[The most painful process of life is not choice, but helplessness. The kind of helplessness that all the cells around the body are clamoring for refusal, but they are powerless to change the status quo hurts the most - Xu Zixi! 】

Before noon that year, she was still called Xu Zixi, because her father said, "When she was born, there were large light purple clouds in the sky, like the dawn of hope, so she was called Zixi." ”

How beautiful the meaning is, how much truth is infiltrated in the meaning, and how much irony there is when you read it now.

A name that has been with her for thirteen years, and she can't measure how much love and longing has poured into it.

Maybe it's because people are used to pinning certain things on good fantasies in the beginning, which is why they seem so cruel when the hurt comes.

After that day, she will have a younger brother who is only related by blood and has no family affection, and after that day, she lost her seemingly warm home because of the arrival of a strange woman, and after that day, she no longer believes in love and no longer trusts other people's promises.

The innocent and hearty Xu Zixi stayed forever in that day and that cold house.

Later, Zhong Yu, who had been silent, had no extra emotions on her face except for calmness, and she ran over to hug her mother in distress. tried to comfort her with her small body, trying to embrace her mother's lonely heart with such a faint warmth.

The little girl cried like a tearful person, like a lost drowning person, struggling desperately to hold on to the last piece of driftwood.

She was afraid, afraid that her mother would leave alone with all her grievances, leaving her disappointment with her in this room that was as cold as an ice cellar.

Zhong Yu touched Xu Zixi's hair lovingly and kissed her brow affectionately. smiled and pinched her slightly baby fat cheeks, "Little girl, why are you so sad." Dad is still mom and dad is still mom, nothing will change. ”

Zhong Yu smiled and took Xu Zixi in her arms, and the warmth in her mother's arms was the haven she longed for the most at this time.

"Mom, don't leave me, don't leave me okay mom." She didn't know what she was afraid of, but she only knew that she was going to hug Zhong Yu to the death, as if as soon as Zhong Yu let go, she would be thrown into the abyss and shattered to pieces.

"Don't cry, mom is here, mom won't leave you."

Zhong Yu got up slowly, as many people as there are husband and wife, there will be as many people as they love each other, and there will be as many people as they look at each other without saying a word.

Zhong Yu lowered her head as if she was making a decision, and her eyebrows frowned slightly with unbearability and guilt. All the subtleties of Zhong Yu are habits that Xu Baihang is all too familiar with, especially her kindness.

A woman's attempt to trap herself with goodness is in itself a deeply unfair arrangement.

The chandelier above her head shines gently on her face, the outline on her face flickeres brightly and darkly, and the red lips are slightly pursed, which belongs to her grace and charm alone, which is Xu Baihang's unforgettable pursuit. 【￥… iQi Literature ~&Fastest Update】

How hard did you have to work to restrain yourself from reaching out to her hands, Xu Baihang's hands were still pinched stiffly.

"Xu Baihang, I only ask one question for husband and wife, I hope you will answer honestly." Zhong Yu's voice was light, thin like a layer of breath slowly wrapping him.

The man suppressed a certain emotion

, and responded lightly, "Okay." ”

"Can you do it without lying to me?" Zhong Yu asked with a smile, just to make some reservations for each other, after all, they have been accommodating him for so many years.

Xu Baihang snorted lightly, and his smile was shallow and self-deprecating, "Is it important to say this at this time?" ”

Zhong Yu's serious eyes are not mixed with a little falsehood, it is her seriousness that belongs to her, and it has never changed for so many years.

"Important! At least for me, it's important. The seriousness with which she tried her best was her persistence in life, just like the choice she made back then.

"You ask, I'll try." Xu Baihang tried his best to make his tone of speech look calm and subtle.

Zhong Yu locked his eyes on the boy in Tong Fen's arms, his words were firm, and his eyes were calm, "I just want to know, is that child yours?" ”

Xu Baihang raised his head and looked at the child in front of him seriously, maybe everyone present thought that Zhong Yu was difficult to accept the existence of this child, only Xu Baihang understood what the meaning behind the whole sentence was?

The man smiled and asked, "You care about this?" ”

"Xu Baihang, are you because Xiaoxi is not a boy or for some other reason, don't lie to me, I want to know what you think."

"I've never cared about boys and girls, you know that better than anyone else."

The man's unspoken words are the shredded dignity he left for himself: 'If you can love me, even if you don't have children?' A Yu husband and wife, I thought that at least you should understand me, understand my love, and understand that I use my youth to gamble on a straightforward game with no ending. ’

has been married for many years, how could Zhong Yu not know that after giving birth to Xu Zixi, her body was no longer suitable for birth and raising, Xu Baihang was even tight-lipped like a bottle, and even the second elder of the Xu family lost this mind after a long time.

In the face of this man, Zhong Yu is grateful.

"So, let me ask you one last time, is this kid yours?" If you listen closely, you can see that Zhong Yu's voice is one degree higher than just now, because she is waiting, waiting for an answer that she needs to make a decision.

