Chapter 12 There is no such thing as true empathy

"Actually, you're doing a good job, really."

He turned his head, revealing a pair of aggrieved eyes under his thick bangs.

"Really?"

A white lie does not count as a lie, and God will forgive me....... Bar.......

"Really." I nodded vigorously, "As long as you can distinguish the food, for example, soybeans are used to make soy milk, not edamame...... I can teach you too. ”

At this time, Yuqiu suddenly rushed out of the room and asked incredulously, "Zhang Huaixu, what did you say when you were eating just now?" ”

"Sit down to eat?"

"No, the last one."

"Training on Saturday afternoon?"

"No, no, no, last sentence, last sentence."

"It's the weekend?"

Yuqiu looked up to the sky and let out a long roar, how sad.

"Why didn't you say it earlier! I thought I was going to have class today! I actually ..... I got up at seven...... Ah, my rare weekend morning. Who, whose alarm clock woke me up! ”

I raised a paw tremblingly.

"Sorry, it's my phone......."

An Yuqiu's anger was leaked all of a sudden. Probably because I was not as close to her as she was with Zhang Huaixu, she was embarrassed to lose her temper with me.

"Okay, okay, for the sake of the little pigeon, spare your life." Yuqiu sat down next to me on the sofa, pushed my arm, and asked, "Little pigeon, today is a rare weekend, this morning can't be wasted, you have been in Beijing for so long, I haven't taken you to have a good time, say you want to go to Wangfujing, or Wanda Plaza?"

"Go out and play......"

I have a slight phobia of crowds, which is not so exaggerated, but when I go to a crowded place, I feel a little uncomfortable. But this time, I suddenly yearned for the outside world.

Yuqiu took me and Zhang Huaixu and took the No. 54 bus to Wangfujing.

Before, Wangfujing only appeared in books, but now, it is really in front of my eyes.

Row upon row, everywhere is magnificent, Ambilight is full of atmosphere, and there is no such scene of crowds on the street before holidays, only the occasional crowd of people, but it is precisely because of this that I can see the whole picture of this street.

There are stalls selling candy men, selling gadgets, and there are also donkeys and rolling donkeys. The ancient, with the change of years, the vicissitudes of life, the trendy, chasing the speed of the times, the more show the style.

Lao She mentioned in the article "Autumn in Beiping" that "gourd-shaped jujubes, sweet and crisp small white pears, white begonias as big as flower red, and begonia papaya that only smells fragrant, and champagne with gold stars all over the body", although I haven't seen any of them, but just thinking about it, I feel fragrant.

"Little pigeon, how is it, this is Wangfujing." Hagaoka proudly introduced it to me.

"Well, it's very tasteful. It's very different from the streets of the South. ”

"Hey, there's a donkey seller over there, and you're waiting here, little pigeon."

Featherhill jumped up and down in front of the donkey vendor, and the sunlight outlined the corners of her mouth, looking particularly gentle and sunny.

"If I can have the mentality of hers, I should be able to live a happy life......

"We don't have the courage to face life like she did. Sometimes, even I envy this fool, who has no worries, no worries, and doesn't care about anything. Zhang Huaixu looked at Yuqiu's back and said to me.

"You're fine, at least, you all have parents who love you......."

"They don't want me anymore."

My body shook and I looked at him incredulously.

What do they mean..... Your parents? ”

"I don't have such parents. At that time, they were too poor to support me, so they threw me into a ditch. It was my dad who picked me up. When Zhang Huaixu said this, his eyes were full of sadness, exactly the same as that night.

"My father, a farmer, didn't have much money, and didn't marry a daughter-in-law, after picking me up, he treated me wholeheartedly. Although the days were poor at that time, the life with him was happy. When the harvest was bad, my father would take me out to dig wild vegetables and catch insects to eat; When it was cold in winter, the wind blew in through the cracks in the wall, so I curled up on the kang with him, wrapped in a blanket, and hugged him to sleep. I never felt that I lacked anything more than anyone else, and I even felt that I was proud to have such a father. ”

"But when I was 4 years old, they came. Well-dressed and dignified. He held out his hand to me and said, 'We are your parents, come with us.' I asked them, 'If you really cared about me, why did you leave me in the first place?' They didn't answer. They stuffed money into my dad, and stuffed a lot of it, but my dad kept holding me tightly in his arms and wouldn't let go. ”

