[Mother and daughter are the most unique existence in this world, even if there was an estrangement and quarrels, or they were disgusted with each other or daily mutual hatred, the intimacy between each other has always existed - Zhong Zixi! 】

Zhong Zixi back then was the best appearance in time, but that girl was not. And the girl who came later was the most wanton appearance in time, but she was no more.

Happy lives are all similar, but the process of unhappiness has its own misfortunes. It's just that now they can't define this result, and fate for their group of hot-blooded people in addition to passively accepting it, there is only joy left to face it.

Zhong Zixi, who came back from G City, didn't go anywhere, so he accompanied Zhong Yu at home.

This time, it was Zhong Yu's turn to be strange, "You girl, you haven't been at home as much as you have been in for so many years." What's the matter, if no one wants it, even your own professor will sweep you away? It shouldn't be! ”

Zhong Yu had a regretful expression, and sure enough, it was also a problem that the girl looked too cold.

Zhong Zixi rolled his eyes helplessly, and glanced at Zhong Yu, "Mom, am I your own child, is it necessary to say that my own daughter said so?" I don't know, I thought I was brought by you! ”

Zhong Yu's regretful voice came from the kitchen, "That's really a pity, if you really came from me, I won't say that, then I have to take care of you, in case you are unhappy and run away with others, I will not have to die." ”

Zhong Zixi's head crossed three horizontal lines heavily, and he muttered in a low voice: "Just now I said that I had no one to want, and now I say that I will run away with others, you are really my mother." Besides, how do you know that no one wants your daughter, is the market so bad? ”

Zhong Yu walked out of the kitchen with the cut fruit, his eyebrows were gentle, and his mouth was always filled with a shallow smile.

She tilted her head and probed Zhong Yu carefully, her mother was really extremely good-looking, what is there that such a good-looking and gentle woman is not as good as that woman? Zhong Zixi couldn't understand that when a man marries a wife and has children, shouldn't he tend to all good adjectives?

Compared with the two, they know that they are the best but they want to choose the one that is not satisfactory, is it blind or "marrying a red rose, over time, the red rose will become a smear of mosquito blood on the wall, and the white rose is still the bright moonlight in front of the bed; married a white rose, the white rose is a grain of rice on the clothes, and the red one is still a cinnabar mark on the heart. ”

Maybe it's because she's always been too transparent to pass by happiness so easily, Zhong Zixi thought about this cowardly.

If even an eager woman like Zhang Ailing will stop in love and cower, then what about her? Does she have the courage and ability to face He Yansheng?

He doesn't attack or provoke now completely because he sees that she is not in a state, once He Yansheng's patience is exhausted, Zhong Zixi will be unavoidable, what should he do at that time?

Zhong Yu waved his palm, looking very interested in Zhong Zixi like this.

"What are you looking at? Watching it so happily in a daze? You've been a little distracted lately.,...@爱奇文学 !! Fastest update]

What's wrong? ”

Zhong Zixi raised his hand and pulled a strand of his hair, and smiled a little stiffly, "Is there one?" Maybe I've just come back tired and tired. ”

Zhong Yu smiled suspiciously and did not delve into the topic, "Come, eat some fruit." ”

"yes, okay."

She crossed her legs, picked up the pillow and put it on her lap, leaned over and gently leaned over to put the fruit plate in the center of the pillow, Zhong Yu leaned on the sofa and watched her daughter's expression dodge, with a posture of wanting to speak and stopping.

From childhood to adulthood, whenever Zhong Yu showed such a look, Zhong Zixi knew that Zhong Yu had something to say. The cherries in early spring are big and red, and when you bite into them, the sweet and sour juice overflows all over the mouth, which has a refreshing effect.

Zhong Zixi couldn't help but eat another one, she liked the sweet and soft flesh of the cherries, and the small core gently spit out a round red color, and even the palms of her hands were sometimes stained with a little purple red.

At this time, she always likes to hold the paper lightly in the palm of her hand, and when she sees the white napkin stained with a hint of purple, she will feel good.

The mutual infiltration of colors is like the alternation of life, and that inseparable harmony is what Zhong Zixi has always longed for in his heart.

Zhong Yu looked at Zhong Zixi patiently without the slightest impatience, it was all the love and affection of a mother.

"Mom, just say whatever you want, is there anything you and I can't say?" Her expression was very light, and it was still the same as before, but the curvature of the corners of her mouth became proof that she was unhappy.

It's such a hard thing to talk about, except that it's about that person. And Zhong Yu has not hesitated like this for a long time, that person is a topic that they have always tried to avoid talking about among themselves.

Zhong Zixi has been emotionally weak, even more so since she was thirteen years old, and she doesn't want to think of that person over the years, and she rarely meets even her grandparents.

Fortunately, the old people have always understood her, never forced her to do anything, and never blamed her.

Zhong Zixi is really grateful for their existence, there is no so-called morality and filial piety to bind her heart, she has been pretending to live so muddled all these years.

