From the time I can remember until I was six years old, I had never been to a market, I had never eaten dumplings, I had never hung up on a blessing, I had never seen a family gathered together, and I could not even understand the literal meaning of the concept of family.

The milk powder I drank since I was a child was frozen in the refrigerator, not that my uncle and aunt abused me, but that children abroad were raised like this.

As for why I was sent abroad to be adopted by my uncle and aunt, probably because my father was caught in a lawsuit at that time, and the family's money was used to appeal and use for compensation, I heard them say that at that time, the family bought half a truckload of beans, and the family did not want me to suffer with me, plus my uncle and aunt have never had children, so I was sent to the United States to be adopted by my uncle and aunt. They treated me very well...... It wasn't until later that my uncle's family added a child... If you can't melt into the environment, you get stuck in it, like eating a fish bone stuck in your throat...... Can't get in or out, breathless, dilemma.

My parents also heard that my uncle's family had added their own children, and at that time, the family had improved, everything was basically over, and my father's business outside had also developed, and they were afraid that I would be wronged abroad, so they asked to take me back, but I didn't refuse or agree.

When I got home when I was six years old, I saw my sister who was already alive, and the only thing she regretted was probably the first time she learned to call her brother to the boy in the neighborhood.

She's getting older...... I've come to know her. She is very stubborn and stubborn...... And very naïve.

She always thinks that the relationship between her parents should be as sweet as in idol dramas?

Dad is slow to react and doesn't understand romance...... When Coco was in junior high school, she knew about Valentine's Day, she quietly bought a large bouquet of roses for her mother, and then said to her mother: "Dad asked me to buy it~" turned around and winked at Dad, Dad smiled innocently, scratched his head, and said, "Yes, I let Coco buy it." ”

My mother put the roses into the vase with a happy face, but she still smiled and complained: "The roses will wilt in a few days, and they will spend money in a mess." ”

At that time, I really thought that our family was really happy.

It wasn't until my freshman year of high school that I witnessed them arguing...... Dad likes to drink, likes to play cards, drinks too much and talks a lot, which is nothing more than those bad things in the men's drinking field. What disgusted me the most was that he actually did it......

I couldn't talk about domestic violence, but when I did, I stood in front of my mother and looked at my father's face...... There has never been a moment when I didn't want to see this face.

"You go." I said.

Dad was silent, slammed the door and left. My mother was sitting on the ground, and I went over to help her, and she hugged me and cried, and I realized that I don't know when there was a crack in their relationship.

"Don't let your sister know, she's thoughtful, I'm afraid she'll be worried."

"Hmm." I patted my mom on the back.

If we talk about love, I feel that Dad's love is doting, Mom is the love of companionship, Dad is most afraid of our lack of money, and Mom is afraid that we will not feel family affection. So two people treat us differently.

When I was abroad, my father never visited me, but there was always a remittance in the bank card from time to time, and my mother would come every year on vacation.

No one can interfere in their feelings, but Coco's subconscious has always felt ...... The family she was in was full of joy and happiness, and the moment I watched my mother cry, I made up my mind that since I couldn't protect the happiness of this family, I would protect her innocent heart.

Coco's father in his eyes is a hero-like person, who can give her a sense of security and protect her, such a person, if she knows the truth, it is difficult to predict what kind of emotions she will have.

As they quarreled more and more often, my mother didn't want to show it in front of Coco, so sometimes my father slammed the door and left, and my mother told me to tell Coco that he was going to play cards. Coco has always been naïve to believe... That day, they actually quarreled in front of Coco, I sent her downstairs, worried that he would do it, and found a reason to return home, seeing their fierce quarrel, I really had a big head, so I stood there and said indifferently: "If you can't get by, divorce." ”

In fact, everyone knows that they have long considered divorce......

Coco grew up under the protection of her parents since she was a child, and her inner capacity is naturally not as good as my heart, which has been polished outside since childhood. What we were worried about was that we were afraid that she would have an emotional breakdown, but that day, my mother said tiredly: "Let's go, let's get a divorce, it's not interesting to live like this." ”

I looked at the tired look in my mother's eyes, and her eyes were full of distress.

I know that there's nothing good in sticking around.

When we got home at noon, Coco and I didn't see our parents, this was the first time, my mother didn't prepare a delicious meal for us at home, but called me and said, "Lanlan, you can buy some food for yourself at noon, I have something to do with your father." ”

I answered, understood what she was talking about, and ordered takeout.

Coco asked, "What's wrong with your parents?" ”

I shook my head: "There are those who are married, and they are going to the banquet." ”

Coco nodded thoughtfully, didn't speak, and lowered his head to eat.

I thought she didn't think much of it, but later her behavior told me...... She seems to have grown up.

If I had known that she would have done this in the face of her parents' divorce...... I would never have proposed a divorce to my parents.

I regret it......