She was serious, and from those eyes, she could know that Li Xiaoai wanted to know what I was resigning for, but I really couldn't tell her anything about it, and I couldn't tell anyone I loved.

"It's a little thing, it's nothing...", I still pretend it's nothing, but if a liar wants to deceive others, he must first be able to hide himself, and how can I make the listener believe what he says, even if he doesn't believe it.

"Why don't you want to say it?" Li Xiaoai suddenly raised his calm tone, "Lian...... Can't I know? ”

I was speechless for a moment, the car was moving smoothly, and I turned my face to look at her facing me in a moment, "..."

Li Xiaoai's eyes suddenly had a hint of resentment, and gradually a faint mist appeared from the bottom of her eyes, and her expression was sensitive and asked, she cared about what my sudden decision was for, maybe not knowing was a kind of uneasiness.

There was still silence in the car, but I seemed to sense her refusal to give up.

Seeing that I was reluctant to speak, Li Xiaoai turned around and stopped looking at me, and the car was still driving slowly. Gradually, the air in the car began to freeze, and I thought back to the past events, every encounter and accident we had together that had caused the bond between the two of us to be so close to each other that she would say yes if I was willing to speak. But now... I suddenly thought of Xinrui, and my heart was once again filled with deep helplessness and remorse, if my life was destined to be uncontrollable, why should I implicate those I care about?

"I thought so much was going on between us, I thought we... We should already be able to..."Li Xiaoai propped up the chair with both hands, looking out the window, and his voice was slightly choked, mixed with loneliness and disappointment, "Be honest... But..."

Listening to her words, my heart was hit hard for some reason, and I couldn't breathe dullly, so I slowly pulled the car to the right side of the road with the right turn light and pulled the handbrake. As if trying to break away from the frozen air, I looked out the window and took a deep breath, then spit out again. I let go of the handbrake, and I wrapped the palm of my right hand around her left hand, which was clenching into a fist and supporting the seat, the back of my hand cold.

"I didn't mean to hide it, but it's a bit of a hard thing to say, and even now I can't figure it out. Please rest assured, I will tell you everything after this matter is resolved, and I will never hide it, and please believe me. I almost finished the sentence in one breath, but I was left with the last goodbye to her anyway.

I exhaled, time seemed to stand still, I looked out the window and didn't dare to look back into her eyes, but I wouldn't let go of her hand. But before I could finish spitting out in one breath, Li Xiaoai turned around again, the mist in her eyes turned into tears, and there was a faint smile on the corner of her mouth. Only this time she didn't ask again, just looked at me, and then nodded, "I believe in you, and I will wait for you to give me an answer." ”

Waiting for me to give her an answer? A warm current passed through my body, but how could I bear to let her wait for me in this unknown future of life and death? How do I say goodbye to her?

Originally, the journey of more than half an hour was nearly two hours, and the road leading to Longquanshan Cemetery was crowded during the Qingming Festival, and the more you drove up the mountain, the more full of cars became. The drizzle was non-stop, and the voices were noisy. Li Xiaoai didn't seem anxious, occasionally chatting about her past, and asking me what I was doing at that time.

"At that time, in addition to my studies in college, I liked singing and swimming, and I mixed with Lan Xue and another girl named Isabel all day long, and I was called by them to participate in the beauty pageant, but I didn't expect to be able to go all the way to that point, and I was really overjoyed at the time. What about you? What were you busy with at that time? Li Xiaoai asked expectantly.

The way up the hill was blocked motionless, "Me? I guess I was unconscious at the time, so I didn't get to see you shining. ”

"Dong Jian told me that you are injured, it seems to be quite a serious injury." There was concern in his tone.

"He told you everything? Looks like you've been talking a lot. "With one foot on the brake and one foot on the accelerator, I can only spend half of my energy chatting with Li Xiaoai.

"Yes, I didn't like to chat with you before, maybe I wasn't in a good mood during that time, or maybe we were too mysterious to each other and didn't know what to talk about." I always feel that she is not the same as before today, and it is not the same as this foggy and rainy weather, although she is sentimental but less sad.

"Actually, when I met you when I came to work in the SAR after my body recovered, I thought..."

The air froze for two seconds, "What? ”

I pressed the gas pedal lightly, "It felt like I had finally woken up from my sleep." ”

"Hehehe..."Li Xiaoai pursed her lips and smiled, "What is this?" Sometimes I really don't understand what you're thinking. ”

Then he braked, "Remember the story of Sleeping Beauty?" You've been asleep for too long and need to be woken up, and you're like—" suddenly felt like a little too much, "the princess who wakes people up." ”

Li Xiaoai squinted at me for a long time, and she understood that I had deliberately changed the sentence, "Do you know the whole story?" ”

Back uphill and starting, "Oh? I don't know how a story from a young age can be remembered so clearly. ”

"A cursed princess, and a prince who is willing to overcome obstacles for her." There is another meaning in Li Xiaoai's words, but I don't have more energy to speculate.

"Then this prince must love the cursed princess very much." I said casually.

"Yes, but most of the cursed people in reality are spurned, right? What kind of love should it take to be reluctant to give up a cursed person? A sigh, a sentence made me suddenly feel that the real Li Xiaoai was more profound than she was on the surface.

"It should be a seasoned prince, indomitable." The car in front of me braked suddenly, and I was caught off guard and had to step on it.

Li Xiaoai was prepared, and his body just leaned forward slightly, "Yes, you have experienced, what have you experienced?" ”

I have a feeling that I have been deeply tricked by these few words, and I vaguely feel that she seems to have been aware of it, but I don't want to admit that she is also deliberately pretending.

