"Your number in the orphanage is 36, do you remember?" Seeing that I was emotionally unstable, Meng Tianming quickly changed the topic.

“036？” I was stunned, "This, this is my hospital bed number?" ”

"It was in a dream." Meng Tianming smiled, "At first, you thought this was that Mary's hospital bed number, but in fact, it was your own." ”

"I, I thought it was a fire that broke out at 3:06 p.m. that night."

"There was no fire at all." Meng Tianming shook his head, "All of this is your own imagination. ”

"Oh."

"You have been dreaming of the play "Wu Song Kills His Sister-in-law", I think, you must have seen this play. Recall, where and when was that? Meng Tianming continued to ask.

"Let me think about it, oh, I remember, it was when I was a kid. That's right, when I was a child, I was held in my grandmother's arms and watched a play together in the village. That's right, at that time, it was this "Wu Song Killing Sister-in-law" that was played! ”

I finally remembered, yes, that kind old grandmother is my own grandmother. However, she died early.

Meng Tianming nodded and asked, "Then, do you know what this play means?" ”

"What do you mean?" I was stunned, "Isn't it Pan Jinlian who had an affair with Ximen Qing and poisoned her husband Wu Dalang?" Wu Dalang's younger brother, that is, Wu Song, killed Pan Jinlian after he found out about this? Grandma told me: As long as there are those women who fornicate, they are all bad women! It's time to kill! ”

When I said this, my heart suddenly chuckled.

So, am I a bad woman? Don't forget, Wu Qiang is also a married man, but I fell hopelessly in love with him?

At this moment, I realized: it turned out that I, like my biological mother, turned out to be a "bad woman"!

"You're right." Meng Tianming nodded, "The reason why you dreamed of this drama is so impressive, on the one hand, this is the most unforgettable memory you have when you were a child, and on the other hand, it reflects a certain self-blame in your heart." You like Wu Qiang, but he already has a wife and a family. You are afraid of being condemned for fornicating with him, so you try to condemn and warn yourself for this thought through the words of Wu Song in your dream, as well as the steel knife. That's why you feel like you're being hunted down all the way, because, subconsciously, you think you're another Pan Jinlian, a woman who should be killed! And that severed finger actually represents a warning and punishment for yourself! ”

"Severed finger, what about the engagement ring?"

"The ring is a love thing, you are eager to walk with Wu Qiang, and you fantasize that one day he will marry you, give you this ring, and engrave your name on it." Meng Tianming looked at me, but his eyes seemed to be interrogating the prisoner, "It's a pity, you also know in your heart that this is impossible, so in your dream, you dream that your finger is cut off, which actually represents the shattering of this dream." ”

"So, what about the man in black who has been chasing me?"

"That's just a shadow of your heart."

"Shadows?"

"Yes, whether it is the man in black or Wu Song, in fact, they are a shadow in your heart." Meng Tianming nodded, "All the characters in your dream will more or less carry some kind of split personality of yours. For example, the schoolgirl represents the timid and helpless you who are panicked and run away all the way; And that old woman is the one who will become old and ugly in the future, you are no longer young, you can only face death. The man in black is because you have a crush on Wu Qiang, who has a married man, so he appears and warns you to hunt down your other self. The meaning of Wu Song is even more obvious, you understand. ”

"No wonder, every time I was attacked by the man in black, I was not killed by him, but deliberately put in danger by him, again and again." I finally understood, "That's just another me, right?" ”

Meng Tianming smiled, nodded, and said: "In your dream, the only one who is quite awake, calm, and objective is actually me you saw on the edge of the cliff - Meng Tianming." However, it's a pity that you still imagine me, a counselor, a doctor, as a murderer. ”

"I'm sorry, Dr. Meng, I, I." I was a little ashamed and embarrassed.

"Nothing." Meng Tianming is still very open-minded, "You were not hunted down, framed, or sent down by anyone." Actually, you're just scaring yourself. ”

"Scare yourself?"

"Isn't it? You have multiple personalities, and everyone you dream of is actually a certain personality of your own. Of course, everyone will have a certain degree of multiple personalities, but in a normal and sober state, people can still distinguish clearly. If you can't tell the difference, then you are the patient who needs psychotherapy. ”

I was silent.

Wu Qiang continued: "As for that female student, that is, Wu Qiang's daughter, you feel sorry for her in your heart. cause

For you, if you snatch away his father, you will make her become another you, a girl whose family has broken up. So, as soon as she saw you in the dream, she ran away. ”

"But, but am I obviously not Wu Qiang in my dream? She is Wu Qiang's daughter, why did she run away when she saw her father? ”

"Although your role in the dream is Wu Qiang, deep down in your heart, you are still the original yourself - Mary Xu. That's why you describe that you can't see yourself in the mirror all the time. Because, you are not Wu Qiang in the first place. ”

"I understand, but why did I meet Wu Qiang in the square again? Since I am Wu Qiang in my dreams? ”

"You have actually realized that the person you are looking for is not Mary, but Wu Qiang. However, you don't want to admit it in your heart, because you feel that it is sinful to go to him, so you simply become Wu Qiang yourself and turn around to find Mary. In this way, you will still be together, but you will fall apart. ”

I'm speechless, this Doctor Meng Tianming, he's really three points!

