Chapter 54: The Tenth Crossing
"Are you sure you want to buy this watch?"
The old man's voice rang out again.
This time, however, he was not speaking to me, but to a young man standing across from him, a man who looked exactly like me.
That man is Ning Qiang, who used to be me.
I still haven't changed back, and now I am still a daughter, and I am still the woman named "Yu Manli".
I sighed inwardly, I felt a little regretful.
If I hadn't turned my watch clockwise that day, I wouldn't have traveled to 2037 in the future, and I wouldn't have become Wenting. Now, I can't get it back.
However, there is no regret medicine in the world, and even if you get this watch, I am afraid it will not be an exception.
However, I noticed something different from last time: Ning Qiang in this time and space actually took a few steps back and looked at the shopkeeper in a daze.
Had he noticed something was wrong?
Suddenly, Ning Qiang turned his face and collided with my gaze. In his eyes, it was clearly written: I know you, I know you!
Oh no, he must have found something? Could it be that he already knew that he had traveled back in time?
I was startled and immediately turned my face away, but my hands trembled slightly.
I didn't dare to look at Ning Qiang, I only dared to peek at his actions with the peripheral vision of my eyes.
He lowered his head and looked at his wrist, which was empty.
"Are you sure you want to buy this watch?" The old man asked again.
"I, I." Ning Qiang seemed a little nervous and asked, "Boss, what day is it today?" ”
"I'll see." The old man turned his head and looked at the calendar behind him, "Oh, today is March 24th. ”
I suddenly understood: Ning Qiang was experiencing his first time traveling, and he still had the memories of the previous time in the Venus Hotel, so he was surprised and dazed that he had returned to the current time and space.
That's right, this Ning Qiang, "he" is going through the story I have experienced.
Oh my God, if this Ning Qiang re-enacts my history again, what will happen to me in the end? Isn't it going to be with him?
The most terrifying thing is probably not this. I'm scared that the two of us will continue to play out the endless, never-ending cycle.
I think of a sci-fi film called "Horror Cruise", in which the main character gets on a cruise ship and is then hunted down. In the end, she realized that the person who was chasing and killing her was herself! In other words, countless selves, repeating the same cruel game of killing and being killed in parallel space!
When I think about this, I feel a kind of horror that I have never felt before.
I took a look at the watch lying quietly on the counter, this watch was no longer an artifact in my heart at this time, but a horror box that made me fall into the bottomless abyss again and again, and never recover!
That's right, it's not a watch, it's Pandora's treasure box! In myths and legends, Pandora could not resist the temptation to open this treasure box, bringing endless diseases and disasters to mankind! Now, I've dialed the watch, and I've been put in a never-ending loop!
When a person dies, at least there is a relief, just like Yuting, who is in the ground. Even if you are reincarnated, at least you can forget your previous life and throw away all the painful and unwilling memories of the past. However, if for a lifetime, you can only keep repeating something in the past, and everything is like a movie in the past, repeating and screening, then what is the meaning of such a life?
No, I have to get the watch back! I'd rather live in an unknowable future as a woman than stay here again, over and over again, hopelessly watching the past repeat itself countless times!
"Wait a minute." At this time, Ning Qiang turned around, pushed open the door and ran out.
Great, he's gone, my chance has finally arrived!
While he was going out, I stepped forward and grabbed the watch in my hand, and put it on my wrist.
"Girl, doesn't seem like a good thing about this?" Unexpectedly, the shopkeeper shook his head at me.
I was startled and looked at him in a daze.
The old man seemed to see through my thoughts, and his eyes were not sharp, but they revealed an indescribable majesty.
Just when I was stunned, Ning Qiang had quickly returned to the house, and his gaze fell on my hand, the watch.
I was so stunned by his gaze that I put down my watch in shame and lowered my head.
Why am I ashamed? Isn't this my watch?
Still, I was like a kid who had done something wrong.
"Boss, how much does this watch cost?" Ning Qiang asked.
"Didn't you just say that? Two hundred? The boss replied.
"Okay, I bought it." Ning Qiang was not polite, and took the watch in his hand.
This time, I still lost. Just as I was about to get my watch, I was timid and gave up.
A person's greatest opponent is himself. At this moment, I finally figured out this truth, I not only lost to my current self, but also lost to this "self" standing opposite me!
"Girl, isn't that right?" I thought of what the old man had just said, and peeked at him.
But the old man went about his business as if nothing had happened.
The following thing, just like the movie script that I have read countless times, Ning Qiang bought the watch and went out with it. Before leaving, he took a special look at me, and there was a look in his eyes that only a victor would have.
