All these memories are in the past, and now I am the only one left to sacrifice for them.

I spilled the rest of the wine in front of Uncle Liu's tombstone, I remember that he and my father were both drinkers, and after his death, Liu Yi and I would occasionally bring wine to his grave, but now even Liu Yi is gone.

"Didn't you think about leaving some for my brother?" Liu Suxi's voice came from behind, faintly mixed in the sound of rain, but it was like a hammer smashing into my heart.

Surprised, I got up and turned to look at her, still holding the empty bottle in my hand.

"Huh? What about my brother? Where is he? Liu Suxi still didn't have any expression, but there seemed to be thorns in her eyes.

I was speechless, my heart was twisted...

"At least they're all lying quietly here, but what about my brother? Where is he lying? Liu Suxi clenched his fists and his shoulders trembled slightly, and his hair was messily hung on his face mixed with rain, was it rain or tears on his face?

"I'm sorry." The most useless three words, I don't know what to say other than that.

"The person who said sorry must be wrong somewhat, what's wrong with you?" Liu Suxi's voice was faint, the same as when she was a child, but with an incomparably chill. She stared at me from a distance of less than a meter, refusing to blink even as the bangs were scattered and the rain slipped into the corners of her eyes.

I didn't dare to look her in the eye anymore. Turning his head to look at Uncle Liu's tombstone again, a question arose in his heart, where is Liu Yi now? Missing? It's just that I can't find or don't find an excuse, the rainforest that swallowed us all may also bury Liu Yi's body.

"Give me some time, and I'll help you get your brother back."

Without saying a word of goodbye, Liu Suxi turned around and quietly left Mu Yuan alone, re-holding the umbrella, and her thin back looked a little swaying.

I went back to my father's grave, my fists clenched slightly, "I'll find out..."

"Coming back?" When I got home, my mother was cooking, and Jingjing was jumping around on the couch.

"Well, it's raining so hard outside." I looked at Zhuang Jing, who was happy alone, while collecting the umbrella, "Be careful, don't fall." ”

"Daddy's back? Help me turn on the TV, I want to watch cartoons. Zhuang Jing stopped moving, pointed to the TV remote control on the side and said.

I turned on the TV a little louder and turned around and walked towards the kitchen, there was something to discuss with my mother, "I want to go back to the rainforest." ”

The mother was a little surprised, her eyes widened, and then she sighed deeply, "Zhuang Yan, are you still haunted by the past?" Let the past pass, now you should also think about the future, after all, you are a father, and you should also think about the future for your children. ”

"I made it clear that this time I went back to put an end to the past, not an eternal ellipsis like the present."

The food in the wok was still churning, and my mother's hand didn't stop, and I knew she must not want me to go back to that sad place.

"Don't worry, I'll just go back and have a look, and I'll be back in a few days."

"Silly boy, since you're back alive, why do you have to think about the past, just forget it." The mother put down the shovel and turned the fire on the stove smaller, but her eyes were rarely full of regret.

I was speechless for a while, thinking that my mother was worried about me, and after thinking for a while, in order to reassure my mother, I told her, "I met Xixi when I was paying tribute to my father today, and I thought I should go back and have a look, even if I brought back some soil, so that Liu Yi's mother and Xixi could worship in the future, so that I could have an explanation for the past, right?" After all, Liu Yi is my good brother, and I think my father will agree with it. ”

My mother sighed deeply, but she didn't know how to persuade me again, "Okay, since you say that, I can't stop you, be careful when you are outside, and don't rush forward stupidly when something happens." ”

"Don't worry, I know it."

"You know that I nag," the mother began to speak from the bottom of her heart again.

A few days later, the wind was beautiful. I arranged my family and Jingjing well, and set off for that familiar destination again with my travel bag alone, but my mood was completely different at this time.

Once upon a time, when we were young, Liu Yi and I had dreams, high spirits and high morale, and kept looking into the distance with the blessings of relatives and lovers. At that time, there were dreams in the distance, but at this time, there was only heartache left in the distance.

Maybe there's the answer there, but can I find it?