Tang Lan didn't study late at night, I went back early, my mother didn't come back at noon, and my father wasn't there, but later my mother said that I went to my grandmother's house, and my father accompanied me. All of a sudden, my brother and I were left in the house, so empty...... No one.

I went to my parents' bedroom, I didn't know what was going on in my head, I opened the cabinet in the bedroom, rummaged back and forth, half of the clothes were missing, the less was very neat, and the men's clothes were gone. I turned to look at the drawer on the other side, from childhood to adulthood, even if the family's money is placed in the most conspicuous place, my brother and I will not take it, so my mother never has a safe at home, so there is no password, no lock, I am looking for something that can make me feel at ease, but what I found is a dazzling red book, I lowered my eyes, looked at the small book in my hand, and said: "Ah~ It turns out that the divorce certificate and the marriage certificate look so similar." ”

I was still immersed in my own world, and I walked to my bedroom in a trance, turned off all the lights, and surrounded myself with the most protective posture, I was afraid of the dark.

I still remember when I was a child, I liked to watch ghost movies, the more scared I was, the more I liked to watch them, and when I was in elementary school, I didn't dare to separate the bed, and my mother disliked me for being so old and didn't dare to sleep by myself, so I put myself in the house alone, and my mother was at home and I was afraid and didn't dare to go to the bedroom to sleep, because my mother had a nervous breakdown, and once I ran over to disturb her, she would be unable to sleep all night. Sometimes my dad comes back late, so I sleep on the sofa, I see my dad on the sofa when I go to the toilet at night, and after I go back, I can continue to sleep with confidence, and I am full of security at home with my dad at home.

I still remember when I was in elementary school, once my mother was not at home at night, I was scared, so I ran to my father's bedroom barefoot, and my father was so sleepy that he had already fallen asleep, and seeing my pitiful appearance, he carried me to the bed with the quilt. I always had nightmares, but when I fell asleep next to my dad, I wasn't afraid of anything, because in my eyes, my dad was very good and could fight off all the bad guys, and that night, my dreams were all sweet candy cakes and Teletubbies...... And that time... When I was in the third grade, my dad accompanied me to the bookstore, I couldn't read anything, I wanted to go to the children's area to read comics, all the books with text were so big for me, but my dad was different, every time he went to the bookstore, it was like he went to the bookstore with a task, every time he went to see a book called "Pipiru and Lu Xixi", I still remember, the writer was Zheng Yuanjie. My dad always told me the stories he had read little by little before I went to bed, and in his storytelling session every night, I could learn about a cool Pipiru, the book "Pipiru and the Invisible Man in the Classroom" is one of the most popular stories in the book told by my father, I like the invisible man, because when I was a child, I was most afraid of exams, the book said that the invisible man is very powerful, and during the exam, he helped Lippiru get a good score...... Sometimes I would get sleepy while talking, and then I would fall asleep, and my father would quietly leave the room, cover me with the quilt, and ask me the next day what I heard yesterday. There is also swimming...... Mom didn't dare to go into the water, every time I went to the pool with my father, my father would swim in a variety of styles, I still remember that my little body was held in his hands, I learned to hold my breath, learned to tread water, and could swim out seven or eight meters at a time. I rode on my dad's back, and my dad swam in the water, and I paddled on his back. There was no place to dive, so my father lifted me and threw me into the water, the water slapped on my body without pain, and I landed at a moderate height, and I felt the fine stones at the bottom of the lake, and I began to like water......

When I was born, my whole body was in a mess, my nose and eyes were so ugly, my grandfather's typical patriarchy, looking at me, said I was like an ugly duckling, my father didn't think so, for fear that I would lose it, when I was put in the observation room, my father kept standing outside and watched worriedly, for fear that he would make a mistake, and my mother later laughed at my father, saying: "Whoever steals a girl is also stealing a boy." At that time, my father said with a serious face: "That's not good, my daughter is so good-looking, what if she is replaced." "Later, I looked at the photo of the newborn at that time, and my facial features were all huddled together... Where is it good-looking, it's good to have a person, and Dad is rare like something. And there's more...... Memories came in front of me, I tilted my head aggrievedly, and the hot tears still fell, it turned out that when I was sad, the tears did not fall one by one, but one after another...... yes, why didn't I find out, how long has my dad not traveled with me, bought new clothes with me, and swam with me...... It's been a long time, right, because he's busy with school or he's busy with work? Isn't it...... In this family relationship, the former companionship, I don't know when it began, gradually became gone...... In place of these, Dad went out to drink and play cards...... All the entertainment and pastime because I grew up? Is it gradually irrelevant to me...... For a while, I felt like I was abandoned, and my father still loved me...... Mom loves it too, right? I asked myself over and over again, over and over again, until I became numb and couldn't stop......

At this time, I heard the sound of the key inserted into the lock outside the door, I didn't care, I was still sitting in the bedroom in a daze, and Tang Lan's voice came from outside the door: "Keke, are you back?" ”

I wiped my tears and stood up to turn on the light, without making a sound.

Tang Lan saw me turn on the light and knocked on the door to come in, so I said loudly, "Don't come in." ”

"What's wrong?"

"I ...... In journaling. ”

"Well, have you eaten? I'm on leave today, you're afraid of the dark, I'll come back to accompany you. ”

The tears I had just held back wanted to drip again, and I said in a trembling voice, "Hmm." ”

Dad, do you remember that I was afraid of the dark......