[In those years, she gradually forgot and learned to really let go; In those years, he fell deeper and deeper into his thoughts, and became ill in the darkness of an invisible place - He Yansheng! 】

"Mom, I'm sorry. I had to go with you back then, in fact, you didn't want to take me away at the beginning, and now I can understand it, at that time I was too young to force it. The proof that I am the one who betrayed you is that I am too cruel, and my existence reminds you of this terrible truth every day. ”

Zhong Zixi's head was buried very low, and no one could even get out of his heart.

"Xiaoxi, you always think it's your fault that I am at fault with your father? Do you think I'm seeing you as a cruelty to me? ”

Zhong Yu stood up and walked towards Zhong Zixi, she bent down and hugged her hard, just like when she was a child, patting her back again and again, making people feel at ease and calm.

The mother and daughter have not acted so intimately for many years, and Zhong Zixi's irrepressible tension betrayed the emotions in his heart.

"Xiaoxi, mom loves you, no matter what has happened between me and your father, you are our child, our love for you has always been the most selfless and sincere. Maybe the divorce hurt you a lot back then, but I have no deception or disgust for you. ”

Zhong Zixi's eyes were full of tears, and he was stubborn and refused to fall. It's not that she doesn't want to believe it, it's that she has always insisted on believing, but the results brought to her again and again are backfired.

This time she didn't know how to continue, how to believe what she heard and saw.

What she wants is going away in a different way, family affection is like this, attachment is like this, if she didn't get it in the first place, maybe there won't be so much loss.

So she would rather live without hope, at least that there will be no hope and then disappointment that will consume her again and again.

"Xiaoxi, mom knows that maybe what I'm saying makes it difficult for you to believe it unconditionally, but please trust mom not to completely close her heart after being disappointed, okay?"

When his thoughts returned, he was surrounded by the careful advice and concerned eyes of his parents, as well as the company he had always had. At this moment, all the care ended perfectly, Zhong Zixi calmly clicked the word submit and left quietly.

Walking out of the computer room, the air outside the house was exceptionally fresh, and the wind swept in with the heat wave, and only the Zhizhi on the branches was screaming endlessly. It was the most sincere and enthusiastic awe of this Xia and her own life, but it was a pity that this awe she might still have but it became very light.

Just because in the morning, when Zhong Yu finished speaking, Zhong Zixi ran away, and in the face of her mother's sincere eyes at that time, she didn't have the strength and courage to say a word.

Cowardice with panic, timid, stubborn and reluctant to come out, the person has always been her.

After that, the mother and daughter tacitly did not mention that morning, but Zhong Yu could feel the change in Zhong Zixi.

She began to slowly become attached, coquettish, and had more and more smiles on her face.

On the day the admission letter arrived, the mother and daughter went out to celebrate, and the Yuncheng family was very famous

The hot pot restaurant is called "memory".

Zhong Zixi likes this restaurant, in addition to its name and the design of the store, the most important thing is that the taste of memory is very pure, the taste of traditional hot pot, this restaurant will give guests a cup of the owner's exclusive treasure smoothie when they are halfway through eating, as for the taste, although random, Zhong Zixi likes each taste.

At the end of the meal, the waiters will serve them their handmade ice cream.

The unconcealable happiness on her face made Zhong Yu very pleased, Zhong Zixi seemed to be easily satisfied, and the most ordinary hot pot was enough to make her happy for a long time.

She was relieved that her mind was so heavy and that her mind could remain so simple.

"Is it that delicious? You've been laughing since the beginning of eating. Zhong Yu couldn't help but ask out loud.

"It's delicious." Zhong Zixi took a big bite of ice cream and put it in his mouth, and the cold sensation on his red lips instantly poured in. Stimulated, every nerve of her is shouting soberly, her eyebrows and eyes are crooked and slightly squinted, full of enjoyment, like a lazy meow.

Zhong Yu looked at her comfortingly, "Eat slowly, and no one will rob you." ”

Zhong Zixi listened to Zhong Yu's words, frowned crampedly, and said shyly, "Mom, this is really delicious, and only when you eat it in a big gulp can you feel that heat and cold collide with each other." ”

"I remember that there are many hot pot restaurants in Cloud City, and you only seem to have a soft spot for this one." Zhong Yu didn't stop it again, but asked the question that had been buried in her heart.

"Yes, companionship is the most affectionate confession. Because I like its taste, I just want to accompany it through every morning and twilight and prosperity. ”

The atmosphere was a little stagnant for a while, Zhong Yu always knew that Zhong Zixi was a person who missed the past, but he didn't expect her nostalgia to be in the bottom of her heart and inadvertently.

In fact, Zhong Zixi didn't tell Zhong Yu that what she really loves is not "memory", but it may be a place she will never set foot again in her life.