Strange, why does he know my heart so well? Is it just because he's a psychiatrist?

"There is another reason why you became Wu Qiang in your dream." Meng Tianming continued.

"What is the reason?"

"Let me ask you, would you rather be a neglected, lonely and lonely woman Xu Marie, or would you rather be a man Wu Qiang who has someone to love and can take risks for the sake of his lover?"

Now, I understand.

"By the way, Dr. Meng, can I ask you one more question?" I asked.

"Absolutely."

"Doctor, why can't I feel like it's a dream when I'm in a dream? Even if I pinch my own hand, it still hurts? ”

Meng Tianming showed a mysterious smile and said slowly: "Mary, who is not like this?" Who knows they're dreaming when they're in a dream? Even if you pinch your arm, what's the use, isn't that still dreaming? In fact, when you dream of the guy who eats corpses, and the three-headed dog that doesn't exist in this world, and those ghosts, you should know that you are dreaming. ”

"Hey, but I thought it was just a hallucination, but I didn't expect it to be a dream within a dream." I sighed.

"Do you think I gave you hallucinogenic drugs to hallucinate?" Meng Tianming smiled, "You are paranoia of being killed." Dreams are the epitome and refraction of reality, just like novels and dramas, and it is difficult for ordinary people to distinguish if they go deep into them. However, it is not difficult to distinguish whether you are in a dream or living in reality, and I can teach you a method. ”

"Oh?" I was immediately interested, "What's the method?" ”

"Have you seen the movie Inception?"

"I've seen it, I've seen it."

"So, you should know how the protagonist in this movie distinguishes between dreams and reality?"

"I know, it's a spinning top. He put the top on the table, and if the top spins, spins, and eventually stops, that's reality. But if the spinning top keeps spinning, it won't stop, it's a dream! ”

"You're smart." Meng Tianming smiled, and he took out something from his white coat.

When I saw it, I was stunned.

It turned out to be a small spinning top!

He gently placed the top on the coffee table, and as soon as he rubbed his hand, the top turned.

"Look closely! I'm sorry, I still have a patient, so I'll go first and take my leave. With that, he stood up and walked out without looking back.

I looked at his back and suddenly felt a little lost.

I wanted to know more about me and Wu Qiang, but he didn't give me a chance to ask any more questions.

Suddenly, I realized: on top of the coffee table, there was a blank piece of paper! However, the white paper actually has words, but the side with words is turned over.

Strange, why didn't I notice this piece of paper when I was talking to Dr. Meng just now?

So, I flipped the paper over.

That's a resume!

"Seo Mary"?

As soon as I saw the name on my resume, I was stunned.

This, it turned out to be my resume?

However, the strange thing is that there is no photo of me on this resume? What's even more strange is that my major turned out to be "psychological."

"Study"?

At the bottom of my resume, there are a few lines of black pen handwriting that caught my attention.

"The applicant is a master's degree graduate of the Department of Philosophy of XX University, majoring in psychology research, and she plans to apply for a job in our school

Clinical Psychology Counseling Jobs. However, after our in-depth investigation of her, it was found that she had suffered from schizophrenia and paranoia. She said that she had worked briefly at a foreign language school as a foreign language teacher, and her English name was 'Mary'. But after our investigation, there is no such foreign language school, and she has never been a foreign language teacher. ”

In addition, she also mentioned a teacher named Wu Qiang at this foreign language school, this man is her colleague at the foreign language school.

Also his fiancé. However, as far as we know, this man named Wu Qiang does exist, but he is not a teacher at this foreign language school, in fact, he is an English professor at such and such a university, and he once taught the student. However, as early as a few years ago, Professor Wu Qiang died in a car accident, leaving only his wife and daughter. ”

However, the student firmly believes that the other party is still alive, and that he also loves himself, but he can't accept the love of both parties.

So hiding. As a doctor engaged in psychological counseling, my psychological quality must first be passed, otherwise, I will not be able to engage in this profession at all. In view of this, we can only regret to announce that Miss Mary Xu's application request cannot be approved. ”

"What? Wu Qiang, Wu Qiang, he is dead? "I was taken aback when I saw this text.

The tombstone, Wu Qiang's tombstone, came to my mind again.

He's dead, he's really dead?

My eyes were so dark that I almost fainted.

Why, why didn't Dr. Meng tell me just now that the man I love so much, Wu Qiang, is no longer there? Why

Why doesn't he tell me the truth, but follows my words? Was he afraid that I wouldn't be able to stand the stimulation?

I looked at the heartbroken resume again, and underneath the few lines of black handwriting that shocked me, it was signed

With a few words - "Dean: Meng Tianming"!

It turned out that this Meng Tianming was not my attending doctor, but the director of the hospital I was applying for! If I apply

If he succeeds, he will be my future boss.

But why didn't he tell me the truth?

Just when I was puzzled, suddenly, I realized: the spinning top on the coffee table was still walking!

However, this spinning top has been spinning continuously for five or six minutes, but it has never stopped!

And, it never seems to stop······

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