It's a diary that records the truth, yes, but does the truth matter?

I looked at my father in the coffin, trying to get clues from the quiet, speechless corpse. I was always standing next to my father when I was giving him a face. The father did not seem to have any bruises on his body after the fight, and his expression showed no signs of pain, so peaceful that it seemed to have died of natural causes. But I don't believe that my father, who is not yet 50 years old, would ride away without warning.

There were people staring at me all the time, so I didn't dare to ask my mother directly. But my intuition is strong, and this matter has nothing to do with my mother. Maybe she found out about her father's cheating, and then accumulated the old past between them......

Big Brother finally appeared. While we were tidying up the house and setting up the mourning hall. He drooled with his chin full and staggered out of the room with a handful of wild chrysanthemums in his hand that he had picked from nowhere.

The mother, apparently frightened by the sudden appearance of the eldest brother, immediately stood up and rushed to him, her face pale, and after closing the door of the secret room, she repeatedly checked whether it could be opened. Then he took the eldest brother to the second floor and locked him in the room.

Everyone was attracted by this scene, and the insider of Youming said, "This is that stupid son of their family, you see that he was like that just now, how dare he be released to meet people!" ”

"If he makes a fool at this time, it is estimated that Lao Zheng will jump up and scold!"

Hearing someone say that, everyone was snickering. I glared at them fiercely, then at Annan, but thankfully she didn't hear.

The mother stayed in the eldest brother's room for a while before coming down. She returned to her former composure, said sorry to everyone, and knelt beside Annan again.

I thought it was all over. Annan asked calmly, "Mom, Dad's funeral, is it really good if the eldest brother doesn't come?" ”

The mother showed a hint of anger, "Don't you know what the eldest brother is like? He didn't understand when he came, and he was afraid that he would make a mistake. ”

Annan was silent.

Mistakes? What could he be mistaken? Regarding my father's death, my mother must have hidden something from us. I'd like to find a time to go inside that room and have a look, but not during the funeral.

Three days later, my father was buried in the ground. The crowd finally dispersed, and we were the only ones left in the house.

They all went into their rooms to rest, and I thought it was time to go inside and find out. Taking out the key I had given earlier, I was going to open the door.

There was a movement at my mother's door, and I immediately hid under the stairwell. She changed into the clothes she would wear on a daily basis, and took off the white miserable mourning clothes as if nothing had happened. She entered the room and quietly closed the door. I immediately followed and opened the door.

When my mother saw me, she suddenly greeted me, and she quickly closed the door and closed the security gate.

"Xun'an, what are you ...... Coming in again? "The mother was angry.

"Mom, tell me honestly, what happened to Dad's death?"

"A dead man, what do you ask him for?" My mother let go of my arm and turned her head away. Didn't seem to want to answer my question.

"I just want to know the truth."

"Well, he's my father." My pupils constricted, and I looked down to recall my father's time.

"Then I...... And still your mother. My mother looked at me steadfastly.

"Since I don't want to tell you, don't ask, it's all over."

I walked over to the man's spirit card and stared at the picture on it.

"I know, it must have something to do with him, huh?"

My mother came over and walked over me, "Xun'an, I know I'm sorry for you. But believe me more than your father. ”

"You know what? He ......"

"There's someone out there, I know."

My mother seemed incredulous and looked at me with horrified eyes. "You know? Do you know why you didn't tell me sooner? Help your father hide it from me? I was ridiculed by those people in the village, and even other men came to me and told me to stop putting up with them...... Do you know any of these? Mom doesn't dare to tell you, she just wants you to stay as far away from these ugly people as possible. But you helped my father to deceive me! ”

The more the mother spoke, the more excited she became, and she roared.

"I'm not lying to you, I just don't want to meddle in the matter between you."

The mother smiled indifferently, "Really? Then you don't care how he died. He just did too many bad things and was punished. ”

"Bad things? Is there any good guy or bad guy between you? ”

"It doesn't matter if I'm a good person or not......"

"I'm your mom!"

After confronting each other for a while, my mother took the initiative to ease the atmosphere, and she approached me again, "Xun'an, you have to believe that your mother will not do anything to hurt you." ”

"That's the only thing I can tell you."

"You're tired these days, go back to the house and rest." She dragged me out.

