"Click." The key was inserted into the lock hole and a dull moan.

In the small apartment, it was pitch black.

Didn't he come home either?

I didn't turn on the light, I sat on the sofa, my whole body was like being poured from head to end by a basin of cold water, and my heart felt like a piece was missing, and I felt uncomfortable.

"It's such a big person, where did you go........

I closed my eyes and suddenly heard the sound of small, heavy breathing coming from the room.

It can't be a thief, right.........

I picked up the schoolbag in my hand and held it in front of me, and the cat leaned down to listen carefully to the slightest movement.

As I approached the corner, the sound suddenly stopped.

Turn on the light on the windowsill, and the warm yellow light softly illuminates a small space.

A figure in a black suit, shrunk in the corner, hugged himself tightly, his hand tightly pulled the pants of the suit, the other hand close to his lips, and his white teeth bit his slender index finger, which was already slightly purple.

"Hey, what are you doing!" I ran up to him and snapped his fingers, but he bit them tighter. When I looked closer, I realized that his eyes were already red, but there was not a trace of tears in the corners of his eyes.

I managed to pull his hand out of his mouth, and his fingers were already bleeding from his bite, and the whole finger was already purple.

My first instinct was to give him a slap in the face. I complained about why he suddenly disappeared inexplicably, and was here to suppress himself like self-harm.

However, when I saw his helpless eyes, my heart softened.

In my opinion, his eyes are the most beautiful, like black gems full of stars. But now, like a pool of ink, it is dull.

"Zhang Huaixu, what's wrong with you."

"Don't touch me!" He let out a low roar and shoved me away.

I didn't give up trying to grab his arm, only to realize that he was wearing a black veil on his arm.

At this time, I remembered that Sayuri said that Zhang Huaixu's biological mother passed away today.

However, since Zhang Huaixu has been away from home for so long, his parents have called him a lot. Every time, he either didn't answer, or had a big fight with them.

I have the impression that Zhang Huaixu's mother is a beautiful and gentle woman, in her early forties, and she is very temperamental. She was carrying a large bag of things before, and she went upstairs alone, but Zhang Huaixu didn't even let her get close to the door.

The poor woman waited downstairs until the next morning, but Zhang Huaixu was not moved at all

The most angry time I saw him was the other day when he was on the phone with his mother.

"What else are you trying to trick me into going back? You have left me for so many years, even if you really have this disease now, it is your own fault, I will never go back in my life, and I will not call you Mom! ”............

I tried to comfort him, but I couldn't find the words.

"Zhang Huaixu, that ........ Shall we go on the Ferris wheel? I........ Let's go to Happy Valley again. ”

"Zhang Huaixu, let's go to Happy Valley. Last autumn tour, we didn't get anything to play, so let's go and play together, okay?"

"Zhang Huaixu ......"

I called him three times, and his eyes barely shone through.

He pursed his lips slowly, but did not answer. After a while, he slowly stood up, perhaps because the long squatting had made him a little dazed, and he shook for a moment before he stood still, and turned his head to look at me.

Does this mean by default?

When I walked to the door, he followed me, like a big injured cat, trembling and distressing, but he didn't cry or shout, just silently endured.

At this time, it was already seven or eight o'clock in the evening, Happy Valley was about to close, and the pedestrians walking around were much rarer, so that I could see more clearly the figure of Zhang Huaixu following me. His shadow was stretched slender by the light, and he walked tightly to my shadow.

This lonely person is really distressing.

"People have to go through too many life and death partings in their lives, and those sudden partings often catch people off guard." - Lin Huiyin

Since getting on the Ferris wheel, his eyes have been falling on the light outside the window, and his expression is not as surprised as Fang Cai, but there is still an indescribable sadness.

On the Ferris wheel this time, there was no one else, only me and him, and we sat opposite each other, but I could feel that his heart was drifting far away.

He didn't look at me, and I didn't know how to speak.

Now that I looked closer, I realized that the knee part of Zhang Huaixu's pants was stained with a lot of dirt, and a watermark was printed on the edge.

Judging by the way he looks, he must have just returned from the cemetery.

When the Ferris wheel was about half a circle, a gust of wind blew, and the compartment swayed for a while.

