[Zhong Zixi always thought that her resentment against that person was justified, because of the truth, because of what she saw with her own eyes. But when she heard the truth described in Zhong Yu's mouth, what was the truth? See it with your own eyes? Didn't she see it with her own eyes back then, but now she can't find a reason to hate, and she can't find an excuse to be relieved - Zhong Zixi! 】

The snow that year was very big and deep, and the winter of that year was very cold and cold, and Zhong Yu's turn back then has always been a nightmare that Zhong Zixi has been unable to let go of for a long time, but all this did not have to happen.

It was that man's greed that determined the current result.

Shouldn't she complain, shouldn't she hate? Who should I ask for those grievances in my heart that have nowhere to complain, Zhong Yu's, and hers.

If it weren't for that man, would she have turned into such a helpless person on those occasions? Will she need to hold back her weakness and pretend to be strong? Will she be pointed at?

Zhong Zixi held his hands desperately, and a scarlet tear in his eyes couldn't help but fill his eyes.

Crying, she has long been disqualified, after experiencing those desperate sorrows, Zhong Zixi can't cry anymore and she doesn't want to cry.

And what's the use of crying? Crying, everything back then can disappear and be wiped cleanly? Crying and all the disappointment can cease to exist? Cry those lost things will be returned to her? And then pretend that nothing has happened to live a peaceful life?

All the doubts and wanted questions were silenced in the end, and could only be turned into a simple and bitter question.

"Isn't it? You, you really don't hate him at all? ”

No woman can accept her husband's betrayal without any guilt, not even if she believes in it as magnanimous as Zhong Yu.

Zhong Yu gently touched the broken hair in her ear, the time was gentle and long, she did not directly answer Zhong Zixi's question but smiled to herself.

"Girl, when you were a child, your hair was not as good as it is now, and I was worried at that time, but your grandfather always said that I was a mediocre person." mentioned that his grandfather Zhong Yu was shrouded in a faint halo all over his body, which was very shallow, just like the drama in the old excerpt was charming.

"Philistine self-disturbance? Is that really what Grandpa said? Zhong Zixi was suspicious.

"Really, I still remember what your grandfather said." Zhong Yu looked into the distance and said delicately.

He said, "I am a mediocre person who disturbs myself, and beauty is in the bones and not in the skin." It's standard to beat your skeleton, everything is in the framework, it's not bad. ”

Sure enough, it became a prophecy, and now it is really silky and soft, and Zhong Yu is reluctant to fade away for a long time with pity around his hand.

Talking about Zhong Yi, Zhong Zixi has a deep memory, when she was a child, she lived with her mother and grandfather for a long time. The old man had ups and downs in the business sea all his life, and even though he later lived in seclusion in the city and no longer cared about the mundane world, he was still in good spirits, heroic and vigorous.

To outsiders, Zhong Yi is majestic and doesn't like to laugh, in Zhong Zixi's impression, he is just an ordinary old man, he will be happy, he will be careful, his eyes will be angry, not at all like outsiders say.

Therefore, Zhong Zixi never had the emotion of fear when facing Zhong Yi, and in her heart, the childhood time was only simple and happy.

Zhong Zixi was puzzled by her mother

Why did she suddenly talk about her grandfather, Zhong Yu kept telling her.

"Deceased people can't be too worried, because the thoughts of the world will make it difficult for them to rest in peace, so Zhong Zixi will only convey this thought at a specified time every year."

As if seeing her puzzlement, Zhong Yu explained with a smile: "Xiaoxi, my mother can settle in the Zhong family in this life and be your grandparents' child, my mother is really lucky, your grandmother died early, my grandfather was afraid that I would be wronged, and he refused to remarry, so he raised me to grow up and watch me get married." Most of my daughters' families marry to consolidate the interests of the family, but your grandfather is different, his ambitions are very broad, maybe in the eyes of many people, Zhong Yi is not a good person, but in my heart, he is an invincible father, and he has taken on the responsibility of my whole life, so Zhong Yu can live so carefree. Later, your grandfather saw that I was not interested in the company and had never forced me to do anything, so he let me go and learn my favorite history by myself, and stayed in school to become a teacher after graduation. ”

Zhong Zixi quietly listened to Zhong Yu's explanation, yes, he has enjoyed the glory that ordinary people can't enjoy, so he naturally has to accept those things that are called fate by the world, and life has always been so fair.

But Zhong Yu didn't need it, Zhong Yi took on all the burdens of life for her. The last father's expectations for his daughter turned into hope that she would be happy, and the girl was undoubtedly lucky.

"Xiaoxi is probably like this, I'm so lucky that even God can't see it. Finally, Zhong Yu appeared in her life a man who surprised her, a girl who did whatever she wanted from birth to adulthood had no control over human nature, and then I went the wrong way and fell in love with someone I shouldn't love. ”

Zhong Yu said very simply, the past of many years has been passed by, the past is like smoke, how can those who have dissipated be like this.

