Bai Xue was busy all morning, and before she had time to go to the cafeteria to buy food, she hurried back to their intern's lounge to summarize her clinical experience notes.

Devoting herself to a certain thing like this, there are things to do, and it will also make her have no time to think about Han Yi's bad feelings, no time to think about the pressure her parents gave her, just for her own life, a relatively independent, free, and progressive life.

Just like when she was in college, every time she was in a bad mood, she was in a good mood after washing clothes. At that time, Fang Wen's roommates hoped that their dirty clothes could be fortunate enough to be her emotional soothing.

When she is angry or angry, she will take a few pairs of dirty pants to the water room to wash, spread the trousers on the platform under the faucet, sprinkle laundry detergent, brush hard with a brush, brush the front and the back, brush one pants clean and brush the other, and when she finishes drying, you can see her cloudy and sunny face.

Fang Wen once asked her why washing clothes can bring out a sense of healing.

She said the sense of order in the washing process gave her peace of mind.

Listening to the sound of uniform frequency, doing steady and rhythmic movements, the negative emotions that she should vent, the chaotic thoughts that should be clarified, and the ulcer mood that should be calmed, accompanied by the coherent and orderly action of washing her clothes, completed the chaos that satisfied her.

Now, what may give her peace of mind is the medical profession she is passionate about. When she is working, she can try not to let herself be in a sad emotion.

Everyone's way of regulating their emotions is different, when Li Jia is extremely sad, she may see a strange sports car, and her mood will instantly improve, when Keiko is unhappy, she may come to Qiu Lang to coax a few words, and when she is in a low mood, she can sing for a while, and she has a sense of order in her heart to make herself feel at ease.

A friend said that fitness is addictive, one stretch is in place, the body recovers, and then the next stretch, after many repetitions, the body secretes pleasant endorphins;

A classmate said that reading makes people calm, turn a page, read it from top to bottom, and then turn the next page, half a book is turned, and the previous bad things are marked with a mosaic;

A colleague said that sketching is very decompressing, especially when working with the projection part or the boundary between light and dark, the arm slides back and forth, and after the painting is finished, the shadow is transferred from the mind to the paper.

Bai Xue's calmness is a need for a person's alone space, and her way of solving her troubles is similar to Han Yi's, which is to use emotional transfer to numb herself with busyness.

She had read a book called "Go to the Kitchen in a Time of Sorrow" in Turkey, in which Lilia, a former Filipino immigrant living in New York, encountered a series of life collapses - a cold war and confrontation with her paralyzed husband, and misunderstandings and rejection with her two adopted children.

When she returns to the Philippines with her inheritance after being widowed and her last spiritual pillar is shattered, she goes to the kitchen to experiment with a fragile dessert called "soufflé" over and over again in search of solace.

She spends a lot of time in the kitchen, preparing the ingredients,

Whipping eggs, opening the oven door expectantly, staring at the cake intently, counting the seconds it will hold up before it collapses, collapses and starts over.

For her, remaking soufflés is a powerful vehicle for rebuilding one life after it has collapsed.

From this, she saw that the so-called addiction, calming, decompression, and healing, and the sense of order all contributed to it, and it was a good remedy for bad moods.

Judging from her own experience, the sense of order has repeatedly salvaged herself from the imminent fall.

When she accidentally knew and understood that Han Yi had hidden Hao Yali from her, in the face of a future that lacked visibility, she realized that her fulcrum was slowly dissipating.

This is really difficult for her, who often cowardly chooses to escape.

The regain of cohesion started from night running, after moving out of the house that Han Yi gave her, she ran in the community for half an hour every night before going to bed, she wore headphones and listened to dynamic music, and when one leg landed, she took another leg to take a step, step by step on the rhythm, breathe and breathe, and run the preset quota lap by lap.

When she is under a lot of pressure at the hospital or her parents are forcing her to do something she doesn't want to do, making herself a green pepper shredded potatoes can relieve her worries, in addition to her own love of potatoes, the most important thing is that she enjoys the process of cutting shredded potatoes.

In order to avoid cutting herself, she had to concentrate on each hand getting up and down, slicing the whole potato into thin slices one by one, and then stacking them and cutting them into thin strips. Watching the whole potato turn from sliced to shredded, a sense of accomplishment rose in my heart.

Whether it's running at night or cutting shreds, it's all a little thing with a very low degree of difficulty. But in the process of doing these little things, the strength in her body gradually accumulated, and the thoughts in her mind became clearer and clearer.

Anxiety was precipitated, pain was relieved, goals were focused, and when this little thing was done, she had accumulated enough energy to impact the real challenge.

