pack of cigarettes, do you want us to continue to cover you. ”

I sneered in my heart, sure enough, I wanted to threaten me in this way, if I hadn't heard anything before, maybe I would have obediently bought cigarettes for him, maybe my heart was cold, and I didn't have any fear in my heart, so I didn't pay attention to Yang Hong.

Yang Hong immediately became angry, walked to my bedside, turned me up directly, glared at me and said, "Qin Shou, do you want to beg for a fight?" Is it so hard for me to let you buy a pack of cigarettes? ”

I said helplessly: "Brother Hong, I really don't have any money, no, you can ask Brother Hu." ”

I'll tell you the truth, if Yang Hong wants to beat me very much, then I can't help it, if he wants to fight, let him do it, it's just one more person to beat me in the future, it doesn't matter, anyway, my fate is always unlucky.

Seeing that I looked a little serious, Yang Hong hesitated for a while, then pushed me back to the bed again, pointed at me and said, "Don't let me know that you still have money on you, otherwise don't blame me for being rude, let me tell you, my means are no worse than Zhang Qiang." ”

I ignored Yang Hong's words, and lay on the bed silently, stretched out my hand to the pillow, took out the photo and was quietly in a daze, silently reciting in my heart, insist!

Soon, October, passed!

At the beginning of October, it was the National Day, the school had a seven-day long holiday, and the students were packing up and going home, and I was the only one lying alone in bed.

Until my roommates were gone, I was the only one left in the dormitory, quiet, really quiet, as if the whole world was silent.

I didn't have much to do in the dormitory, so I left the dormitory and walked around the school, there were very few students in the school, and many of them went home, unless some students were far away and would choose to stay outside the school, almost all of them were gone.

I walked aimlessly on campus, I first came to the sewer inexplicably, the sewer was very quiet, no one, Brother Long, they had all left the school, and there were still beer bottles and cigarette butts left over from them.

I still can't suppress the desire in my heart, the desire to join them.

I cleaned the drains before leaving.

I continued to wander around the campus, and then walked to the river, where I was standing, where Yan Chen and Wang Ruoqi happened to be last time.

The surroundings are very quiet, I can hear my own breathing, and only at this time can I see my heart clearly, and I can empty everything to feel the world.

I slowly closed my eyes, and the scene of Yan Chen's confession to Wang Ruoqi came to mind, Yan Chen's confident appearance, Wang Ruoqi's panicked and shy appearance, I remember it clearly.

In a trance, the picture in my mind turned, I replaced Yan Chen with me, I fantasized that the person who knelt on one knee for Wang Ruoqi was me, I gently grabbed Wang Ruoqi's hands and told her the most affectionate confession in the world, and Wang Ruoqi lowered her head shyly and agreed to me, and finally, I hugged Wang Ruoqi.

My imagination is very beautiful, very warm, I can't help but show a sweet smile, it's so good, fantasy is just like a dream, it's all beautiful, only reality, it's the most cruel!

I took a deep breath of the refreshing air, still closed my eyes, did not open them, I was afraid that when I opened my eyes, what I saw was a sad world, only when I closed my eyes, beautiful imagination would stay in my mind.

I don't know what's wrong with me, maybe I really have a wonderful feeling for Wang Ruoqi, because I can find Xia Lu's shadow in him, and sometimes, I will unconsciously regard Wang Ruoqi as my sustenance for Xia Lu.

When I was immersed in the beautiful picture, a plain and familiar voice came into my ears: "Qin Shou! ”