This world only punishes the good.

Gu Tao forgot where the source of this sentence was, or it could be a casual sentence, he was not impressed before, but now he is extremely impressed by this sentence.

"If you want to die, die early. Once delayed, you will no longer be able to die. ”

Sitting at the dinner table, Gu Tao poured himself a glass of wine and a glass for the old classmate who looked a little depressed opposite.

More than ten years, time is really fast, more than ten years have passed, he has also changed from the teenager when he woke up, to a stubble-covered ruffian, and the table that brought him KFC back then has just been released from prison today, Gu Tao is the only one who picks up the wind and cleans the dust for him.

"I didn't expect me to be so beautiful back then, and now it's only you to invite me to a meal." He smiled bitterly and took a sip of wine: "I should have listened to you back then, what kind of society did you mix." ”

"Come to my factory, the salary is not high, and there is still food and clothing."

The old classmate on the other side didn't speak, just silently ate two bites of food and sighed.

In the past ten years, Gu Tao has not been withdrawn from the previous world, but life still has to go on, he did not take the college entrance examination and did not carry the guitar to wander the world, after graduating from high school, he went to his uncle's factory to become a sheet metal worker, the technology is almost learned, the family gave him some money to open a small factory, at the age of 24, he naturally got married, there are not so many magnificent stories and not so bitter and tortuous plots, his wife is Zhang Ting, who has been sticking to him since childhood, and the two have not had children yet, Zhang Ting complained a little, but Gu Tao never avoided answering this question.

It's been a smooth ride along the way, my mother ran a cram school after she retired, and my father will retire next year. The second elder's retirement salary is not low, and the money he earns from his idle work will not add any burden to Gu Tao.

He has no friends, in Zhang Ting's words, he has almost cut off contact with the world, never participates in class reunions, doesn't go to socialize or anything, goes home to cook for Zhang Ting after work every day, and paints crazy in his free time at night.

His comics are very interesting, Zhang Ting likes to read them very much, the protagonist in it is also called Gu Tao, he is an alien in the comics, the plot is funny and interesting, but she never dares to ask why her husband cries when he draws.

In the eyes of others, he is probably a typical autistic personality, but Gu Tao knows that he is probably about to make a choice, although he doesn't know what the reason is, but that premonition has become stronger and stronger.

For so many years, he has tried his best to reduce the emotional connection with others and never left a penny for himself, all the money is managed by Zhang Ting and his parents, and his only friend is probably this guy who has been in prison for ten years because of his righteousness.

"I think you've changed a lot." The little fat man back then has now become a thin middle-aged man, he looked into Gu Tao's eyes and said, "Haven't you recovered your spirit?" ”

Gu Tao looked at him sideways: "I don't know what to say, do you know what I regret the most?" ”

"What is it?"

"I didn't jump straight from the top floor of the school that year." Gu Tao suddenly laughed: "If you jump, it may be over." ”

"Why? Why do you think that, every time you come to see me in it...... That's not what I told me, I wouldn't be alive without your encouragement. ”

Gu Tao took a sip of wine and touched his embarrassed stubble: "I still have a little less courage, the longer the time, the more reluctant I am and the more I regard this world as a real world." My parents and Tingting are already difficult to let go, and the real emotional hub has been established, and I really don't know what to do. ”

"I can understand you."

"Thank you."

"You're welcome." After Gu Tao finished speaking, he opened another bottle of wine: "But even if you understand me, you must not know what kind of pain I am experiencing, and I also know that my limit is approaching." ”

"What? What happened to you? ”

Gu Tao waved his hand and motioned for him not to ask any further. In fact, Gu Tao didn't know how to explain it, this was probably a hunch, the time he was here happened to be his time over there, and the timelines of the two sides had been connected, and he clearly remembered that the time he came here was the summer of that year, July 18. And now, there are only three days left until that day.

Time was running out for him, and the question of whether to stay here or go back there had been a question that had plagued him for seven years.

