075. Dear grace

In the palace, you can avoid anyone without seeing anyone, but you can't do it outside the palace, and the living space is cramped.

When she saw the gentle and touching smile on the long-standing and graceful Yinxi's face, the corners of Qing'er's lips rose slightly, and a self-deprecating smile burst out.

The two stood facing each other, Qing'er found that Yinxi's face was tired and haggard, although his smile was still the same, elegant and elegant, but the decadence born from the heart was closely related to the face, and now he is the son of Huang Ama's disappointment, for him who wants to make deeds to impress his father and win his father's love, he is a failure, and this failure may be a failure of a lifetime, he has failed.

"Qing'er hasn't congratulated the starling for being Amma!" Nothing can express the complicated feelings at this time, so Qing'er said this lightly, hoping that through this happy event, Yinxi can calm the depression in her heart a little. At the beginning of last year and today's May, Yinxi finally got a son and a daughter, although it was not from Naying, but it was finally a successor.

"Thank you, Qing'er." Yinxi smiled sincerely. "Let's go for a walk if it's okay."

"Okay." Qing'er replied briskly, Yinxi raised her eyes to look at her, her eyes smiled, and she raised her feet and walked outside the station. Qing'er turned around and glanced at Rou'er and followed.

"In this splendid deep palace, my mother, she is the most humble one in life, I want her to live happily, but I can't even do this." Yinxi closed his eyes and said slowly. "If you are not as filial as me, you should really die of guilt."

"Starling, don't think like that. Concubine Liang is also the wife of Huang Ama, and no one thinks she is humble. Qing'er tried her best to stop Yinxi's thoughts.

"Wife? Do you call your wives the husbands of sluts? I am the son of a slut from Sinjaku, am I not his son? Yinxi's eyes were closed, and his face was pale.

For a son who is bent on letting E-Niang stand on a high place, because of his own fault, E-Niang is humiliated again, gentle as Yinxi, it is also unacceptable, and he is resentful of Kangxi. Qing'er looked at him and could understand his mood.

Concubine Liang's Ama Abu Nai was originally a Mongolian prince, but was stripped of his title and executed for "disrespectful gratitude", and Concubine Liang was reduced to a sinner with the dignity of a princess and entered the Xin's treasury. When he said this, Kangxi was not reproaching. Concubine Liang, but to warn Yinxi not to fight for the storage position anymore, but Kangxi, who was angry, couldn't help but care about family affection when he spoke, which left an irreparable pain in Yinxi's heart, and Concubine Liang also had an illness because of this, and her already weak body was getting weaker and weaker.

No one knows whether Kangxi regrets this, but it can be seen that the father-son relationship between Yinxi and Kangxi is getting weaker and weaker.

Qing'er lowered her head, although she was a member of the heavenly family at the moment, but because of the education and personality she had received since she was a child, she still wouldn't say a word if it didn't matter to herself. She didn't dare to comment on Kangxi's words and deeds.

"I was born different from other brothers, not only can I not see my mother, but I was also given to Concubine Hui to raise, my mother can't even see me, it's all close at hand, but I can't see each other, which is the biggest pain and hurt for any mother. This kind of pain our mother endured for more than ten years, I desperately read, practice martial arts, write, run errands, just want to give me some comfort, and finally at the age of eighteen named Baylor, my mother also named a concubine, I know that my mother does not value these, but she is my mother, is the person who gave me life, I want her to stand on the highest place, no longer humble, no longer despised. I have done so much, just to get the approval of Huang Ama, let him think that I am an excellent son, so that he can treat my mother well, but he, he insulted my mother so much. Qing'er, am I wrong? Yinyu let out a long sigh, in order to relieve the blockage in his heart, these words have never been said to others, and he originally thought that he would not say it to anyone, even to Na Ying, but today he said it to Qing'er.

"Starling, we are different, your Eniang, she is still alive, my Eniang, she is long gone. You still have a chance to be filial to your mother, and I'm gone. Qing'er sighed softly, but there was a deep pain in her heart. Starling, only if you are good, the good concubine will be good, if you are happy, the good concubine will be happy. ”

Although Concubine Liang gave birth to Yinxi back then, she was born in a crime after all, and she was still inferior. This is where she is different from other mothers, and therefore, other mothers are more precious than their mothers, but good concubines are more precious than their mothers. is even more different from the mother's power behind the ladies, Concubine Liang is alone and unrelated.

Concubine Liang spent her days in the palace like walking on thin ice, and the young Yinxi saw it in her eyes and felt pain in her heart, so she set a lofty ambition: she must let Eniang raise her head and be a man.