At this time, Zhong Zixi didn't know all her thoughts and impossibilities, and she would be overturned by that person in the near future, and at that time Zhong Zixi understood that nothing in this world was impossible.

Zhong Zixi coughed lightly and pretended to be relaxed. "Mom, there's actually another very important reason why I like to remember this store, do you know what it is?"

Zhong Yu shook his head and listened carefully.

"Hot pot represents hot and red, and cold drinks represent ice and white. This cold and hot, red and white collide with each other. Let the onlooker feel its straightforwardness and fiery first-hand, so that you don't have to struggle to guess the meaning and disguise behind it, and I feel very relaxed to be here, and I love this feeling of relaxation. ”

"It's not that no one loves, and it's not anyone's twins"

"We beg ~ to exist, and we are afraid of hurting each other outside of existence"

"We are good~ we shouldn't, I'm afraid of the future, it's not exciting"

"We ask ~ understand, and after understanding, smiling has become pathological"

"We are good ~ bad or bad, we can start again if we let go!"

There is Li Ronghao's song "Please" in the restaurant, and the reason why she likes it is probably that this store can poke her heart. these

She has always been cautious on the edge of temptation, both for the family and for H.

Each progressive lyric is a portrayal of her most real psychological state, she knows that she is very sick like this, but she can't change it.

If you let it go, you can start again. In fact, everything is the same, and no one can help her solve this knot. If she can't step out of that circle, what can others do.

Zhong Yu has never interfered in the matter of college from beginning to end, deciding on a school and choosing a major, as long as she is happy, Zhong Yu chooses to support it.

Throughout his college years, Zhong Zixi joined the student organization and followed the club to various places across the country, relaxed his mind, and became more and more sunny in his personality.

From the very beginning, she learned to draw by hand, and expressed all her views and thoughts about the world on paper, which is a stepping stone for every true designer to enter the industry.

An imaginary world and scenery built up bit by bit is the most straightforward statement in her heart. You don't need to use words, you don't need to communicate with others, all your emotions can be read on paper in the most intuitive way.

This is the world that Zhong Zixi wants to express, embodying value in beauty.

In the first semester of her freshman year, her hand-painting completely became famous in Yunda, but no one knew that her works were not admired by no teacher.

In the second semester, while others were still studying hand-painting, she began to learn the basics of design and jewelry photography, focusing on diamond science and jade carving.

That year, Zhong Zixi made herself brighter and brighter through this beautiful luminous body, and the relationship between her and Zhong Yu gradually got closer that year, and she often thought about H that year, I don't know if he found the person who was very important to him.

That year, He Yansheng, as the youngest architect in Cloud City, won all competitions and awards, but that year he often thought of 'I want to grow up'.

The gray avatar never came to light again, and the girl never attached to him again. It was as quiet as if it had never appeared, and there was nothing but the records of the conversations that proved her presence.

The more successful you are, the more you enjoy it, and the more you enjoy it, the more lonely you are.

The loneliness and long-term loneliness behind this, no one to complain about, and even the feeling of being needed disappeared, and the little girl who liked GODIVA back then, her appearance began to fade and he rarely remembered.

He Yansheng thought that if it weren't for those hand-drawn drawings back then, maybe he might not be able to remember those vague memories at all!

In the first semester of her sophomore year, she began to follow her teacher out to collect art, feeling the customs of different countries and artistic creation techniques, and collecting a steady stream of creative inspiration for her future works.

The introduction to design, how to decorate patterns, and the composition principles of each step in the professional class, the more she learns and broadens her horizons, the more she can find out what she likes about this industry.

In the second semester, she began to enter the production process before others.

Through the study of metal materials and craftsmanship in the past and the techniques of jewelry expression, Zhong Zixi has been able to carry out independent jewelry design and inlay production.

That year she began to make a name for herself, and her work named ZX won first place in the Jewelry Design Competition in Cloud City.

That year, she was very busy, busy studying, busy creating, so busy that she missed H less and less, and being busy until H was just a motivation on her way forward.

And that year, He Yansheng became the chief designer of the He Group, and in the upper circle of Cloud City, He Yansheng was like the kind of child of someone else's family, and the young owner of the He Group was humble and polite.

The design department is the main force of Heshi Group in the past two years, because He Yansheng is far ahead in Cloud City, which makes it difficult for other companies to surpass.

That year, He Yansheng missed more and more 'I want to grow up', I miss that girl who can talk non-stop, and I miss the message sent by the girl when she was happy. 〗

On the other side of the screen, she must have been dancing with her eyebrows at that time, and the smile in the corners of her eyes was as bright as the starry sky in the night, lighting up his lonely and barren world.

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