But at that time, she was really too young to understand anything, and she didn't understand why her father always smelled of alcohol, and her mother never looked at her father. Now, after so many years, she finally understands and has a lot of opportunities to understand, but they have left her early.

It was the first time she had tasted wine, and not only did she not think it was too strong and spicy, but she also thought it tasted good. She drank more without paying attention, in fact, she didn't drink much, she drank very badly, and she has known since then.

Maybe it's because of the person who drank with her, she still liked him at the beginning, so she was naturally very willing to drink with him. Even if it was to drink deadly things together, she was willing.

So I was greedy for a cup, thinking that the relationship could get deeper and deeper from now on, but I didn't expect that even if it was a fateful relationship, if only one person was sober and maintained, and the other person was just pretending, it would be useless in the end.

There are regrets, but it is a pity that I was not able to see clearly at once, and I fell in love with a person by mistake, and I regret that I ended up like this when I tried love for the first time. Bai Qingyan drank wine, as if he was pouring out his sorrows.

The second time he drank, he probably drank with Qiao Changfeng, he had to take her to drink with him, although he didn't drink much, he was still happy. Since then, I have probably had an addiction to alcohol, in short, every time I am in a bad mood, I must find a tavern alone and drink until the earth is deserted.

Forget about those trivial things, just soak yourself in the wine vat, and drink with peace of mind, so that you can get drunk and sleep with peace of mind. slept until the sky was desolate, so she found a tavern by herself at that time to drink alone, but she didn't expect to meet Qiao Changfeng. That slightly cold kiss suddenly made her sober up by seven or eight points.

"The white girl looks like she has something on her mind. I don't know if I can say it, so that we can relieve our sorrows. Pastoral looked at Bai Qingyan drinking, and looked thoughtful, really like himself at the beginning. I don't know what happened. It just so happens that there is nothing to talk about at this moment.

"yes, Qingyan, you don't look like something is quite right!" Li Fu shook her and said. Bai Qingyan smiled and poured a glass of wine into his stomach, the story is so long but it can only be told shortly. She felt that such stories could be told, especially after a few drinks, and that she was not the only one with such a rich experience, so there was really no need to hide them.

Thinking of some important people in my life, they are all like floating clouds, drifting farther and farther. Senior brothers, senior sisters, they used to be able to play and frolic together, but now, she is the only one left to guard the master's last wish, and slowly wait with her own residual will.

"It's just that this wine is down, and it always reminds people of the past. The people who used to laugh and drink together are no longer there. ”

"Since you're gone, you're gone. It's a good thing to never forget, but some things are not satisfactory, so why keep them in mind from time to time, which only adds to your troubles! Pastoral said.

"Once upon a time, I had a junior brother who was good with me, and my master only accepted two of us apprentices in his life. He was more talented than me, and he was hardworking, and he taught me all the time, and we traveled together, practiced swords together, drank together, and ate together. Brothers and sisters who are close to each other are not enough. Li Fu said that Bai Qingyan's words actually reminded him of the past.

"However, we don't have the same ambition, and since I followed Master, I have been aiming in all directions, hoping that one day I can fight the end of the world with a sword, punish evil and promote good. My junior brother, on the other hand, is determined to fight for his family and country, and to protect his family and defend his country. Li Fu raised his head, as if his junior brother and the past days were in front of him, as if he had returned to the moment when they were separated.

He took a sip of wine and continued, "He walked very resolutely, unlike me, he can still hold feelings in his heart. Later, I also got out of the school, and many things were done by myself. I often miss those days, drinking together, practicing swords together. But the junior brother said that the Tao is not the same. ”

Bai Qingyan was gloomy, they didn't care about the difference in Taoism. Fighting for the family and country is a righteous thing, and punishing evil and promoting good for the rivers and lakes is also a righteous thing, there is no difference. It's just that who can say a lot of things clearly? Maybe his junior brother was afraid of him, after all, it was difficult to save his life in battle.

"The flesh and blood relatives in the world can abandon each other, let alone brothers or wives and husbands. Human affection is inherently cold, and there is no need to have so much hope. Madrigal said, looking like a woman who has been through a lot.

When Bai Qingyan heard this, he was stunned. It seems to make a lot of sense, people are cold, let alone able to withstand the impermanent changes of the world and the changes of the years. I heard that dignitaries and nobles often have three wives and four concubines, and even today's saints are seventy-two concubines in three palaces and six courts, so which one can they remember?

At most, it's just a momentary freshness, and after the freshness of the heart is over, there is nothing. And not to mention those who are separated and will never see each other again, but sometimes, the separation is not terrible, the terrible thing is that they are separated even though they are by their side but they are gradually separated and finally become strangers.

"That's right." Bai Qingyan listened to the words of the pastoral, and felt less uncomfortable in his heart. If everything can be boiled down to the coldness of the world, then is it okay not to worry too much about all the problems?

"By the way, the sound of the pastoral girl's piano is very good, I don't know who the teacher is?" Bai Qingyan asked with interest.

