Shen Fu wanted to leave on the seventh day of junior high school, but unexpectedly, he had an argument with her mother on the sixth day of junior high school.

After the year and the year, what I heard the most from the mouths of relatives was Shen Fu's age and marriage, Shen's father and Shen's mother took into account their daughter's mood and didn't dare to mention it too much, but seeing that their daughter was leaving, they didn't feel at ease anyway, and began to tell again.

"Funier, you are 27 years old this year, you can't delay it any longer, you still have to find someone to find, you are also stable when you settle down early, and our hearts are clean, so we don't have to ask others when we see them."

When Shen Fu heard this again, he was annoyed, so he said: "Mom, I really don't have the heart to do it now, I will find the right one, and I can't rush if I don't have the right one." ”

"Then you have to make more snacks yourself, if you are not in a hurry, we can't help no matter how anxious you are. Why don't you let your aunt see if there is a suitable introduction for you? ”

"Mom! I don't want to think about this now, can you let me do it slowly? I don't want to find a partner just for the sake of finding someone. Shen Fu was impatient.

Mother Shen was anxious when she heard this: "It's thirty years later!" Marriage is to live, before you said that you follow fate, but what is the result? Who are you looking for? What's the use of just talking about love if you can't live a life? ”

"Mom, don't rush it, okay? I know it myself, but the more you push me, the more pressure I feel in my heart, and subconsciously I will feel that when the age is up, my parents should be in a hurry, and hurry up to find one. But under this kind of psychology, even if you look for it, you and Dad's thoughts are put first, instead of getting along slowly to see if this person is suitable for me, whether I am comfortable with him, whether we can work together in the future, whether he really cares about me, loves me, and protects me...... I ignore a lot of my own feelings. Shen Fu couldn't help but choke up as he spoke.

"We want you to be good, but you don't care about it if we don't put pressure on you." Shen's mother still insisted, but her voice was much quieter.

"Mom, I am definitely looking for a partner for the purpose of getting married, and I want to be able to live a lifetime in the future. But I don't want to find a partner just for the sake of finding a partner, getting married for the sake of getting married, if the person I'm looking for is not suitable, even if I get married in the future, I may not be able to see it at first, but after a long time, I will definitely expose all kinds of problems from the details. Wasn't my sister and me examples before? ”

Shen Fu saw that her mother listened, and then looked at her mother and continued: "I have heard a book by Teacher Fan Deng, which says that the pain and influence that a person experiences from his parents and original family when he is a child may not necessarily show it when he is growing up, but in the end it will be reflected on his spouse and children after marriage, and it is likely that he will not be able to change it for the rest of his life. Mom, I know that you asked me to settle down quickly because I was afraid that I wouldn't meet the right person and would be lonely in the future, but Mom, if you just talk about love, it may be just a matter of one person, but marriage is a matter of two families. You may not know, my sister said the same thing to me before, she said that if you marry a person who has no sense of responsibility and responsibility, and enters a family that does not know how to take responsibility, then there will be constant quarrels and conflicts in the future, if your husband knows that it is okay to feel sorry for you, once your husband no longer loves you, he will not feel sorry for you, and you will be isolated in that family. ”

Mother Shen couldn't help but reddened her eyes when she thought of Shen Ling: "But you, you and ...... Didn't the previous one get along for a few years, and they were still classmates, and your sister was also ......"

Shen's mother's words were intermittent and vague, but Shen Fu understood.

"Mom, what does it mean to eat a trench and grow wise? I didn't know people well before, but it was precisely because of this experience that I knew how to see a person and what kind of person I would be with in the future. First of all, you must be responsible, like my dad, and then know to respect me and my family, really take me to heart, see me as someone to spend my life with and work hard for it, tolerate each other, understand and support each other, rather than just letting one person keep compromising...... Mom, I really understand, you and Dad can rest assured. ”

"If you can say such a thing, your mother and I will be relieved, I was always afraid that you would be emotionally tied up and lose your mind. But it's worthy of being my daughter, don't cowardly! Father Shen didn't know when he came back, and he was relieved to hear Shen Fu's words.