"Later, they came again, with a group of bodyguards, and they carried me into the car. My dad was stopped by the group of bodyguards, knelt down, kowtowed to them, and said he couldn't live without me. I was in the car banging on the window, crying and shouting, but the car drove away and into a big house. There is everything here, crystal chandeliers, sofas, duplex staircases, and even maids and housekeepers...... But it's so cold here, colder than snowy streets. They told me that my dad was dead, and that I was going to live here from now on. The woman said to me, "Mom will make it up to you." Ridiculous, can anything compensate for the stump? They didn't participate in my childhood, childhood, that's missing out, how can I compensate? I was also poor, my father raised me, but they abandoned me. At the end of the day, they care more about their own lives, and that's why they plan to sacrifice me. ”

"Then I snuck back to see my dad, and I didn't believe he was dead, but I found that the hut and the large watermelon field behind it were gone...... I don't have anything left in my memory...... I know this story is, but I often wonder how such a bloody thing happened to me."

In the midst of the crowd, I could only hear the boy's voice, which was distant, low, and lonely. I seemed to have found another self all of a sudden, the same sadness, the same hiding of my old self.

After that day, I often remembered the way Zhang Huaixu looked up at the sky when he told this story, and the sun was dancing on his body, but his eyes were gloomy.

It suddenly occurred to me that I wasn't the most miserable person in the world. Yu Qiu, Zhang Huaixu, similar experiences brought us together, but we chose different lifestyles. Some people go to the light with a broken heart, and some remain in the darkness...........

Towards the end of the month, I went to check the balance of my bank account as usual. My mother's living expenses will be credited to that card.

However, to my surprise, this time there was a full 10,000 yuan more in the card.

I ran to the phone booth to call my mom.

It took a long time for the ringing bell on the other end to connect.

"Hey, hello."

Her voice sounded old and tired.

"Mom, it's me."

"Oh, little song. I just put 10,000 yuan into your bank card, and I have taken a lot of cases recently, and I may forget to give you living expenses, so I will simply give you a little more. When the money is gone, call me again, and if it's okay, don't call me. ”

After the call was finished, there was only a "beep" hang-up tone on the other end of the phone.

She was so busy that she didn't even have time to listen to me more.

The sentence "Mom, I miss you" choked on the side of his throat and swallowed slowly.

Forget it, it's long overdue to get used to it........

"Ladies and gentlemen, the day after tomorrow, everyone is looking forward to the autumn outing, you should have heard about it a long time ago, this time, we are going to Happy Valley. In order to avoid accidents in the autumn outing for some students who suffer from fear of heights and heart disease, the school temporarily decided to cancel the last class this afternoon and change it to a physical examination. Alright, let's get ready for class. ”

After Lao Zheng finished explaining what was going on with a teacup, he left the classroom.

"Medical exam........ Is it the kind that is going to draw blood? ”

"It's over, it's over, the height pad is not .........."

At that moment, the class exploded all at once.

Yuqiu pushed my arm and asked, "Little pigeon, I heard that blood is going to be drawn, are you afraid?" ”

"I was sick a lot when I was a child, and I'm used to getting injections, so I shouldn't be afraid. Are you afraid? ”

"Hehe, come here, I'll tell you a secret," Yu Qiu said with a wicked smile on his face, leaning into my ear, "Lord Zhang, he's sick....... Shall we scare him for a moment?"

"Huh? It's not good......."

"It's okay, I tested him with tomato juice last time, and he just lay on the couch for two hours."

An Yuqiu is such a ghost, a ghost spirit who is bored and even pits his own people, since I knew this characteristic of her, I have never dared to tell her clearly what I am afraid of.

Poor Zhang Huaixu has become a victim of our time in this way. However, this kind of playfulness without scruples between each other, after we grow up, it seems that there is no more, and now that I think about it, I miss it very much......

"By the way, the little pigeon, just the class grown, the autumn tour is going to form a team, let's group Zhang Huaixu a boy, you ...... Mind if I do Dora personally? ”

"Who? Hao Jianren? ”

"P, whoever wants to pull him, he will tear down the stage for me, I want to pull ...... Mu Xi came over. An Yuqiu lowered his head shyly, "If I can go on the last autumn trip of high school with him, then my youth will be perfect." ”

"Senior Muxi? Isn't he a senior in high school? ”

"Oh, who's going to take care of you then, it's okay."

"Why don't you ask Zhang Huaixu." I looked behind me and saw that Zhang Huaixu was still sleeping.

If you want to wake me up, pinch my ears.......

That's what he said last time.