At this moment, where are you and what are you doing, how are you?

Each of us is the same, we all have to spend some lonely days alone.

When you eat alone, you go to the same restaurant and order the same set meal every time you eat; You go shopping alone, and you look at the clothes in the window that you haven't changed for a long time; You are alone in an empty room, pointing out an old movie, and you don't know when it gets dark; You work silently alone, working overtime until late at night in an empty office building, and when you are hungry, you eat a piece of bread left over from breakfast, and then step on the street lamp to go home alone.

Loneliness seems to be a necessary process for each of us, and only by surviving those days can we live better.

Leng Qian felt that life was getting better and better, and when she just graduated and returned to Seoul, South Korea, she was crammed into a room of less than 20 square meters, and four people shared a bathroom. I go out early and return late every day, and I get a meager salary. Later, she moved to a larger room and got a better-paying job. Later, she lived in a community house, became a small leader in the company, and her salary more than tripled compared to before.

Now the position is getting higher and higher, but it seems that life is often just about moving forward, I don't remember looking back, she is getting better and better, but her troubles are still not reduced, she will still be sad and lonely.

It's just that she can't understand why after so many years, Qiu Lang still feels that she hasn't changed at all, or is she the woman who is ruthless and unscrupulous and dumps her?

Leng Qian couldn't help but think of some of the past.

When she first joined the company, she was a small clerk, at that time she did all the errand work, for a while she was a little idle, nothing to do, friends accompanied her, at noon the two of them often sat on the chair on the side of the road, eating roasted sweet potatoes with mineral water.

For a while, her boyfriend who had been talking for a few months broke up, went to work during the day, worked late by herself, and locked herself in her room when she came home at night, crying through the photos she had with her boyfriend before. She sat on the floor next to the bed as if she had been evacuated, and she comforted herself and said that it would all pass, and there would be people who loved her more, and it would get better and better.

Now, as she herself said, she is getting better and better, but she is still single.

She is a very hard worker and has been through some difficult times.

How many people are like her? Maybe you are walking on a difficult road, you don't have a house, you don't have a car, you have to squeeze the subway to catch the bus to work, and you often feel wronged when you work to see your face. The person you've been in love with for a long time suddenly tells you that he's getting married; The lover who has been with you for a long time suddenly tells you that he is in love with someone else; Or the relatives who have loved you since childhood have passed away, and you can't rush home to see him for the last time because of work; Or maybe you look at a pair of shoes at the mall, but you look through your wallet and it's empty······

But it will pass, and it will get better and better.

So many years of experience has taught her that no matter what you are going through, no matter what you are about to face, you have to believe that as long as you keep working hard to move forward, that

Everything will get better and better, everything will pass, everything will be as you wish, and you will always be stronger than you imagined! There will be people who love you more, there will be better jobs, and there will be happier lives. As long as you redouble your efforts, what you want can be achieved, and what you lose can be relieved.

Leng Qian was just redoubling her efforts and living the life she wanted, but it seemed that everything she did seemed to Qiu Lang to have other intentions.

Although his indifference hurt Leng Qian very much, thinking about the ruthlessness he once had, it was nothing! It's just karma.

It's just that I was young and ignorant at the time, if only I could fall in love later! There is such a person who loves her, someone who cares about her all the time.

Qiu Lang felt that Leng Qian had never loved him, but just enjoyed the feeling of being loved by him, but he never asked Leng Qian, "Have you ever loved me?" Such a question, because he was afraid of hearing a negative answer at the time, so he just asked Yi Yang when he was drunk, and Yi Yang didn't give him an answer.

We will encounter a lot of regrets in our lives, not that we have not worked hard, but the timing is not coincidental.

Just like some love, the final separation is not because of betrayal, nor because of who didn't love first, but because the relationship caught up with a bad time.

It would be nice if you showed up later, maybe I could spend the rest of my life with you.

You appeared when I was ignorant, when I was young, I had a heart to go to the soup, but I didn't know how to manage love, and then I was tempered by the years to mature, and I also knew how to love, but you have long disappeared in the sea of people.

When you appeared when I was not settled, I lingered in the world of flowers, and I didn't know that the best people were around, and then when I saw through the scenery, there was no longer you by my side, and I watched the long stream.

You appeared when I had nothing, at that time, I didn't even have a good life for myself, and I didn't dare to promise, because I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to give you a future, and then I had the ability to support a stable home, but I could never find the person who made me want to go home.

Leng Qian was sent to China to seize the market after becoming the manager of the marketing department of the South Korean PNT company, and she spent a time in Beijing in a tavern in Houhai and encountered such a story.

The protagonist of the story is Ah Kuan, the owner of this tavern, who has a cat named Xu Li in his shop. After getting acquainted with the boss, she said, "Your cat seems to have a woman's name."

