Chapter 55: I'm not willing to be just a bystander
The following days were a little dull, and I never found a chance to regain the watch, because this time Ning Qiang looked at the watch more closely.
The wait was long, though, and I got used to it. For others, they may only have this life, so they are afraid of waiting and they are afraid of failure. However, as for me, I have tried and made mistakes countless times, and it doesn't matter if I make a mistake again and wait for a few more months.
I'm paying attention to one person, this time, it's not Yuting, it's Ning Qiang, another me.
At this moment, I no longer regard this Ning Qiang as myself, but as "him". Although his every movement, every word, and every expression was the same as before, however, when I first observed this wonderful creature from the perspective of the audience, I still felt very strange and strange.
Probably, I'm the only one in the world who observes my every move like this. It's wonderful and subtle.
In order to observe Ning Qiang's movements, I even bought a telescope, but in this way, everything on the other side was too clear. I don't like it, I hate being watched, however, this time, it's me spying on myself.
Slowly, I felt that I had a different feeling about this Ning Qiang. It seems that I have been stripped from Ning Qiang's body in the past, and my soul is still there, but it is attached to Wen Ting's body. Now, I have slowly become Wenting, I am becoming more and more like a woman, except that I still have memories of Ning Qiang's past.
What does this look like? Could it be that this is reincarnation?
Suddenly, I thought of a sentence that Wenting once asked me, "Do you believe that there will be an afterlife?" ”
Before, I didn't believe in reincarnation. This time, though, I hope it's true. In this way, whether it is Yuting, me, or Wenting, the debts between the three of us that can't be paid off in this life will probably be paid off in the next life, right?
"Crossing the afterlife to love you!"
In front of my eyes, Wenting's appearance appeared again. However, this is not the me now, but the one who can never be found again, the soul that has passed.
"In the next life, you will love me in the next life. In this life, let's take good care of her. ”
This is what Wenting once said to me.
When I think of this, my heart feels like something is stinging hard, it really hurts.
My last psychological defense line also collapsed in this violent impact.
I hugged my head and started crying.
I finally knew: what had I ever lost? I finally understood: who is the most cherished person in my life?
I used to think that the person I loved was Yuting, but that was just a childish dream of mine. The woman who can really stay by my side all the time and accompany me through the cold winter and dark nights is her, Wenting!
Wenting, I was wrong, I was really wrong! Can you come back to me? I really don't want to go through the repetition of the past! I just want to be with you, please, come back, come back quickly!
I looked up and out the window.
Outside the window, the rain was still ticking. Each one is dripping in my heart, telling those wordless endings.
Wenting can never come back, after exchanging bodies, I am still there, but her soul can never come back.
I could only stand in front of the mirror, looking at this face, hoping to find a vague trace of her.
Bathroom, in front of the mirror.
I silently looked at this person in the mirror, is she Wenting? Is she the former Yu Manli?
They look exactly the same, but this person is not her, but just a twin sister who looks exactly like her.
I stared blankly at myself in the mirror, and slowly, I approached the mirror, closed my eyes, and pressed my lips together.
The moment my lips pressed against the mirror, a coldness quickly surged over my body. Suddenly, I smelled a scent, which was the kind of woman-specific fragrance that emanated from Wenting's body.
I closed my eyes and hugged my shoulders tightly, as if I was still holding her in my arms at the moment!
It's a pity that she never came back!
After a long time, I opened my eyes. In the mirror, I was also looking at me with a confused and tired look, but my eyes were full of tears.
Ay! With a long sigh, I turned around.
I can't get Wenting's soul back! From then on, I could only be attached to her shell, waiting, waiting, waiting, waiting in this endless cycle······
Unsurprisingly, this time, Ning Qiang's courtship failed. However, when I saw his depressed appearance, I didn't have the slightest heartache.
I hid in the distance, like a bystander, quietly watching the story that happened between Ning Qiang and Yuting. I couldn't hear what they were saying, but I knew all the details because I had experienced it before, but I didn't want to do it again.
I even gloated a little, but fortunately, this time, the person who suffered the pain of being rejected was not me, but the current Ning Qiang.
Ning Qiang, Ning Qiang, why do you bother to love a flower? How many good women are there in this world, why are you only in love with her, not to mention, people are already famous?
If it had been before, I would not have come up with this kind of "rebellious" idea at all. However, now, perhaps because of a different perspective, I see love more clearly.
Actually, Yuting and I are fundamentally people from two worlds.
However, I still sympathize with the current Ning Qiang, after all, that is the road he is taking, and no one can walk for him. So far, he has never really gotten a woman, no intimate experience between the sexes, and no bloody love story where he gets entangled with two women at the same time. He's still very young, and he doesn't know where he is.
When he really got Yuting, he might understand that the woman in front of him was actually not much different from the other women he had despised. However, he is still too tender now.
That night, as usual, I "peeped" at Ning Qiang's house opposite. As expected, he lay on the couch and drank a lot of wine, which was particularly decadent.