Xu Baihang stared at Zhong Yu's side face wistfully, too many indescribable emotions flowed in his eyes, and finally turned into a "Yes!" ”

Hearing this "yes", I still can't help but feel a dull pain in my heart, as if this is the end that should be. Shallow relaxation lingered in her heart, and at this moment, joy and guilt were intertwined, and she slowly sank down and squatted in front of Xu Zixi.

"Xiaoxi, are you willing to leave with your mother?"

Xu Zixi was still in that "yes" sentence and had not yet come to her senses, and another blockbuster followed. It turns out that the adult world digests a puzzle so easily.

Isn't it said it's not a black-and-white world? Why adults deal with problems in such a sloppy way.

Before she could collect her grief, they were ready to go to another world.

"Mom, you're going to separate, you're going to get divorced, aren't you?" The little girl's timid voice was small, more uncertain.

"Xiaoxi." Even if you can't bear it, the choice and reality are still in front of you, and you can't turn around.

"Why? clearly

, it's still fine in the morning. The little guy resisted and took a few steps back, a topic that adults would still find heavy, why let her choose.

Xu Zixi suddenly ran to Lin Jing and hugged her grandmother's arm, as if she was aggrieved and tearful, "Grandma, grandma, please persuade them, Xiaoxi doesn't want them to divorce." After the divorce, I am alone and have no home anymore, Xiaoxi doesn't want to be a child grandma without a home, Xiaoxi will be obedient in the future and will never argue for chocolate grandma you help me beg my mother, grandma. ”

The little guy was crying as if the sky was about to fall, and Lin Jing hugged Xu Zixi in distress and couldn't cry.

Xu Zixi pushed Lin Jing away vigorously, looking at her grandmother, who had always loved her, shaking her head desperately.

The little guy looked like a passer-by who hadn't returned for a long time and suddenly found his way, "Grandpa, yes, grandpa didn't agree just now." I should have found my grandfather, and my grandfather also loved me. ”

Xu Zhili raised Xu Zixi's palm and comforted his granddaughter distressedly. "Xiaoxi is stronger, nothing is impossible to get by, everything will slowly get better. You still have grandparents, let's take you home, okay. ”

What kind of five thunders should it be when she is betrayed by the people closest to her, she seems to understand.

"I don't want it."

A sharp cry pierced the entire living room, and Xu Zixi covered her heart hard. The whole distressed death came to life, like a needle pricking, little by little, the feeling of Ling Chi seemed to tear her whole person apart.

"You, all of you." Xu Zixi slowly raised her finger and pointed at everyone in front of her, that helpless resentment spread to the limbs of the entire body, and all the tension was constantly devouring.

"Why, since you don't have the courage to face each other, since you can't be honest with each other and go through your life, why do you want to get married. Yes, you're all free, but what about me? Who will set me free? How can you be so cruel? ”

"Xiaoxi, don't be like this, your mother will take you away, and your mother will take you away." Zhong Yu hugged Xu Zixi hard, and only now did she understand how delicate her emotions were.

"Mommy, Mommy. Am I the only one left with you, am I not without a father anymore? The little one's eyes were red from crying, and he sobbed quietly one bite after another.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry Xiaoxi, I'm sorry ......" Zhong Yu said sorry to her over and over again, and the torture in her heart was no less than her.

"Nope."

The man who said "no" had scarlet eyes and suppressed his fragile defenses.

Zhong Yu's puzzled gaze collided with the principles that Xu Baihang insisted on, she didn't understand that he was obviously at fault, not to mention why he insisted on keeping Xiaoxi when he already had a child.

Facing everyone's eyes, Xu Baihang didn't explain, but firmly said, "It's okay to divorce, Xu Zixi must stay in the Xu family." ”

From marriage to living for more than ten years, Xu Baihang never said a "no" to Zhong Yu. It was the first time this man had rejected her so quietly, and it was a kind of indifference that emanated from the inside out.

The husband and wife who have never blushed have their whole lives in this moment, and the sharp thorns of the two go crazy with each other

long, choose the most ruthless way to stab the other party.

"Xu Baihang, you know that what I hate the most is betrayal and abandonment, it was you who chose to betray me and betray us, why are you now?"

Yes, what she hates the most is abandonment, and the person who chose to abandon her back then refused with a smile and shook his head.

Since then, it has become a knife in her heart, and since then, no one can get in, and she can't get out.

His back is infinitely lonely in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, and the snow is sprinkled outside the window. The white is pure, but Xu Baihang knows that his heart will be completely dusty and passionless from now on.

The snow-white light outside the window was dazzling for a moment, and Zhong Yu subconsciously avoided it. Xu Baihang turned around slowly, his voice was colder than the snow outside.

"Zhong Yu, you can rely on whatever you say."

All the questions were blocked in her throat and couldn't make a sound, maybe she would not be worse off staying in the Xu family than following her. At least she is still the eldest lady of the Xu family, the pearl of the Xu family, and her mother has been just an ordinary person since then.

(End of chapter)