Fifteen minutes later, a nurse took me to Dr. Meng Tianming's office.

When I walked into this office, I was very uneasy.

However, this is not the dark office of the ghost hospital I saw in my dreams, the windows are clear.

In front of the desk, there is also a sofa and a coffee table.

I sat down on the couch while Dr. Meng moved a chair and sat across from me, looking at me condescendingly.

"Mary Xu, now, it's time to tell you the truth." He said straight to the point, "Do you remember anything?" ”

I shook my head and said, "Am I having amnesia?" ”

Dr. Meng nodded.

I didn't say anything and looked at him quietly.

"Mary Xu, or I'll call you Mary. Do you know what the relationship is between you and Wu Qiang? He asked.

"He, is he my boyfriend?"

"No, he's just a school teacher."

"Huh?" I was stunned.

I didn't expect that there was really a person like Wu Qiang, I thought that "Wu Qiang" was just a person I imagined out of thin air.

"You like him a lot, but it's just a crush. I would venture to say that you are not a couple! "Dr. Meng said something that was a fatal blow to me.

"What?" I was stunned.

"Wu Qiang, he already has a family, he has a wife, and he also has a daughter." As he spoke, Dr. Meng handed me a photograph.

I took it and looked at it, and I was stunned.

That's right, it's this picture! It's exactly like the photo I picked up in my dream. Wu Qiang still looks like that, still looking at me with a smile.

The difference is that the woman in this photo, that is, Wu Qiang's wife, has a complete head and has not been burned by a cigarette butt.

This woman, Wu Qiang's wife, oh my God, she turned out to be the dark-haired Mary I saw on the edge of the cliff!

That girl, that is, Wu Qiang's daughter, also looks exactly like the schoolgirl in the dream. It's just that she is not wearing a short Scottish-style skirt, but a school uniform skirt for our own middle school students.

Wondering, why do I remember this family's picture so vividly that I can see it so clearly in my dreams?

Butt? Could it be that the cigarette butt in the photo was burned by me!

At this moment, I suddenly found myself so jealous of that woman, Wu Qiang's wife, who was not good-looking!

That's right, only me, only a jealous woman, would burn off the head of her rival with a cigarette butt!

"You still seem to be a little confused, why?" Seeing that I didn't speak, Dr. Meng asked.

I didn't answer his question, though.

"Wu Qiang, he is already married, and his daughters are already so old." Dr. Meng continued, "You see, how happy their family is, and, seriously, he really doesn't love you! ”

"No, it can't be! Wu Qiang, he loves me! I suddenly screamed hysterically, "He, he also gave me an engagement ring with my name engraved on it, why did he give me that ring if he didn't love me?" I understand that he has never dared to accept me because he didn't dare to leave that woman and this family! ”

I stood up suddenly, and said tremblingly: "I, I want to see him, I want to see Wu Qiang now!" Wu Qiang, Wu Qiang, where is he now? Take me to him, I'm going to talk to him! ”

"Mary, please calm down, sit down, sit down!" Dr. Meng said very seriously.

I sat down, but my chest was still heaving and my heart was beating fast.

"You're afraid, you're afraid you'll never see him again." Dr. Meng said.

"What? You, you mean him, he's dead? My heart chuckled again, and another picture flashed in my mind: a tombstone was engraved with the word "Wu Qiang"!

"No, he didn't die, he just left here and went to another city."

"To another city? Why? ”

"Because, because he can't stand your enthusiasm."

"Passion?" I don't know why Dr. Meng used this word, as if, this is sarcastic to me.

Yes, am I self-inflicted, am I wishful thinking?

No, no, I'm not unrequited. Wu Qiang still loves me, he must not dare to face this love, so he chose to flee from this city, right?

"Mary, I advise you not to have any more illusions about him." As if to see what was on my mind, Dr. Meng said, "You already have severe schizophrenia, you know? ”

"Schizophrenia?"

"Yes, split personality, to be exact."

"Split personality?"

"Yes, you often think of yourself as a different person. Sometimes you know you're Mary, but sometimes you forget who you are and think you're someone else. This is the most typical manifestation of split personality disorder. ”

I froze, and I remembered that long dream again.

In this dream, I always thought I was a man, and even Wu Qiang! But I'm not, I'm the Mary I'm looking for!

"W-what the hell is going on?" I held my head and screamed.

My head hurts, it hurts!

"Mary, calm down. Let me tell you slowly, calm down, calm down. Dr. Meng said, "Well, can you tell me what dreams you had during this coma?" ”

"Dreams?"

"yes, you're not completely unconscious, and sometimes, you talk in your dreams." Dr. Meng said, "I would like to know, what kind of dream did you have? Can you tell me the whole dream? Only by helping you analyze your dreams will it help you to heal your condition. All right? ”

I hesitated, but seeing Meng Tianming's sincere gaze, I still believed him.

So, I settled down and told all the dreams I could remember.

