My name is Qu Fan.

It is the champion of today.

I was born in a scholarly family, a Qingliu nobleman.

It seems that from the moment I was born, the path of my life has been properly arranged, reading, literacy, gaining fame, entering the court as an official, and glorifying the lintel.

I have been smart since I was a child, and I have never let them down.

In the eyes of others, the top student in high school is a ten-year hard study to become famous in one fell swoop, but in my eyes, it is just a task.

I am a good man in the eyes of everyone, the pride of my elders, and the future pillar of the imperial court.

Everything seemed perfect until I met the woman.

The woman from the Qinglou is charming.

She is enchanting, she is charming, she is depraved, she is indulgent, she ignores the world's eyes and lives her wayward self, she is passionate and sexy, she challenges the shackles of the world all the time, and challenges the bottom line of morality in people's hearts.

She is not tolerated by the world, but she lives more freely than anyone else.

Her appearance, like a door to a new century, brought me from that routine world into a new, indulgent, but very seductive world.

It wasn't until I met her that I realized that my life was so boring and tasteful, always regular, and even my emotions were dull and bland, and there had never been ups and downs.

And she is passionate, bold and indulgent, and wanton and chic.

When you are drunk, you can sing when you are drunk, and your life is geometric.

Her wanton freedom and freedom attracted me deeply.

It's like a fire that boils my life like warm water, and I can't calm down anymore.

I fell in love with her, and I couldn't restrain myself, and without her, my days would be so boring.

However, she didn't like me.

To her, I was the same as any other man, a plaything, a spare tire, or just a boring pastime for her to pass the time.

She just laughed at my confession and continued to linger on the flowers.

This made me angry and helpless.

What's the use of me being with her even if I bear the pressure from my family, bear the gossip of the world, and even gamble on a bright career with her.

It's just a one-man show.

I was in pain in the play, while she sat in the audience, watching coldly.

Everyone said that she was a red face and a goblin who could seduce people, and that I was fascinated by her and spoiled by her.

I am the champion of the sky, the pride of the sky, others will not accuse me, but they will put all the malice on her.

In this era, it has never been fair to women.

She endured infamy and became a curse in the eyes of others.

Seeing that others made her unbearable, I wanted to explain.

Eventually, however, I remained silent.

There is no explanation.

If...... If her reputation stinks, if everybody hates her, if she has no place to stay, will she come to me?

Does she ...... Will choose me.

With such selfish intentions, I turned a blind eye to other people's attacks on her foul language, and even secretly contributed to the trouble, so that she was accused by thousands of people.

However, I was wrong, young and vigorous, and often did wrong things, and no one told me that it was wrong to do so, it was not right, and that doing so would only hurt her and push her further and further.

No one told me that I was doing something wrong.

By the time I realized my mistake, it was too late.

Looking at her indifferent eyes, I knew that in this life, I would never be able to walk towards her again.

After all, she is getting farther and farther away from me.

And I could only stand there and watch her joys and sorrows, which had nothing to do with me.

I regret it, if I could do it all over again, I would never hurt her again, and I would definitely protect her behind me, block those gossips, and prevent her from being hurt in the slightest.

I had tried to redeem her, but she was going to marry the current regent, the god-like man.

The man who was not afraid of rumors and tried his best to marry her.

On the day the news of the wedding broke, I was drunk on the street.

This is the first time in my twenty years of life that I have indulged in drunkenness regardless of my manners.

It was only then that I realized that my heart really hurts.

After the indulgence, I returned to my previous life of being an indifferent and unfazed boy.

Return to the boring days without her.

She is a door that I once opened, but unfortunately I closed it with my own hands.

Damn it, as long as she's happy.

I thought that my life was like this, boring and boring, and I went on the track set by my elders until I died.

One day, however, a disfigured little mute came to me, took a pen and paper, told me about the curse on her, and asked me if I would like to save her.

At that moment, I thought of her wanton and dashing figure, and I couldn't believe that she had endured so much suffering.

I feel sorry for her, I feel sorry for the girl who always smiles enchantingly, but licks her wounds alone in the dead of night.

No wonder, every time she laughs in front of people, she always inadvertently reveals a few feelings of loneliness and desolation.

I agreed to share the curse, hoping that for the rest of her life, she would be able to truly smile happily, not force her face to laugh.

This is the second thing in my life that goes against the wishes of my elders.

The first thing is to pursue her under pressure from the family.

The master said that the next life is the first life of the curse transfer, and it is the transition period, and all those who are related to the curse will meet in the next life.

It was Lin Yixun who transferred the curse, we were just the bearers, and we dispersed the effect of the curse, so the impact was not great, and everyone was affected by the curse to a different degree.

Also, we don't have a memory.

I was thinking, it's good to meet her in the next life.

Everything starts all over again, I hope that I can meet her before Qin Jingcheng in the next life, cherish her, protect her, and don't repeat the mistakes of this life.

In addition, there is a question that has never been asked, I want to ask her when we meet in the next life, if I didn't stand by coldly when she was pointed at by a thousand husbands, but stood in front of her to protect her, would she fall in love with me.

What I didn't expect was that time went by the wheel, and I still did the same thing as in my previous life, without memory.

When she needed help the most, I didn't lend a hand, but pushed her into the dark abyss and pushed her out of my world completely.

It turns out that no matter how many times we do it all over again, the ending for me and her will be the same.

I'm going to miss her after all.

In the countless nights after pushing her away, the emptiness hit, and I regretted it immensely, if I had gone back in time, that day on the court, I stood up and shielded her from the wind and rain, would it have ended differently.

However, there are no ifs.

After all, I still missed her.

She has someone she likes, and that man is very good to her and will hold her up.

It won't be like me, let her bear the wind and rain alone.

She lived happily.

And my world has withered from then on.

Life is still the same, and it will not stagnate because of the lack of anyone.

It's just, it's boring.

It's like spring without green, boring and tasteless.

It's deserted.

I closed the door to a new world and returned to my own life, going to and from work every day, at home and at work.

The only difference is that I deliberately pay attention to her life dynamics, and I will attend every banquet she attends, just to see her from afar.

I'll put the phone number she gave me, the post-it paper with her red lips printed on it, close to her chest.

Pretend she's always there.

My parents arranged a blind date for me, but I refused because I didn't want to.

I've seen the most beautiful and spicy roses, but I can't see other thousands of purple and red beauty, and I may never meet a more special and favorite woman in my life.

I thought, let's do it, it's good to keep the beauty of the past and live it alone.

Later, I couldn't resist my family, so I went on a blind date a few times, but they were just going through the motions, and then I went back to my life alone.

Suddenly, one day, I remembered something from my previous life.

Then I remembered that before the curse was transferred in her previous life, the master seemed to have said that if one day in the future, the curse on her body was lifted, then all the people involved would recover their memories.

I was silent, does that mean that the curse is gone?

After the silence, I began to think about what the curse was on me.

It's definitely not death, death is Lin Yihyun's burden, and a few of us are just sharing, very light.

I should never marry for life.

Since her, the warbler Yanyan in the world can no longer enter my eyes, and she never has the idea of marrying a wife.

Now the curse is lifted, but the curse buried deep in my heart can never be removed.

Even if there is no curse, there can be no other woman by my side in this life.

Because, I put a curse on myself.

She has to be.

ps：

Some of these chapters are long, and they are not divided into chapters

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