[The world is very big, so big that there are no electronic products, many people will not have an intersection in this life, and the world is very small, so small that one person's behavior will invisibly determine and affect another person's life - He Yansheng! 】

This fever came and went quickly, and during this period, all the memories between the Xu family and the man were deliberately ignored by the mother and daughter.

Just like Xu Zixi didn't know why Xu Baihang suddenly gave up custody, and she didn't know when Zhong Yu took her away from the Xu family.

After everything unknown is covered in a layer of fog, the unknown and confused are enough to make it impossible to explore.

After that, Xu Zixi never saw Xu Baihang again. After the winter snow, even the air is permeated with the feeling of cold air, and when the wind blows, the wind runs through the neck, and it is unavoidable.

The day before she changed her name, she found Uncle Xu without telling everyone, and the little girl explained her intention very directly and expressed her firm determination.

Xu Zixi didn't expect Uncle Xu to agree so happily, the winter sun at the age of thirteen was warm, and it was very comfortable to shine on his body. But she knows that no matter how the sun shines in the future, this ray of sunshine will not shine into her heart, and what is the use of being warm but not reaching the bottom of her heart.

She changed Xu Zixi to Zhong Zixi, because as long as she heard those three words, she would feel extremely ironic. That is evidence of the father's betrayal of the mother, and she will always be the existence and verifier of that evidence.

In that case, every minute and every second is tantamount to living in torment.

At the age of thirteen, there is no more Xu Zixi in the world!

After Zhong Zixi told Zhong Yu the news, her mother looked very indifferent and not too surprised, as if all this was very reasonable, and like she had known that she would do this but never thought of stopping her.

Zhong Yu's performance has been very calm throughout the whole incident, and it seems that she is the only one who has been hurt the most in this betrayal and injury. And they are all just programs that have set up the code in advance, only the switches only need to follow the instructions to go through each step.

No sadness, no impact!

At that time, she didn't understand that the sorrow of adults would be hidden, and then let joy, anger, sorrow and happiness become a disease in a place that no one else could see.

When I was thirteen years old, there was no Xu Zixi in the world, the world was very big, so big that there were no electronic products, many people would not have intersections in this life, and this world was very small, so small that one person's behavior would invisibly determine and affect the life of another person!

In this sparse and ordinary life, it seems to be a simple and random behavior, but it has become a doubt that He Yansheng has been seeking for many years without success.

The snow day that year was the coldest back she had ever seen, and when she was left alone in place, Zhong Zixi began to learn to restrain all her little emotions.

A child who can not be needed at any time will never have the qualifications to be willful, when she was a child, she loved to laugh and laugh, she could be disobedient wantonly, and she could make any unreasonable demands at will.

That's because she knows that no matter how the world changes, no matter how complicated the chaos outside is, no matter how rude and willful she is, she has a family, parents and love behind her

Person.

So she has the courage to move forward, and now the backing is broken, and even her stubbornness has dissipated. 【@… Aichi Literature *! Free to read]

Zhong Zixi never thought that in a corner of the city, she would become the only and desired person in that person's heart, and she could still be a person who was needed.

When life returned to peace, Zhong Yu returned to teaching at H University, where his mother had been a history professor until she married that person.

And she also returned to school and began the most peaceful and boring campus life.

If Xu Zixi was alive in the past, then Zhong Zixi is just alive now.

The rules and regulations put away all the publicity and arbitrariness in class, and even the texts she hated the most in the past would be done on time and with quality.

From this moment on, she wanted to become an impeccable Zhong Zixi to give back to Zhong Yu's dead heart and the family that could never be completed again.

There are a lot of hazy feelings at the age of junior high school, and that time is probably like a shot from an old movie, with squeaky black and white pictures layered on top of each other. With the ambiguity of that memory time, the more blurred, dreamy, deadly, and curious!

All the feelings are intertwined in a moment, easy to associate and easy to substitute. Everything at that time did not need clear words and affirmation, and the heart would be inadvertently crushed by the captive.

From then on, the distance between them was what she looked up to, and she began to hope for the future. The flowers bloom in the sun, the wind blows, swaying and fragrant, the birds perch on the branches, the light is sprinkled and leisurely, the mountains stand between the sky and the earth, and the rain is renewed.

And she and him are like a wind chime hanging under the window in front of the classroom, and they keep turning and turning as soon as people come......

From Xu Zixi to Zhong Zixi, she has always chosen not to mention the speculation and discussion behind it.

Zhong Yu told her, "There are some things that you look down on, and others know that this will not be a sharp blade to attack you, and they will naturally lose interest." People are cubes that endure suffering, just like a sponge, the more you inhale, the quieter it becomes, and in the future, in the right place, it will bloom naturally. ”

Even so, the scar was too deep.