"But that Fang Lin, you must break it cleanly, you can't give him a little hope, otherwise you will suffer in the future. Is there still less of a breakup on the news and in reality? Funier, we know that you are sad, but you must stick to what you should hold, and you must give up what you should give up, and only by giving up what is not worth it can you have a chance to get what really belongs to you. Father Shen admonished again.

"Well, I will, don't worry." Shen Fu nodded emphatically.

When Shen Fu arrived at his residence in City B, it was already night. As soon as the New Year passed, the troops who went home for the New Year returned one after another, she stood on the subway and was squeezed all the way, at this time exhausted, she just wanted to lie down in the quilt and sleep, but the room that had not been occupied for half a month had been covered with a layer of dust.

When Shen Fu wiped the house, dragged the floor, changed the sheets and quilts, and packed the luggage one by one, the time was already more than an hour later, she was so hungry that she couldn't stand up to her back, but she was too lazy to go out to eat, so she could only take the food she brought from home and drink boiling water to make do.

When he finally lay down in the bed, Shen Fu couldn't sleep at all. Tiredness, loneliness, and desolation are always so rampant and unscrupulous in the night, and they flow down the night to the heart, and finally the heart is so thick that it can only overflow from the corners of the eyes.

Shen Fu turned over again and curled his legs tighter, but after a long time, his legs and feet were still cold, and he suddenly remembered that he hadn't turned on the electric blanket, so he got up and plugged in the electric blanket and quickly hid in the quilt shivering.

Shen Fu suffered from the cold when he was born, and since then he has been a little lacking in qi and blood, and his hands and feet are cold every winter, and it is difficult for him to fall asleep alone. When her sister Shen Ling was not married, she slept with Shen Ling at home, and after Shen Ling got married, she turned on the air conditioner when she was cold, and the dormitory was heated in winter after studying in college in City B, so it was not difficult to endure, but it was difficult to endure in winter after studying and renting a house.

She once told Fang Lin that a person was not warm, Fang Lin said that he would come to warm up and let Shen Fu live with him, Shen Fu was naturally unwilling, although Fang Lin didn't say anything at the time, Shen Fu obviously felt his unhappiness. After that, no matter how cold it was, I didn't want to tell Fang Lin anymore, so I had to buy an electric blanket to use by myself, and when I bought it, I was still a little disappointed, and I felt that Fang Lin was inconsiderate, and then I reflected on it and felt that I shouldn't care about it because of a little thing.

After the electric blanket was turned on for a while, the quilt was really much warmer, Shen Fu dared to stretch out her legs, feeling the warmth under her legs, she rubbed her legs sideways again, and began to think about her sister Shen Ling again.

Shen Ling is pregnant with a second child, it has been more than 8 months, Shen Fu went to see her again before coming to City B, and her brother-in-law Zhou Yan was also there, and he was quite considerate to her sister. Zhou Yan has a younger brother, Zhou Li, who was also married the year before last, and often takes his mother to him to help his little daughter-in-law cook and do housework. Xu is the target has been shifted, Zhou Yan's mother has fewer conflicts with Shen Ling's mother-in-law and daughter-in-law, and the relationship between Shen Ling and her husband has eased a lot, and Shen Fu is very happy for her sister.

As for herself, Shen Fu felt that she was not interested in falling in love and getting married in the short term, even if she found another one? She Shen Fu is still herself, her concept of marriage and love will not change, and the bottom line still has to be kept, she can't hand over her body casually, especially after experiencing the relationship with Fang Lin, she is even more insecure in this regard. She feels that falling in love again is just going through what she has experienced before, and the irreconcilable contradictions are still irreconcilable, after all, no man is really willing to ignore his own physical needs for the sake of so-called love. Why try it again and end up with a bad breakup? And in addition to these, there are other aspects, how can it be so easy to meet the other half who is really in tune......