My father is getting old, my mother's health is getting worse and worse, Tingting is still the weak Tingting, her body is not very good, but she is always firm and gentle when she holds his hand.

He once thought that there were so many people over there, and there were only three people who really cared about it here, but when he turned his head and looked at it, he found that the things he was reluctant to give up could not be valued in terms of quantity, whether it was the sixth son, the elder sister, the younger brother, the father, the Weiwei or the father, the mother, and Tingting, in fact, they were all things that he couldn't give up.

Choosing one side means giving up the other, and the real horror is coming.

It was something he tried to avoid, and it was something he couldn't figure out.

After eating, when I returned home, Tingting had already greeted her as soon as she opened the door, handed over a warm towel and said with a smile, "Brother, drink a lot", and Gu Tao was even a little helpless in the face of her smile, the only thing he could do was to hold her in his arms hard, and her strength was so strong that she felt pain.

But she didn't speak, because she could clearly feel the panic and uneasiness of the man in front of her, this intense panic was something she had never experienced in Gu Tao, she hugged her husband's waist with her backhand and buried her head in his chest.

"Let's go back and see my parents." Tingting's voice was weak: "They're old." ”

Gu Tao was stunned: "Huh? ”

"Brother, are you leaving? I know...... I peeked at your diary, I'm sorry ......"

Looking at his wife who was biting his lip and forcibly holding back his tears, Gu Tao felt that his heart was pinched hard, he slowly let go of his hand and came to the window, took out a cigarette, lit it and took two puffs, crushed the whole cigarette in his hand, and punched his face with all his might.

"Brother...... Don't be like this, brother...... Tingting hugged Gu Tao's hand and hugged him hard: "Brother, I know...... I know you definitely don't belong here, after all these years, I should have known. ”

Gu Tao shook his head vigorously: "I belong here, but I don't know what to do, I want it all, I can't give it up...... Reluctant to ......"

Tingting's tears were dripping down her emaciated cheeks, and Gu Tao looked at this girl who was not good-looking, and then slowly held her hand, slowly and forcefully: "I'll tell you a story." ”

Sitting on the sofa with his wife, Gu Tao told everything that had happened in that world, and there was nothing to hide in the original, this is probably a story ten years late, in the past ten years, Gu Tao will go through all the details in his mind every day, he is afraid that he will forget and is afraid that the world is really just a conjecture of his imagination.

"No matter where it is, it's true to me, whether it's you or the sixth son, it's actually someone I can't let go. I may have everything over there, but here I have you, my parents, and a whole home. ”

"Brother......

"I'm scared."

"I know." Tingting held Gu Tao's hand: "Will you remember me like you remember them?" ”

"You're a good boy." Gu Tao held Tingting's face with both hands: "The question now is not whether you are willing or not, but whether I am willing or not, I don't know how to choose." ”

"That'...... Shall we wait until that day? ”

In fact, Gu Tao knew that no matter how high-sounding she said, she must not want her to go back in her heart, so this is the most painful place for Gu Tao, that is, the most real and cruel part of this experience, it makes Gu Tao unable to distinguish where it is real.

Cut off the love thread? Oh yes. Maybe that's the only right answer, but he can't, he doesn't have the ability, all he can do now is to tell all the stories to the people he loves the most, and let people share the pain of his bones.

"Brother, I want a child......"

"He has to be called Gu Ginseng." Gu Tao's red eyes showed an ugly smile: "This name is auspicious." ”

Early the next morning, they set off and returned to their hometown, the small county town. Gu Tao's parents were still very surprised, why it was not a holiday and nothing to do, why did they come back. The reason for this, Gu Tao didn't dare to say, he didn't dare to open his mouth, and he didn't even dare to make eye contact with his father's eyes.

In the past three days, he was very happy, even if he was scolded by his father for being a dog.

And when the morning of July 18 came, Gu Tao got up early, hung up his beard, changed into clean clothes, made breakfast for the whole family, and sat in the yard while touching the little black born from the previous generation, his eyes were not focused.

