At half past seven in the morning, Chengyuan drove to Gu Chu's house.

The weather in S City was very good for two days in a row, and the sun shined through the window with a warm glow, as if it could shine into people's hearts. But all this warmth does not belong to Gu Chu.

When Chengyuan arrived, the floor-to-ceiling windows, which had always been open curtains, had long been closed, and there was no light to shine. The outside of the house is bright and dazzling, and the inside of the house is cold without a trace of popularity, only the bitter smell of wine permeates the whole room.

Cheng Yuan took the breakfast, carefully stepped over the wine bottles scattered all over the ground, the light in the room was dim, and he could not be found, "Gu Chu, where are you?" ”

"Knock knock" two crisp sounds, like the sound of a wine bottle falling to the ground. Chengyuan frowned and walked to the door of the guest room.

The bottle tumbled to his feet and then stopped moving.

When Chengyuan turned on the light, his eyes moved from his feet to the person at the foot of the bed, his eyes shrank, his eyes were full of stinging, and his expression was complicated.

Gu Chu in front of him has long lost his former dignity, his tie was casually thrown aside, he was dressed in a wrinkled suit, he looked tired, he held the wine bottle in his left hand and kept pouring wine, many of which flowed down his chin, and he would cough out when he drank violently, because the circles under his eyes were red because of the injury.

Seeing Gu Chu like this, Cheng Yuan began to worry, this worry is a worry that cannot be described in words.

The playmates who used to be inseparable day and night have now become strangers. It seems that this side of him has never really been understood.

Cheng Yuan walked into the guest room, his eyes were depressed, his tense expression and even his breathing became suffocated; "How long are you going to do this?"

Gu Chu just glanced at him and didn't answer.

Cheng Yuan frowned, picked up a can of beer on the ground, poured it violently, and looked at him with some pity; "She's gone, and even the transfer is done neatly, making it clear that she doesn't want to have any more entanglements with you. Let it go, now An Ruo hates you very much, and no amount of compensation can warm her heart. Xiao Chu, you have to cheer up. Look ahead, maybe you still have a chance to meet each other. So he said. His eyes were swollen with pain, and there seemed to be tears, but he turned his face away to hide the water in his eyes.

Gu Chu's eyes were scarlet, and a pair of eyes that had lost focus stared at Cheng Yuan so stubbornly, trying his best to calm his tone; "No, you don't understand. She's just throwing tantrums with me right now, and she'll be fine after a while. She once said that in this life, she loves me the most, and she only loves me. She's so willing to leave me, she won't..."

Cheng Yuan's eyes sank slightly, took out a cigarette, tried a few times before lighting it, took a few deep breaths and said in a deep voice: "That's the past, can you wake up?" Now you seem to her to be a complete liar, and she doesn't think you love her in her heart. She will only think that you are using her, cheating on her, and if it were you, would you still love? ”

Gu Chu's body stiffened when he heard this, and it could be seen that Cheng Yuan's words were not useless, and for a long time he held his head and buried it in his knees, and whispered: "No, it's not like this, I love her, I really love her." ”

There was sourness in Gu Chu's eyes, like the water vapor accumulated by dark clouds.

There was a suffocating silence in the room, this was the first time Cheng Yuan saw Gu Chu expressing vulnerability, and it was also the first time he heard the word love from his mouth.

"It's not enough for you to know a lot of things, Xiao Chu shouldn't have used her at the beginning, let her fall in love with you before telling her this cruel truth, for love, no girl will be strong..."

"I thought she would understand something she didn't need to say. Because she said that actions are far more practical than words. I did. Gu Chu raised his eyes to look at him, his tone was slight, and his eyes were full of puzzlement: "When she was sick, I pushed away everything and stayed by my side all night, I ran half the city to buy her back what she liked, she was free in my place, I never stopped her from doing anything, I knew that my original intention was wrong, but I have always been sincere during this time, I thought she would understand, instead of killing all the past with a rod..."

After a pause, "We are all sick, terminally ill, and there is no cure." She is the only antidote. But now she won't save me. ”

Cheng Yuan lowered his eyes, and some words collapsed with a bang, and there was a mournful sound. After a long time, she turned her head to look at the room. He couldn't save Gu Chu, just as Gu Chu couldn't save himself and An Ruo.

Gu Chu was not in a state, but he couldn't skip meals all the time. Narugaki snatched the wine bottle from his hand and pushed him into the bathroom to wash it. In the bathroom, Gu Chu leaned against the wall, muttering An Ruo's name, his eyes were moist, and he didn't know whether to tell Chengyuan outside the door or to himself.

He said; "He loves her."

......

When I went out in the afternoon, there was a light rain in the sky, which was still taking shape, but when I walked down a street, the rain became heavier and heavier, and finally it turned into a torrential rain.