I was so frightened by this sudden turn of events that I couldn't help but scream, and the person sitting across from me naturally pulled me into his arms at once.

His hand was tightly wrapped around my waist, but the other hand was half-wrapped on my shoulder a little shyly, and his dew-stained hair ran across my neck, slightly itchy.

The arms I crashed into had no temperature, cold as stones.

The Ferris wheel regained its calm. After a few seconds, he and I quickly bounced off at about the same time, each sitting upright.

I kept glancing in his direction, and his expression finally recovered a little, and his gaze kept looking around, and finally, it fell on me.

A line in "Heartbeat" is used to describe my mood at that time, which could not be more appropriate.

"Meet Bryce. On Rosky's first day, I was thrilled. There was something magical about his eyes that fascinated me. ”.........

Zhang Huaixu gave me the feeling that it was an ice cola in winter, although it did not have a soft temperature like the sun, it was just right, and it was what I liked.......

I don't know if that kind of affection is the so-called liking someone, but I know that there are thousands of people like him in the world, but I think he is the only one who shines.

The relationship between people, what is the beginning of the relationship, that is almost doomed to the final end. If it is a pleasant balance to treat themselves as friends, then if they become lovers, this balance will be broken, and the people who could have been together for a lifetime may become strangers after a short period of passion.........

So, I don't want to break the balance between me and Zhang Huaixu. Because he is the person I trust the most besides An Yuqiu.

"Tan Lige." Suddenly, he looked at me with that almost straight look, "I ........"

"Ahh Look there, there's, there's stars. ”

"You did it on purpose........ he nodded as if asking himself, "you did it on purpose, you knew it, but you pretended not to know." ”

I admit that he poked me in the heart, but I don't know if he thinks the same thing as I think, so I tell him.

"I'm sorry, I don't understand ........"

He smiled dismally and looked at me: "Tan Lige, it's the first time I think you're so hateful........ Do you have the attitude that as long as you apologize first, the other party will not be able to hold you accountable?"

It's really easy for him to see through a person's mind.

So, I acquiesced.

The highest point reached by the Ferris wheel was not the highest point of happiness, and there was still the aftermath of Fang Cai's cold questioning, and my evasive attitude was reflected in the window.

He sighed self-deprecatingly.

"You just don't say anything."

"You....... Where did you run today? I didn't finish the exam at all. "I pretended to bring up the topic casually.

He gave me a thoughtful look and turned his head away.

"My mom died, and I went to the funeral in the afternoon. I'm fine, I'm sad for a while and it's over. ”

Zhang Huaixu's two sentences of understatement include all the questions I want to ask.

I'm short of words and can't find anything to answer.

"How? Is it over? Let's leave when you're done. ”

The door of the Ferris wheel had already opened, and he stepped out without waiting for me to respond, and he didn't even look back at me when I staggered out.

I think he, such a clever man, must have known that I was knowingly asking, thinking that I was trying to rub salt in his wounds.

"Zhang Huaixu, listen to me......."

"I'm hungry, go back and get me something to eat." He laughed a little, and it was far-fetched.

"Oh, what a ......."

After getting along for so long, I'm probably used to his moody personality.

When he got home, Zhang Huaixu suddenly collapsed on the sofa and let out a long sigh, looking very tired.

I stood at the door and watched him for a while, only to feel that he was about to sink into the sofa, feeling very powerless, like a person who had fallen into the quagmire alone, had been sentenced to death, and had given up resisting at all, and I watched him fall, but I could only be a helpless bystander.

Originally, we thought that as long as a person was comforted, we could learn to let go, but later, we found that the words of comfort were actually so weak that they were not even as heavy as a hug.

The egg drop porridge in the stove slowly emitted its aroma, and I could barely recover from the sad atmosphere that was infected.

"Zhang Huaixu, the porridge is ready........" My eyes kept falling on the bowl of porridge in my hand, until I turned out of the kitchen door, and the corner of the living room gradually became clear, and I realized that there was already a graceful woman standing next to the sofa.

The dress with a slightly open back framed the perfect curve of the back, a slender white ribbon skirted around the neck, a heart-shaped buckle blocking the crescent chain, and long brown hair half-draped over the shoulders.

An Yuqiu, back.