Waving your hand, it is parting.

"What? You're quitting? Lao Di sat in an electric wheelchair, holding the resignation letter I submitted to him early in the morning, "Why?" I was about to announce a piece of good news this morning, but you submitted your resignation to me before that? ”

Considering that it was too likely that I myself had become a target, I decided to resign in order to avoid implicating others, but I had to hide the details.

"I've already decided, I've encountered too many things recently, and the psychological pressure is a bit big." I tried to find an innocuous reason to prevaricate.

"Don't talk to me, although you haven't reached the point where you can't bear something, you came down from the battlefield, you were beaten with iron, if you couldn't bear it, I would have closed the door a long time ago." Lao Di changed his amiable temper, even if he sat in a wheelchair, he still seemed to be a piece of iron, hard, "Say, what's the reason?" ”

"The mother at home is worried, and there is a daughter, and I don't want to take too many risks."

"Excuse, although our work is risky, it is generally not life-threatening. Yes, I'll admit that you've been here for nearly a year and you've had a higher chance of running into something, but you're going to back down because of that? Lao Di's voice was very strong.

"What's wrong with Lao Di? So loud. Qiu Shaocai arrived at the company and unscrewed the door of Lao Di's office without knocking.

"Okay, you tell me about this alone, you go and say in front of all your brothers, you are leaving, you are going to resign." Lao Di still looked displeased.

"Why? What happened? Going? Qiu Shao looked surprised and puzzled.

"I decided." I insisted.

"Do you want to change jobs? But no, no security company is better than the defensive shield, and besides, our brothers are like an iron plate, where to find this? Are you willing? Qiu Shao couldn't understand.

I was reluctant to give up and treat them as brothers, so I couldn't hurt them anymore, "They are all brothers, so... Ask again. Lao Di, I respect you, but can you not ask this time? ”

“...”

Lao Di and Qiu Shao didn't say anything anymore.

"If I were fine, I would never resign at this time, there is really something, I want to leave for a while, and I am not sure if I can come back."

“...”

"Is that so..."

"I didn't have a chance to talk to my brothers in detail, nor did I have a chance to say hello in advance, but if there was something, I would never hold it." I'm still under pressure.

"Something happened to you?" Lao Di looked serious, "What's the matter?" Maybe I can help you. ”

"Thank you, but it's still not convenient to tell you now." I shook my head helplessly, "But! I promise that if I can come back in the future, I will never go to any security company, and I will come back to you, please forgive me. ”

Lao Di waved his hand, then propped up his wheelchair and leaned forward, trying to take something from the drawer of the office cabinet.

"What do you want to take? I'll help you. "I bent down too.

"I'll do it myself." After speaking, Lao Di took out a bank card from the drawer and spread it on the office desktop, "Inside is the bonus given to you by the Royal Salute Company, one million Hong Kong dollars, and the other one million is the reward given to you by the defensive shield, you have handled so many things very well, take it." ”

I didn't know what to say, I stood still.

"Take it." Lao Di's voice suddenly softened, "Whoever has nothing to do, if there is something to do, go and come back when it is done." ”

Qiu Shao turned around and held my right hand tightly with his right hand, and his right shoulder collided with his right shoulder powerfully, "Brother, if there is really something, don't hold it alone, let's carry it together, the door of the defensive shield will always be open for you." ”

I didn't know what to say, my feet felt like they were stuck to the floor, and I couldn't move if I wanted to. There are so many things I want to say in my heart, but I can't say a single one.

Lao Di picked up the bank card on the desk, drove the electric wheelchair to my side and stuffed the bank card into my hand, "I won't say much, go early and return early." ”

"I won't leave you for lunch, let's go, I'll send you." Qiu Shao said with a smile, without a trace of alienation.

Walking from the aisle towards the elevator, the two groups of brothers who had just returned yesterday, Yu Yang and Fu Dongdong saw each other off all the way, "Brother, we are waiting for you to come back." ”

Sent to the office building, Cheng Luchen and Qiu Shao waved at me, "Don't worry, we will wait for you to come back, go and do your own business, and call if you need help." ”

A group of iron-clad hot-blooded men don't need to say more, but why did I burst into tears the moment I turned around?

Waving your hand, it's a farewell...

It's been nearly a year since I walked alone on the stone paths of this coastal park again, and I don't seem to be longing for anything anymore, but I feel relaxed after coming out of the defensive shield, at least I won't hurt my brothers anymore and have encountered so many strange things. I raised the corners of my mouth and looked at the other side of the coast like a self-deprecating look, there was Hong Kong, where Li Xiaoai was staying now, I remembered the faint scent of lavender, but it dissipated in a flash. I didn't know what the future would hold, but I knew I shouldn't have her with me.

There are so many unclear pasts that have never had a chance to be revealed, how can we look forward to the future? If you are destined to suffer later, then why share it with your loved ones?

The sea water kept lapping against the reef embankment, the sea breeze hit the surface, and the stratus clouds were black and oppressive. I watched my surroundings warily, but I didn't feel any eyes watching, and I even had a thought that the murderer would appear now, even if it was to push me off the embankment, or to target me with his artistic murderous methods, I just wanted him to spare the others, to spare those who were innocent.

