No, Gu Tao has a problem.

At that moment, he almost raised his knife at these classmates, and their life and death were in that instant, but fortunately, his reason restrained his hand to verify the truth, and let these lovely children save their lives.

When Gu Tao was dividing the watermelon, he suddenly realized one thing, that is...... Are people who look mentally ill mentally ill?

That's right, his current state has begun to confuse reality, and the whole world is not real in his eyes, but this unreal world does exist, so is there something wrong with the world, or is there something wrong with him?

Where exactly is the free space in this world?

If he kills these people, will he die, and if he dies, will he be able to see the real world?

But what if the world is real? He was really, very sick. So if he kills these people and dies himself, then isn't it all over?

These two options kept on his mind, and he was in pain from this state, and he almost collapsed.

But reality does not allow him to collapse, many things need to be done by him, and many choices have not yet been chosen. Heavy helplessness and no choice made him suppressed in a small jar, the world is obviously so beautiful, although his father does not make much money, but he is a smart and assertive man who still takes care of his family, and his mother is a junior high school teacher with a gentle personality. The smile of the classmate reveals the beauty of youth at this age, and the sunshine outside is just right.

But Gu Tao was in pain, he was very, very painful, entangled in the torment between reality and illusion, and it was really about to drive him crazy.

The classmates are gone, Gu Tao is sitting alone in the living room, the fan above his head is slowly rotating, it seems to make a squeaky sound but it doesn't seem to be, the mottled shadows of the trees outside the window are stretched into the room by the setting sun, like a terrifying ghost claw, but Gu Tao sits there silently.

He stared out the window with a blank expression until the knock on the door rang again.

Walking to the door and opening the door, Gu Tao saw a thin girl standing outside, Gu Tao remembered her, and he couldn't say that he remembered her, but he had her in his head, as for whether this was a memory, Gu Tao didn't know and couldn't figure it out.

"Zhang Ting."

"Well......" The girl was carrying a watermelon of more than 20 catties and stood at the door with great difficulty: "I...... I heard that you were discharged from the hospital, so I came to see you. ”

Gu Tao smiled lightly, took the watermelon from her hand, and then took out ice water from the refrigerator and poured a glass of water for Zhang Ting, who was covered in sweat, he glanced at Zhang Ting, who was sitting there with a little restraint, in "memory" Zhang Ting is a very shy girl, but she has a good relationship with Gu Tao, and Gu Tao has also taken care of her very much since she was a child, because her mother died when she was very young, her father worked outside, and Zhang Ting, who followed her grandparents, was easy to be bullied, and Gu Tao in "memory" has always been the big brother and protector who lives next door to her.

"Brother...... Are you feeling better? ”

"Hmm."

Seeing her appearance, in fact, Gu Tao thought that if he could calmly accept the current reality, then his most likely marriage partner in the future would be the thin girl in front of him, although she was only fourteen years old now. Judging from the family background, the probability of them separating in the future will not be too great.

"Brother, are you hungry, I'll cook for you...... Uncle and aunt asked me to help take care of you today. ”

Today, my father has to work overtime in the factory, and my mother goes to the provincial capital to read the papers, there will be no one at home, and she should be the one who was entrusted to take care of Gu Tao.

Gu Tao looked at her side face and suddenly laughed: "I'm actually not the Gu Tao you know, I can fly ......"

As he spoke, he laughed to himself, laughing at himself for being stupid.

"I believe it."

Zhang Ting suddenly said something amazing, she raised her head and looked at Gu Tao, her eyes were shining: "No matter what you say, I believe it." ”

Gu Tao's eyes lit up: "Then I'll tell you about it." ”

"Okay, but I'm ...... I'll cook for you first. ”

"No, no, no, I'll cook for you!"

Gu Tao immediately felt energetic, took out various ingredients from the refrigerator and got busy in the kitchen, but unfortunately without Satania's help, he messed everything up...... Scrambled eggs with black tomatoes, braised beef without chewing and braised eggplant with no salt melted.

"It's delicious, man."

Looking at Zhang Ting, who ate the garbage on the table with relish, Gu Tao suddenly cried, he sat there and cried, this unexplained frustration made him collapse, completely collapsed, without the slightest hesitation.

And Zhang Ting immediately put down the dishes and chopsticks and walked over to hug Gu Tao's head: "Brother...... Is it uncomfortable? ”

Gu Tao shook his head and leaned lightly on the sofa: "I turned out to be just a waste." ”

"No, it's not! Not really. Zhang Ting waved her hand and said, "You are not a waste, you are amazing." You'll fly, you'll have superpowers. ”

Gu Tao, who couldn't listen at all, sat on the sofa in a daze, continued to look out the window like that, wiped away his tears, and showed a bitter smile: "Am I like a psychopath?" ”

"Nope." Zhang Ting shook her head and said, "I know, you are not as sick as they say." ”

Gu Tao didn't speak, just sat there motionless, all he could do now was to restrain his emotions and force himself to lock in the first person, otherwise the sense of detachment in the third person would make him completely crazy, really...... Crazy.