I have a story, but she's a mystery. Just like the scene just now, I was caught off guard, but she was already on guard.

The cemetery is more crowded than outside, and the low tombstones have long been submerged in the sea of people. Li Shukang's cemetery is at the back of the park, and in order to match his life experience, it occupies a much larger area than ordinary tombstones. Following Li Xiaoai inside, there were fewer and fewer people, and the fog became heavier and heavier. I was wary of people passing by, lest I be caught off guard.

"Please wait here, I'll be right back." Li Xiaoai quietly turned around.

I nodded and looked around, handing her the sacrificial paper money and incense candles I had prepared in advance, "Okay, I'll wait for you here." ”

Seeing that I was unresponsive and had no time to look at her, Li Xiaoai stretched out her hand and made a motion in front of me to light the lighter, "Lighter." ”

Looking at her back holding an umbrella a little farther away, I suddenly felt that it was actually a kind of happiness not to be disturbed, and if it wasn't for my appearance, she would have lived a more peaceful life than now.

Li Xiaoai walked down the stone stairs for about fifty or sixty meters, and stopped walking for some reason. I didn't pay much attention for the first two minutes, just watched my surroundings, and by the time I realized something wasn't quite right, she had been standing there motionless for almost five minutes.

I took the umbrella and ran over, she still held the umbrella with her back to me and did not move, and when I looked closer, she seemed to be trembling slightly, the pockets of incense candles and paper money fell at her feet, and the umbrella was also thrown on the side of the road, but I didn't see her bending down to pick it up.

"Xiao Ai, what's wrong?" I called.

She was still in place, her hands over her mouth, her shoulders trembling. Looking in the direction of her gaze, there were tombstones surrounded by stone fences in an independent open space, each stone fence was dedicated to Zhuang Su's tombstones, but one of the tombstones was broken, and the stone fence was in a mess, and there were obvious traces of destruction in the entire area.

A few lines of large letters were written on the dilapidated and rotten wooden board, standing in the position that originally belonged to the complete tombstone, "The sinner Li Shukang is not worthy of the Yellow Spring." ”

A pair of middle-aged men and women walked side by side towards us and saw the dilapidated cemetery. The man ignored others and spit in the cemetery belonging to Li Shukang, "Bah, the person who should be punished and atonement actually ran here to lie down, it really dirties this piece of feng shui." ”

The woman replied casually, "In the report two days ago, I heard that her daughter Li Xiaoai was still at ease in Hong Kong alone, going to attend the press conference of the young female singer named Angela. ”

They walked side by side towards Li Xiaoai, with knives in their words. Li Xiaoai stood in the middle of the stone road and became even more emotional, covering her mouth and refusing to give way, just staring at them fiercely with her tearful angry eyes. The two of them chatted while walking, Li Xiaoai refused to turn sideways, and was about to bump into each other.

In an instant, I threw away the umbrella in my hand as I stood on the side of the stone path, twisted my slightly trembling shoulders in front of me, and turned her to face me, while also making way for the middle-aged man and woman.

Passing by, the man behind her in front of me opened his mouth, and at the same time I covered her ears with the palms of my hands, "That shameless thing, it is probably not a good thing to have such a father and daughter, I have long heard that she has a chaotic life in Hong Kong, and many rich sons have had affairs with her, so now it is even more open, no one cares about messing around unrestrained." ”

I watched the two of them walk away with their umbrellas, and I couldn't hear them anymore before I turned around. A pair of tearful eyes are like rain, and even this clear drizzle can't hide it. I let go of my hand, and before I could speak, Li Xiaoai couldn't help but cry anymore, and her voice shook through my chest.

Although there are not as many pedestrians as at the entrance of the cemetery, whenever someone passes by, they can always see the wooden plank standing upright, and some people spit on it, and there are always people who inevitably gossip.

I was hugged to death by Li Xiaoai, and the crying continued. It would not seem strange to passers-by to cry in the cemetery, but it would still attract attention if they were thrown aside with a drizzle umbrella in this way.

I don't want her to be recognized, and it's so miserable to be recognized by a group of strangers who are talking badly in such a situation.

After standing stiffly like this for nearly ten minutes, she could no longer cry, and her shoulders twitched from time to time but still refused to let go. After ten minutes of drizzling rain and almost soaking her hair, I gently took her arm away and picked up the umbrella on the side of the road and held it up. I cried too hard just now, Li Xiaoai's whole face was red, and after letting go, her eyes were still glazed, and she didn't move her steps with her hands hanging down her feet, as if she had lost her soul.

"Let's go, let's get back to the car first." I ripped her wrist.

"..."Didn't move, didn't respond.

"Go and dry your hair first, you'll get sick." I held an umbrella to help her keep out the rain, and also to help her block the view of pedestrians.

"..."Still no response.

I had no choice but to wait for a while, "holding my umbrella." I shoved the handle of the umbrella into her hand, rushed to the small cemetery surrounded by stone fences before the pedestrians appeared, stepped down, stepped on the wooden plank with the words on it in two, and then picked it up and threw it away. Looking around, although it was a mess, the small sarcophagus under the broken tombstone was not broken, and the urn should be intact.

I returned to Li Xiaoai's side, and my face that was originally covered with tears couldn't stop being surprised, "Let's go, I'll come back later." ”

"Huh?" She didn't seem to get it.

"Later, when it gets dark, I will come back to pick up the urn, it should be in good condition."

She looked in the direction of the tombstone, looked back into my eyes, and finally nodded.