I stood on the shore with a blank mind for a long, long time, until the sun was about to set, and there was not even a single person to talk to or look at. It seems that if I hadn't died in an elaborate accident, I would have lived a peaceful and healthy life.

But for what exactly? Why do I have to die? And it costs so much time? It's something I haven't been able to figure out.

On the 5th of April, just after the light of day, yesterday's stratus clouds began to rain as if they were obeying the rules. I made an appointment with Dong Jian to meet near the city square at about 10 o'clock in the morning, but after answering the phone, he was not in the mood to talk to me about today's arrangements.

"You quit? Why don't you say it in advance? You're just going to keep my brother in the dark? Dong Jian was very angry on the other end of the phone.

"I've already told Lao Di and them, and they agreed."

"They didn't agree, they just agreed with you to do something, you said you had something but didn't say it, you kept it stuffy, do you treat us as brothers?"

“…”

"Forget it, don't talk nonsense with you on the phone, I'll clean you up when we meet." Dong Jian hung up the phone.

Near the passage near the parking lot in the city square, Li Xiaoai, Dong Jian and Liu Lian were sitting under a parasol drinking drinks. Before I could get closer, Dong Jian jumped up like a lion seeing its prey, clenched his fists to death, and walked towards me with heavy steps.

In the distance, Liu Lian and Li Xiaoai just looked in our direction, and then there was no other movement.

"What the hell is going on? Why did you suddenly offer your resignation? Dong Jian asked.

"I'm tired and want to rest." I barely laughed.

"Bullshit, I don't know how many times more bitter I was in the army back then than now, who I've heard dare to shout that they are tired and want to rest?"

"..."irrefutable.

"If you have something, just talk about it, don't twist and pinch like a woman..."Dong Jian's voice was loud, and he knew that someone behind him had reined in his tone when he was halfway through his words, "Say it quickly, what's going on?" ”

Liu Lian listened to him clearly, but he didn't have a seizure, he just rolled his eyes and pretended to be speechless, but Li Xiaoai showed a surprised expression and asked softly, "Why did you resign suddenly?" ”

I stared at Dong Jian's eyes, and then buried my head in Li Xiaoai. Shaking his head, he insisted on not saying a word in his heart.

"Don't you want to die?"

“...”

"Okay, if you dare to escape in the army, you don't need me to do it, Xu Yong will clean you up. But now that everyone is out of the army, you want to take care of things by yourself and no one cares about you, but I am your brother, I was, I am, and I will be in the future. Get out, if you need my help if you think of something, remember to come to me, we will always be brothers. Dong Jian stared at me, and sometimes turned his head to stare at the drizzle outside the eaves, "You kid, you have always had such an idea and don't listen to persuasion, but the brothers like your energy, okay, take it away, remember to call Liu Lian at night." ”

"Huh? You're not coming to pick it up? ”

"Originally, the task of going to Beijing tomorrow was supposed to be yours, and if you leave, I will only go to you, and Xiaoai will be handed over to Liu Lian and Yu Yang."

"I'm sorry," I felt guilty.

"I'm sorry for the fart, get out, get out of here, but remember to get back to me when it's over." Dong Jian didn't say anything more, walked back to the seat under the parasol and sat next to Liu Lian, and didn't look in my direction anymore.

Li Xiaoai got up and came with me, I was in front of her and behind her, I had never been before. Out of the eaves, I didn't rush to hold my umbrella, I looked up at the thick clouds, the clear rain, I knew that there were tears in the corners of my eyes, but I wanted it to look like it was just a water mark wet by the rain. Dong Jian and Liu Lian were still sitting under the parasol less than 100 meters behind them, and I was reluctant to leave but couldn't turn back, making it all look less like life and death.

I closed my eyes and immersed myself in this brief parting, and after a moment, the already dark sky dimmed for some reason, and the rain stopped. When I opened my eyes, a black umbrella was propped up in front of me, and when I looked sideways, Li Xiaoai was standing beside me, holding the umbrella handle with her arms straight. She didn't speak, just looked at me quietly, and even half of her body was exposed outside the umbrella and soaked in the drizzle.

With mixed feelings, I didn't want to leave them. But reason still made me suppress my reluctance to leave, I knew that I couldn't just stand like this all the time, even if I wanted to stop, it couldn't stop after all. I should say goodbye to them, including those around me.

Driving all the way north towards Longquanshan Cemetery, the sky was still drizzling. Li Xiaoai insisted on sitting in the front passenger seat instead of going to the back seat, on the grounds that since I had already resigned, I was not obliged to fulfill the previous verbal agreement, and the time I spent with her was no longer because of work.

"Why did you quit all of a sudden?" She looked out the side window at the drizzle as if she were talking to herself.

"There are important things to deal with, if it goes well, maybe I will go back as Dong Jian said." I pretended to answer lightly, and if it went well, I didn't think it was reliable to even say it myself.

"Need to leave? What's going on? She propped herself on the window edge with one hand and looked very serious when she looked back.