Looking at him, I became calm as if my heart had no place to live, and this feeling was really amazing.
However, it occurred to me: why should I wait? Why can't I take action now?
What action to take? Could it be that I want to run to the other side, and then sleep with Ning Qiang, just like Wenting once treated me, and then snatch the watch while I am asleep?
Sleeping with Ning Qiang? Sleeping with this yourself?
As soon as this thought came to me, I slapped myself hard in the face.
That's right, I'm a woman now, both in terms of gender and psychologically. As a woman who has no blood relationship with Ning Qiang, there seems to be nothing wrong with me really wanting to have that kind of relationship with this man.
Besides, if it is set according to the script last time, sooner or later, Wenting will also fall in love with Ning Qiang and have a relationship between men and women. This is the inevitable end. That is, whether I like it or not, sooner or later I will become the woman of this man opposite.
But even so, I still can't accept this outcome, even if it can't be changed.
In addition, Ning Qiang at this time, the woman he likes is still Yuting, and it is impossible for him to accept another woman. The beauty trick has no effect on him.
Unless, he has already gotten Yuting, perhaps, only in this way, will he alleviate the pain of this loss of love, right?
I really don't want to watch anymore and watch Ning Qiang continue to suffer from this loss of love.
So, I decided that I wanted to act quickly, an action that no one expected.
"Are you threatening me?"
I met Shi Wen again, Yuting's boyfriend and fiancé.
However, at this time, I did not appear as his rival in love, Ning Qiang.
In this café, Shi Wen seemed very nervous, and after he saw the set of photos on my phone, his previous self-esteem and decency instantly turned into anger and panic.
"Whether it's a threat or not, you know best in your own heart." I gracefully sipped a cup of coffee and shook my hair, "If you take a picture of you and this woman and let your school leaders see it, you know what the consequences will be." ”
The corners of his mouth were tightly closed, and his fists were clenched in a defensive posture. But what's the use of that?
"How much do you want?" He finally confessed.
"I don't want money."
"What?" Shi Wen was stunned for a moment, "Then, then what do you want?" ”
"I want you to break up with your girlfriend, that is, your fiancée Su Yuting!" I said slowly but firmly.
"What?" Shi Wen's eyes widened, and he didn't say a word for a long time, and finally, he said, "Can't do it!" ”
I didn't expect him to be so tough, doesn't the script seem to be written like this?
Last time, when I was still Ning Qiang, I also came to the school to threaten him. Later, didn't Yuting almost commit suicide because she was broken up by Shiwen? In the end, it was my "hero saving beauty" that won Yuting's heart?
However, the script did not take place on this plane. In this script, Ning Qiang's courtship was frustrated, and Shi Wen and Yuting still got married.
Am I doing something wrong? Am I changing my life? I suddenly panicked again.
"I'm not going to leave her, if you want to make it public, then make it public." Shi Wen said, "If you want money, I can give it." But if I want to leave her, I can't do it! ”
I didn't expect him to be so resolute that he suddenly lost his mind.
"This young lady, I hope you still stop the precipice and turn back as soon as possible." Shi Wen taught me a lesson, "You are so young and beautiful, there is no need to do this kind of thing, who must be instigating you behind this, right?" ”
I didn't speak, I didn't look at him.
"I'm sorry for Yuting, but I'll apologize to her. We're getting married, she's still pregnant with my baby, and I'm sure she'll take care of the bigger picture and forgive me. Shi Wen continued, "As for the job in the school, even if I lose it, it's a pity, I just have to go to work in another unit." I've been a teacher for so many years, and I'm tired of it, and this time, I have an opportunity to go out to the sea to do business, wouldn't that be great? Oh yes, I can also go write a book. I'm publishing a new book right now, but I can't afford it yet, but it's not that hard. Once it is published, I only need to rely on the manuscript fee, which will be enough for the rest of my life. Even if I don't have a manuscript fee, I love to write. As a person, I don't value fame and fortune very much. So, please don't threaten me with anything like losing my job! ”
I looked up at the man.
Strangely, Shi Wen didn't seem to be lying, he didn't look nervous at all, and he didn't look like the kind of man who abandoned his lover for fame, fortune and wealth. Could it be that I have made a mistake in my judgment?
I always thought that Shiwen was a Sven scum, he didn't love Yuting, and the incident of him dating other women and opening a room made me believe this even more. I also thought that he would retreat from the difficulties, and he would give up Yuting for the sake of the school's iron job bowl. However, I didn't expect him to have such a fierce reaction, is this still the same Shiwen I once saw?
"You can't be together!" I said coldly, "You know, what's going to happen next?" ”
Shi Wen was stunned for a moment, looked at me, and shook his head.
"She's going to die on the day of the wedding!" After saying this, I bit my lip.
I've leaked the heavenly secrets, please forgive me!
"What do you say? He, who is he? Shi Wen's pupils dilated.
"She is your new wife, Su Yuting!" I said solemnly······