No matter how beautiful the wound was sewn at the beginning, the thread would not be seen clearly, and even so, it still couldn't wipe the trace.

She didn't want to show her pain to be attacked, joked, hilarious, and entertained in the most malicious way, either of which was her disgust that she couldn't let go.

"Stop."

Zhong Zixi swept the people beside her indifferently, she was silent, she was indifferent, and the sharpness between her eyebrows was unrestrained, and her aura was full of coldness.

She methodically walked to her seat, packed her school bag, and prepared to go straight to the auditorium.

There was a speech in the school auditorium today, and she was very interested and didn't want to waste time on this group of people.

Many years later, Zhong Zixi still remembers the most disgusting thing in her life, which is the inquiring and curious gaze of others.

Throughout my youth, there have been too many eyes, caring, scrutinizing, mocking, curious, inquisitive, and joking, whether it is from kindness or finally

Malicious. For her, it was tantamount to adding to the tearing of the wound, reminding her of this established fact.

Whenever this happens, Zhong Zixi will choose to leave quickly, and then pretend that he can't hear, see, or feel.

She tried to pretend she didn't want it, didn't care, tried to counteract these uncertainties with indifference.

But not every pretending can get a good death, the fist is pinched harder than anyone else in a place that others can't see, but the heart has long been numb and dull in pain.

There was a snickering in the crowd, and all kinds of makeup on their faces. Apathy is terrible, and so are those in the crowd who contribute to it.

Someone was whistling, and I don't know who shouted loudly, "Is it too short to stop two words, I have to call you Xu ......"

Zhong Zixi stood still and turned around slowly, the curvature of the corners of her mouth rose slightly, but the coldness on her body inadvertently grew, which was a sign of Zhong Zixi's anger, and she was forbearing.

If she gets angry today, I don't know how many scenes like today will be waiting for her to solve again and again in the future.

Anger is the samurai's Shura field, and she only wants to be Athena, the god of wisdom!

Even if she didn't want to admit that the man had told her since she was a child, "Xiaoxi, the easier you remember to be provoked, the more your opponent will quickly identify where your weaknesses are!" If you are not humble, you are not arrogant, you are not happy or crying, so that your opponent will not be able to start. ”

The man taught her how to solve the problem, and he also turned her into the person who put herself in the situation.

Zhong Zixi slowly bent down and put his schoolbag next to his feet. With his hands around him, he stared at the person who had just spoken in the crowd with a smile.

"If you dare to say this, I don't know what I'm going to do that even I can't promise." ”

Maybe she looks really fierce at this time! The man shrank in fright, and took several steps back.

stared at her weakly with a look of disbelief and insisted weakly, delusionally trying to regain some initiative, "You, you, who are you scaring about?" ”

Zhong Zixi sneered, and his tone was even more lazy than just now, just like a small blue and white short.

Obviously has a docile and quiet personality, and is also very friendly to people, why is the beauty angry, but when she is angry, she laughs in anger, and there is a touch of charm between her eyes, which is probably this state.

Zhong Zixi is good-looking, and his facial features are very aggressive. Coupled with the fact that he has always been cold and unsociable, he will derive today's play.

"You try, see if it's a scare, don't you know!"

After the farce, everyone began to understand that the cold beauty is not in vain. The temperament is cold, and the person is even colder.

Instead of seeing the joke as the centerpiece of everyone's joke, the man left in shock.

Zhong Zixi, who won the first battle, picked up the schoolbag elegantly, patted the dust under the bag by the way, and walked out of the classroom under the gaze of everyone.

The mood was greatly damaged, and after a while, I lost my mind to see the outstanding alumni standing on the stage and talking about chicken soup for the soul, Zhong Zixi opened his schoolbag, put on a mask, and walked towards the back mountain of the campus.

The scenery of the back mountain is very good, and it was special back then

Important people have also come here to specifically mention the word.

The scenery and its attractions are one of the hallmarks of the school, and the beautiful places on campus can be used as landmarks and are just as taboo places to turn fantasies into reality in the name of love in the hazy times.

And there is a lecture in the auditorium today, and it is said that he is still the kind of outstanding alumni who are rare to meet in a hundred years and are so handsome that there is no heavenly reason, so today this place that is privately called taboo by students* should be very quiet!

Zhong Zixi cautiously climbed to the rockery of the back mountain and enjoyed the simple version of "will be at the top of the mountain, at a glance of the mountains" feeling.

Ascending and letting go of the air is really a good medicine for the healing system.

But the accident always comes after relaxation and surprise, Zhong Zixi found that his schoolbag was stuck in the gap between the rockery. A heartfelt call for who is so immoral and chewing gum in the back mountain, and spit on the rockery.

(End of chapter)