The pastoral girl smiled, "Actually, I have no teacher, and the previous master who taught the piano only taught me some fur. I played the rest of the tunes and keys myself. It's just playing as you like, and it's not a wonderful sound. ”

"Listening to the sound of the pastoral girl's piano can often make people clear and calm, just like walking in a quiet place in the mountains and waters, smelling the murmuring of the water, listening to the sound of the birds, and forgetting to return without feeling happy." Li Fu said with an image metaphor. He finally mustered up the courage to speak, and he opened his heart.

"It's a pure heart song, it's a song I composed myself, it's called Qingshui Tune, there's nothing special about it, it's a song I once wrote when I lived in the mountains one day."

"You've lived in the mountains and forests, but I feel that this kind of song can only be made by people who live in the mountains and forests, and it really makes people feel immersive.

"yes." Pastoral lowered his head and drank, with his mouth, but he had no intention of mentioning those old things, speaking of which, thanks to those days, his piano sound can be more and more sophisticated, but if there are fewer days in her life, she will definitely live a happier life now!

"My mother is also good at music, since I was a child, there was a gentleman who taught the flute, she loved the flute alone, so she taught me a thing or two, and another day I was free, I could play with the pastoral girl." Bai Qingyan said.

"Yes, you can compose a song by yourself, so let's call it a meeting! It's a blessing to be able to meet, but it's even better to be able to play together. Madrigal said, very happy to have such an opportunity.

"So I went home and practiced the flute diligently, and waited for the day when I would play with the madrigal girl." Bai Qingyan also said quite happily.

A few people are like this, talking about music and life, although after eating, a jar of wine has been drunk, but the wine is still two or three jars, the pastoral girl's amount of wine is very good, a thousand cups are not drunk, and Bai Qingyan and Li Fu dare not drink more, only take a small sip. Wine is less than a thousand glasses of confidants.

Until after eating, two hours had passed, Bai Qingyan thought of Han Yue and Wen Ruqing who were left at home, and she was very worried, no matter what Li Fu said this time, she insisted on going back. Li Fu was helpless, but he couldn't rest assured that he couldn't get rid of the pastoral song, so regardless of the pastoral girl's repeated excuses, he also insisted on sending the pastoral song to the teahouse she wanted to go to.

Nothing to say all the way. Pastoral Ge actually didn't want to be alone with a man, and, judging from Li Fu's look at her just now, she guessed that Li Fu must have been moved by her. However, she didn't like Li Fu, it was good for such a person to be a confidant and friend, but if there was another further relationship, Pastoral was extremely unwilling.

She hates love, she often warns herself in her heart that the so-called love is unreliable, only she can be trusted, and the most unbelievable thing in the world is men. She hated men from the bottom of her heart, along with all the men in the world. So for those men who have love fantasies about her, she also doesn't like it.

The two of them didn't have anything to say when they arrived at the teahouse, so they sat quietly for an afternoon, and when Li Fu came back in the evening, there seemed to be a lingering cloud on his face.

"What's wrong with you?" Bai Qingyan asked with a worried face, thinking that something had happened. The joke I had wanted to tell him was hard to say for a while.

The joke is actually a bit ridiculous, today she hurried all the way back, worried that Hanyue and Wen Ruqing would have no food to eat and would not be able to open the door. Who knows, as soon as she came back, the door was open, she pushed the door in, and the two of them happily greeted her, and she remembered that it was not difficult to open a lock with Hanyue's ability.

She walked over and complimented Hanyue happily, but when she asked them if they had eaten, they shook their heads. Bai Qingyan was really helpless, why couldn't he buy some food by himself if he could pick the lock by himself?

Bai Qingyan asked them again if they were hungry, and they nodded in unison. Bai Qingyan was even more helpless, since she was hungry and didn't go to buy food, was she waiting for her to come back to buy it? When Bai Qingyan asked them why they didn't buy food, they said aggrievedly that the master didn't let them buy food at all before leaving, so they didn't buy it.

Bai Qingyan was completely helpless, it seems that this set of training models needs to be changed in the future, which is too problematic, and he actually put two clever and cute young men, who are in their youth, and they are hungry and don't even buy food. Bai Qingyan then announced that he would go shopping for food when he was hungry in the future, and he would eat whatever he wanted. There are some things you don't have to listen to her.

So it appeared, and this afternoon, in just two hours, the two young men went out four or five times, and each time they bought a lot of messy food. Although Bai Qingyan was very angry, it was not good to have a seizure when he thought that the previous words were said by himself, no, as soon as he saw the sugar gourd that the two people handed over politely, he didn't say anything anymore.

However, Li Fu's appearance is obviously not suitable for telling jokes. Li Fu sighed loudly, he didn't know what to say, when he was having dinner, Bai Qingyan and Hanyue Wen Ruqing were noisy at the dinner table, and Li Fu only acted as if he didn't hear it.

He ate so much that he didn't notice anything about his surroundings, so that in the end, Han Yue stared at him at close range for a long time before he realized that he actually glanced at Han Yue coldly like that, and continued to eat his food without saying a word!