An Ruo never likes to play umbrellas, and her nature is lazy, but she can force it into: 'I like the artistic conception of falling flowers and independent people, and micro swifts flying together'

The rain was too heavy, and there was no artistic conception for a long time, An Ruo had to stand in front of a bookstore to hide from the rain, with a dog tied to the door, and seeing the screaming of the living person, An Ruo's footsteps shrank back, unwilling to admit that she was actually afraid of dogs.

"Girl, don't stand outside, come in and hide." The one who spoke was a young woman, with a slightly chubby face and a round face, friendly and friendly, who was sitting in front of the cash register at the moment while watching the anime while knocking melon seeds, very leisurely.

It's a second-hand bookstore, and there aren't many people coming and going. Looking up, there was only one young man bent over a book.

An Ruo thought about it and walked in, originally worried that standing outside would affect the store's business, but now it seems that there is no need to worry about this.

I don't know when the rain will stop when it rains so hard, and since I've already walked to the door of the bookstore, it's not good to return in vain. Just buy a few books and go back without being bored.

An Ruo's fingers swiped over the bookshelf at random, his eyes crossed Xi Murong, a little surprised, he raised his hand and was just about to touch the books he needed, when he heard someone next to him greeting him; "An Ruo?"

Looking sideways, it was the man just now, and his eyes were puzzled: "Are you?" ”

The man hid the gloom in his eyes, and a soft smile appeared on his face: "You may not remember me, we are alumni, in the same grade and different classes." ”

Out of courtesy, An Ruo also smiled at him: "Hello." ”

Under normal circumstances, there are always many topics to talk about after the alumni meet and say hello, but there is only an awkward atmosphere around An Ruo and the man, and what remains unchanged is the smile on their faces.

After an awkward silence, the man turned his gaze to the book in An Ruo's hand and said in surprise: "You also like Xi Murong?" ”

An Ruo pursed her lips and said lightly; "Hmm."

The common hobby opened the man's conversation: "I like her very much, and I always feel that his poems have a love of trekking through mountains and rivers, stories of drifting apart, and a simple desire for vitality." What's more, there is a lot of warmth in his poetry. As he said this, a vivid joy appeared on the man's face, and a light seemed to flicker in his eyes.

The corners of An Ruo's lips are slightly hooked, and he is a cute boy.

Subsequently, An Ruo went to the cashier to settle the bill, but the man rushed to settle the bill but was rejected by An Ruo, and it was not good to receive favors for nothing without relatives and no reason.

Out of the store, the rain outside the house was still dripping, and An Ruo's brows frowned unexpectedly.

"It's raining a lot, you can use it first!" The man handed An Ruo an umbrella, and when he spoke, there were smiling lines in the corners of his eyes.

Colorful umbrellas that look bright and bright.

An Ruo smiled, "No, thank you." Maybe the rain will stop after a while, at least that's what she thought.

"This umbrella is borrowed from you, and when the weather clears, you can return it to me at any time." The man stuffed the umbrella directly to Ah Sheng, and his voice was not in the rain, so he couldn't hear it.

Ah Sheng looked at the umbrella in his arms, then looked back at the bookstore behind him, and the woman who had just been eating melon seeds was looking at her curiously.

"And how am I going to give it back to you?" An Ruo looked at the umbrella in his arms, and then at the man beside him, with a slight question.

"When the sky clears, I'll wait for you here." The man rushed into the rain in his cloak and waved his hand at her with joy, his hands expanding into a microphone; "Remember, my name is **."

An Ruo bowed his head, and the thin back of the man in the rain curtain ran farther and farther until he could no longer see it. An Ruo stared at his back for a long time, and it was just as warm as Xi Murong's poems.

In the rain curtain, the water flowed freely along the colorful umbrellas, and Ah Sheng's back gradually drifted away.

Xi Murong said: "When you are young, if you fall in love with someone, please be sure to treat him gently. No matter how long you have been in love, if you can always be gentle with each other, then all the moments will be flawless and beautiful. If you have to be separated, say goodbye and be grateful that he gave you a memory. When you grow up, you will know that at the moment when you suddenly look back, there will be no regrets in youth without resentment. ”

Every minute and every second she spent with Gu Chu, she never forgot it, like a silk flower blooming on the branches, which has not been thanked for many years. But she didn't want to experience it again, the warmth no longer belonged to her.

Under the eaves of the corner of the street, the man called, "Guess who I saw?" You'd never have thought I would see An Ruo. ”

"It's true, I don't know why he's at home at this time."

"What nonsense? She's just an alumnus. The man's tone was a little annoyed, and there was shame in the deepest part of his eyes after being exposed.

She is An Ruo, a top student in No. 1 Middle School, and a good student all the time. Her life was smooth sailing, and she went all the way to the university of her dreams, which he couldn't envy.

He once handed love letters to her desk, hoping to be good friends with her. But after that, there was no reason, maybe she didn't see it at all, maybe she saw it but pretended not to know. In short, she and him are very different, and he doesn't dare to expect anything.

It was a dream in his youth, although it was unreachable, but every time he thought of An Ruo, he still felt very beautiful, and his heart was warm.

He hadn't told her yet, and he was happy to see her.