The piercing pain in her whole body made her face pale, and she couldn't hear the nurse whispering in her ears at all, and her eyes were fixed on the doorway. Gritted his teeth and crawled forward, today is the last day, wait, wait for my morning light.

blurred his eyes, knowing everything, including the fact that Xu Chenxi would leave Xiangcheng today. Why is she so picky about time to get sick, sad and resentful of herself at the same time, "Why, why did you leave without even saying a word to me, Dawn." ”

She couldn't see her own expression, but she knew very well in her heart that it must be ugly, how could he dump her like this with a stomach problem, and what should she do next? Who's going to tell her. She gave up everything, all that her family and friends had, just to be with him.

Why is it so humble and refuses to let her fulfill a wish?

The nurse was so frightened that her face turned pale, and she didn't know what to do when she was anxious, so she thought of the two letters, took them out and threw them down to Lian Yingying's side. She didn't understand why it had suddenly become like this, the two seals had one name written on them, and the other was blank.

He shouted anxiously, "There are two letters left for you." ”

Letter, Lian Yingying wiped away her tears with her hands in a panic. Only then did he take it slowly, the corners of his mouth trembled, he looked down and quietly looked at him in his arms, and finally said in a muffled voice, "Let me stay alone for a while." ”

The nurse nodded and went out.

I don't know how long it took for Lian Yingying to slowly move her body, little by little to the wall and leaning against the wall, the coolness spread from the soles of her feet to her body little by little, she didn't react, she didn't care at all that she was a patient and just got a little better.

Looking at the things in her hand, it was obvious that only one belonged to hers, and she opened the package.

'Yingying, I'm leaving. It's a shame that I can't say goodbye to you in person, after all, you're the one who knows me best. Maybe it's because there's only enough time to leave a letter for the two of you, but it's my selfishness that I probably don't like to say goodbye.

So I left, I know you've done a lot for me, and I haven't asked you what you think, and I'm sorry to you. I'm also sorry for hurting you for my selfishness and making you the way you are.

You said to fulfill you once, and I did. But I regret it, and according to the result, you may be willing, but morally speaking, I am no different from that kind of scum. Actually, I also have a question, are you really happy?

I'm not going to tell you I'm sorry for this, it's humiliating to you. It's your awareness of what you want, maybe my guts aren't as strong as you see.

It's like when something happens to me, the first person to notice is you. But in any case, you shouldn't hurt yourself at the cost of caring for someone who doesn't care about you at all, and be kind to yourself.

I may not be able to protect you anymore, is it hypocritical to say this, I think it is. After all, the person who hurt you the most is me, you can also let go of me when I'm gone, we are different from when we were children, this is true, don't use your own methods to deceive yourself.

If, I say if... I'm back, and I'm going to give you everything I can give you.

Be happy...'

Seeing it, even Yingying's empty eyes became dim again, what you said about sorry and sorry are what I want, why apologize. Lian Yingying squeezed the paper in her hand, that is, I will do this again again.

She knew this very well, and she had always wanted what she wanted. But why do you say what if, what you can give? And what I want is what you can't give, why don't you give me a little hope even if you leave.

Lian Yingying held the cold and temperatureless envelope, tears slammed on the back of her hand and she didn't know it, sluggish like a doll. The heart is dead, and even the body has lost its vitality. Her heart went there, if according to her later memories, she followed Xu Chenxi and left.

Without his city, where is the warmth of her existential value... Lian Yingying couldn't find it, she was lost, she fell into a puzzle, a puzzle that she might never get out of.

Sluggishly got up and changed his clothes and put on his school uniform. Standing in the middle of the ward, she smiled shallowly, her waist-length long black hair was tied up high, she still had something to do, something left by the morning light. The unsigned envelope, she knew who it should be for.

"Since I can't see your smile anymore, I'll smile at the sky." Lian Yingying stepped out of the room step by step, ignoring her weak body, everything was not important.

In the past, she always looked at their backs, but now she doesn't even have them. At that time, the four of them knew each other together, not limited to contact between them. What changed her perspective was one thing, one thing that was engraved into her mind, the same thing that everyone else saw.

When she was a child, she had a beautiful face, and there were many families who wanted to adopt her for this matter, and most of them were, 'You are so beautiful, can you let us be your new father and mother?' ’

Those grown-up hands always like to pinch her cheeks and touch her body. But only she knows that she hates such an adult, and every time she likes to hide and cry secretly, until he found out that day and found her hiding in the cabinet.

"You hate them, do you?" Xu Chenxi squatted in front of her and said.

"Hmm." Lian Yingying sniffed and nodded, "I hate them touching me, I don't like them at all." ”

"Then why didn't you say that?"

"The dean's mother said that they are hurting me instead of my parents, and I can't make them sad."

"Stupid, you're stupid."

