After graduating from junior high school, I approached the dean and said that I didn't want to study anymore and that I wanted to go out and find a job.

The dean stared at me deeply for a moment, then sighed deeply and said, "Is it because of your looks?" ”

The dean's words struck me at the point, and my heart couldn't help but tremble, and my throat seemed to be stuck by something, and I was speechless all of a sudden. That's right, because of my ugly appearance, I have low self-esteem, I don't want to go to school anymore, I'm afraid of being pointed at my ugly face by my classmates, saying that I'm a monster, every time I get a little closer in the class, the classmates around me will see the plague god and hide away from me.

The dean patted me lightly on the shoulder, and said seriously: "Shoushou, people's looks are innate, you can't choose to escape because of your looks, your life is still very long, you still have a long way to go, you can't be discouraged, this small setback will defeat you, you go out of society, the blow will be greater, I understand your feelings, listen to my advice, study hard, get into a good university, and one day in the future you get ahead, others will not care about your appearance, you know?" ”

I lowered my head, bit my lip, and with tears in my eyes, my throat choked even more uncomfortable, and I couldn't open my mouth.

The dean gave me another deep look, then took out his old cigarette gun, put on the tobacco, and smoked it vigorously.

My heart was entangled, the nightmare of school came to my mind every day like a videotape, I opened my mouth and made a hoarse voice: "I ......" after the words, I couldn't say anything.

The dean put down the cigarette gun, gently touched my head, showed a kind smile, and said, "Don't be afraid, you have to overcome difficulties, have you forgotten?" You're going to find Xia Lu. ”

As soon as I heard this, I was shocked, and I couldn't help but raise my head, looking at the dean with tears in my eyes, and the dean continued to say to me: "Xia Lu is one year older than you, and she must be in high school now, only if you continue to study, you can have a chance to find her, don't you want to see Xia Lu again?" ”

Hope, of course I hope, Xia Lu has been away for many years, every day and every night, I will think of Xia Lu, and there will always be a picture in my mind unconsciously, in the picture, Xia Lu stood in front of me with a sweet smile, slowly, her smile was gone, she was far away from me, and her face slowly showed an expression of disgust, and her face gradually blurred......

Such a picture, over the years, has been haunting me, I am full of guilt for her, it was my cowardice, I almost ruined her, it was me, I almost hurt her!

I owe Xia Lu a sorry, of course I have to find her, even if I do my best!

Thinking of this, I showed a determined gaze and said, "Okay, I'll continue to study, and I must find Xia Lu." ”

"That's right!" The dean touched me not my head this time, but my pockmarked face, except for Xia Lu, the dean is the second person who does not dislike me, he is like my father.

I sniffed, and thinking of the word father, I couldn't help but ask, "Dean, do you know who my parents are?" Why do all the children in the school have fathers, but I am the only one? ”

From elementary school to junior high school, every day after school, other children go out of school, just ride on their father's shoulders, or hold hands with their gentle mothers, and go home happily, but I can only bury my head every time and return to the orphanage alone.

The lonely me is in stark contrast to the other children!

When the dean was asked by me, he immediately paused, and then sighed: "Shoushou, who your biological parents are, I don't know, you suddenly appeared at the door of the orphanage back then, and there was a note stuffed in your arms, it was your name, Qin Shou." ”

Listening to what the dean said, I smiled self-deprecatingly in my heart, it seemed that I was lost by my own biological parents, and perhaps even my own biological parents disliked my extremely ugly face.

I don't blame them for throwing me away, I just blame them, why did they abandon me, but they still gave me this ridiculous name, at first I thought it was nothing, but when Xia Lu scolded me personally, I realized how hateful and ridiculous my name was!

The dean suddenly said to me in a deep voice: "Okay, don't think about it, don't blame your parents, maybe your parents have something unspeakable, now you just need to study hard, that's enough." ”

The dean's words, I can understand, he wants to educate me as a nurturing child, he doesn't want me to have hatred for my parents, I see all this, for me, the most important thing is not who my parents are, I only have one goal, which is to find Xia Lu.

During the summer vacation, I went out to try to find Xia Lu, but after all, it was empty, with deep regret and faint expectation, I stepped into the high school gate!

When I was in junior high school, I often heard from teachers that the atmosphere on campus was very good, and my classmates respected teachers and helped each other, but that was just hearsay.

Although under the influence of the dean, I regained the courage to continue studying, but my inferiority complex was innate, before going to school, I put on a mask, put on a hat, and covered my ugly face tightly before I went to school to report.

When I came to school, I went to the dormitory to pack everything before reporting to the new class. My withdrawn personality led me to find a remote corner of the classroom to sit in, and next to me, there was a smelly garbage can.

I secretly observed the classmates in the classroom, and the classmates with strange faces greeted each other, but I was the only one, which seemed incompatible with this harmonious picture, I didn't take the initiative to talk to others, and no one paid attention to me, which was good, and I was afraid that others would take the initiative to greet me and find my ugly face.

While I was sitting quietly, suddenly another person walked into the classroom.

When I saw this person's appearance, my breathing stopped, my heart trembled, I haven't seen him for many years, I still remember his face, it was him, it was him, it was he who ruined everything for me, and it was he who made my dark childhood!

I didn't expect that I would be able to meet him again, and even be in the same class as him, he strode forward, stood on the podium, showed a pleasant smile, and said loudly: "Hello everyone, my name is Zhang Qiang, you can also call me Qiangzi, my hobbies are singing, dancing, rap, basketball." ”

Qiangzi straightened his waist and glanced at each classmate. In the past, I heard the dean say that Qiangzi was adopted by a wealthy family, but now he is full of superiority and humor, and he has been warmly welcomed by everyone in a few simple words.

As fate would have it, I was hiding next to the trash can, which attracted the attention of Hadron, and his eyes fell on me, and I was staring at him with a blank head, and in an instant, the eyes of the two of us immediately met!

Because of weakness and timidity, I lowered my head in a panic and buried my head under the desk, the classroom was silent, terrifyingly quiet, I didn't dare to raise my head, I don't know if Qiangzi recognized me, I hope he didn't, if he recognized me, with his character, the days ahead, I would definitely not have a good time.

But, after the silence, a gentle sound of footsteps sounded slowly, and the footsteps drew closer and closer to me until the footsteps stopped beside me.

I didn't dare to look at it, I could guess that the person standing next to me was a hadron, and hadron recognized me!

I closed my eyes, only to feel that my world was dark again, I knew that I was finished, everything was finished, I had felt the methods of Hadron, his cruelty, I still remember vividly.

What made me even more desperate was that the strong son sat next to me, and my body couldn't help but shake, and cold sweat broke down my forehead.

I swallowed hard, the classroom was still silent, the atmosphere was eerie, and because of the hadrons, an inconspicuous corner, became the focus!

Time passed minute by minute, and Qiangzi didn't say a word, but for me, it was very painful, I could no longer bear the pressure brought by Qiangzi, and was about to stand up and change seats, but Qiangzi suddenly put his hand on my shoulder, and a playful voice came: "Ugly monster, where do you want to go?" ”