It's over, I'm losing, I'm failing again!
However, I was still unwilling, so after hesitating for a moment, I still followed Ning Qiang out.
This time, Ning Qiang did not go to the public toilet, but continued to walk forward.
After the lightning and thunder, the heavy rain poured down, and Ning Qiang ran!
I wondered if I should catch up with him, because I knew that the watch in his trouser pocket would fall to the ground.
I'm like a witch, a prophet, but even if I foresee the future, what's the use?
His watch has fallen, should I pick it up?
If I pick up the watch, I can turn it clockwise and travel to the future of 2037. However, in the last script, Yu Manli, who is now a loser, was taken away by Ning Qiang, who discovered that the watch had fallen, before she could get close to the watch. In other words, no matter how hard I try, according to the setting of the script, I will not succeed!
Still, I couldn't help but rush forward. Because, in my eyes, there is no failure, only the watch! This watch, like the Lord of the Rings ring, will make people feel an impulse to possess it immediately as soon as it appears in anyone's eyes! And I, naturally, can't resist this temptation!
However, I couldn't rewrite the script after all.
Ning Qiang still took the first step, ran back, and got the watch first.
If I hadn't hesitated for a moment in my heart just now, maybe the person who got the watch would have been me, not him. However, I still lost.
More desperate than failure is being ignored. Ning Qiang actually smiled at me, I had never seen such a smug smile of myself, like contempt, like mockery.
What the? Am I being laughed at by my current self?
At this moment, all my past memories and hallucinations came out in a flash.
"You're a fool, fool!"
"Just like you, dare to marry Yuting?"
"Ning Qiang, you have never won because you are too cowardly! You're a coward! ”
Shut up! I shouted to myself, but that didn't make the noise go away.
Suddenly, I ran up and ran in the direction of Ning Qiang in front of me!
Even if I lose, I can't live like this! I'm going to get that watch back!
Maybe it was because my mind worked, or maybe it was because I felt that someone was chasing me behind me, and the Ning Qiang in front of him actually panicked, and he almost bumped into the old lady in a wheelchair who was coming this way.
Then, as if remembering something, he immediately pushed the old lady's wheelchair and pushed her to the edge of the park, a place where she could shelter from the rain.
I didn't stop my steps, but rushed over.
Ning Qiang ran again, but I was blocked by the wheelchair that suddenly came out of the park.
Damn it! How did I forget there was another one?
I tried to run, ignoring the old lady, but I didn't, so I said "I'm sorry" to her and ran back on.
However, Ning Qiang had already run away, and this time, he never looked back at me again.
I stopped, gasping for air.
None of this can be changed, all the plots are exactly the same as last time. It's just that this time I swapped roles with Wenting, and the plot remained the same.
Instead of wandering around, I quickly moved into the hostel across the street from my house, and of course, room 308 was still available.
Then, I still called the guy in **** and reissued a Yu Manli's ID card.
Everything was so familiar, everything was so boring, and I could only seem to repeat everything I had done, without a bit of autonomy.
This time, though, I didn't open the curtains again and pushed the window open. If I see Ning Qiang walking out of the bathroom naked again, I'm afraid I'm going to go crazy.
I went to the bathroom and took a shower, and while taking a shower, I thought about the past.
Before, why did I fall in love with Yuting? In fact, in this world, there are more girls who are better than Yuting, for example, this girl named Wenting. Wenting is younger, more beautiful, and has a better figure than Yuting, and even, she is still a rich second generation, and she is much stronger than Yuting in every aspect. But why haven't I ever met a girl like this before? Why did I only pay attention to Yuting, and I only thought she was more beautiful than the immortals? What kind of evil did I commit at that time?"
Slowly, I found that the so-called "love" I had for Yuting in the past was being peeled off little by little. It's not because I'm a woman now, and probably never again, but because I've found that I can actually think from two perspectives.
In the past, I have always looked at Yuting from the perspective of a man and Ning Qiang. In the eyes of the man Ning Qiang, Yuting is like a goddess, standing on top of a high mountain, so that I can only look up to her.
However, now, when I have also become a beauty, even a more beautiful and feminine beauty than Yuting, I found that in fact, Yuting is just an ordinary girl, very ordinary. However, I have been infatuated with her for so many years, and I am still willing to give my life for her?
So, was it right that I wanted to travel back in time and try to change history?
From the point of view of saving people, it seems understandable that I am doing this. But am I just trying to save her? Am I not trying to save some dream in my heart?
Dream? I don't know why I use that word. However, to me, my love for Yuting seems to be a dream, a false dream.
This dream seems to be slowly waking up······