After returning home from the airport, Han Yi, who was busy until four o'clock in the morning and didn't sleep until four o'clock in the morning, still got up on time at eight o'clock. Brushing his teeth in a daze, he looked at himself in the mirror, took a closer look, and actually found a white hair on the side of his ears and feet, he carefully pulled it off, and suddenly became much more sober.

Walking out of his room, Xia Bo held a plate of fried noodles in his left hand and a cup of fresh orange juice in his right hand, and said to Han Yi with a smile: "Morning! ”

When Han Yi was sleeping, Xia Bo hadn't slept yet, but he didn't expect him to get up earlier than himself, and he was surprised to find that he had also made breakfast, and there were a few side dishes fried on the table.

"Morning! Didn't I tell you that you don't have to go to the company with me today, and go buy some daily necessities by yourself? Why are you still up so early? ”

He couldn't help but walk to the table, sat down and picked up the dishes and chopsticks to taste it, but he didn't expect Xia Bo to have good cooking skills.

It should be a good morning, not bothered by feelings, not bothered by work, just a good breakfast.

In fact, this breakfast is dispensable for Han Yi, unless someone reminds him, otherwise he will go straight to the company in a suit after dressing up.

Xia Bo smiled lightly and handed him the juice, there was a little helplessness in his smile, he was really shy in his pocket, and the little income was sent to his mother and sister last month, so he was so strong, eager to get this job and stay by Han Yi's side.

"Sit down and eat together!" Han Yi glanced at Xia Bo and praised: "Hey, I didn't expect it!" It's delicious, have you ever studied it? ”

"How can you ever learn it, it's your own foolishness! After I was discharged from the army, I experienced a year or two of life in the wild, and I could eat anything I could eat······" Xia Bo said with a smile: "You don't have to order takeout in the future, I cook quickly, and the taste is still very good." ”

He is not boasting about himself, this taste is indeed very good, Han Yi is also quite satisfied, this person is hired, and he can make a lot of money!

"Hmm!" Han Yi nodded, and hurried to the study before the breakfast on the plate was finished, and walked out with a laptop in the blink of an eye, as if he remembered that there was something unfinished, he was tapping the notebook while eating, which was also the norm for him.

"Didn't I say last night that I would pay you my salary first, and I would transfer it to you for two years while I have money now." Han Yi looked at Xia Bo's dress and said with a smile: "Go and change your clothes first, it's better, I'll pay for this money, get the invoice and reimburse me······"

Han Yi transferred 600,000 to Xia Bo, 600,000! Xia Bo was a little trembling for a while. And Han Yi's anxiety at all times is also vividly reflected, "while you have money now", he is actually quite scared in his heart, afraid that he will not work hard enough, or make wrong decisions, and the company's development will not be good, etc.

"This ······ Not suitable, right? Xia Bo explained: "Mr. Cheng said that she would let the company transfer my salary to my account every month, so you don't have to worry about it." ”

"Just remember that I paid you, so you can betray me for her! She can worry more than my mom and control me! Han Yi smiled and complained, "I believe in you!" With no worries, you can work well for me, can't you? ”

Xia Bo almost cried without being moved, "Thank you!" ”

He is a few years older than Han Yi, and he actually uses honorific titles like "you". In fact, Han Yi already knew his economic situation, and the moment he hired Xia Bo, he already had such a plan, he was a person who would never treat his friends badly, and he now agrees with Xia Bo's personality.

"I'll go first, you can come to the company to pick me up in the afternoon!"

Han Yi said and carried the document bag and went out with the car keys. is obviously a young man in his twenties, carrying a document bag, looking like an old adult uncle in his forties and fifties.

Some people, you see him living comfortably, because he never shows the embarrassment of life, he just seems to be doing well.

This is a feeling that Han Yi often has.

Many people say that envy his life.

When he was in the company, he was in awe, and when he was on a business trip, his classmates and friends said that he was envious of the fact that he could go to so many places, that he could meet so many different people after work, that he could see the world with his own eyes, and that he could record the world he saw, in photos and in words.

If he leaves office now, will they still say that they envy his life? Envy that he has seen the world before he is thirty years old, and he has come back in time, envy that he can live a stable life in today's difficult society in just a few years, and envy that he can write and be liked by more and more people?

I have to admit that there are some moments when Han Yi lives in the envy of everyone, thinking that he is really doing well. But more often than not, he had deep doubts about himself, and he felt that those things that others envied him, those ethereal things, those were not his.

And he just looks like he's doing well.

He has only told one person about this kind of panic, not Bai Xue, not Keiko, but Li Jia, because she accompanied her in those days and nights of struggle, so he cared so much about Li Jia's friend.

Then Li Jia will say, it's not you, many, many people are like this, we all just look good!

She said: In the eyes of others, living well is actually a very intuitive and quantifiable thing. Those seven aunts and eight aunts who are not on the same frequency as us, those neighbors and elders, have a very vague but certain standard.

You have a secure job, you are married, and you have children. Ticking these three ticks is enough to prove that you are doing very well.

What is the standard of job security in their eyes?

There is a preparation, it doesn't have to work too hard, it works from 9 to 5, you won't be fired even if you lie down, and you can have time to take care of the children.

What does it mean to be married?