Ah Kuan smiled, it turned out that Xu Li was Ah Kuan's girlfriend in college. They are high school classmates and have liked each other for a long time, but neither of them has confessed, perhaps because they are too introverted, or maybe they are too young to dare to hide the password in their hearts.

Ah Kuan came to Beijing to go to university, and Xu Li went to Xiamen, thinking that the intersection of the two would become weaker and weaker with distance and time. It wasn't until Ah Kuan got drunk with his roommate that he couldn't help but call Xu Li to confess, and the two of them were honest.

Ah Kuan said, "If only I had been brave and earlier!" ”

Maybe they were in the same city at the time.

However, young and vigorous love does not care about the distance from Beijing to Xiamen. Confession success

After that, Ah Kuan took the train to see her the next day, and within 24 hours of meeting, he went back to catch the school exam in a hard seat.

The road was bumpy, but as long as I saw each other, I didn't feel tired at all, and the clattering train also made me feel happy.

Love when you are a student, you can have a meal for a few dozen dollars, and you can be happy for a long time with a phone call.

Ah Kuan said that at that time, he was very poor and had very little living expenses, and every time in order to save money for the meeting, he had to eat only steamed buns from the canteen for dinner for many days, but thinking of her smile, he didn't feel bitter at all.

Now he can easily book a plane ticket, and he can go to a long distance at any time, but there is no one who travels thousands of miles to see him.

They originally planned to come to Beijing to work after graduation, but the encounter was still unrelenting between the two. Xu Li's father was seriously ill at that time, and she had to return to her hometown because of family changes.

Ah Kuan is partnering with his classmates to start a business, and he must stay in Beijing to work hard. When she was seeing her off at the station, she cried and her eyes were red, Ah Kuan was very distressed, hugged her shoulders and said firmly: "I'm sorry, I can't accompany you back, when I have money, I will take you and your family over, don't worry, it will be soon."

Living in a simple rental house, running around every day to look at people's faces, and living an extremely frugal life. There is only one belief in supporting Ah Kuan, he wants to make a lot of money, bear the high medical expenses for Xu Li's family, and work hard for the future of the two people.

But the reality is always difficult to follow people's wishes, and Ah Kuan failed to start a business and became penniless. And Xu Li's family did not agree with this relationship from the beginning, and the resistance of reality was thousands of times greater than the distance. Faced with her father's illness and her mother's tears, she chose to break up with Ah Kuan and marry a blind date with financial strength.

Ah Kuan, who has nothing in Beijing, can no longer call Xu Li. He borrowed money from someone else to buy a train ticket home, but Xu Li didn't want to see him. She asked someone to tell Ah Kuan that she was getting married and asked him not to come to her again.

Ah Kuan returned to Beijing, and he cried heartbreakingly in the toilet to the sound of the rumbling of the train.

It was the second half of '07, and Ah Kuan unexpectedly made a pot of gold in the stock market with borrowed money. Luckily, he knew that speculation could only be temporary, and he had already withdrawn before the '08 crash. Ah Kuan used the money to start a business, and later the business became bigger and bigger.

The word "money" was never a source of concern for him again. But when he has the ability to give his lover a stable and beautiful future, the person he loves the most has already married a wife, and there is no intersection in this life.

When he was thirty years old, he opened a tavern called Late.

Not for anything else, just because she said, "I don't have any big wishes, I just want to be a tavern proprietress at the age of thirty and have a cat." ”

Leng Qian asked Ah Kuan: "Do you still love it after so many years?" ”

He said: "I don't love anymore, I just do this to make up for the biggest regret in my life, if only I fell in love with her a little later." It would be nice if we loved each other when there were no ups and downs. appear

The world is stable, everything is stable, and the future is warm and bright. But ah, our love caught up with the worst time. I seem so small and powerless in the face of reality, how can I protect you. I wanted to shield you from the wind and rain with everything I had, but the wind and rain were too great, and my efforts were ultimately powerless. We always fall in love with the person we love the most in this life when we are most incapable, and we lose and miss under the banter of life. ”

He said: "When I can turn the dreams of two people into reality, it is only me who has come to this seemingly good life, but she will never come back to me." We're all good, it's just a coincidence of timing! If the person around her is destined not to be me in the end, I only wish her a peaceful life and not be subject to wind and rain. I wish her happiness than when she was with me! ”

At that time, Leng Qian was deeply moved, and that touch made her feel like her heart was being cramped.

She loved Qiu Lang, but the love at that time was immature, at that time she was blinded by the unexpected things of love, and at that time she failed a person who loved her. Until now, she didn't have the kind of love she had ever received from anyone else.

Do you still love it now? Maybe as Ah Kuan said, I don't love it anymore······

Let's meet later! At that time, you were just mature, and I was just gentle.

