I'm Chen Zimo, as a divorced man, I have never been able to calm my mood, and after coming to Shenzhen, I didn't want to contact others for a long time. In fact, sometimes I don't understand the idea of wanting to start over in an unknown place, because I feel too lonely.

There were many times when I wanted to call Manjia, but I knew that if she knew it was me, she wouldn't answer. Besides, I know she's in a mess of her own right now, and my call to her will only make things even more confusing.

The night is the most painful time, leaning in the rented house, taking out the photo we used to take together, seeing her happy and happy, my heart is sour, I always want to cry, but if I let Man Jia know that I am like this, I will definitely laugh at me, not a tough guy like a man.

I didn't know the gap with Manjia at the beginning, at the beginning she was so dependent on me, when she couldn't find a job, I supported her, I have always been so stable in my job, I am willing to hand over my monthly salary to her, seeing her happy, I feel that my hard work for a month is so valuable. But I know that Man Jia is not satisfied.

She is such a beautiful woman, with too many desires, although that desire, and many real people are not the same, they may choose to rely on what big money or something to get what they want, but Man Jia is a woman who wants to rely on herself and win what she wants, her self-esteem is so strong, so that after she enters a company, she will struggle with the greatest enthusiasm, every day I see her little by little with joy, proud of every business trip, I seem to have been standing in place, and then watching her drift away. I reached out to grab her, but she just hugged me, then smiled at me and continued in her own direction.

I admit it, I'm jealous, I'm worried, I think the distance between us is too far, such a wonderful wife, I can't safely believe that our relationship is so strong, because there are so many wonderful men around her.

For my uneasiness, Man Jia doesn't seem to care at all, because she thinks that as long as she doesn't have any problems, we will not have any barriers, but when she doesn't see me happy, in the same way, while I hurt myself, I also hurt her, I become suspicious, and even sometimes hysterical, my panic is like falling into a deep lake and being tightly entangled by aquatic plants, suffocating feeling, wanting to scream, but Man Jia just stood in another place, looking at me with indifference. Sinking, sinking.

There was an unbridgeable gap between me and her world, and she turned her head and waved at me, then left. I crouched in that place, waiting for salvation. My heart is bleeding, Manjia, will you come back?

Our marriage finally went wrong, I was sorry for her, I did a lot of wrong things, I saw her heart hurt, I saw her in pain, I was uncomfortable at the same time, there was a kind of joy breeding. My friends said I was thinking sickly, but I couldn't control it. Because I want to know how much she cares about me.

Suddenly woke up, already full of tears, gasping for a few breaths, I hugged my knees, in a most vulnerable posture, the weather in Shenzhen is very warm, but I feel extraordinarily cold, spread out my palms, slowly close, I really lost her.

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