As long as you are married, it doesn't matter if you get married in a hurry, or you are unwilling to marry someone who is not your true love. It doesn't matter if you marry the right person or not, whether you live a really happy life or not, as long as you are married, this hook is on again.

What does it mean to have children in their eyes?

As long as you already have a child, whether you are ready or not, even if you are the shopkeeper, the children are all helped by your grandparents, or you need family subsidies every month, just barely enough for a family of three, whether you are mentally mature enough to accept that you want to have a child, it doesn't matter if you have a huge change in your life from now on, as long as you give birth, tick!

And then you look like you're doing well!

Then, you can become the child of someone else's family, you look at the daughter of the old Wang family, what do you want, you look at yourself.

But no one asks you, are you happy?

You have deceived yourself even yourself, you have lived for a long time with the illusion that you think you are doing well, and you never want to wake up again.

Even if you are doing a hopeless job every day, day after day, year after year, there are many, many moments of discouragement.

Even if in order to meet the wishes of his parents, he got married in a hurry, and he didn't have time to wait for the right person, and there was no one to tell him about his unwillingness for a long night.

But you don't want to wake up, because it's not hard to live like this.

Because you don't have to please like this, you don't have to work hard, you don't have to be ambitious, and naturally you are not disappointed.

Because there is a word called drought and flood harvest, which is probably like this.

Because, they say, you're doing well.

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Li Jia is sometimes a talker, but in front of Han Yi, she is still very careful about proportion, only when she has a heart-to-heart relationship with Han Yi, she will be very serious and give her opinions or suggestions very sincerely.

Han Yi felt that what she said was quite like that, which was very in line with the thinking of his parents' generation, and Han Yi felt that his mother just wanted him to live this kind of life that seemed good.

Four months ago, Han Yi's college roommate Yuan Zheyou posted on Moments to commemorate more than three years in a famous state-owned enterprise.

Seeing the circle of friends, he was a little shocked, and sent a WeChat message to ask him: Have you resigned?

Sure enough, he really resigned.

In the eyes of these old classmates, it was their dream to be able to work in a state-owned enterprise before they graduated, and there were some connections in the family, he did very well in the state-owned enterprise, and he got everything he wanted, at least he lived very well at this node.

He resigned from his position in a state-owned enterprise, went to the imperial capital, and joined a start-up company.

Han Yi asked him why he resigned?

He typed a few words.

"If you're not crazy, you'll be old!"

He also said that among these classmates, Han Yi was the most envied by them, which made Han Yi not know how to answer.

Perhaps, there has never been a life that seems to be well lived by others.

In the eyes of Han Yi and those classmates, Yuan Zhe got everything he wanted, and it should be time to enjoy the fruits of the harvest.

Even, in their opinion, his change is different, the industry is different, the position is different, the city is different, the risk is very high, and if you are not careful, you will have a bad life.

He was not satisfied with the status quo, he wanted to look forward, he didn't want to live a comfortable life like he lived in college in a state-owned enterprise, he suddenly had a new life plan.

But Han Yi actually understands deeply that no matter how bad it looks in the eyes of others, that is the life he wants to live.

And a good life is never under other people's values, and a good life has never had only one evaluation criterion.

A lot of times, as long as we feel good about ourselves.

Because no one suffers for you when you are wronged, no one cries for you when you are sad, and no one changes your way of life for you when you are unwilling.

Only when we feel good ourselves, those difficulties and grievances, we can bear them, and those joys and sorrows, we can accept them all.

This road is chosen by ourselves, so that we can willingly and grit our teeth and go on.

He had just changed his job and was extremely busy.

They hurriedly said a few words on WeChat, but did not talk in detail.

But Han Yi can imagine a young man who is full of spirit again, a young man like a teenager, and sets off again.

Yuan Zhe doesn't want to live a life that others think is good, and he doesn't want to just look good.

Young, hot-blooded, on the road.

He wanted to really live well, and although the future was unpredictable and he didn't know if it would be good, he resolutely set off.

The same goes for some girls!

They said that the elders felt decent and secure to be a primary school teacher, but they did not like to teach at all.

They said that they had to work hard in medical school, five years of undergraduate and three years of graduate school, and they couldn't survive just because their parents said that girls were decent doctors.

They said that they were very sure of what kind of husband they wanted to find, but they had not met it yet, but their parents forced them to go on a blind date and get married.

Most of them, just like that, step by step, live a life they don't want, they are sad and angry, but they are powerless to change.

They would say, "But the people around me think I'm good like this." ”

Every time Han Yi was about to exhaust himself and drive him crazy, he would ask himself again: "Have you ever envied the quiet life of the years for a moment?" ”

Then he asked himself and answered, "Yes, but not more than 3 seconds." ”

No matter whether others think he is doing well or not, he feels that he should stop deceiving himself, others don't understand why he has already made certain achievements, or that the economic conditions are already quite good, and he has to work so hard to move forward?

He may have only been suspicious for three seconds before reluctantly continuing to struggle.

And perhaps, he wants a quiet life in his heart, so he doesn't have to be affected by the people around him at all, and he doesn't just look good.

After breaking up with Bai Xue this time, he has changed a lot in his thinking and mentality, and he also wants to figure out what his life is like in the quiet years.