109。 Clearing

Qing'er slowly opened her eyes and looked at Yinyu beside her.

Yin Yu raised his eyebrows, and there was a low snoring and wheezing.

Qing'er leaned forward and looked at him carefully, she had seen this face for more than 20 years, but she still hadn't seen enough. She thought that if she was allowed to watch it for another twenty years, she would not be able to see enough.

Yinyu is the most handsome among the brothers, when he was young, his face was full of uninhibitedness, and every time he squinted, there was anger inside. Now in her forties, she is no longer as sharp as when she was young, and when she looks at her, she is always as warm as a spring breeze, exuding endless tender love.

Yinyu's sword eyebrows are very delicate, because she has a pair of phoenix eyes, Yinyu always seems to be a little less masculine and more feminine.

Yinyu's lips were warm and soft, like every sweet word he had ever said to her.

Yinyu's face is very delicate, and he was very full when he was young. Qing'er reached out to caress it, and lowered his hand halfway, it was rare that he was asleep.

Qing'er smiled at the corner of her lips, her eyes were full of love, and she looked at Yinyu again, the lover of this life, the most concerned in her heart in this life, this man who haunted her dreams, this man who has fallen in love with each other from the beginning to today, and promised eternal life in the next life.

He is the belove of her life!

Beloved!

It's her beloved!

Qing'er slowly walked out of the Qingxin Garden, the cold wind of the winter night blew a whistle and pounced on her sweat-soaked soft and weak body, she stopped and gasped, looking at the academy opposite the garden. Gritted his teeth and walked forward.

A few days ago, she and Yinyu talked about the vigorous and splendid sea of flowers in the Mulan paddock, so Yinyu ordered someone to tear down the courtyard wall of the academy and the nearby courtyard, and planned to plant all the flowers outside the Qingxin Garden in spring, so that she could see the sea of flowers when she walked out of the Qingxin Garden.

The climate of the capital is not as good as the Mulan paddock, and the splendid sea of flowers can only bloom in the Mulan paddock.

She is nostalgic not only for the sea of flowers, but also for their young years.

Yinyu understands.

That's why he had to bring the sea of flowers back to her. He wanted to get his young years back for her.

Infatuated Yinyu.

It's just that she knows that she can't see it anymore.

She was like a candle in the wind, gasping for the rest of her time.

It's her thirtieth birthday.

It's the end of life.

There were some things she might not care about, but when it came to her brother Rong Yu, she wanted to know.

With a creaking sound, she pushed open the door of the study, and Qing'er spread out the night pearl in her hand and stepped into the house.

Since returning from Hangzhou, Yinyu has moved into Qingxin Garden, this room has been empty for a long time, and it is lonely and cold like this winter night.

There were stacks of account books on the bookcase, and Qing'er picked up the top one, which was the account book of the previous year. There was some ash on the account book, and no one touched it for a long time, so Qing'er put down the account book and looked left and right.

There was a "squeak" sound, and the bookcase popped up in the dark grid, Qing'er was stunned and didn't expect it to touch the frame, and raised her hand to push the dark grid to close.

If it hadn't been for the vague glimpse of the envelope in the dark grid, if it hadn't been for the 'mourning' in the joy, anger and sorrow that she had designed with her own hands in her childhood, she might have closed the secret grid casually and never seen it.

She was stunned, but subconsciously reached out with doubts and slowly reached out and took out the envelope from inside.

Yinyu entered the door, saw Qing'er's movements clearly, and immediately rushed forward in three steps and two steps to grab the letter in Qing'er's hand.

The envelope made of white paper was painted with large ink chrysanthemums, torn into pieces in Yinyu's hand.

Qing'er looked at Yinyu, her eyes were dreamlike, with confusion and questions.

Yinyu only came to his senses.

Broken letter paper envelopes scattered on Qing'er's feet exploded she slowly squatted down, picked them up one by one and held them in her palm, what she was looking for was the letter that Yinzhen wrote to Yinzhen a few years ago, but she didn't see that but saw this.

"Qing'er,......" Yinyu regretted at the moment that he couldn't hit his head against the wall, if it worked.

The explanation is useless, if he didn't grab it just now, if he destroyed the letter in time, if Qing'er hadn't read the letter, how good would it be. However, he kept the letter, but he didn't dare to tell Qing'er, seeing Qing'er pick up the letter, he was afraid to grab it, everything was self-evident.

