Xia Lu's departure, my heart instantly became empty, and it hurts, I really can't bear Xia Lu, Xia Lu is my angel, she is the one who brought me from the darkness to the light, she made me feel that there is still true love in this world, however, because of my cowardice, all this disappeared.

After Xia Lu left, I became very lonely, the world became bleak and desolate, I became a person again, let others bully, let others call me ugly, I broke these grievances into my stomach, I silently endured, I can only endure, because no one will stand up for me anymore, and there will be no second Xia Lu in this world.

My cowardice doesn't deserve to have Xia Lu!

On this day, I was eating silently in the cafeteria, and the corner where I was sitting could see the gate of the orphanage, and I would sit here every day when I ate, looking out the door while eating, hoping to see the figure I was familiar with, even though I knew that there was little hope, but I couldn't help but look forward to it.

Just as I was staring at the gate of the orphanage in a daze, suddenly the voice of the hadron sounded in my ears: "Yo, clown, sit here and look at the gate again!" ”

I raised my head in a daze, and saw the smiling Qiangzi, my fists couldn't help but clench tightly, all because of him, the reason why Xia Lu left me, he was the culprit, if he hadn't forced me to take Xia Lu to meet him, Xia Lu and I would still be the closest partners.

Qiangzi said to me sarcastically: "I said that you look at the gate every day, why don't you be a human being, go and be a dog, and be a guard dog in the orphanage, how about it?" After all, your face is no different from a dog. ”

Listening to Hadron's insulting words, I was extremely angry, but I didn't dare to refute him, just standing in front of me, my legs couldn't help but tremble with fear, and I could only express my anger with unconvinced eyes.

But, in the next second, Qiangzi suddenly raised his hand suddenly, slapped me heavily in the face, and scolded angrily: "Ugly thing, what kind of eyes do you have, are you not convinced?" ”

This slap directly stunned me, my face was hot and painful, and at the same time I was honest, I was stunned, wilted, bowed my head deeply, and didn't dare to say a word.

Seeing me like this, Qiangzi slapped me again, and jokingly said: "Not only is you an ugly man, but also a coercion, without Xia Lu protecting you, you are a piece of stinky shit." ”

Qiangzi mentioned Xia Lu, I couldn't help but think that if Xia Lu was still there, Qiangzi would not dare to bully me, but now that Xia Lu is gone, there is no one to protect me anymore, so I can only let Qiangzi bully.

Qiangzi slapped me twice, knocking the corners of my mouth bloody, and thinking of Xia Lu again, I was full of grievances, and tears poured out like a flood that opened the floodgates.

Seeing that I didn't dare to let go of my fart, I was as honest as a dog, so Qiangzi was satisfied, and instead of continuing to beat me, he mocked: "Ugly, ask you a word, do you want Xia Lu?" ”

I was trembling and wanted to open my mouth to respond to him, but I was afraid that he would hit me, so I could only bury my head and dare not speak.

"I'm asking you, do you want to!" When Hadron saw that I didn't speak, he immediately scolded me and raised his voice.

I was so frightened that I almost jumped up, and hurriedly squeezed a word out of my mouth: "Yes!" ”

Qiangzi smiled gloomily and said, "I know where Xia Lu is, do you want me to tell you." ”

My eyes lit up suddenly, and I begged, "If you want it, tell me quickly, where is Sister Lu?" "I'm impatient, during these days, I think Xia Lu is going crazy, and now I hear Qiangzi say that he knows where Xia Lu is, I desperately want to know, I'm going to find Xia Lu, I'm going to say I'm sorry to her, I'm going to ask her to get her forgiveness.

Qiangzi suddenly poured the half-eaten food on the ground, and then pinched it with his foot for a moment, and trampled the fallen food on the ground into a ball, like pig food for pigs, only to see Qiangzi said indifferently: "As long as you eat all these things, I will tell you!" ”

I was dumbfounded, staring at a piece of stool on the ground in a daze, the strong son clearly wanted to trample on my dignity!