When I woke up, it was already the next day. Annan did not want to stay at home for long, so he went back to school under the pretext of going to work. I didn't feel comfortable with her going alone, so I decided to put the matter aside for the time being.

On the day of departure, Annan and his mother talked for a long time in the room. I played games with my eldest brother in the living room.

Since I was conscious, my eldest brother has been putting together this building block. It's been many years, and I haven't spelled it out. Annan and I tried to help, but he was always reluctant and even lost his temper and cried, so we never touched it again.

I was staring at the cartoon on the TV, still thinking about the truth about my father's death. It's good to be a child, innocent and harmless, you can be good friends with anyone, and animals can look at adults.

I glanced at my eldest brother, and he seemed to have spelled out the first layer.

This is a model of a house, much like the layout of our house.

He was very attentive, and it still seemed very abrupt to lie on the ground with such a big person. His saliva never seemed to burst, but I never saw him drink much water. Every time, his mother took the bottle and coaxed him to feed him. The drooling saliva made the floor wet, and there was a little bit of it on the blocks. He wiped and covered his clothes, and his saliva was everywhere. I still looked at the TV, and the paper animals on the TV were cleaner than him.

The clock pointed to eleven o'clock, and it had been three hours since the two of them had been in.

"I'll definitely be back." This evil wolf went to the sky again.

I picked up the remote control and prepared to change it.

The TV flashed. As soon as I pressed the + sign, my eldest brother had a seizure, "Ah...... I want to watch cartoons! ”。

I ignored him and continued to move forward. He overturned the blocks that had made it to the second level, grabbed a handful and threw them at me. Seeing that I still ignored him, he simply stood up and pounced. All the harax rubbed on me. It was the first time his face had been so close to me.

He has always had an inch hairstyle, and his mother can shave it out at will. The texture of gray velvet is like a small hedgehog ball. This exposed the obvious forehead lines on his forehead, and the skin and flesh were crumpled into the king character on the tiger's head. His eyebrows are very thick, and the standard sword eyebrows show the heroism of a man. The eyes are very similar to my mother's, big and divine, but the red bloodshot inside looks a lot of vicissitudes, which makes people wonder. The nose is also very handsome, with a clear lip peak, I really can't see that his intelligence is different from ordinary people. And his strength was so great that I was crushed under him and couldn't move at all.

I couldn't help but hand over the remote control to him. He swept past me, glared at me sharply, then turned his head away, and pressed the number 6 button on the remote control.

I hurriedly moved to the right, and I breathed a sigh of relief as I felt the weight on my body gradually dissipate.

In the next second, the eldest brother lay on the ground like a nobody and continued to make blocks. What a fool. His father had been gone for so many days, and he didn't notice anything strange.

I suddenly thought of something, and asked tentatively, "Big brother, do you know where Dad went?" ”

He still didn't stop what he was doing, just chirping, "Dad is playing peek-a-boo with us, and he got into the picture." He paused, pointing to his father's portrait hanging on the doorway. Look, that's it. He smirked again.

"No, that's not Daddy."

"Daddy...... Dead, he will never come back. I said seriously.

The eldest brother ignored my words, and still smirked while building blocks. At this moment, his hands were much sharper, as if he had memorized the previous method, and quickly spelled out the first layer.

After half an hour, Annan finally came out.

She was so relaxed that I wondered what my mother was telling her.

Soon the mother also came out. "I'll cook for you right away. After lunch, you go to school again. He said as he walked to the kitchen.

Annan sat next to me. She didn't look at me, just kept staring at her eldest brother, her eyes soft and warm.

As soon as I wanted to talk to her, she squatted next to her eldest brother, "Big brother, can I fight with you?" ”

I thought that the eldest brother would refuse as usual, but this time he readily agreed. "Okay, okay, I want Nannan to play with me."

If I hadn't seen the black-and-white picture of my father hanging there, I would have thought that everything had changed as usual. The mother in the kitchen, Annan and his eldest brother playing games, the cartoons on the TV, the furnishings in the house, and the business in the yard.

There was talk and laughter at the dinner table, the same five dishes and one soup. The nagging when parting, and the complaining appearance of the eldest brother when he bites the lollipop. The same wheat field scene, and the isolated island that has always been in place and unwilling to move.

Later, I felt that the truth was not that important.