The pain, the urgent and suppressed pain, had made his spirit slump, as if something was pressing on his heart, and his mind had begun to be confused, and he knew that if he continued, he would not be able to hold on for long.

"Brother, I cooked milk porridge for you, you can drink a little, you haven't eaten for a day."

"I'm not hungry."

"Eat something even if you're not hungry." Zhang Ting sat beside Gu Tao, and her voice was already crying: "If something happens to you, who will protect me in the future." ”

Gu Tao chuckled, took the bowl and ate it in small bites.

This girl is so cute. She seems to have a healing ability, obviously she is taking care of others, but she uses a genuine affection to express the asking message of "what would I do if I didn't have you".

This feeling of enjoying the blessings and the gifts at the same time can really heal some of the despair to a great extent.

"Brother, I can chat with you. Today I told my grandparents, and I will live here with you. ”

"They're not worried." Gu Tao drank porridge, but when he wanted to wash the dishes, he was snatched away, and he followed to the kitchen door: "I'm not normal." ”

"No, my brother won't hurt me." Zhang Ting smiled and looked back and said, "Right? ”

The feeling of being blindly trusted by others is actually a little proud, but at the same time, the sense of detachment strikes again, and the inner struggle rises again, because the more beautiful this world is, the more afraid he is, because he deeply believes that the world with Xin Chen, Liuzi, Weiwei, and Eucalyptus is real, and this world is fake! Is it fake!!

"Brother, don't be afraid. No matter what, I'll be with you. ”

"Thank you."

"No thanks, if it weren't for you, I would have been bullied to death." Zhang Ting walked over and sat beside Gu Tao, she turned her head to look at the broken guitar in the corner: "Brother...... It's been a long time since you've played a guitar and sung, can you play the guitar for me? ”

Gu Tao also glanced at the guitar: "Do you want to listen to the guitar?" ”

"Hmm!"

"Very few people like to hear me play guitar." Gu Tao laughed and picked up the guitar: "Then what do you want to hear." ”

"Nanachika !!"

Gu Tao frowned, and suddenly realized that this was in 2004, this year Jay Chou was so frightening, this is Gu Tao's old song, but it is a new song for others.

Playing the guitar gently, Gu Tao suddenly felt a kind of release, and his mood improved a lot, and unconsciously he played and sang a lot of songs, some exist and some do not, but it doesn't matter, doesn't it.

When he felt a little tired, he looked back and found that Zhang Ting had curled up on the sofa and fell asleep, he put down the guitar and carried Zhang Ting to the bed and covered her with a blanket, and then came to the balcony alone, and played a small tune lightly under the accompaniment of the cicadas in the treetops.

At the beginning of the month, at night in the middle of summer, the old people are shaking their fans under the banyan tree not far away, the fireflies are followed by children running around, the older teenagers are telling the younger siblings a ghost story that is not scary, and the sound of a guitar echoes in the night sky, which should be a very beautiful picture.

"My heart is broken." Gu Tao suddenly leaned on the balcony and looked at Lianshan in the distance: "It turns out that the heart is not watching a ghost movie." ”

At this time, the light of a flashlight hit his face from below, Gu Tao covered his face with his hand, and found that it was his chubby tablemate, he used a flashlight to shake Gu Tao's eyes, and when Gu Tao saw clearly, he found that he was standing down, holding a bucket of KFC family buckets in his hand.

"Hey, hey, awesome. We don't have KFC in town, I bought it when I went to the city. He took KFC up, and then sat on the sofa: "I know that you have been discharged from the hospital, so I specially brought it to you to taste, the whole family bucket!" But it's a new product that hasn't been out for a long time. ”

As he spoke, he glanced at it and saw Zhang Ting sleeping soundly.

"Tingting is also here, scream and scream, eat together!"

Gu Tao looked at his face, suddenly laughed, and then sighed.

"What are you sighing about?"

"You know." Gu Tao was silent for a moment: "The better the world and the longer the time, the more painful I will be in the future." ”

"Are you sick?" He scolded, and then went to the house to call Zhang Ting up.

The three of them moved their things to the balcony, and KFC still had a bag of chicken feet and edamame, but unfortunately there was no beer.

"There was beer in the fridge." Gu Tao pointed to the refrigerator: "My dad still has two bottles to drink." ”

"Can you drink it?"

"Yes." Gu Tao nodded and said, "Drinking beer is not delayed." ”