"Yinyu, when did Ama go, it's been a long time, hasn't it? 14. Where did you put the letter you gave you when you were in Qinghai? Go up in flames? You don't dare to show it to me, because it says that Brother Rong Yu donated his life, right? Every time you show me a letter from my brother, you write it to me in my brother's handwriting, isn't it? Fourteen is for the sake of his brother, so he would rather go to the tomb than return to Beijing, right? ”

This crying voice made Yinyu's heart break, "Qing'er, you have to be stronger." You still have me, and the full moon and the ancient moon and bright moon. By the way, there is a good news from the Zhao Mansion, you are going to be a grandmother! This happy letter was originally intended to wait until the evening when Yingyue came to tell Qing'er in person, at this time, Yinyu didn't care about bringing Qing'er a surprise, and only hoped that Qing'er could see this happy event and relieve the grief in her heart.

"Yinyu, are you comforting me? Can I still believe your words? Qing'er looked ahead blankly, her brother was gone, Ama was gone, they were long gone, and she didn't know it at all! I don't know at all!!

"Yes, yes, yes, you have to trust me, Qing'er." Yinyu hugged Qing'er tightly, and couldn't wait to lower her heart to let her see.

"But I don't trust you anymore, Yinyu." Qing'er got out of Yinyu's arms, stood up slowly, and walked to the door step by step.

Yinyu's eyes were filled with deep pain and remorse, and he looked at her back with a twisted face, and in his teary eyes, Qing'er slowly fell to the ground.

"I'm sorry, Yinyu, I didn't want to hurt you just now, I didn't want to hurt you, never." She shook her head and looked up at him, her face hurting, and her heart hurt him.

"I know, Qing'er, if you hurt me, you feel better, I don't care." He wrapped his arms around her, around the woman he never wanted to let go.

"Silly Yinyu, how can I feel good hurting you? It hurts me more to hurt you than it hurts me. She raised her eyebrows and looked at him through tears.

The Buddha said: One glance is a lifetime, so how long is her glance? She doesn't want to live for a lifetime, a lifetime is not enough, how can it be enough? She loves him so much, how can this glance be enough to give him all her love?

"Qing'er, don't say it, you vomited blood, don't say it." He wiped the blood from her mouthful with his sleeve.

She gasped weakly, looked at him and smiled, the blood gushing from the corners of her lips was wiped dry by him and came out again. He had never seen anyone vomit blood like this.

She said: "It's okay, let me say, Yinyu, my time has come, and if I don't say it, I won't have a chance." ”

"Qing'er, okay, you say, you say." He hugged her hard, and he could only hold her tight like this.

He still listened to her, and she smiled. "Yinyu, I have always lamented the unfairness of fate, so that I have no mother since I was born, in fact, I was wrong, fate has been too good to me, Yifei Niangniang to me, in fact, is better than you and the fifth brother, my grandparents raised me with their own hands, gave me all their love, they tolerated me, trusted me, and let me do what I wanted. Grandpa Qin has worked hard all his life for me, Huang Ama loves me and loves me, just like my own Amma, I have Amma, eldest brother, senior brother and elder brother, they all love me, love me, tolerate me, I am very satisfied.

Yinyu, the most satisfying thing for me in this life is that I have you, and your love, when you say to Huang Ama, 'If you point me to you, you will give up the battle for succession', I sat behind Huang Ama's throne, Huang Ama asked you if you regret it, you said you 'never regret', Yinyu, you are so stupid, how can I be compared with a woman in the country?

Yinyu, how moved I was at that time, how shocked I was, in your heart, I was even more important than the Qing Dynasty, I was afraid, I was afraid that I would not be able to bear your love and affection. I deliberately alienated you, I wanted to stay away from you, but fate still connected us in the end, before Prince Yu died, Huang Ama asked me, point me to you, if I want to, I said, 'I don't want to', Huang Ama said, 'My ninth son, he is too smart, I want you to help me watch him don't go a fork.'" 'Yinyu, I was glad that the Emperor Ama pointed me out to you. ”

She said intermittently, every word draining her remaining strength. She looked at him and smiled, with such a happy smile without regrets, she smiled at him.

He choked up, "Qing'er, you're so stupid, whoever you marry is actually happier than marrying me." ”

She said slowly, "Yinyu, marrying you is the happiest thing in my life." She was still smiling, so contented.

"Qing'er, you're so stupid!"

She has never seen a man cry like this, he is Yinyu, he is Aixin Jueluo. Yinyu, the proud and domineering Nine Elder Brother Jiu Beile, how can he cry like this, how can he cry like this, but he is crying, crying for her. She smiled again, and smiled even deeper. "Yinyu, in this life, I have received too much love, and to this day, I still can't bear it, and I can't repay it endlessly. Yinyu, I'll repay your love in the next life, okay? I'm tired, and I don't have the strength to repay you in this life. ”

There was a satisfied smile on the corner of her lips and face, and her eyes showed a deep and endless attachment to Yinyu.