"The plot is very old-fashioned, isn't it, a rich girl who is not deeply involved in the world falls in love with someone she shouldn't love, it's like a bloody drama of a wealthy family, even I feel vulgar. But it happened, and your grandfather didn't blame me from beginning to end. ”

"And what about later? How did you end up marrying that guy later? Did he take advantage of it? Zhong Zixi asked very urgently, and subconsciously she felt that it must be that person who deceived her mother, so that there would be those later things.

"No, not really. On the contrary, I am grateful for the presence of your father, whose presence warms my dark life like a ray of light. ”

Zhong Yu is grateful to Xu Baihang, she always has been, but she is also very selfish, and she enjoys all the efforts of this man with peace of mind.

"Warm." Zhong Zixi read these two words shallowly, yes, once upon a time, she also felt that man was warm, and it was the eternal belief she once thought.

The next story doesn't need Zhong Yu to say, Zhong Zixi can roughly imagine that a person who has just fallen in love and suffered a lot of life will not be too strange when he meets a man who is full of charm.

It's just that the mother ignores her own character, and that person ignores the degree to which he can tolerate in love.

Mother's lack of love, even with that love, is desperate and lonely, how can a man as arrogant as him allow it

The love of his life, there is always another man living in his heart.

The willingness at the beginning began with not getting it, and the incompleteness after getting it will have the inferior root nature that men have later!

Knowing such a truth, Zhong Zixi didn't know whether to complain or sigh in his heart, the appearance of men and women should have been a good relationship, but the time was not right, and the time was wrong.

Even if one party's love is as deep as the sea and comparable to Jin Jian, how can it be worth falling flowers and deliberately flowing water ruthlessly?

At this moment, all the doubts Zhong Zixi was gone, it turned out that Zhong Yu had deep love in his heart, no matter what the result was, it was impossible to pretend to be someone else.

"And what about later? Grandpa agreed to your marriage? Zhong Zixi is eager to explore the past.

"No, your grandfather didn't approve of me marrying your father back then, not to mention that the person in my heart back then was not him. For the sake of a father's understanding of his daughter! Maybe your grandfather didn't think well of me from the beginning and then resolutely objected. ”

Zhong Yu seemed to think of something, she raised her hand and gently touched her earlobe, and smiled brightly.

"Mom, since my grandfather was against it at that time, and he is not the person in your heart, you shouldn't have the determination to fight against your grandfather for him, right?"

In a sense, Zhong Zixi and Zhong Yu belong to the same kind of people, she knows herself so well. If she doesn't love someone, she will never fall out with her mother for that person, so Zhong Yu is the same.

"Yes, I didn't. From beginning to end, it was your father who insisted on it, and I remember that on the day of the wedding, your father leaned into my ear and whispered to me that he would protect me for the rest of my life. At that time, life sounded like a long time, and he gave it to me so easily. Your father has always been very good to me after marriage, and maybe the origin at the beginning was not because of love but more because of emotion. ”

The origin of a relationship is not simple enough, how can there be a good ending, the ending can be imagined Zhong Zixi's heart has infinite sorrow.

Seeing her daughter's sadness, the mother and daughter looked at each other, and Zhong Yu told Zhong Zixi very seriously.

"Xiaoxi, maybe in your opinion, this relationship was not pure at the beginning, so there will be so many rights and wrongs later. In your heart, you may blame us, blame us for being too rash in the first place, causing you to live so hard for so many years. ”

Zhong Zixi held back her tears, it turned out that she had been wronged and depressed for so many years, Zhong Yu understood, she was not qualified to complain about anything before, but now that she knows the truth, she doesn't know what she should complain about?

Why did Zhong Yu fall in love with someone else in the first place? Why did she meet that person so late? Since that person didn't plan for his life, why did he promise his life so easily? still blames them for being too rash back then.

Nowadays, there is no reason to hate, and there is no excuse to be relieved.

Zhong Zixi didn't know, maybe all the emotions at this moment should be slowly learned to let go.

"After Xiaoxi married him, I did think about growing old with him. It's a pity that the years have changed, which shows that we don't have such a long fate. I don't blame your father for everything that followed, but my mother won't force you to forgive or continue to blame, maybe in the future

It doesn't matter if there's one more one on your blame list, you've grown up and have the ability to distinguish between right and wrong, so mom just wants you to be happy! ”

Zhong Zixi looked ahead in a daze, and asked without the slightest hint of machinery.

"What about my grandfather, since my grandfather didn't agree at the beginning, he was moved by that person's sincerity. If he had known about it, would he blame you in his heart, blame you, he has already left this troubled world, and you still let him feel so relieved? ”

Tears slowly fell down her eyes, and she didn't understand whether she was now holding grievances for herself or complaining about her grandfather.

Zhong Zixi's slightly crying voice sounded, it was such an obvious resentment.

That person lived up to his grandfather's expectations of him, and his grandfather guarded the person who had been guarding him all his life in the end, but he was treated like this, if he knew that the old man would not complain, don't want to complain, and shouldn't complain?

(End of chapter)