After listening to my long statement, Dr. Meng touched his chin, thought for a moment, and then began to speak.

"You mean, you became a man in your dreams?" He said.

"Hmm." I nodded.

"In your dreams, you actually have a beard?"

"Yes, that's why I suspect that I am Wu Qiang."

"But, Wu Qiang doesn't have a beard at all?" Dr. Meng held his chin and looked at me, "I've seen this guy, his cheeks and chin are always clean-shaven. Not to mention the beard, even the lips do not have a beard. ”

"Huh? So, what's going on? I was stunned.

"However, your biological father has a long beard." Dr. Meng smiled, "Do you remember?" ”

"Huh?" I froze.

Suddenly, a picture from a long time ago appeared in my mind.

When I was very young, when I was a little girl, I was held in my father's arms. He had a piercing beard, and I was always pierced in the face by his beard. However, the feeling of being pricked in the face by Dad's beard is really comfortable.

"Are you impressed by your father's beard?" Dr. Meng seemed to see what was on my mind.

"Yes, but why can't I remember what my dad looks like? I don't seem to be impressed at all. I said.

In my memory, my father's face was vague, only the beard was impressive.

"Because, when you were very young, your father was already dead, and he committed suicide by jumping off a building!"

"What?"

"You're an orphan." Dr. Meng continued, "When you were very young, your mother left your father and you to run away with other men. So, in the bottom of your heart, you are very resentful of your mother. ”

"There is not a good thing in the fornication woman!" A word popped out of my mouth.

However, when I said this, I was very conflicted in my heart.

"Your mother is gone, and your father is pulling you alone. However, later he failed in his business and became terminally ill. So, after sending you to an orphanage, he jumped from a tall building. From then on, you are an orphan without a father or mother. ”

"Jumping off a building?" 、

Suddenly, I thought about the last scene in my dream, where I was pushed off a cliff. Could it be that this is the shadow left on me by my father's practice of jumping off the building back then?

"Later, you ended up in an orphanage." Meng Tianming continued, "But you don't fit in, you feel like a prison or a mental hospital. By the way, aren't these places in your dreams? ”

I nodded, and I thought back to the orphanage, the closed bars. It's exactly like the prison bars in my dream.

"So, why did I call Mary by that name? Could it be that this is the name my father gave me? ”

"No, your real name is Xu Lei. As for Mary, this is your Christian name, and you took it after you entered this orphanage. This orphanage is run by the church, and every child has a Christian name, and your Christian name is Mary. When you grew up, you changed your name to 'Mary Xu' because you didn't want to reminisce about that past. ”

"A church-run orphanage?" I was stunned, "By the way, the picture I saw in the ward is the picture of the red cross and the heart, what does it mean?" ”

"That's a sign of mental healing."

"Oh, me, I thought it was the coat of arms of the Kingdom of Platteeuw." That's when I understood.

"The Kingdom of Platteeuw?" Doctor Meng smiled, "Do you really believe that there is such a country as the Kingdom of Platteeuw in this world?" ”

"Could it be that this kingdom does not exist?"

"Of course it doesn't, it's just a kingdom you made up in your dreams." Dr. Meng explained, "You like French things, such as French paintings, French perfumes, French landscapes. Naturally, in your dreams, you have created a non-existent kingdom of Platteeuw. Of course, that Mary I, William VIII, also did not exist. ”

"Mary I?"

"Yes, what Mary I reflects is actually a certain complex of your 'Bloody Mary'." Doctor Meng nodded, "You once heard of the person 'Bloody Mary', so in your dream, you confused Bloody Mary and Mary I as the same person. ”

Seeing that I didn't speak, Dr. Meng continued, "Do you know why the blonde beauty 'Mary' appeared in your dreams? ”

I shook my head.

"You admire French things, so, naturally, in your dreams you imagine 'Marie', that is, yourself, as a beautiful French girl. In this way, you can realize that you are so beautiful and worthy of your man, that is, Wu Qiang, to save her. In the dream, you become Wu Qiang to protect 'Mary', that is, yourself. In this way, you can prove one point: Wu Qiang, I still love my Mary. It's just a pity that it's just a dream. ”

Dr. Meng's words mercilessly pierced the softest part of my heart.

"You're also deliberately confusing your ancestry with your origins. Although you didn't explicitly say in your dream that this blonde Mary was a descendant of the Platteeuw Kingdom, in your heart, you wished that you were a nobleman, a descendant of royalty, right? This is better than an orphan without a father and a mother, right? ”

I nodded and didn't speak.

Indeed, I would love to find my roots, and preferably, I would be a descendant of a royal family! In this way, I will be worthy of Wu Qiang!

"Subconsciously, you wish you were the queen – Mary I. That way, you won't be scared and you will be feared by others! Mary I is your idealized self! However, like you, she is also a single woman, beautiful and powerful, but still lonely and lonely. ”

"So, what about that William VIII, and what does he represent?" ······