"Qing'er, don't say repay, don't say repay, you don't have to repay me, I can't repay your love for me, you pay me a lot, if it weren't for me, you, the dignified young master of the Hu family, should be happy overseas now, accompanied by a large group of children, unlike now, you can't see Guyue and Mingyue." He, sobbing lowly, "No matter who you marry, everyone will treat you like a baby, Qing'er, you are kind, intelligent, and sincere, in fact, I know Baoshou and Haishan, the tenth and fourteenth brothers all like you, but I don't want to give you to them, even if they are my good brothers, I want to have you, Qing'er, not to mention the Qing Dynasty, even if there are more, I am not rare!" All I want is you! ”

"Yinyu, don't be sad." Qing'er raised her hand to wipe Yinyu's tears with difficulty, but she couldn't wipe her tears dry. "Yinyu, don't cry, smile at me, okay? I love seeing your smile. ”

"I'm sorry, Yinyu, I didn't see it."

"Qing'er, don't close your eyes, look at me again, look at me, I'll laugh at you again." He barely squeezed out a smile, he knew it was ugly, he wanted to laugh at him, give her a big happy smile, but he couldn't, she was vomiting blood, and he was heartbreaking, her life gradually left her body, but he could only hold her body, he couldn't keep her life.

I can't keep it, what should I do? What should I do, Qing'er, what should I do, how can I leave your life behind? Qing'er, Qing'er......

"Yinyu, I don't close my eyes, I saw it, you smile so beautifully." In her eyes, he is always the best-looking and handsome.

He was crying, his kinked face, his tightly furrowed brows, his teary eyes, his low sobbing, she knew his reluctance, "Yinyu, don't cry, don't cry, we still have an afterlife." ”

"Okay, I won't cry, Qing'er, promise me, you must fall in love with me first in the next life, don't let me teach you to love me so hard." He couldn't keep her, but he had a way to stay with her. Now he understands why Rouqin Songdi chose to commit suicide, because their hope is in the next life and the afterlife.

"Okay, Yinyu, I promise you. In the next life, I will definitely fall in love with you before you love me. Don't let you bother teaching me to love you anymore. She had struggled to speak, but she was still smiling. Such beauty, such quietness, such truth.

"Qing'er, you said that you have always been honest, whether you are a businessman or not, I believe in you, this time you must be honest." He told him again, in fact, even if she was not honest, he had a way to make her fall in love with him, just like in this life, if she wanted him, she could only be his wife, because he could give up everything for her.

"Okay, Yinyu, I must be honest." She whispered, with a smile.

"Yinyu, I'm dead, don't be sad, this is my life, it's predestined a long time ago, just like I'm from heaven. I haven't told you that when I was a child, I went to Lingyin Temple, and Master Huikong said, I am destined to be a member of the heavenly family, I don't believe it, because I didn't care that I was a woman at that time, I don't know the difference between men and women, isn't it stupid? Later, after I was pointed out to you by Huang Ama, I believed what Master Huikong said.

When I was a child in the temple, the master said that my life expectancy was only thirty years, I didn't believe it, and later, the queen mother died of illness and I was in the temple again, and the master told me again, I believed that there was a certain number in the dark.

Now, I'm leaving you, Yinyu, don't be sad, didn't you say to me, 'If you're a human being, there will be this day', how can I be an exception? Isn't it? Yinyu, we promised to come to life, didn't we? In the next life, we will be husband and wife again! Yinyu, I will love you twice as much in the next life than in this life. These words had taken up so much of her strength that her hand could no longer grip his.

"Okay, Qing'er, in the next life, I don't want another woman, I just want you. We had a bunch of children, and we didn't let them leave us, we came to raise them ourselves, and watched them marry and have children.

Qing'er, I will not be born in the emperor's family in the next life, I want to be a person who can control my own destiny, no, even if I am still born in the emperor's family, I will only marry you, I will no longer compete for the throne, no longer care whether the emperor Ama pays attention to me, I only wait for your appearance with peace of mind. Then make you fall in love with me. He pinned his hopes on the afterlife.

"Okay, Yinyu, no matter who you are in the next life, whether you are poor or a prince, I will marry you and love you well."

"Thank you, Qing'er!" He clasped her hand with his backhand, and he was inseparable from her. Never give up.