Zhong Zixi thought more than once that she was angry with them like this, could it be that Zhong Yu really wouldn't be angry with her? Compare the heart to the heart, who is willing to show weakness all day long.

And Zhong Yu has never remarried over the years, and even she has refused to pursue other people's initiatives, at first Zhong Zixi thought that she was so broken that she didn't want to believe in love anymore, and later she thought that her mother was afraid that she would be wronged if she remarried.

Zhong Zixi once asked on the side, with a hint of cautious temptation between her words, because she didn't know which of her words would touch Zhong Yu's wound.

At this time, Zhong Zixi still doesn't understand, and if she doesn't understand any of her words, she won't poke Zhong Yu's wound, how can people who are in love extinct still hurt.

The way the literati show their love is extremely subtle, "I long to see you, please remember, I will not ask to see you." It's not because of pride, you know I have no pride in front of you. ”

Zhong Zixi knows that this sentence is written by Simone Beauva to the American writer Nelson Eglin's "Love Letter Across the Ocean"

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Maybe it was too frank, Zhong Yu threw the beautiful letter into the garbage basket like this, not worrying about being seen by her.

Mother has always been a simple and decisive person in a sense, and in the face of a future without feelings, not loving is not loving, never dragging mud and water to repeatedly.

In fact, Zhong Zixi has also seen those who boldly come to the door to court, Zhong Yu has always been lenient and gentle, but in the face of these people, they are still as cold as the autumn wind sweeping away the leaves, so that the other party has no excuse to come to the door again.

She thinks that the wound in her mother's heart must be very serious, like a scar that has just formed a scab that cannot be touched, and when she touches it, it will hurt and die.

It wasn't until much later that she understood how frank Zhong Yu's dislove was, and how strong her love was.

That night, the mother and daughter nestled on the sofa together to watch TV, Zhong Zixi's eyes kept sweeping over Zhong Yu, and his fingers unconsciously rubbed the corners of his clothes.

Mother grabbed her fingers back and forth, and asked with a smile, "Is there anything you can't ask your mother directly, so you have to hesitate." ”

Zhong Zixi condensed his heart with a smile, turned his head to look at Zhong Yu, his eyes refused to move, and even the stubbornness stung Zhong Yu.

She was the same many years ago, standing in front of Zhong Yi and firmly telling her father that she loved that man, and in the end, she never regretted it.

Zhong Yu's heart jumped, she was really afraid that her daughter would one day follow in her footsteps, and she lost her sense of proportion in the face of love, only caring about emotional attachment and forgetting whether it was suitable, if she could listen to her father back then, maybe everything would not happen today.

It's just that she can't do it again in her life, and as a mother, she doesn't want Zhong Zixi to experience it again.

She already owes this daughter the first half of her life, and she doesn't want to owe her the second half of her life.

Zhong Yu's eyebrows moved slightly, and his eyes were unprecedentedly firm.

Zhong Zixi, who was immersed in thinking, had not yet noticed the change in her mother, she slowly stretched out her hands and held Zhong Yu's hand in the palm of her hand.

"Mom, are you going to be alone all the time?"

Zhong Yu exhaled lightly, "I thought you were going to ask something?" So that's it. Who said mom is a person, don't I still have you? Why do you think I'm troublesome and want to get out of my solitary slip? ”

"Mom." Zhong Zixi shouted coquettishly.

"Actually, I think that Uncle Zhang is very good, he is very good to you and cares about me, why don't you try to accept him, or do you still can't let go of that person in your heart, or are you afraid that I will be wronged?"

Zhong Zixi asked very carefully, in her heart, this is always a thin film, just like the rock sugar gourd she ate when she was a child, it is just the ripples outside. If you can't pull hard, it will all break when you pull it, not only will you not be able to eat the glutinous ripples, but even the original taste will be lost.

She thinks Zhong Yu loves the same, and she has always been in a cautious state. Her refusal to go further also shows that the mother's undead heart is always in the present tense.

Zhong Yu lightly held Zhong Zixi's palm with his backhand and gently patted her shoulder. "Xiaoxi, come and lie down in your mother's arms."

Zhong Zixi completely threw himself into Zhong Yu's arms as soon as he turned over, and his intimacy was naturally the same as many years ago. I thought that if I didn't do this action for a long time, everything would be rusty, but now I realized that no matter how long it takes, some hidden habits will never change.

"Xiaoxi, over the years, you have been very shy about mentioning your father to me, child, don't you think that I hate him even with you."

Zhong Yu's gaze converged into a ray of light, and he looked deeply into the distance, and there were so many things in his expression that Zhong Zixi couldn't see anything clearly.

Memories, nostalgia, resentment, and relief all turn into a smile in the end, and the tranquil and unconscious mother makes Zhong Zixi feel so far away that it is difficult to touch, that is, she is alone in her own world and does not need to be accompanied and disturbed by anyone.

Those broken memories are clearly visible without closing your eyes.

Crying, despair, turning, roaring, whose sigh amazed her heart, and whose helplessness was telling shallowly.

(End of chapter)