Seeing that I hesitated, Qiangzi reminded: "Eat quickly, I'll tell you where Xia Lu is after eating, if you don't eat it, you will never see Xia Lu." ”

My heart trembled, I raised my head, looked at Qiangzi, and said innocently: "If I eat it, will you really tell me where Sister Lu is?" ”

Qiangzi nodded excitedly and said, "Eat quickly, I'll tell you where Xia Lu is after eating?" ”

As long as I can let me know where Xia Lu is and what I am asked to do, I am willing! I endured my grievances, slowly squatted on the ground, grabbed the filthy food, and poured it into my mouth one bite at a time......

The whole cafeteria fell into a deathly silence, and now all eyes must have been on me, and I became the center of attention.

"Hahaha......" Hahron's shrill mockery came to my ears.

I ignored Hadron's taunt and continued to repeat the movements in my hands, I was numb at the moment, and even the greatest humiliation spread all over my body, I closed my eyes tightly and pretended that nothing had happened. I just want to see Xia Lu, in order to see her, what is this insult!

The short process seems to be like a year, but in the end it has passed.

I wiped the dirty food from the corners of my mouth, raised my head, stared straight at Qiangzi, and said, "I did as you said, can you tell me where Sister Lu is?" ”

"Xia Lu is in ......" Qiangzi deliberately left suspense, I looked at Qiangzi with anticipation, Qiangzi changed his words and said with a smile: "Where she is, I don't know!" ”

Qiangzi smiled badly, and I came to my senses, Qiangzi was lying to me, he didn't know where Xia Lu was, but I stupidly believed it.

I roared angrily, "You lied to me? ”

"I'll lie to you, what can you do?" Qiangzi stretched out his hand to my face and laughed: "Xia Lu has already lived her princess-like life, she went to be her daughter's eldest lady, do you think she will come back to see you ugly?" Don't think about it, it's good if she saw your face and didn't vomit. ”

My tears slipped quietly, and the raging fire that had been suppressed for a long time finally broke out! Qiangzi can't feel my heart, he doesn't know how extravagant I am for Xia Lu to come back during this time, even if Xia Lu can come back and see me again!

But Qiangzi used my obsession with Xia Lu to trample on my self-esteem, I was really angry, and my body trembled because I was too angry.

When Qiangzi saw me like this, he immediately hit me with his strong body and provoked: "What? Your fist is so big that you want to hit me? Here you come, here you come. "Every time he said a word, he would hit me with his body.

The powder keg in my heart was completely ignited by the hadron, and I almost used all my strength to burst out of my chest: "Give me death!" With that, I used all my strength to pounce on Hadron.

But I was thin and weak, and I was not vulnerable to a blow in front of the strong son, and his strong kick kicked me to the ground, and then I ushered in an even more brutal beating.

It wasn't until I was beaten and rolled my eyes that Qiangzi stopped, and he snorted coldly: "Ugly thing, just because you want to hit me, you are a bedbug in my eyes, I can pinch you to death with my hands." ”

After saying that, the hadron stepped directly over my body and walked away.

The children who were watching the excitement around me pointed at me and left one after another.

At this time, I was about to lose consciousness, I wanted to move, but I couldn't, I couldn't exert my strength, I only felt pain, pain in my heart.

I lay alone on the ground for a long time, and then I regained some strength, and then I got up, shuffled out of the place with heavy steps.

Later, more and more children in the orphanage were adopted, and even the strong son left, because I was ugly and no adult wanted to adopt me, and eventually, I was left with only one child in the orphanage, which was probably a good thing for me.

With the reform of the times, the state funded me to go to school, but I still have no friends in school, my classmates said that I had hemorrhoids on my face, afraid of infecting them, so they all avoided me, I was no different from the original in school, everywhere was white-eyed, disliked, from primary school to junior high school, I lived in inferiority, and my fate was cast a thick shadow.