"Yinyu, after I die, don't tell Gu Yue and Mingyue, and don't tell Yingyue, I can't see my grandson born, you take good care of him for me. Don't tell the master and the eldest brother, Sister Lan. ”

"Okay, Qing'er, I won't tell anyone."

"Yinyu, let Fourteen come back, a good man has no regrets even if he gives his life for his family and country, my brother's dream is like this, I won't blame him."

"Okay, I'll have someone tell the fourteenth brother what you say."

"Yinyu, thank you Eniang for me, thank you for always treating me as my own daughter."

"Okay, I'll talk to E-Niang."

"Yinyu, treat my senior sister well."

"Okay, Qing'er, I'll treat her well."

"Yinyu, don't blame Na Ying and Starling, they are very pitiful."

"Well, I don't blame them."

"Yinyu, promise me, live well, with my love for you, live well."

"No, Qing'er, I can't promise you. I can't let you earn me alone...... I don't worry, Qing'er, I want to accompany you. "How could she not understand him, just as he understood her.

"No, Yinyu, if you want to live well, you should be a ......, just for me."

"Qing'er, I can't promise you, I promise you everything else, only this I can't promise." He looked at her, tears rolling down.

"Yinyu, please, for me to live well. Please......" A large mouthful of blood poured out from the corner of her mouth.

"Qing'er, don't say the word 'begging', I ,......, promise you." He choked up, she had always loved life, he knew it. She loved him and wouldn't allow him to give up his life for her, he understood.

"Yinyu, don't regret it!" She took his hand and said, "I believe in you!" She was relieved, she was relieved, for Yinyu's promise, Yinyu would listen to her and would not let her go uneasy, she knew.

"Okay, I don't regret it, I live well, for you, for our full moon." Her hands were so cold, he took off his cotton robe and covered hers, hugged her tightly, and hugged her tightly.

A smile bloomed on Qing'er's holy face, and she slowly closed her eyes with endless attachment and love for Yinyu.

Yinyu, I love you......

Yinyu, goodbye......

Yin Yu's eyes were cold, his brows were furrowed, and a large mouthful of blood spurted out of his mouth.

His fingers ran over Qing'er's cheeks, eyebrows, nose, and lips.

He bent over and took her tighter and tighter into his arms. He kissed her softly, just as he kissed her secretly every time she fell asleep.

He kissed her forehead, smooth forehead, she was smart, her forehead was wide.

He kissed her Qiong nose, the straight Yao nose, Gu Yue, Mingyue and Yingyue's noses all looked like her.

He kissed her cheek, and her cheeks were smooth like jade.

He sucked on her cherry lips and delicately traced the shape of her lips.

Tears dripped down her face and slid down again.

Blood dripped down her face and slid down again.

He wiped her face over and over again, he couldn't wipe the tears and blood from it, he thought it was hers.

Qing'er, don't cry. Rong Yu and Ama are gone, you still have me, and the children.

Qing'er, don't cry......

Qing'er, the sons are all fine, you don't have to worry about them.

Qing'er, the full moon is happy, we are going to be grandparents.

Qing'er, when the weather is warm, we will plant flowers in the garden, large patches of flowers, just like the sea of magnolia flowers I took you to see.

Qing'er, after the full moon gave birth, we went to England to see our sons.

Qing'er, shall we give Gu Yue to Brother Xue as a son-in-law? Brother Xue will be happy.

Qing'er, you don't have to worry about Mingyue being impatient like me, in fact, he is more like you.

Qing'er, do you remember the first time we met? You said I knew women better than you, and I was angry at the time, and then I ...... Qing'er, do you know when that was? It was the ninth day of October in the thirty-ninth year of Kangxi, do you remember? Qing'er? Baby, you can't forget this time. ……

He told her their story from the beginning, and he was afraid that she would forget.

He kept talking, saying all the time, as if he would never finish, never stop.

He held her and patted her, his face pressed against hers.

Her face was cold.

He said: Qing'er, let's go back to the house, it's too cold in this house, don't freeze.

Come, get up.

Come on.

He couldn't stand up, he had already lost his strength and his mind.

Tears blurred his vision.

He lifted up and looked at her from a distance, Qing'er, his wife, his baby, his lifelong companion.

Her eyebrows are picturesque, and she has no breath.

He was confused, and he fell into eighteen hells.

Qing'er, don't, don't leave me alone.

Qing'er, open your eyes and look at me again, please.

Qing'er, don't leave me, don't leave me, okay? Good no good?

Qing'er ......

His blood sprayed on her red dress, and the white and tillian on the red dress were painted by his own hand.

The white lotus was soaked in blood. His blood and her blood.

He fell, his arms still tightly wrapped around her.