After knowing the reason why Zhong Yinger left Han Yi, she left for three years with guilt, and came back to find that Han Yi was not with Zhong Yinger, her relationship with Han Yi was still there, but Hao Yali appeared again.

After years of playing tricks with herself, she gradually summed up the mental method, and she felt that the sense of order was effective for her in a confused and depressed situation because:

Order itself makes it easier to predict the next step, and in this hour's space, as long as I complete each monotonous little step in an orderly manner, I can accomplish the thing itself, and the principles of the other problems of life also obey this logic;

The sense of order has an empathetic effect on the problems of life, detached from the problems themselves, focusing on the present without distractions, arousing the sense of rhythm in the body, collaging the scattered confidence little by little, looking at everything with the mood of an outsider, it is easier to encounter inspiration and solve difficulties.

A person with a sense of order is rarely flustered and confused.

The disintegration of a person's life is initially revealed from the details of life, so people in the emotional depression should take a small thing as the starting point to build a sense of order in life with a small view.

The more out of control and the more the heart collapses, the more people need to draw an upward spirit from the sense of order in small things. Gather momentum, and then soar.

At least I was able to sleep peacefully for the past few days, and I was not immersed in the whirlpool of feelings. But there are never just one or two troubles in life, such as breaking up with Liu Xiyao in the morning.

Just as she was concentrating on the keyboard and taking a note of something, Liu Xiyao knocked on the door and walked in with a smile.

"You haven't eaten yet, have you? I brought you a bento, and I made it myself. She sneakily slipped over to Bai Xue and sat down, looking left and right, seeing that there were still a few people in the lounge who were also buried in their work, for fear of disturbing them, so her voice was very quiet.

I don't know if Bai Xue is usually more arrogant, or the interns here are more indifferent, they don't talk to each other much. Bai Xue took the lunch box, pulled Liu Xiyao to a small forest behind their pediatric inpatient building, and chose a cooler pavilion to sit down.

"How do you know I know what buildings I'm on?" Bai Xue unceremoniously opened the lunch box brought by Liu Xiyao, a few simple vegetarian dishes, but colorful, and looked very appetizing, "Why didn't I see that you can cook, it looks pretty good!" In the future, we'll take turns cooking, but don't always ask me to cook it for you! ”

Bai Xue was very moved and smiled sweetly, and had completely forgotten that after preaching to Liu Xiyao in the morning, Liu Xiyao's mentality exploded, and she was emotional and had a big quarrel with her.

Liu Xiyao nodded with a smile, and then said with a little guilt: "I'm sorry! I shouldn't have lost my temper with you in the morning! I know you care about me, just ······"

Because of her family, she has been very sensible since she was a child, and she has always been very independent and strong. Bai Xue is the second person who cares about and loves her so much besides her family, the first is Hao Yali, she also knows what happened between them, so she will definitely not mention the word Hao Yali in front of Bai Xue.

It's just that she sometimes thinks that a girl with Bai Xue's conditions is talented, good-looking, has a decent job, and is surrounded by people who are either rich or noble, and caring about her is like a kind of sympathy, and pointing fingers at her life and what she does will make her disgusted, so she didn't control her emotions for a while and yelled at Bai Xue.

"I should be the one who says I'm sorry! I didn't speak the right way, and I didn't understand that you had your struggles. But I have to say that I never looked down on you or your job, I was just worried about your safety······"

may be because of a similar life background, or because they are strong and independent girls with each other, so they will have a feeling of sympathy. Since Liu Xiyao secretly helped her in the bar for the first time, Bai Xue decided that she was a kind girl, and later really treated her as a sister.

The little girl Liu Xiyao was so happy that she hugged Bai Xue, after all, she was only twenty years old, and Bai Xue was really a big sister in front of her.

"Thank you!" Liu

Xi Yao was very happy, "I promise you, I will definitely go home on time every night in the future, and I will never worry you about not returning home at night!" ”

"That's what you said!" Bai Xue was tired all morning, and looked at the delicious bento that Liu Xiyao prepared for her and couldn't help but gulp it down, "Well, it's good!" I may be a little busier in the future, and if I don't have time to cook, can you help me share the burden? ”

Bai Xue ate deliciously, affirmed Liu Xiyao's cooking skills, and smiled and asked Liu Xiyao to help cook, she is not used to eating takeout, as long as she has time, she cooks by herself, which is not only a way to relieve stress, but also to enjoy life.

"No problem!" Liu Xiyao also readily agreed.

(End of chapter)