"What's wrong? I was worried about it early in the morning. ”

His father came over and handed him a bag of his favorite buns, and then sat down beside him: "Quarreled with Tingting?" ”

"Nope." Gu Tao smiled, then looked at the sky: "Dad." ”

"Huh? What the hell is wrong with you? The efficiency of the factory is not good? ”

Gu Tao didn't answer for a long time, just sat there, and said slowly: "Is it that at my age, a stable life is enough, I can't fly and I don't have superpowers, so I don't have to fantasize about those messy things." ”

The father didn't speak, just sat there eating steamed buns, Gu Tao didn't urge him, the father and son just sat at the door and were silent.

"Do you understand the word love?"

The sudden question made Gu Tao stunned on the spot, he looked at his father's side face, and couldn't speak for a long time.

"When I was younger, my biggest dream was to be a pilot." Father's voice was heavy: "But at that time, your grandmother left early, and it was not easy for your grandfather to support the family alone, and I was going to be a pilot, and he might not be able to hold on, so I stayed, and then met your mother, and then I had you." I'm sixty years old, and I still want to fly. ”

Gu Tao laughed, and then suddenly his mood was extremely gloomy.

"I love my father, I love you, and my mother loves you. I don't know what to tell you, but ...... As a father, I hope that my children are safe and secure as the premise, wealth and wealth are the wishes, and you are happy is the greatest success of a father, but I am particularly unsuccessful, you are not happy, you have not been happy for so many years, I don't even know why you are unhappy, I'm sorry, son. ”

Gu Tao took out a cigarette and handed it to his father, wiping away the tears on the tip of his nose: "No, you are very powerful, if it weren't for you, I wouldn't be able to survive now, really...... Dad, thank you. ”

"I don't know what you're going to do, but you're not in the right state, you can't do anything stupid. You know you jumped from the stairs in your sophomore year of high school, and although I didn't say anything, it hurt my heart. I'm sorry for you......"

"Let's go back to dinner, and then Mom doesn't know what we're doing."

When eating, the family was still happy, and the old mother was urging Gu Tao to have a child quickly, a commonplace topic.

Usually Gu Tao would hide in the kitchen to avoid this problem, and when he came out, the family was still chatting, but an unfamiliar door appeared in the living room, which seemed very abrupt.

"You ...... Can you see that door? ”

Gu Tao pointed to the door and asked, although he already had a plan in his heart, he still couldn't help but ask.

"Doors? What door? The mother looked back, and then looked at Gu Tao with a strange look: "Are you too tired during this time?" ”

"Hmm...... Probably, I'll take a break on the couch. ”

Gu Tao bypassed the door and lay on the sofa, Tingting came over and sat beside him, and asked in a low voice, "Brother...... Did they come to pick you up? ”

Holding Tingting's hand, Gu Tao found that her hand had become cold and trembling slightly, just like when he first came here.

"Can't you see?"

"Hmm...... Unseen. ”

Gu Tao stared at the door and saw a sign on it, the number on the sign was decreasing little by little, this time Gu Tao understood that there was really not much time left for him, he sat up and looked at his mother who was cleaning up the table and his father who was reading a book, as well as his wife who was already pale beside him.

He's going crazy.

Suddenly, a huge overwhelming pressure came over him, and he fell into an ice cellar.

Walking through that door, he instantly recovered to become the Gu Sect Master, but at the same time, he lost a home that made him extremely stable, lost his lovely father and mother, and lost a wife who loved him.

Choice, it's a deeply scary multiple-choice question.

"Satania ......"

Gu Tao muttered out this name that had not appeared for a long time, and the moment she heard this name, Tingting's face immediately became even more ugly, because she heard Gu Tao calling this name in her dreams more than once.

"Satania!! Force the virtual arena to be launched in overload mode, with all computing power loaded in!! Lao Tzu doesn't do multiple-choice questions! ”

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This chapter almost didn't break me, today I can't bear it and I'm going to rest, write more tomorrow, good night everyone.

A guide to surviving the earth

A guide to surviving the earth