In her first year in Beijing, the first Chinese New Year's Eve was spent by herself, and she remembers very well that on Chinese New Year's Eve, her mobile phone was bombarded with various group blessing messages, but she ignored the project she was busy with until she was lying in bed late at night, and she picked up the mobile phone that had been silenced for hours.

When looking through the news one by one, a message that stood out from the crowd was particularly conspicuous among those blessings that were almost the same: "I broke up, come to my house to talk to me." ”

It was from the first friend she met in Beijing.

The night of the first day of the new year was not as cold as expected, the night market was still lit with a few lights, and the glass of the portal was covered with steam. After half an hour of walking, she walked to her friend's doorstep.

When she opened the door and saw her friend, there was no hysteria in her sad expression, but she looked very unspirited, as if someone had taken her spirit away.

A friend told her that in fact, the breakup was expected, and the more frequent quarrels made both of them exhaust the last bit of love, but they didn't expect that they would choose to break up on this day of family reunion.

Friend's toughness and love to drill the tip of the horns is the fuse of this incident, because she was postponed to meet her parents for a few days, she has been sulking and not talking to her boyfriend, and yesterday was the boy's birthday, when she got home, her friend was still angry and pulled her face, and her boyfriend simply packed his luggage and went out.

What was supposed to be a hug and a little more patience could be solved, but in the end it was reduced to the point that only a breakup could put an end to the war.

At the beginning of love, I will always be surrounded by sugar coating, thinking that I can be happy and happy for a lifetime with love, but time is so cruel, I always like to present those unadorned things as they are, and then love is deprived of the last coat in the unsatisfactory run-in day by day.

At that time, Leng Qian thought that many people would use New Year's greetings to send blessings to the person they had missed for a long time, not expecting to receive a reply, but hoping that they could see the feelings that still exist in the first time of the New Year. But apart from her mother, she couldn't find anyone to mess with.

She is very envious of those who are the same person from wearing school uniforms to walking into the auditorium, from young and naïve to mature and stable, they are all the same person by their side.

They have witnessed the changes in each other, and they can accept and get each other to change some of their shortcomings, and after five, seven, or even ten years, they are still willing to hold his hand for the rest of their lives.

There are a lot of early loves in real life, but only a few can really withstand external forces, and most of them get off halfway because of a different place or some other reason.

Her last relationship, which lasted a year, was a South Korean who had developed in China, and when she thought it was about to blossom, he was scattered all over the place, and as the cold winter north wind disappeared, he split his legs.

At that time, she just smiled, thinking that maybe this was retribution, right?

Whenever she was alone, she muttered to herself: "It's good to meet later, you are just mature and I am just gentle." ”

But how can love follow her thoughts? More often than not, it threw itself into her arms, and when she had opened her heart to meet it, it quietly left.

The word "just right" is so cherished, maybe you have to do your best to meet the person who is just right.

Haruki Murakami has written such a paragraph: Don't be too entangled in the present, don't worry too much about the future, there is no useless experience in life, when you have experienced something, the scenery in front of you is not the same as before, where someone will like to be lonely, but they don't like to be disappointed, everyone has their own sad things, maturity is just good at hiding, vicissitudes are just no tears and hurts.

There must always be some misses in exchange for the most beautiful encounter. Leng Qian also believed in such words, but she missed it, but she hadn't exchanged it for the so-called best encounter.

Qiu Lang especially likes to watch "Journey to the West", and she has watched it with him.

Regarding Zhu Yin's interview video some time ago, talking about the relationship with Stephen Chow 20 years ago, she was more of a calm. And now she only has her husband Huang Guanzhong in her eyes.

She once said: "If he really loves you, you can't leave, you can't run." ”

Looking at Zhu Yin now, she has faded away from the aura of the Zixia Fairy, and she has a husband and a lovely child who often show affection in her life. The past of that year has passed, and she is no longer the person who expects to marry her in golden armor and stepping on seven-colored clouds, because there is just someone around her who cherishes her and loves her.

"Someday you will be grateful to the one who abandoned you, to the one you loved so much and ignored you. Because of your miss with him, you can get a real encounter with the right person. ”

This sentence seemed to be a curse for her, and it was clear that Chu Lang was meeting the right person now!

It seems to be the dish which I used to hate eating

It's not so unpalatable, and the failed love affair has now become a blurted out story, once you thought you had met the person you loved the most, but you were still sad. But for better or worse, believe that tomorrow will always come.

Those who miss must always be allowed to get the right encounter.

I believe that the good is always at the bottom of the box, maybe love will be late, but hopefully it will never go when it comes.

I hope to find the leftover change in my seasonal clothes, to be able to stop an empty car on a rainy day, to try new food that tastes better than expected, and to always feel as relaxed as a Friday afternoon, with someone by my side on the long way······ And at that time he was just maturing, and I was just gentle.

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