Over the years, he has been generous and courteous, kind and easy-going, surrounded by many supporters, but also Yinzhen, Yinzhen by his side, in the hearts of the ministers and workers to fight a good reputation of "virtuous relatives", that is, Prince Fuquan and Shuoyu also praised him "good heart, not boastful". Yinxi didn't know that the reason for his failure was precisely for this, "gentlemen are not parties" had been trained in ancient times, but they were not valued by Yinxi, who was eager for success and profit. It is 'success is also Xiao River, defeat is also Xiao River'.

Yinxi looked at Shangqing'er with a trace of sympathy and pity, and was slightly stunned, so he didn't speak anymore and lowered his head.

"Starling, let it go. If it's yours, don't fight, if it's not yours, you can't fight, not to mention, what the good concubine asks for is not these, for a mother, the safety and health of her children is the most important thing. Qing'er said leisurely, looking up at Yinxi, what she said at the moment was just standing in the position of a mother.

"Let it go? Maybe you don't have to put it down, it's not in your hands at all. Yinxi said with a wry smile, looking at Qing'er, a rare free and easy, "Don't worry, Qing'er, after I go back, I will go to ask Huang Ama to let you and Lao Jiu leave." ”

"If starlings can let go, come with us. Presumably, Yinyu is also not worried about starling. Qing'er smiled and said, how good it would be if we could stay away from right and wrong and everyone was safe.

"I can't go, I can't leave Eniang, you go, leave right and wrong, leave this ruthless heavenly home, and go to the vast world outside to find your freedom and happiness. Starling sees that you are happy, and there are no regrets. Yinxi said these words with a hint of bitterness and reluctance, but he didn't dare to look at Qing'er clearly, but Qing'er had already hugged him from behind, and cried on his back and said, "Starling,...... Sorry....... ”

Yinxi turned around and hugged Qing'er, and said with a long sigh: "Silly Qing'er, your heart is too kind, you can't let go of anyone, everyone is distressed, but no one can help, let you be in a dilemma, it's the starling's, don't go to your heart, forget about the past, avoid this in the future, and live the life you want to live with peace of mind and happiness." Even if the starling is not by your side, he will bless you, Na Ying's words don't go to your heart. Yes! ”

Qing'er raised her teary eyes and looked at Yinxi, nodded and said, "We will wait for the starling to come." ”

Yinxi's eyes were also slightly red, and he nodded while smiling and said, "Okay, Starling will definitely go to you." ”

"Yinyu and I are waiting for Starling and Sister Na Ying to come. When the time comes, we will live happily together, by the way, and my senior brother, my brother. ”

"Okay, we people, just overseas, break out of our own world!" Yinxi rarely showed his pride, looked at the sky in the distance and said loudly, Qing'er looked at the reinvigorated Yinxi, and finally put down a big stone in his heart.

"Okay, starling, we'll make up our minds!" Qing'er nodded and said loudly.

When she was in the tent at night, Concubine Yi looked at Qing'er and scolded: "Silly girl, you are so happy today, what's the good thing, why are you always secretly happy!" ”

Qing'er stroked her cheeks, smiled softly, and then hugged Concubine Yi and said, "Eniang, if I take Yinyu away from our Qing Dynasty, will you blame me?" ”

Concubine Yi smiled and said: "Silly boy, he is talking more and more stupid things, if you take him out of this right and wrong, E-Niang doesn't know how happy she is!" How can I blame you. Besides, if you're gone, his heart is no longer here, and if he lives heartlessly, he might as well go with you. You must go, alas, what E-Niang asks for is only for you to be safe. ”

Qing'er lay in Concubine Yi's arms and said, "Eniang, we will miss you." ”

stroked Qing'er's back and said, "I think I can come back to see me, although the journey is farther, but if you can go, you can come back!" There were tears in his eyes as he spoke, and he forced back his tears and said, "I haven't seen those two little grandsons yet, I really don't know when I'll see them, it's weird." ”

Qing'er quietly lay in Concubine Yi's arms and didn't speak again, now she thinks that her two sons are already heartbroken, really leaving the Qing Dynasty, how could Concubine Yi at that time not want to Yinyu, although Shengli can be reunited, but for parents, it is the greatest satisfaction to be able to see them when they miss their children, but despite this, they will still hold back their wishes, as long as the children are good, even if they can't see them from time to time, even if they can't see them again, they have no complaints. This is the heart of parents all over the world.

Staying away from the Qing Dynasty was my grandfather's plan many years ago, when she was full of yearning for overseas and wanted to go overseas under the influence of books and masters. The formulation and implementation of this plan took the painstaking efforts of many people. Now, the plan has become a reality, but there are more Yinyu, Yifei and Kangxi in her life, and there are so many related people and people who are reluctant to take away.

Qing'er sighed, what to do, her heart was confused.