She intuitively said that she was unwilling, she didn't expect him to do those things for her. Lian Yingying smiled stupidly and touched the slightly long Qi bangs, these were all disguises she deliberately made.

It was also if she didn't have that thing, she wouldn't have been different, but she was happy to be like this, the first person who protected her. Dawn remembered, but he had someone who was more important to him.

Lian Yingying knows this matter very well, just like the sentence that no one can wake up the person who pretends to be asleep. But the difference is that she remembers that the other person is a person who looks uncomfortable. The smile on her face scared her, and she unconsciously retreated and bumped into someone.

Xu Chenxi just appeared beside her, still holding a toy in her hand and smashing it in the other party's face, shouting, "Get out, get out." ”

At that time, in order to get along with adults and children, they would stay alone in one place, which was their toy classroom. Lian Yingying didn't know how Xu Chenxi got in, when she knew, he was already holding her hand and preparing to take her out, and she was looking at his back at what time.

The child's thinking is very simple, and he doesn't know that this one act has angered a man. He suddenly rushed over and grabbed Lian Yingying's arm and prepared to forcibly pull the two people apart, Lian Yingying beat each other's arms in fear and cried.

She didn't want to go with him, and in fear he shouted, "Dawn help me." ”

Xu Chenxi was pushed and fell to the ground, and he also pounced on him when he reacted, but his strength was too small, he was pushed and slapped, and his face was red and swollen, and he still glared at the man angrily. With an ugly smile, he said, "I don't hurt, as long as I'm here, I'll protect you." ”

Now that no one can protect me, Lian Yingying walked very steadily with each step, her long hair swaying with her body.

Walking around, her footsteps still came here, and Mo Zi looked at the nearby house and smiled. As soon as school ended, she lost her soul and refused the moon's invitation to go alone, and you could still see the disapproval expression on her face.

But she is not her after all, and it is impossible to understand her if she can't understand her. After that incident, she hadn't seen Tianyu for a few days, and she was the one who didn't show it on her face in a hurry. Only I know how anxious I am, I don't know how she is, she can't get in without being invited, and hesitantly circling around the door.

I don't know how many laps I walked, and a maid appeared at the right time. Mo Zi smiled excitedly, and someone greeted Uncle Leng to let her in.

"Miss Mozi, sir, please come in." After making a gesture of please, Mo Zi nodded and followed.

The maid who walked through the courtyard seemed to mean something, and didn't say anything to her, and took her directly to the second floor. Mo Zi knew very well in her heart that she was very familiar with this section of the road, and Tianyu's room was in front. I secretly counted the number of rooms in my heart, and there was one more.

Swallowing nervously, will her destination be the same as she guessed? Mo Zi's nervous hands clasped together, and the maid stopped and turned her head to look at her.

"Miss Mozi, the master has instructed that only you can go in."

"Me?" Mo Zi was stunned and nodded in agreement. The maid began to walk back the way she had come, she approached the door, hesitated, knocked on the door repeatedly, buckled...

It didn't take much effort to respond to her with silence. Crash... What is the sound of breaking, what happened to Tianyu? In a hurry, she didn't care about the courtesy, and pushed the door in directly. What she saw in front of her made her speechless for a while, Leng Tianyu sat on the edge of the bed with bare feet and frightened eyes, curled up in a ball and looked at her timidly with her knees.

"Don't come, don't come." She shouted in a panic, with shards of glass at her feet, threatening to scratch her hand if she moved.

How is this possible, Mo Zi sat on the ground with weak legs. Looking at the messy hair and wrinkled clothes, the room was a mess, and the floor was littered with things that made her unable to move. One hand covered his mouth, his eyes were sour, and he shook his head desperately in denial.

It's not, she's not... This is not the Tianyu she knows, this is not.

"Hey! Why are you looking at me like that? Leng Tianyu looked at Mo Zi with an arrogant gaze.

"No, it's not." Mo Zi hurriedly denied it.

"Didn't you hide what you were doing? You're not a guest in our house, are you? ”

"No..." in a hurry, Mo Zi couldn't speak, just shook his head vigorously.

"I see how you're so similar, come with me."

Mo Zi envied Leng Tianyu's kind of self-confidence, she also wanted to be like that, but unfortunately she couldn't and couldn't do it. Her naturally cowardly personality doomed her to not become excellent, so she could only squat in the corner and watch enviously.

For being discovered by her was something she never expected, she shrank back in fear. Instead, she grabbed her wrist as a suspicious character and dragged her desperately in front of everyone.

In fact, she herself understands the reason, she wants to know if it is a child from the neighborhood who has mixed in. I didn't expect her to be really an invited guest, so I was just stupid. That was the first time they had met them, but unfortunately Leng Tianyu had completely forgotten about it. At the age of twelve, there was a party, which was also her birthday, and she was brought to their house by her mother.

(End of chapter)